I wrote  a while back about the hot young jock who was coming to NYC and wanted to be my live-in boy (after a trial period where he had his own place). Then a couple weeks before he was supposed to be here, he dropped off the face of the earth – never heard from him again.

Well, the latest installment of “too good to be true” was a rich, young plastic surgeon who was coming to town for a conference and wanted to hookup with me… From the beginning things just didn’t add up… For starters he said he was interested in videotaping the fuck and didn’t mind having his face show. That raised serious question marks. What successful doctor would want the reputation of being in a bareback gay porn video (taking loads)?

Then he started asking if I wanted to do 3ways and groups with some of his friends. Generally I’m OK with that, but I wondered what sorta scenario he was looking for. Then he asked “do you like to party with other Tops or just Bottoms?” And I thought, “oh god – this is the PNP crowd” – too much money and lots of drugs. I quizzed him on it and he swore he didn’t do drugs. But there was just this overtone to what he said that was totally party boy / playboyish – I didn’t believe him a bit when he said he didn’t PNP. I was starting to see that he fit a certain type – and I’m not really all that into that type. The A-type personality rich boys and me never get along all that well – I’m way more mellow and “real”

He was supposed to be here a couple days ago, but I didn’t hear from him. Then he said he was delayed because there was some big accident and a bunch of people needed plastic surgery. Then I got these IMs and one of them had his full name and title. I googled him and looked on the hospital’s website and couldn’t find any trace of a doctor by that name (or a variation of that name). Add to that, he said his last name was Vanderbilt. I was now really suspicious – things just weren’t adding up.

He kept pushing his persona – saying he could have his driver pick me up, that he was staying at the Ritz Carlton on Park Avenue South (after telling me earlier he was staying at the Mandarin). But that didn’t make sense either… What doctor (attending a conference) needs a driver in NY? Use cabs for god’s sake. You only need a driver if you’re going from place to place and have packages.  I know enough doctors to know they just don’t live like that. One of the doctors I know is a brain surgeon at a world-renown hospital with at least 10 more years experience than this guy (who’s in his early 30s). The brain surgeon is LOADED and spends his money, but he’d never spend it like this guy… Even with the Nip/Tuck stereotype lifestyle built in, it didn’t add up…

Then when we were actually supposed to hookup he starts asking about whether I’d be into particular other guys… He sent me a bunch of pics and asked which one I wanted to hookup with…

Of course all those guys are hot. When he asked me “Which guy do you like better”? My response was “whichever one is most into bears”. I then mentioned groups are a bit of a chemistry thing. He didn’t get it. I was sitting there thinking the last thing I wanted was to be a 3rd wheel in group of jocks who were only into other jocks.

We chatted a bit more, while he said he read the blog, he seemed to think I looked like I did when I was in Dawson’s 20 Load Weekend. I told him that was 6 years ago – I didn’t look like that any more. I sent him a pic showing I now have a belly. He was still pressing on who I wanted to hookup with and not understanding when I said I wanted to hookup with guys who were into bears.

Then he started asking me weird questions like do I fuck with my clothes on all the time (no), would I take out my PA (of course), and was I planning on wearing a hood (not unless we’re doing video)? Then he told me the hood was scary. I told him that was sorta the point of it – it’s an executioner’s hood. Then he got all defensive and said “I know what it is, I have 3 doctorate degrees”. I just laughed at that comment – exactly what doctoral program had a class on executioner’s hoods? Plus, who gets 3 doctoral degrees?  I know a lot of people who are academic overachievers – he didn’t strike me as the type. And none of the academic overachievers I know have 3 Ph.D.’s (and Ph.D’s are pretty common in my family).

At that point I knew the guy was total bullshit. I mean things just didn’t add up -  1) flawless jock, 2) party boy, 3) crazy rich, 4) total playboy, 5) sexually obsessed, 6) lots of hot jock friends, 7) 3 doctoral degrees by his early 30s, and a great job. I’m sorry, but too many of those things are contradictory. I didn’t know what he was, but I was convinced by that point 1) he wasn’t into guys like me, and 2) he was a huge liar.

