Load 2010-6

Well, I finally got back in the saddle tonight… I was hoping to fuck this 24 y.o. but when I had to push back the time he said he couldn’t make it ’cause he was starting to crash from partying last night. (Guys – I may sound like Barbara Bush, but keep those drugs under control…)

So then I went on the hunt for another hole to fuck. I sorta wanted a hole I hadn’t fucked before, but when I e-mailed all the ones who were prospects and none of them panned out I saw the Brazilian come back online so I e-mailed him. It’s been 6 months since we last fucked (153 days to be exact). I like fucking him, but don’t always cum with him, so I was just hoping my horniness and the fact that I took a pill would be sufficient (it was).

He came over and we undressed and he started sucking my cock. Blowjobs often don’t do anything for me and this one was no exception. There was nothing wrong with it and he was enjoying it, so it wasn’t like I wanted it to stop. It was sorta cool actually how he’d keep pushing my dick as far back as possible and getting it into his throat. But let’s just say there was no risk of me cumming from his blowjob – but again, that’s just me, not him.

I know from past experience that he doesn’t like to be rimmed, so after the blowjob we went straight to fucking. I couldn’t find the Gun Oil so I grabbed my Wet Original (BTW, Wet has promised to send me some of their old-style oil based lube as well as their new silicone based Wet Platinum, but the package hasn’t arrived yet). I put a little on but after fucking him for a few minutes his hole still felt pretty dry even though he had prelubed before coming over and I had lubed my dick. I put some more lube on and that helped a bit.

We’ve fucked so many times he sorta knows what positions I like and he was on his belly. But lately I’ve been doing this thing where I turn myself at a 45 or 60 degree angle to give more friction to my dick. I think the reason I don’t always cum with him is ’cause my usual position doesn’t feel quite as good with his hole. But after turning a bit sideways and then turning back and being lined up with him I finally felt my load boiling up.

After nearly a month of not fucking anyone it felt good to give him my load. We then laid there and spooned a bit and talked with my dick up his ass. Eventually my dick got soft and came out. I knew he had moved but had a few of the detailed mixed up. Bottom line was that he’s been single for a while now. He mentioned how he had hooked up with the hardcore piss bottom I’ve fucked a few times before. And his observation was the same as mine – arriving for a hookup reeking of stale, musky piss isn’t a good thing… He also casually mentioned that he’d gotten fucked by someone in the neighborhood I know, which surprised me ’cause I didn’t think that guy was someone he’d have fucked with in the past, but he said since he’s been single he’s getting fucked by a broader range of guys.

I was starting to get my second wind and his hole was feeling mighty nice and wet. That combined with what he told me about being less selective about who fucked him gave me a hardon, so I started fucking him again. This time his hole felt SO much better. It was wet and cummy. I almost thought I could come a second time which is extremely rare for me. But alas I had jacked off the day before and there just wasn’t a second load in me. I stopped and we talked a little more while we spooned and I kept pumping his ass with my hard cock.

He left a little while later (we both had things we had to do). All in all a really nice hookup.

My apologies for not updating the blog with stuff that’s been going on, but the truth of the matter is that not much has been going on – sexually at least… Life has been a bit crazy lately on a number of levels. Work has been busy on several fronts and I feel like I’m constantly behind on everything. On top of that my bf and I are about to embark on a HUGE project that’s going to consume a crazy amount of time for up to a year (those of you who know me know what that is). So this is just sorta early warning that I may not be fucking as much as I’d like… Life is like that sometimes. But the end result will hopefully be VERY good.

And in the middle of everything else I managed to get a pretty disruptive STD that’s made it so I couldn’t fuck (ethically at least). I noticed a little thing on my dick and then it spread to a few places on the head of my cock. I was scheduled to see the doctor the following Tuesday so I didn’t go into the Saturday drop-in clinic at Callen-Lorde. Then it turned out the appointment I thought was on Tuesday was actually on a Wednesday. Then a snowstorm came and they closed Callen-Lorde and canceled my appointment. So that meant a week delay getting treated. Then when I went in the doctor thought I had herpes, but then he called back saying I actually had syphilis. I got my shot for that the day after he called (in itself a long story that I won’t go into). Then it’s taken forever for my dick to heal and return to looking normal. I knew everything was safely killed, but it looked like shit. About the only type of hookup I could have done would have been a dark room pump-and-dump.

Oh yeah – I did finally get confirmation that I was negative for herpes (thank god!), but only after taking Valtrex for nearly two weeks (and paying a $70 copay for the shit).

