The morning after the good gangbang I was laying in bed, horny, looking at BarebackRT. Given that I had cum about 12 hours before I wasn’t completely certain I could cum if I hooked up, but I figured ‘what the heck’… This guy hit me up. He looked like a decent anonymous pump-n-dump and he said he was up for coming over to my hotel. Right before he was supposed to leave he asked if he could bring a buddy (who turned out to be his boyfriend). He said I could fuck both of them. I wasn’t sure I was I was up for a 3way, but the guy looked hot enough, so I said yes.

When they got there the boyfriend was totally my type – quite short, lean build, great ass, slightly hairy, bald with a goatee – very masculine despite being short. I like little guys, but I haven’t really ever thought of bald white guys with goatees as “my type” – but this guy totally was my type. I was actually a bit surprised by how smitten I was by him. And the feelings seemed mutual – we were both all smiles.

And that’s sorta the awkward part about 3ways – when there’s one guy who’s totally your type and another who pales in comparison. It’s not like the one who hit me up was unattractive – on his own he would have been a perfectly respectable trick. It was just given the choice I’d much rather have sex with his boyfriend.

The little guy was standing next to me and we started playing first. He sucked my dick while me and the taller guy felt each other up, etc. I fucked the little guy for a bit, while he gave his boyfriend a blowjob. Then I felt like I had to pay some attention to the taller guy… I fucked him on his back, it went well (and that’s the point – 1-on-1 with him things would have been fine), then I went back to fucking the little guy until he couldn’t seem to take it any more.

Hookups for me are a bit routine in part because I need certain things to get me off. One of those is that I need to concentrate. When the taller guy was shoving his dick in my face wanting a blowjob that was a bit too much. I can’t fuck and suck dick at the same time. I need to concentrate on fucking. And with two guys there I never could concentrate properly on the job at hand.

Plus, with cumming 12 hours before cumming wasn’t going to be easy. So when the little guy couldn’t take the fuck anymore that sorta ended things for me. We sat on the bed and jacked our dicks a bit, but then the taller guy said it was time to go and they left.

It’s too bad. The timing was bad with me cumming 12 hours before. And it could have been a respectable 1-on-1 hookup with either of them, but the stars didn’t align that morning, and so none of us came…

Load 2012-7

So after the gangbang with too many bottoms and too few tops, the 2nd gangbang in Phoenix went much better. The bottom was a guy who contacted me off Breeding Zone (my forum site). He’s Asubmissivebottom on Breeding Zone, and on BBRT. He’s neg – last tested in November, but has been taking poz loads for a while now (perhaps he’s immune or resistant). Either way, he wanted to get gangbanged and didn’t care about whether the tops were poz or neg (which, if you’re a bareback bottom is how you should approach things – it’s not like you can stay neg taking anonymous loads from complete strangers).

There was supposed to be another bottom, but he canceled and his replacement turned out to be someone behind a hacked profile who had no intention of showing up. About 30 guys said they’d attend which meant I expected 10 to show up. Including me, there were 9 tops – so my 1/3rd ratio turned out to be roughly accurate…

When Asubmissivebottom showed up I could tell he was going to be a good gangbang bottom. There’s a look in gangbang bottoms eyes – a hunger and an acceptance of their role. I’ve also found the best gangbang bottoms are often on the attractive side of average – and that was true of Asubmissivebottom.

I hadn’t cum in days and just needed to blow my load. Since I was going to be in host mode as soon as guys showed up and we had about a half hour to ourselves, I put the bottom to work pretty quickly. He sucked my dick for a little bit and then I got him on the bed face down and fucked him. It didn’t take very long to cum. A nice big thick load was a good way for him to start the evening.

About 10 minutes after the official start time the tops started showing up. Asubmissivebottom put on a leather sleeping mask sort of blindfold and never did see any of the tops (other than me). For the next 80 minutes he was fucked pretty much constantly. He took 6 loads up his ass. Unfortunately two of the tops came in his mouth. One top, an “older gentleman” didn’t manage to cum.

One of the bottoms at the other gangbang had requested music so I put on what I consider young, “high hair”, dance music – it seemed to fit that gangbang ’cause the bottoms were 20-something. But this gangbang had a more serious, intense vibe to it (the way I like it). It was just quiet with guys focusing on fucking….