Then he kept going on…

I can’t help we are all into the way our bodies look
It is not because we are Plastic and Recon Surgeons either, I for one only treat tauma patients
We are all very educated with great personalities, none of us are superficial
Maybe you are more into twink looking guys? I don;t know, if that is true, that is ok, no offense will be taken
…
I kinda think you are placing me into a category just because I have a great body

(Oh yeah, all his hot jock friends were also rich plastic surgeons… right…)

Then as I was responding he logged off (nice). My response was…

no, i’m placing you in a category because all the other guys you’re into have great bodies…
if there was more diversity in who you were into i’d be a hell of a lot more comfortable.
if i were a muscle bear, i’d fit in pretty well…
but i’ve been around the block enough to know what situations work and what don’t. this one feels all wrong.

He connected long enough to see my response, then disconnected. A little while later he sent me an e-mail…

I am sorry I e-mailed you, I should have known you were going to be scared to meet someone that looked like me.

I just shook my head and wrote the following response…

You’re not understanding me… I am not scared – at all… I’ve had great 1-on-1 sex with guys just as hot as you. There are guys like you who are into “real men” and bears, but you don’t seem to be one of them – all your fuck buddies are body beautiful types. This isn’t about what you look like. It’s about who you (and your friends) are attracted to.

I had a full week of work last week, worked all weekend, ran around the city with a relative yesterday, and worked hard today. I’m exhausted. Dealing with a group of body conscious pretty boys is the last think I feel like doing tonight. My idea of the perfect fuck right now is a sub who gives up his hole, gets me to blow my load, and then slowly pampers me and gets me to relax. You guys are too high maintenance.

I understand the whole muscle worship thing and know some guys will do anything to get with someone like you. I’m not one of them. In my experience average guys are often better fucks. When everything else is equal I prefer a lean to muscular bottom, but there are a lot of factors that are more important to me than the guy’s body. It’s those other factors that make me not want to hookup with you.

The e-mail was returned saying the e-mail address didn’t exist. I tried his other e-mail address – same thing. He had deleted both of his e-mail addresses. Only total fakers use throw-away e-mail addresses – I’m sure he never intended to hookup with me…

So, after having out of town pretty boys fuck with me twice lately, next time I’m requiring a video chat. I’m also thinking I’ll verify their location by making them hit a page that tells me their IP address and then I’ll look it up on the services that say where IP addresses are located. Otherwise they can contact me when they get in town and give me a hotel address and get a quick anonymous fuck like everyone else…

Load 2010-29

[There are 3 other hookups I have happened that I need to write up... But here's the latest hookup...]

I think I just shot the biggest load I’ve ever shot up a guy’s ass…

There’s a guy I’ve seen online lately taking loads in the middle of the day. I’ve hooked up with him and his boyfriend before – boyfriend has a BIG dick and fucks hard (I saw him in action). Anyway, the bottom in the relationship has been home taking loads during the day lately. I don’t know the story I’m just imagining he’s out of work and likes to have a cummy hole for his boyfriend when his boyfriend comes home from work. I know if I were his boyfriend I’d be happy coming home to a boyfriend with a cummy hole

Anyway, there were two guys who wanted to hookup when I got online. First was the guy who I fucked, but then he didn’t respond and I didn’t know what happened. Then there was this other guy who wanted to come over, I gave him directions how to get here, he read the message and then never responded. (I hate flakes). I didn’t understand why the first guy hadn’t responded – it wasn’t like him. Then he finally responded saying he’d been in the bathroom cleaning out (an acceptable response). But then he said he had a local buddy coming over, could I come a little later. I said OK, then he got back to me a a few minutes later saying “come over”… I scarfed down lunch and headed over.

His place was a bit of a hike from my subway and it was hot out. I’m a bit sweaty when I get there. He comes down to get me and says his fuck buddy is still there – do I mind? I said no, and we head up to his place. Then he tells me he doesn’t have A/C. It was 95 degrees out, and he was on the top floor, southern exposure – with no air conditioning. Great… If he had told me that I would have told him to come to my place. I start worrying I’ll overheat. There was no way I was keeping any clothes on – it would just make the situation worse.