So I haven’t been fucking much. I was thinking of hooking up this weekend, but between the big project and regular work, that just didn’t happen. I’m hoping to change that in the next day or two though so hopefully I’ll have more to tell you guys soon.

If you’ve been trying to hookup with me, that’s why I’ve been saying “can’t hookup for a few days”. I didn’t want to say anything until it was over and things were back to normal. But I’ll definitely be wanting to do some quick and easy fucks over the next week or so to make up for lost time.

And for the record, I think I managed to tell everyone who I could think of who might have been affected by my syphilis, and everyone who told me their results said they were neg. So I don’t seem to have passed it onto anyone (or at least not many people). But the point is STDs are a bitch but they’re also just sort of a fact of life for people who are sexually active. We need to be open and honest about them so people can get them treated and they don’t spread. Never be silent – always tell guys that they should get tested – otherwise you might wind up playing viral ping pong with them.

The other thing I’ve been thinking is that someone really needs to come up with a nicer name for syphilis. It sounds so horrible. Gonorrhea is called “The Clap” since there was a madame named “Mother Clap” who ran a whore house in the 1800s where guys kept getting Gonorrhea. And chlamydia is just a nice name to begin with. It sounds like a flower or something. I could totally envision someone saying they gave their boyfriend or girlfriend a dozen chlamydias for Valentines Day. Herpes sounds like a Greek hero… So syphilis really needs a cute nick name to put it on par with all the other STDs… Any suggestions?

UPDATE: It Gets Worse…

So someone showed up at my door today. She asked if I was [insert my name here]. I said yes. I asked who she was and she gave her name. She asked me to confirm my date of birth so she knew I was who I said I was. I asked her who she was and she repeated her name. I clarified that I wanted to know who she was with and she refused and said she couldn’t say that before I confirmed my date of birth. We had a bit of a Catch 22. I wasn’t giving out my birth date to a stranger and she wouldn’t explain myself unless I did. She had an envelope in her hand, so I took it and opened it and saw she was from the Department of Health. I knew why she was there so I let her in the apartment.

Since I had a positive test result DOH is required to follow up. I understand why the law exists but it’s incredibly invasive, completely frustrating, and felt like it took forever. I won’t go into every gory detail but, among other things she wanted details on everyone who I’d had sex with for months and months. I was evasive and said I didn’t know their contact details, but I also made it clear that I contacted everyone who I thought might be affected and that some of them had gotten tested and come back negative. She got the name of my boyfriend and obviously she knows his address. I told her we hadn’t had sex in a very long time but she kept going on and on about how he could have gotten it from touching me. I’m thinking if guys didn’t get it when I fucked them, what was the likelihood he got it even from touching my dick? Still, we’ll get him tested just in case. She even wanted him to get treated before the test results come back. That’s not going to happen…

At one point she told me I shouldn’t be having sex for 6 to 8 weeks which just didn’t sound right to me. I’ve never heard anything like that. So once she was gone I looked it up and she was, indeed, wrong. According to the CDC…

Persons who receive syphilis treatment must abstain from sexual contact with new partners until the syphilis sores are completely healed. [Source]

Which is exactly what I did… Needless to say, I trust the doctors and epidemiologists writing the CDC web site way more than I trust some lowly paid DOH employee with a shit job no one else wants. And guess what, even the web site of her own agency disagrees with her…

Don’t have sex until you … have been completely treated and all of your symptoms have disappeared [Source]

All in all she was just incredibly judgmental and rude – and she didn’t even have her facts straight. She kept reiterating that from now on I’ll test positive for syphilis as if that means I’ve got an active case of it. And the idea that my bf should get treatment even before he’s tested when he’s barely touched my dick (with his hand) is just completely over the top. I kept having to remind her that while I’d put up with her doing her legal obligations, I didn’t need her to stand there and pass judgment on me and lecture me. Then she wanted me to get my sex partners to go to the DOH clinic. AS IF I want to subject them to people like her. I told her I always suggest going to Callen-Lorde ’cause they’re gay friendly and non-judgmental. But it was like that wasn’t good enough for her.

I take these things pretty seriously and to be treated like I don’t is really aggravating. I’m not a leper – I just a regular guy who got an STD. It’s not like I’m trying to spread it or anything… Weeks before she came around, and hours after I found out, I contacted people I thought should know. That should make someone like her happy, but she couldn’t even muster up a positive word about that. Hopefully she believed me and the case is closed.