There were a few tops who stood out… One was this skinny little teen (?) who was really shy and timid, but determined to give group sex a shot. He said it was his first time doing anything like that. He was so nervous it was sort of funny and cute. Given his raging teen hormones he had no problem getting hard and giving the bottom a load (in his ass). I wouldn’t call the kid a great top, but he’s working on it and experimenting…

Another top asked if the bottom what poz after he dumped his load. I said the guy was neg but has been taking poz loads for a while now. He just shook his head and said, “well, he’s poz now…” and left. I should have asked him whether he had a high viral load. He said it with so much certainty… When I told the bottom about the comment a few days later, he said “yeah, that’s not the first top who was convinced he pozzed me.” The bottom did say he got tested a couple days later and he was neg. But I seriously doubt the test would show infection that quickly – so I guess we’ll have to wait a few weeks to see if there’s more to report (so to speak).

The “older gentleman” who didn’t cum had apparently fucked the bottom before at some sex party. That time he did cum. Older guys are sometimes problematic in situations like this. I’ve had the exact same problem at another gangbang where an older top slowly fucks the bottom for ages and still doesn’t cum. It’s not a lot of fun for the bottom, and he doesn’t get a load. I think I’ll be more selective in the future. Upper-50s will be the limit with exceptions for certain guys…

At one point towards the end I fucked the bottom’s cummy hole, but since I had cum earlier I wasn’t totally hard. I did felch him and it tasted incredible… After guys left I took some photos, but his hole was so tight you couldn’t tell he’d just been gang banged. His ass had locked all the cum (that wasn’t felched) deep inside him…

So all in all, a good gangbang. But I get the sense that in Phoenix you can’t get enough tops to show up at a gangbang to support multiple bottoms. And if your one bottom flakes you’re shit out of luck… So Phoenix isn’t the best place to organize gangbangs…

UPDATE:

Check out the story of the gangbang from the bottom’s perspective

There were three fucks since my last post that I didn’t have time to write up (Loads 2012-4, 5 & 6). Very briefly one guy seemed to want more from me – longer hookup, more of a connection. One was one of my regular fucks – always goes well with him. And one was a new fuck who was pretty good.

BTW, I just looked at the blog – seems like things are “disappointing” a lot these days… That’s not really the case – it’s just I didn’t have time to write up the good stuff…

So yesterday I arrived in Phoenix for a porn conference. I figured I’d host a few gangbangs, but I’m finding it a bit difficult to organize them. The Phoenix metro area is made up of a bunch of little towns. So if I list things in Tempe (where I am) the guys in Phoenix don’t see the listing despite the fact that I’m like 5 or 10 miles from Phoenix (at most). And despite multiple attempts I just couldn’t get anything to post in Craigslist M4M section…

Yesterday’s gangbang was supposed to have these two hot young poz bottoms. Then (if pictures are to be believed) the one with the absolutely stunning ass backed out. I always prefer having two bottoms in case one is late, or dirty, etc. (It’s not like I’m going to fill in for the bottom if things don’t work out). So this other guy hit me up. He was also young and his profile said he was neg… In his pics he was cute, and his pics weren’t inaccurate, they just didn’t tell the whole story – when he showed he was heavier than I expected. But I’m getting ahead of myself.

So the first bottom shows up. I’m guessing he’s Asian – something like Cambodian – but I’m not exactly sure. He was cute, not a flawless body, but nice… Then the second bottom showed up – he was Latino – given that this is Arizona and his looks, I’d guess he was of Mexican heritage.

The Latino bottom was cute, but the issue was that he was heavy and competing against against the Asian bottom who was thinner and more confident/energetic…

We had some time before the other tops got there so the two bottoms started sucking my dick. Then I fucked the Asian guy, then the Latino guy fucked the Asian guy. As the start time got closer I had to put on some clothes so I could answer the door. The two of them alternated between sucking each other’s dicks and just chilling.

Right at 5:30 (the start time) two tops showed up at the same time. Then a 3rd top showed up maybe 15 minutes later. Top 1 knew the Asian bottom and the two of them started the action. Top 1 had a pretty nice body. Top 2 started playing with the Latino bottom, but stopped. So I started fucking the Latino bottom – and liked watching Top 1 fuck the Asian bottom.

Top 1 managed to give both bottoms loads. Top 2 & 3 each gave the Asian bottom loads. Unfortunately I didn’t cum. I could have cum early on with the Asian bottom, but if I had cum at that point, then I wouldn’t have had it in me to fuck the Latino bottom – as the host, that didn’t seem fair. Then things sorta died down and it was me, the two bottoms and Top 3 and we were talking about completely non-sexual stuff. I hadn’t gotten enough sleep the night before, and it all just accumulated to me just not being in the mood to fuck by the end of the gangbang.