The other guy is in bed with boxers on. The bottom and I start stripping down and then the bottom starts sucking my dick. The other guy takes off his boxers and I see this flacid dick that is insanely thick… I can see what the bottom likes about him… The bottom switches from my dick to the huge dick and sits down to suck the guy’s dick. I was sorta hoping he’d stand up so I could rim his ass. Then the other top asks if I want to fuck him while he sucks his dick… That was s dumb question… Of course I did…

I felt his ass and it seemed cummy (or really well lubed), so I just put some spit on the end of my dick and shoved in. Now, it had been 12 days since the last time I had fucked and I think 9 days since I had cum. His hole felt good, the position I was fucking in was ‘adequate’ and I came pretty quickly. When I came I was amazed at the volume of what came out. Not that I could see it, but I could tell there was a crazy amount of cum cumming out of my cock. They were big thick powerful spurts that kept cumming and cumming… I literally flooded the guy’s ass.

This is the point at which I made a mistake. He started pulling off, but I was still milking the cum out of my cock, so held onto his ass for a few seconds. At that point I should have had him stay where he was and felched the load out of his ass. I mean it would have been a lot of cum and should have tasted really good. But he quickly cupped his hand beneath his ass and ran to the bathroom to deal with his flooded ass. Too bad.

When he came back he asked if I wanted to clean up. The implication was that it was time for me to go. When I said I was fine I started getting my clothes and putting them on. He then followed up with “if you wanna stay that’s OK too…” but I had already started going to get my clothes to put them on and honestly it was crazy hot in there… So I just put on my stuff and left.

When I was leaving his building I looked at the time – it had been about 10 minutes – including taking my clothes off and putting them back on.

Hopefully his boyfriend will enjoy the cummy hole when he gets home. Gotta seed the boyfriend sometime too (he’s a versatile top).

I had a long IM chat yesterday with Mason Wyler (a bit over an hour). As a result of the chat my opinion of him has changed for the better…

The last week or so he’s had a lot of shit thrown at him. Someone outed him as poz before he was really ready to make it public, and then, given his history, people started saying all sorts of things about him. Some people even started openly wondering whether this was a bit of a publicity stunt. The skepticism comes from the fact that previously he said he had been raped but then then didn’t follow through with the police investigation. People then wondered whether there was merit to the rape allegations – thinking it had all been a publicity stunt. So this time some people wondered whether this too was a publicity stunt.

Well, after talking with him, I tend to believe 1) he really was raped, and 2) he really is poz.

For me the thing that really made me not particularly like him (as a person) was his blog post back in October 2008. Even to this day I think it’s pretty hostile to poz guys and guys who bareback. He swears I misread it and he his intention was to make fun of the stupidity of people who do fear-based anti-bareback campaigns. I’ll let you decide what you think of it. At a minimum I think you’ll be able to see where it can be interpreted as hostile, even if that wasn’t his intention. The real issue was the he didn’t communicate his thoughts clearly enough in that blog post. He looks at it and sees his original intention, but others of us fail to see that intention. But he’s a porn star, not a copy editor – so I’ll excuse that now that I’ve heard his side of things.

After chatting with him for an hour the worst thing I can say about him is that prior to testing poz he didn’t have any poz friends – so he may not have really understand what it’s like to be poz. That’s hardly a crime. Apparently his day-to-day life is pretty solitary – it’s just him and his boyfriend. I have a similarly codependent relationship and if we weren’t in Manhattan and if my bf weren’t a “people person” I’m sure I’d be in a similar situation. Now he’s starting to chat with some poz guys, but they don’t live near him – but at least he gets to interact with them one way or the other. I really think that will help him.

I still think that the ‘milieu’ he was in was not all that great. For example, his production company refuses to work with poz guys – they won’t even pair poz guys up with each other and have them do condom porn. To his production company, if you’re poz you’re an undesirable leper. As a result when he became poz he assumed his porn career was over because that’s what he was told by his production company – the anti-poz crowd was the only reality he really knew. I think he’s just now realizing that’s not the case – that he’s totally welcome in bareback porn, and there are other condom porn companies that don’t have a problem with him either.

It won’t surprise me if the world of condom porn continues to shun poz guys – there’s a reason why we call them “Condom Nazis”. In fact I sorta dare any (major) condom company to break the conventions and use Mason as a regular performer (more than a few scenes). It’s a statement that really needs to be made – that you can be poz and sexy and there’s a (sex) life after testing poz.