Looking back at it I think next time I’ll refuse to speak with them and say I’ll only speak with them if they send a gay man. I think a big part of what happened was homophobia on her part. A gay man would have handled the situation very differently. If the DOH comes knocking at your door, you might want to do the same thing…

Just for the hell of it, here’s a graph that shows the current “epidemic” she was telling me about. I find it fascinating that there was a huge spike around 1990 when everyone was using condoms and being very conscious of their sexual health. I also find it odd that I arrived right about that time and didn’t hear anything about it even though it’s the highest rate of infection in the past 70 years.

So yes, since barebacking has become popular (after 1996 when protease inhibitors came out), there’s been a rise in cases. Is it an “epidemic”? Well, historically, not so much though it is going up, but the rate it’s going up is pretty slow compared to other times it’s gone up.

One other interesting detail in the report is that most of the cases were men (which you can see above) and about 87% of the men were “MSMs” (Men who have Sex with Men). So the current rise in syphilis is a gay issue, but my guess is that that’s probably been true since at least the 70s.

First the good news…

The Dutch have figured out that a person who is diagnosed at 25 will live an average of another 52.2 years – meaning they live into their upper 70s and have a pretty normal lifespan. So as we’ve sorta known for a while now – HIV is genuinely going from a “killer” to an “inconvenience” and that tren will probably continue as years go on. I don’t mean to diminish how big of a hassle being poz can be, but if you get diagnosed quickly and generally take care of yourself, it would appear you no longer need to worry about your life being cut short because of HIV/AIDS. But getting diagnosed fairly quickly is essential…

[That should be very good news for the 18 y.o. Teen Cumhole I talked about in my last post...]

Now for the bad news…

The bad news is that they’re not so optimistic in Africa. The South Africans are suggesting that everyone who becomes poz be put on meds immediately whether they need the meds or not. When you think that a lot of the people who are dying of AIDS today are people who are having serious complications from the meds they took 10 and 20 years ago, that’s a dangerous policy. I’m all for people taking the meds they need, but I’m a fierce opponent of medicating people who don’t need it.

The issue here is really one of which comes first – the rights of the individual or protecting the wider community from the danger posed by the individual? Americans will usually say the individual comes first, but in Europe and elsewhere the community comes first. But I think it’s important to remember the good news from the first part of this blog post – IF you get diagnosed early and are financially able to get treatment there really is very little risk to the community. But in poor countries like South Africa they don’t have the money for great treatment and so they have debates like this. I just hope no one in the first world tries to make an argument for mandatory medication… That would just be horribly wrong.

This teen contacted me a few weeks ago…

hi, sir. i dont know if you got my message on xtube. im the 18 yo bottom from san diego who sees himself as a total cumhole but doesnt really know where to begin. your blog is so fucking hot to me and i would be honored to take your load. if you want some pics for your own viewing pleasure just email me. i’m very slim and very cute and i know what kind of boys you like. i think im a good match for you

I got back to him with a few pointers on how to get loads – things like looking for sex parties, going to a bathhouses (and laying face down), and how to be assertive about getting dick but not aggressive. He then got back to me and (among other things) told me a little more about himself…

a little about me. hmm. well i’m a senior in hs, 18 years old, into some sports, movies, just having fun i guess. but i also have this other side of me which seems to be an insatiable cum whore haha. which is why i respect you so much and love your blog. i feel the need to be used in every sense of the word and have my hole stuffed and filled with sperm. the sheer idea of having a man’s sperm inside me drives me crazy because, in a way, it makes him a part of me and it makes me his subordinate because i’m taking his load. it’s like an act of submission. i’m saying all this because i think you understand…

At this point I wasn’t sure if he was actually taking loads or not. It sorta sounded like he was just fantasizing about it. So I sent him a message and asked how he was thinking about getting started…

well i’m already on adam4adam but i’m getting dozens of messages every 20 minutes. it’s kind of difficult for me to figure out how to go about setting things up with tops because i can’t possibly take all of their loads…not enough hours in the day haha. the thing is, i don’t want to be picky. i just want to be a cumdump. and i feel like part of being a sub cumhole is to not tell guys “no” because one looks better than the other. am i right or is that just a misconception?

I STILL wasn’t sure if he was taking loads so I asked directly and suggested that he try hosting so he could schedule a bunch of tops and get one load after another.

yeah, i have been taking loads from this guy who lives one freeway exit away from me. it’s convenient so i havent branched out yet really. that’s why i wanted to talk on IM. i’ve got some questions that you might be able to answer. is there such thing as a sub bottom who loves taking loads but just prefers the neg ones? i’m not looking to be pozzed by any means so i feel like i’m sort of a walking paradox.