So all in all a bit of a disappointment – I didn’t get the critical mass of tops to keep things going… I’m pretty sure the one on Friday will be better…

One other disappointment was that this morning a guy came over, but then didn’t want to get fucked. He said he was worried he wasn’t clean, but I think it might have been more than that…

So I need to fuck, but once again I woke up too early (my body woke up on Eastern Time), so I’m tired and don’t feel much like fucking… UGH… Maybe better luck later today or tomorrow…

Today a well-known porn studio did a shoot at my place. You’ll understand in a bit why I’m not going to give details. It was a big crew – like 8 porn stars (I didn’t participate other than being there). The professionalism among them was completely uneven. Most of them were polite and courteous and professional, but there was one who was just a huge messy queen…

The mess showed up 2 hours late and at one point went outside (in view of all my neighbors) with no shirt on. When I said “why did you do that?” He said “I don’t care (what people think)”. My response was, “Well, I care. I have to live here.” He was clearly high – sorta bouncing off the walls and saying stupid shit. He asked me how he looked, then said a little prayer in front of me (about him staying clean) and insisted I say the “Amen”.

Then a few hours later one of the porn stars I’ve known for a while says “believe it or not, he’s higher than when he arrived.” This, despite the producer telling everyone in advance that drugs weren’t allowed. Then a half hour later I see he’s passed out in one of the rooms…

I mean that’s pretty hot to walk in on – sorta perfect how he managed to have his shorts pulled down – like he hoped someone would come along and fuck him (some more). If he weren’t such a mess I might have gone up and felt him up. But when other people are paying guys to perform I’m sorta stand-offish with porn stars – they’re not mine during that time – they belong to the producer. Plus, he was totally out and even snoring… Given how erratic he was acting I preferred him asleep. Our place can be pretty dangerous if someone’s not being careful.

When he was woken up his mood changed yet again – he got all angry and irritable. Then a few minutes later he had mellowed a bit, but was super anxious to leave (which was fine by me). All in all he was sort of a sad character. Mind you, the video of him getting fucked is going to be incredible. He’s hot and can take an incredibly hard pounding (thanks in part to him being plastered out of his mind). But his life is just a huge disaster from the looks of it.

Then there was another really well known porn star bottom who showed up and promptly had to spend a lot of time cleaning out. Shit happens (so to speak), and in all other respects I really liked the guy – seemed genuine, well-balanced, was really nice to be around, but the bottoms were told it was going to be difficult to clean out – you’d think someone of his caliber and who’s generally really professional would do a bit more to be clean. But he was so good in other respects that I’ll give him the benefit of the doubt – maybe he was just having a bad day.

Most of the guys (like my friend) were completely prepared and put their all into it. They seemed like they’d be a pleasure to work with.

There are times I think it would be fun to produce porn. But then there are moments like today when the one bad apple in the barrel makes me wonder. The problem porn star reminds me of other porn stars I know. There’s one (who I’ve fucked) a friend told me about the other day who’s deals and uses drugs. Apparently he’s progressed in his drug addiction to the point where he has paranoid spells – it’s just a matter of time before he comes to some tragic end (sad). Then there’s one who worked for me at one point who was a nice, personable guy but the more I got to know him the more I realized he lived in a fantasy world where he thought he could do what he wanted and somehow people would want to take care of him.

I’m not saying all porn stars are messy, but there are enough messy porn stars that I can’t imagine getting full-time into production – I don’t “suffer fools” very well. Porn production would just be an exercise in frustration. Now, the occasional amateur shoot – that could be hot – but even then I’ll encounter flakes, but at least I won’t be paying them…

UPDATE:

Right after I wrote this I saw the news that Whitney Houston died. People (hard) drugs lead to big problems. Yes, you might accomplish something and people may know you – and part of your creativity may come from the drugs. But ultimately they’re just not worth it. I hate to sound like Barbara Bush Nancy Reagan – but seriously, “Just Say No”.

Load 2012-3

I woke up this morning hoping to fuck someone. I had taken a Cialis about 48 hours earlier (before fucking “my nigger fuckbud“) and the Cialis was still doing it’s job. There were a few guys online but they were saying they wanted hour plus hookups or that they didn’t want to travel that far. I was willing to travel – it was Sunday morning and I knew I could find parking just about anywhere in the City.

This black guy wanted me to come to his place near Columbus Circle, so I took a shower and headed out (and got a muffin on the way there so I had some energy). Traffic was light and I got down the West Side Highway really quickly. I called him from outside his building and he buzzed me in. He left his door ajar. I went in and my eyes had a hard time adjusting. All his blinds were drawn, he just had this little, dim, neon light on. I’ve got Transitions lenses and they hadn’t adjusted to being indoors yet, so it seemed like the room was almost pitch black.