Strangely, the poz-hostile condom producers (who are supposed to be pro-condom) are basically saying condoms are only for neg guys, which means condom usage tends to continue to based in fear – it’s all about neg guys protecting themselves from dirty/evil poz guys. To me that’s just incredibly divisive…

Anyway, back to Mason… After an hour talking with him I really got the sense that he’s a sweet, somewhat submissive guy… He kept calling me ‘Sir’ which was pretty endearing. I don’t know if he just knows the buttons to push with guys like me or if he’s genuinely that way, but I liked our chat a lot… I kept getting the sense that he was sorta vulnerable and that he needed a protector. My daddy instincts kept getting triggered with him…   He would make an incredible boy for some top daddy…

The other side of him is the persona of Mason Wyler. He’s sorta built up this persona that he’s a total slut, and while there does seem to be a side of him that enjoys being a slut (he’s been in 200+ porn videos in about 5 year – averaging one every 9 days for 5 years), his day-to-day life is way more boring and average than that. It seems the persona he created works against him at time like this (and probably back when the whole rape thing was going on). People see the image of a slut and trivialize what he goes through when it comes to things like rape and HIV.

So what’s Mason’s future look like? Well, his porn career will change somewhat… Unfortunately, while there are poz guys in condom porn many of them don’t like to discuss their status, which means all of them have to sorta stay in the closet about their HIV status. As soon as one of them is known to be poz (like Mason) the assumption is that the guys he does scenes with are poz. I hate closets and lies… The whole idea that poz guys can’t be open about things just bugs me.

That means I’d guess Mason will mostly be doing bareback porn (where being poz is no big deal) even though he’s open to both condom and bareback. But he really prefers bareback – so much so that he wishes could start his own bareback porn production company (though he doesn’t have the capital to do it). Frankly, I’m really glad he’ll be doing bareback porn. I’m totally looking forward to featuring it here on the site. It’ll be hot seeing him take loads

In terms of Mason’s personal future – I get the sense he still has a few things to figure out about being poz, but that’s to be expected. Hopefully he’ll get some poz friends and compare notes. If you’re in Houston and poz (and don’t want to just get in his pants) you might try hitting him up – I got the sense he’d really like a local poz buddy…

But all in all, he’ll be fine… I’m guessing he’ll be better than ever a year from now…

UPDATE: I had an hour long IM chat session with Mason Wyler. It changed my perception of him and I think I understand him a lot better now. Read my write up of the chat…

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If you haven’t heard by now, Mason Wyler disclosed this week that he tested HIV+ in May, but he only came out with the news after having his status “outed”. What I’m about to say here is a lot of conjecture, but I’d almost put money on most of it being true…

Let’s go back to October 2008 when Mason posted a blog post with alternate wording to the song “Rudolph The Red Nose Reindeer”…

Then all the gay boys hated him
as they shouted out with glee:
“Bobby with your unsafe sex,
you’ll die alone in misery!”

From that post it’s clear Mason looks down on poz guys and apparently thinks barebacking is so awful that barebackers are punished by becoming poz and that they will (or should) die alone in misery. Thing was, even when he wrote that, he was secretly attracted to barebacking. A few months after that post he put up blog posts talking about his attraction to bareback sex and bareback porn and then he’d take them down a little while later apparently out of shame/guilt. [Read more in my blog post back then about Mason's love/hate relationship with barebacking.]

Now he’s poz and apparently still holds his negative attitude about poz guys. Even the wording of his disclosure shows he feels shame and self-hatred…

I tested positive. I have only myself to blame. I have HIV and it kind of sucks.

“Blame”… There’s no acceptance in that statement – just self-loathing and shame. I mean really, in what way has his life changed? Well, maybe some condom-Nazi studios won’t work with him any more, but other than that, how is his life all that worse now than it was a couple years ago?

And lets not forget – with the amount of sex someone like Mason has, there’s a good chance he got infected through safe sex. He hasn’t revealed details, but safe sex is not safe – it’s just lower risk. Have enough of it and the cumulative risk builds up. If he was fucking a lot with condoms then he could have very well gotten infected that way – which makes his shame all the more sad (potentially).

Then a few days after he disclosed his status he felt the need to clarify things a bit…

I have not gone around fucking, barebacking, or infecting HIV negative people. I am a sex fiend. I am NOT a monster.

So apparently he thinks poz guys who have sex with neg guys are monsters. Interesting choice of words. To be blunt, the poz guys I fuck are anything but monsters. And guys who have bareback sex are consenting adults.