At this point I figured he needed me to be pretty direct, so I told him…

basically, cumdump bottom = poz bottom… you’ll be really conflicted until you accept that… you can try serosorting, but it will fail eventually. serosorting sounds like a nice idea, but it just doesn’t work long term unless you’re the relationship type who really gets to know his tops and even then i can say from personal experience that you don’t really know what risks your tops are taking…

He got back to me and told me that “made sense” and that was sorta the last thing we discussed on the poz issue other than the fact that he mentioned he’s never been tested for HIV and doesn’t plan to get tested for a while.

A few days had gone past and I had been busy and hadn’t gotten back to him. So then he tell me how “his top” took him to a bathhouse that had a lot of older guys and took him into the sauna and fucked him raw in front of the guys who were there. He pulled out and let two anonymous tops fuck him no questions asked one after the other. They both unloaded in his ass and then “his top” gave him a 3rd load. So he got 3 loads in 20 minutes and two of those loads were from complete strangers. Pretty hot, eh?

At this point I knew the guy was pretty serious so I asked him if he’d be interested in doing a blog to record his journey. He’s at this critical stage where he’s making major decisions and experimenting. Luckily he was up for it. I checked and TeenCumhole.com was available so I bought it for him and set it up a few days later. One of the things I was thinking as I bought the domain for him was that when you give someone a label, they usually live up to it. Call someone smart or stupid or “hot” or ugly and that’s how they see themselves and they tend to live up to the labels other people give them. In this case I was giving him a label – Teen Cumhole – and I fully expect he’ll adopt it and become a full-fledged cumhole.

In the past week he’s branching out, going to the bathhouse on his own, finding other tops to hookup with. I get the sense that this is the beginning of his sex life and he’s not doing it timidly – he’s learning to swim by jumping in the deep end. Not bad for a guy who only turned 18 a few months ago…

Needless to say, make sure you check out his blog – TeenCumhole.com. Give him encouragement and if you’re in the San Diego area and want to give him a load, contact him and make it happen. Or better yet, organize a gangbang for him…

Load 2010-5

This afternoon I was horny and the black guy I fucked last week was online. He said he’d come over but then it took him FOREVER to get here. I had just given up and started looking for someone else when he rang the buzzer.

Thanks to a pill and looking at other profiles, I was rock hard when he arrived and so when I stripped down I was literally ready to go and he started giving me a blowjob. Thing is I had managed to catch the head of my dick on my zipper and it was a little tender and he kept grazing the tender part with his teeth, so I sorta called that off and went to rimming his hole.

He loves it when I rim him and he’s got a nice ass. The funny part is I like rimming him, but it’s always a little musky to the point where I never really want to felch him after I’ve blown my load, but that comes later… So I rimmed him for a little bit and he was spreading his ass cheeks wanting me to get in deeper.

Then I was just ready to fuck. I lubed up my dick and put a little on his ass and he flipped over. He had been on his back, and I sorta wanted to fuck him that way, or on his side or something… But he wanted to be on all fours on the bed, so that’s how we fucked.

I usually have to worry about tiring out a bit when I fuck, but standing up to fuck isn’t nearly as exhausting as having the bottom on his belly, so I was able to fuck him for a while sorta pretty much just casually fucking his hole. But that wasn’t going to get me off, so eventually I climbed up on top of him to fuck him.

He’s got a big beefy muscle butt on him and that’s usually a problem, but somehow it isn’t an issue with him. So fucked him for a while on his belly and it felt good, but when I turned sorta 90 degrees it felt incredible and that got me to cum pretty quickly. It was actually one of the most intense orgasms I felt for a while. It was like a whole body orgasm… Very cool that way.

I then slowly fucked his cummy ass until my dick popped out of his hole. We talked for a bit and then he started jacking off and wanted me to suck his nipple. I was fine with that, but then when he wanted me to pinch his other nipple I said ‘no’. I don’t really like bottoms who tell me what to do and this was the 2nd time he’s done it. Then just as he was literally about to cum he guided my hand over to his nipple. Whatever… I pinched his nipple a bit and he came.

