[I'm now three hookups behind in writing things up - I'm going to go in reverse order since the latest one is freshest in my mind and the first one has video that needs to be edited and will take time...]
There’s a guy I’ve seen online for a while now - wasn’t sure if he was really my type or not, but after having two guys bail on me when I tried to hookup yesterday, I figured what the hell when he send me a message on BarebackRT and was willing to travel. After the two guys yesterday I didn’t know if he’d show up or not, but he did.
When he showed up he was sorta cute in his clothes. He had a bit of a scruffy look to him and I’m guessing by his looks that he’s poz (can’t say for sure). I was very pleasantly surprised during the initial groping phase - tight, slightly muscular body - thin waist - just like I like them. He was light skinned Latino - also a plus for me - complete with a sexy accent. But with him coming in and stripping down almost immediately there was a definite sexual vibe to the encounter. I knew from his profile that he wasn’t just looking to be an anonymous cumhole - he wanted more - he wanted conversation, kissing - in other words - “meaningful sex”.
But the vibe was totally about him as a cumhole. I had my finger on his hole within like 2 minutes of him getting in the door, and a couple minutes after that (after a little cocksucking) he was bent over and I was rimming his hairy ass, and a minute or two after that my cock was up his hole. So much for his quest for meaninful sex.
Right after I started fucking him he asked if I had poppers, and then when I pulled out he asked if there was anything he could drink. So I ran and got some iced tea and the bottle of poppers. Then we were back at it… He seemed to want to be on his back (so he could look me in the eye - typical of “meaningful sex”). I wanted him face down. We tried it his way for a bit, but I knew from when I originally started fucking him that his hole felt really good when he was on his belly, so I had him change back to being on his belly.
As soon as he was on his belly I knew I was going to cum pretty quickly. I’ve been trying not to jack off, so I hadn’t cum since when I fucked a guy three days ago - as a result it’s wasn’t long before I blew my load in his hole. I know it was way earlier than he was hoping for, but it is what it is. I know from experience that if I hold back I often can’t cum at all - I’d rather cum too soon than not cum at all.
I stayed in him for a while while he tried to jack off, but he never managed to cum. The bottom line is that it was a pump-and-dump encounter that we were trying to pretend wasn’t a pump-and-dump. We talked for a little bit, then he cleaned up, dressed and left…
Yeah, some of you are probably wondering where I’m going with a title like that. So, I’ll indulge you a bit… Last Sunday (roughly 2 weeks after IML) I started feeling really run down, Monday I had some coughing, Tuesday I still felt run down, Wednesday I felt completely back to normal and actually hooked up with the masculine piss bottom I fucked a year ago (got a video of it this time as well - write up is coming). Afterwards I went out for a drink at Rawhide, but the crowd didn’t interest me so I just stayed for one drink (plus I was driving - so I didn’t want to get drunk).
When I came home the walk from the garage to the apartment was torture. The stuff I was carrying felt like lead weights and at one point I even felt tightness in my chest. When I finally got home I just collapsed. I took a bath and tried to recuperate. Fast forward to about 4am - I wake up thanks to my dog who’s crawled on the bed. I get up and feel like shit. My lower back is KILLING me. I take a couple asprin, and some cough syrup and go back to bed. I don’t sleep well and wake up late.
Thursdays are a busy day for me ’cause I have to get a bunch of porn blog posts done. Without going into details I get in a fight with my boyfriend which turns out to be a huge fight, but I have to try to stay focused on my work. I feel like shit, but just push forward. By Thursday night I just want to crawl into bed, which I do.
By Friday I’m in sorta rough shape - initially the coughing can be controlled with cough syrup and the sore back with Motrin, but I still feel completely run down - so I just stay in bed most of the day. My boyfriend and I manage to patch things back up late in the day (which is a really long fight for us). My symptoms get worse as the day goes on and by the end of the day I can’t control the coughing - it’s pretty much constant. I sleep on the couch so I don’t keep my boyfriend up all night.
Today has been an incredibly rough day as well. Light fever on and off (which makes me a sweaty mess), coughing I can’t stop and the sore lower back (which had gotten a bit better) started getting worse.
Now that some of you think I’m going through the “fuck flu” I’ll burst your bubble… What I didn’t tell you was my boyfriend has had similar symptoms - a few days before me. His horrible day was last Thursday and whenever he exerts himself he gets sick the next day or two, which is what’s happening to me. So whatever he’s got, I’ve got and given our lack of a sex life, it’s not sexual.