So let’s put things in perspective… First off, he’s a HOT messed up little boy who is listening to all the wrong people. I mentioned he’s hot, right? I mean that is one beautiful poz ass…

But I digress… The issue here is Mason’s fear, loathing, shame and self-hatred. It’s just sad. He’s like this confused messed up little boy. Where did he get the idea poz guys die alone in misery? Really? Who gave him that idea? Probably “Condom Nazis”. And they think barebackers and bareback porn are hurting the gay community. As far as I’m concerned their fear and hatred does more damage to our community than barebacking ever will. Mind you, back in the day there really was something to fear – HIV could kill you in a couple years. But these days I’m more worried when I find out someone is a chain smoker or likes to PNP.

I’m not saying HIV is desirable, instead I’m saying it’s really sad to see someone like Mason hate himself for becoming poz. It’s completely possible he got pozzed by a high-viral load top while he was wearing a condom. Most poz guys are on meds, and it’s safer to bareback with a poz guy who’s on meds than it is to have protected sex with a poz guy who’s not on meds. I don’t get the sense that he has any big picture sorta perspective. It’s like he’s back in the late 80’s and he thinks his life just ended or something.

There’s a reason why I tell guys to accept risks before they take them. If you like taking anonymous loads, just accept the fact that you’ll probably become poz, it’s not the end of the world, and then go on and enjoy your life. I don’t get the sense that Mason is enjoying his life or that he’s accepted and embraced his new status. He loves sex and has only hooked up 3 times since he tested poz in May. For someone like him that’s just horribly wrong. It’s done. It’s over. Move on and make the most of it…

And for god’s sake reject all the negativity and the people who spread it…

I really hope Mason comes to peace with being poz and learns to make the most of it. I would love to see him in some good bareback porn – maybe getting gangbanged by a bunch of poz tops. That’s one video which would be really hot if it included “poz talk” – seeing him get past his fear and really embrace being poz and beg guys to shoot toxic loads in his cunt would be incredible.

Load 2010-26

Yesterday I had a hardon that just wouldn’t quit and I needed to fuck. I hadn’t cum in a full week, I wasn’t stressed about anything, had a little free time and I’d taken 1/2 a capsule of the herbal stuff – it all added up to being totally horny. My dick was so hard it had no problem lifting my PA and given the size of the PA (0 gauge, 1″ diameter) it’s a bit like lifting weights with my dick. lol  Here’s a pic…

It was sorta cool being able to pop a boner so easily. It was fun playing with my cock. The PA flops all sorts of weird directions when it’s not hanging straight down (see pic to the right). Sometimes it hurts a bit when the ring gets dried precum on it, but generally it doesn’t hurt all that much.

So obviously, being so horny I hunted for hole to seed. I didn’t have so much time that I could travel – at least not enough time to travel downtown where most of the willing cumholes are, and it’s not easy to get guys to come uptown. This one guy who I fucked a long time ago said he’d come over. But he’d flaked on me recently, so I didn’t hold out a lot of hope, and surprise, surprise, he flaked again.

There’s this one cumhole who’s walking distance from me. A long time ago (2007 I think), I fucked him. I still remember the hookup clearly. A top had me come over and tag the bottom’s ass with him. This was back in the day when I was trying to serosort. I asked the top if the bottom was neg, he said yes. After we fucked him I was walking back to the subway with him and the subject of HIV status came up and he said he was poz. Turns out the top hadn’t even asked – he just told me what I wanted to hear.

Anyway, I’m long past trying to serosort and have been intending to hookup with the bottom again, but it just never happened. Yesterday he said he was available, but I had plans with the guy who stood me up. I told him my plans might not work out and he said to hit him up if the other guy flaked. A couple hours pass and I hit him up after the other guy didn’t show up. He said he had some other guys over. I told him to give me the address, and I’d come over. Other than him, I had no clue who would be there.

So, he gives me the address and it turns out to be the same building as the submissive piss bottom who stood me up recently. I checked the apartment number wondering if they were roommates or something. They’re not – just the same building, but this means I’ve fucked more than one person from the same building – not sure I’ve done that before.

I show up and someone else answers the door, which doesn’t surprise me. I head in and when I get to the bedroom I’m the 6th guy there. There are two bears (one quite chubby). An older skinny guy who’s all over the chub (they left right after I got there and went into the living room). Then there’s this cute little guy, plus the guy I was there to fuck. The guy I was there to fuck was sucking the bear’s cock when I walked in and the cute guy was just watching. I was pleasantly surprised with how nice of a body the guy had who I was there to see (the host). It had been a long time since I’d seen him.