I navigated around the table in the middle of the room and found him on his bed, ass up, wearing athletic socks, tennis shoes, and one of those ass-cut-out sorta shorts (is there a proper name for those?). He gyrated his ass up and down as I took off my boots and my jeans.

I crawled up on the bed, and bent over to rim him, but he had lubed up with strawberry lube or something. It tasted awful so I quit immediately. I jacked my dick a little. When I was about 3/4 hard I shoved in. He had sorta of a big meaty ass. If I saw him in clothes I’m guessing I’d say he had an “apple bottom”.

All in all he was a pretty good fuck. His hole felt pretty good (not great, but definitely a good fuck). I just concentrated on the task at hand – dark room anonymous fucks aren’t meant to be long drawn-out events. I came fairly quickly, but didn’t feel like leaving right away. I rolled him onto his side and pumped his ass a minute or two until my dick got soft. Then I got up, dressed and left.

When I had texted him that I was on his block it was 9:50. When I got in the car and drove away I noticed it was 10:03. So given the walk time and (un)dressing at both ends of the hookup the actual sex took less than 10 minutes – which is about right for a pump-n-dump

Load 2012-2

Yeah, I know the N word in the title has probably got some of you guys wondering WTF? but you’ll understand in a bit…

There’s a black guy I’ve been fucking on an off for a while now. He’s got a nice body, his hole always feels good on my cock so I always cum with him. I wouldn’t call it A+ sex, but it’s good enough to make him a regular.

Last time he started getting into poz talk while I was fucking him (inaccurately assuming I was poz). Since then I had asked him once if he got into race play and being called nigger. He said he hadn’t done it in the past – just had other black guys call him nigga. I sorta backtracked on the question pretty quickly ’cause when I started thinking about it, he’s not all that submissive, and I couldn’t imagine calling someone nigger unless they were being submissive.

Friday he was on A4A when I was looking. It’s been difficult lately to find guys who will travel up to Washington Heights in the middle of the day (when I’m  typically available). He was, so I told him to come up.

When he came in we stripped down (I kept on my shirt), and while he was sucking my dick I reached over and fingered his hole. It felt a bit lubed. When I rimmed him it tasted pretty good – a tad musky, but good. He LOVED being rimmed, but I wanted to fuck, so I lubed up and shoved in. I tried to push him down on his belly, but he resisted – he clearly wanted to get fucked doggy style (as I said, he’s not submissive).

As I fucked him I kept hitting something in his ass that felt like a hard turd. I didn’t investigate ’cause I knew as soon as I saw shit it would be over. It was weird though – I knew he had cleaned out – so it didn’t make sense, but it felt a bit pointy and hard. Who knows… Never did figure it out…

Then he starts saying stuff like “yeah, fuck that nigger ass”. From that point on it was a constant stream of comments and he used the word “nigger” every time. It was a weird dynamic. I wasn’t calling him nigger, he was calling himself nigger. I’m not being good at being verbal. When I fuck I’m thinking concepts, not sentences. If I actually say what I’m thinking it sounds stupid ’cause I typically string the concepts in my head together with the wrong verbs/adjectives, or I repeat the same concept over and over in my head – which would sound boring and repetitive if I said it out loud.

So I just concentrated on fucking him, but I gotta say having a bottom call himself a “nigger whore”, etc. while I was fucking him was a huge turn on. It’s hard to describe, but it made me harder and I came really quickly as soon as he started being verbal. Usually I hate when guys are verbal – but apparently I’ve found an exception…

After I came, he sorta insisted I tweak his nipples while he jack off. I hate that – it’s sorta the reason why he’s not A+ sex. When I’ve cum, I just want down time. Plus, I don’t really like nipple play – it’s not my thing. And honestly, I don’t give a shit if the bottom cums – I’m fine if I never see their dick.

As he was dressing he said he had done a pump-n-dump with another fuckbud on the way over to my place – which explains why his ass seemed lubed. To bad I didn’t taste the load when I was rimming him.

The guy who works for me was in the other room when all of this was happening. I had wondered whether I should offer the black guy’s ass to him. I know the black guy would have gladly taken the guy’s load, but the power dynamics were all off. I wasn’t really in charge – and that sorta sums up why I don’t fuck him more often… He’s a regular, but an infrequent regular. And it also explains why the use of the word nigger wasn’t a big deal – given the power dynamic the word didn’t mean much of anything. Though I guess there could be something going on in his head – willingly calling yourself a “nigger hole” to get a load from a white guy might eventually make you see yourself as a nigger. Who knows…