If’ I’ve got anything major it’s more likely to be swine flu than HIV. Why is it that you always get sickest on the weekends when the doctor’s office is closed? I’m not about to go waiting for hours in the emergency room, but I’d really like to know what it is and get something to control the symptoms… Oh well…
UPDATE: Saw the doctor today (Monday) and I have Bronchitis, but it probably started with something viral. Hopefully it will be over soon.
Frankly guys, barebacking is natural, it’s what real guys do in the privacy of their own bedrooms… Enjoy! (Though if you’re a celebrity you might think twice about having pics taken of you getting raw dick in your ass…)
So, my boyfriend and I bought a new HD camera last month the day before I went to IML. The intention was to shoot some porn, but for a variety of reasons that’s been slow getting off the ground. I’ve been talking to some guys and have some prospects, but my bf doesn’t really want me doing a site around the guys I fuck (like JakeCruise), even though I think I’ll get there eventually. I’m sure I’ll be in some of the videos we shoot, but it will just be part of what we shoot…
So we’ve decided to take a trip to Montréal next month and I figured I’d post something on Craigslist looking for guys who want to be in amateur porn. I’ve gotten some replies and finally someone responded who seemed like he could be a real sex pig, but as soon as I mentioned bareback he said he wasn’t comfortable with that. There are still things I can do with a safe sex bottom - oral, BDSM, watersports, etc. so I’m still hoping to work with him…
But it just struck me tonight - I’m not going to actually pay someone to put on a condom - that’s just so against everything I’m about, it’s not funny. There is one safe sex top who’s offered to do it for free - that I could see doing… I have no problem making money off condom porn, but I don’t want to put my money into it (except maybe for editing and distribution). I’d rather shoot an oral scene, but even that I’m not going to pay much for someone to do - maybe a bit more than I’d pay for a good solo scene.
The bottom line is I need to do what my heart is into and that’s bareback, preferably where the bottom gets a load. I’m also totally into doing kink - S/M, watersports, fetish, etc. That’s what interests me and that’s what I see myself doing in 5 or 10 years, so might as well avoid the distraction of other stuff now and just get headed in the right direction…
If any of you are interested in being in porn (which is still a bit amateur and low budget at the moment), e-mail me and let me know. For now I’m looking for guys in New York and Montréal. I’m especially looking for New York based tops. There’s a bottom coming over from the UK in a couple weeks who’s up for being filmed in a gangbang, and the bottom I organized a gangbang for last year wants me to do another one. This time he wants it to be a conversion scene and have it be videotaped. I know last year when we did his gangbang he had been taking poz loads but his last test had been neg. Haven’t heard back from him as to whether he’s still neg. Either way, I think we’d need to tone down the conversion aspect of it… That’s got all sorts of legal complications and I’m not sure any billing company would process the payments for a site that’s got conversion videos. It’s probably up there with scat - legal in most places, but really difficult to distribute.
If you’re wondering, I’ve been a bit under the weather the past few days and busy with work before that. The masculine piss pig bottom I videotaped last year wants to hookup again and videotape it. If I don’t do it tomorrow then he’s gone for two months, so hopefully I can have that happen and have a good fuck to report about…
This video goes over everything you need to know about “traditional, biblical marriage”. But just remember - while it turns out it’s very inclusive - it just doesn’t include you…
Once again - playing with the new camera… This is Cyon Flare singing at the IML 2009 Pecs & Personality Contest. I’m not really sure what gender to call her - she’s sorta a drag queen, but hasn’t gone completely female… Either way, great voice and a good entertainer - it’s always good to see a drag queen who doesn’t lip sync (though I still love the ones who do…)
And like Jeffrey Payne, she ended her song with a call for inclusion - “All inclusive, not exclusive”… Hopefully that is what will happen at IML and things will change.
As far as camera work… You’ll see I mostly messed up on audio - the music was too loud and I didn’t turn down the inputs so there are times when the sound is pretty fucked up. Lesson learned.
BB BUDS
Last Sunday (roughly 2 weeks after IML) I started feeling really run down, Monday I had some coughing, Tuesday I still felt run down, Wednesday I felt completely back to normal and actually hooked up with 
What I didn’t tell you was my boyfriend has had similar symptoms - a few days before me. His horrible day was last Thursday and whenever he exerts himself he gets sick the next day or two, which is what’s happening to me. So whatever he’s got, I’ve got and given our lack of a sex life, it’s not sexual.