I strip down and as I start taking out my PA, then someone sees it and starts complimenting it. I ask if I should leave it in or take it out and everyone says leave it in.

Once I’m naked and start to play and then I realize that I’m on cam. UGH… I hadn’t really paid too much attention to all the video screens. One was playing porn and another had up all these guys who were doing cam sessions. I hadn’t really thought about what that meant. As soon as I realized it I just kept it in mind and kept my face offscreen – wasn’t that big of a deal.

The host switched positions and the bear went to fucking him while the host sucked my cock. Sucking a dick with a huge PA isn’t easy (or probably very nice) since the metal keeps knocking against your teeth. He tried it for a while and then stopped and wanted to get fucked. About this time someone offered me some GHB, and then followed it up by “or Tina – we have both”. I had figured they were all PNPing, but didn’t really want to think about that part too much. Needless to say, I declined.

I start pushing my ring into the host’s hole. Getting my dick in is never easy when I’ve got the PA in. I sorta push the ring in first with my fingers, and then use my dick to get it the rest of the way in. The pic to the right sorta shows how it tends to flop to the side. That’s pretty much the position it’s in when it’s going in the bottom’s ass. Needless to say, you can’t really get it in a tight hole. But a tight hole wasn’t a problem in this case – he was flying high and feeling no pain…

I shoved in and fucked him. Every time I’d hit the bottom of his hole it was a bit painful for me so I didn’t fuck him all that hard. Plus, I hadn’t cum in a week and didn’t want to cum too quickly – I knew it would come fairly fast even if I held back.

When I started feeling like I was about to cum I tried to hold back. I commented that I was about to cum, but I don’t think he heard me ’cause at that moment he decided he needed to go piss – that he just couldn’t hold it. If I had to guess I’d say I was hitting his bladder on every stroke. In cases like that you just gotta piss so you don’t literally piss all over the bed.

As soon as he was gone, I wanted to get inside the cute little guy. He had been fucking the bear, but had crystal dick and wasn’t all that hard. But before I could say or do anything the bear turns around, presents his ass and basically says “fuck me”. Bear butt isn’t really my favorite thing, but I figured, what the hell and push in. I really wanted to give my load to host or to the cute little guy, so I was trying hard not to cum in the bear, but his hole was like a muscular shoot and was grabbing my dick in ways that made it so there was no way I could hold back. Finally, I just couldn’t help it. I said “I’m cumming” and dumped a really big, thick 7 day load up his ass.

Right after that the host came back. I pulled out of the bear, told the host I’d just cum. He was a little disappointed, but since I was still quite hard I told him I could still fuck, so he got back on all fours and I went back to fucking him. I fucked him for a while. He wanted me to fuck him on his belly but the bear and the cute little guy were in the way and I didn’t really want my face on cam, so I just kept fucking him doggy style. Thing was, with the PA it was a little painful, so not all that much fun. I fucked him for a while and finally just pulled out and stopped. Had the circumstances been different I might have continued.

I went to the bathroom to take a piss and wash off my PA, then got dressed, said my goodbyes and started to go. As I’m leaving the chub and the older skinny guy ask me if something is wrong (since I’m leaving so quickly). They were so high they didn’t really have a good sense for how long I’d been there. And I don’t think they understood that I was sober and just there for a pump-and-dump. I smiled, told them everything was fine, and left.

I’m not exactly sure what to think of the whole PNP crowd. On one hand they’re consenting adults who have the right to do what they want. On the other hand it just seems a bit sad to me. I wonder if most or all of their friendships are tied to drug use? I wonder what their ‘real lives’ are like – do they have their shit together and are they productive when they’re not partying? Or are they using drugs as an escape from a miserable life? I don’t really know. Everyone there was happy and smiling and friendly, but I knew it was drug induced – it didn’t feel like genuine, sincere happiness. There was more, but I don’t really want to go into it. Needless to say their “scene” held no attraction to me other than the fact that it’s a good place to dump a load in a hole and be on my way. They got what they wanted. I got what I wanted… Would I do it again? Absolutely – I like easy cumholes and there was a room full of them.

Over on Breeding Zone I archive the world of bareback blogging just because I’ve seen so many blogs fall by the wayside over the years and it’s a shame to see all their stories just disappear. Hell, a blogger named Geek Slut is the blogger who inspired me to start my blog and all his stories are gone now. I really wish I could go back and read his old stories, but I can’t.

Anyway, I pulled the feed for one blogger who took serious offense at the fact that I pulled and used his RSS feed. Umm, it’s public, he didn’t use snippets, and the last S in RSS stands for ’syndication’ – which is exactly what I was doing. There’s long-standing precedents for archiving web content – take a look at archive.org and you can see what web sites looked like going back over 10 years. I don’t think he understands the web well enough to understand all that – whatever…

However, his biggest issue seemed to be that he hated being associated with me… On his blog he the following of me…

[rawTOP] repulses me physically, morally and character-wise; he’s sincerely damaged

I love how he throws in not liking my body with the other things – as if there’s a connection between the two. lol

Then he described our brief conversation as follows…

I then explained how I found his views, opinions and more importantly, actions morally repugnant to me and did not want to associate myself with him or his blog. He then went into a diatribe of how he’s a regular Mother Teresa and essentially providing a service to all young kids who (misguidedly!) want to become HIV +.

Actually, I never said any of that. I said more or less what I said above – that I’m trying to preserve the the written legacy of barebackers. In the brief conversation we did have he said the following…

The reality is, I hold NO opinions that coincide with yours (I don’t even respect them) and you do and write things on your blog that make me cringe, specifically intentionally trying to “convert” people to HIV to please an audience. That is so fucking twisted and abusive that it’s devoid of any morality. Meaning, and this is VERY important, I wouldn’t WANT any followers from your blog. I understand you’re only trying to make money. Just don’t do it off me as I don’t want to be in any way associated with you or your blog

Ummm… As far as I know, I’m neg. How exactly am I trying to convert people to HIV? (Sounds like a religion, the way he’s talking about it). If he’s talking about the fact that I find bug chasing sorta fascinating, I allow it to be discussed on my forum, and I think it’s a lot more honest than burying your head in the sand and pretending that being a bareback bottom won’t make you poz – well, yeah, but that’s not anywhere close to what he’s saying try to “convert” people.

Bottom line – my point of view is consistent and honest. His is just fucked up. He has a blog dedicated to his bareback exploits – that’s what you’d call promoting barebacking. Barebacking is risky – especially for bottoms. Yet he doesn’t want to discuss that risk apparently. In the same blog post where he criticizes me he talks about how he convinced to some tops to take raw dick. So he talks about how it’s fun to get guys to take risks, but then wants to pretend he lives in a world where there are no risks. Yeah, that’s way more responsible than what I do…

There are three mentions of ‘risk’ on his blog – one was the risk of getting caught having public sex, another was in a comment submitted by a user, and the third was he didn’t want to “risk” cumming too quickly, so he put on a condom to reduce the sensation and last longer.

There are also three mentions of HIV on his blog – one is in reference to me, the other two are complaining that he realized two of the bottoms he fucked were poz after he fucked them. [Dude, assume all bareback bottoms are poz and you'll be a hell of a lot closer to the truth.] The words ‘poz’ and ‘pos’ never show up on his blog (only HIV).

Apparently his is a world where “neg” bareback bottoms are really neg and risk never needs to be discussed or explored. Problem is, that world doesn’t really exist. I know, I tried living in it and found things just didn’t work that way.

My approach is to acknowledge the risk, discuss the risk, figure out if it’s right for the particular person, and then have them take responsibility for their sex life and accept the potential consequences ideally before they take the risk. Yes, in some cases “accepting the consequences” means the person embraces the consequences and actually seeks out getting pozzed. It’s their sex life and it’s an informed decision – who is he to say that’s wrong? I have WAY more respect for bug chasers than I do for guys who think they can get fucked raw all the time and stay neg.

I know some guys just don’t want to think about HIV and risk. I get that. But if you’ve never thought about it and you’re kidding yourself by thinking you can have high risk sex and stay neg – then you’re doing a disservice to  yourself and others. While there’s no need to constantly think about the risk – think about it long enough to figure out what’s right for you – so deep down you understand and accept the risks.

So what do you think? Does he have a point?

[And no, I'm not going to tell you who he is and I'll delete any comments that say who he is... He doesn't need the free publicity.]