The whole “do this”, “do that” thing doesn’t really do it for me. That’s my job, not the bottom’s. He’s a good fuck, it’s just getting him off that’s a bit of a pain. So we’ll see – it’ll probably be longer than a week next time…

Load 2010-4

OK, I’m at a measly 4 loads this year. It’s sorta pathetic, but I’ve got a life and it interferes with seeding hole… On completely the opposite side of that spectrum is “BareWhore24″ who is the bottom I kept referring to in my MAL write ups as “the hot piece of meat everyone wanted to fuck”. Well, on January 30th I gave him his 90th load of the year. That’s right – he’s averaging 3 loads a day and if he can keep it up he’ll get over 1,000 loads of cum in his ass this year. He’s being a good cumdump and telling the world about his exploits. You can find him on Twitter and he’s got a blog as well. (And if you want to fuck him he’s BBWhore24 on BarebackRT).

We’d been going back and forth about hooking up – almost did it at MAL, but it didn’t happen. So when we got back to NY we decided to fuck and film it. The first weekend he couldn’t do it, so we did it the second weekend.

When he got here he was hot as ever. But it his interaction with me was a little curious – when I went to kiss him he didn’t seem to want to kiss so I gave up on that really quickly. It’s not like I was trying to make out with him – just break the ice a little. That’s fine – he was there just to get fucked… But it was sort of a continuation of something I’d felt at MAL – there’s a side of him in e-mails and texts that’s really warm to me, but in person he’s sorta detached. I really don’t know what’s behind it, but the worst case scenario is that I’m just a notch on his bedpost and I’m absolutely fine being a notch on his bedpost if it gets my cum in his hole

He stripped down to a t-shirt, jockstrap and white socks and put on a hood he brought with him (identical to one I already had). Then he got on the bed with his ass in the air waiting for me and my bf to finish getting ready to film him. Needless to say seeing this just laying there wanting my dick and cum was pretty sweet…

I finish up what I’m doing and then pull out my dick and he gets off the bed to suck my dick….

That went on for literally a minute and it just wasn’t doing it for me. To really get me in the mood I need hole, so I had him get on the bed on all fours and I ate him out. It’s curious ’cause in his write up of our hookup on his blog he said…

Two minutes later he started to lick my asshole. Usually I am not really into having me cunt eaten out, it actually pretty much bores me. But he had the most amazing technique ever – felt so fucking good….

I guess I should thank that guy on 15th Street so many years ago (‘97?) who gave me a new perspective on rimming by chewing and sucking on my hole…

The funny part was I could sorta tell that he wasn’t totally into it. Bottoms almost never just silently lay there. I usually get some sort of feedback out of them and with him it was like he was indifferent to it. But honestly, I didn’t really care. He had an awesome hole and I liked rimming it (as much as I like rimming there are holes I don’t really get into).

Rimming gets me hard faster than anything else but with him it wasn’t like I even needed to jack my dick – it was just bouncing up and down and rock hard. In fact I didn’t want to jack too much ’cause I was afraid I’d get too close to cumming.

I took my time ’cause I wanted to get good footage of eating his ass, but eventually I had had my fill. I got up, lubed my dick and started fucking him.

He (obviously) has a good hole (you don’t get fucked that much if you don’t), but while I was fucking him I was thinking too much about the camera and the shot and not enough about actually cumming in his ass, so I fucked him for a while but it got to the point where I started overheating (with the lights, etc.) and I had to take a break. [He was kind in his write up and didn't mention me needing a break.]

Taking a break is usually pretty deadly for me. Once I lose it I lose it, but this was my lucky day and it helped that I had a truly hot bottom laying there waiting for my dick. What was sorta sweet was at one point I wasn’t hard and he started sucking on my cock and I got the sense that he was perfectly OK with sucking a soft cock. Most bottoms get turned off when the top isn’t hard.

Eventually I took off my shirt to cool down, got a hardon again, and went back to fucking. This time I really didn’t give a shit about the camera and just concentrated on fucking him and cumming his hole. I was pounding away at his hole. At first he was tightening up his ass to make it feel good for me, then I think it was too much for him to keep it up so I felt him go loose. It was a completely different sensation for me as a top, but it still felt good.

It took a little while for me to get my load and then when I felt it coming it took a while for me to actually unload in him, but he did get it – and a pretty big load too… When I pulled out I told him to see if he could push a little out. Next thing I knew there was like this huge load coming out. I didn’t want him to lose the load, so I pushed as much back in with my fingers as I could, but there was cum all over his ass. I love to felch a load, so I dove in and cleaned all of my cum off his ass. I still wanted him to keep the load, so I didn’t suck any cum out, but I was tempted to… My fingers were still coated with a lot of thick jizz, so I had him lick it off. At first I don’t think he knew what I was doing, but as soon as he figured out there was cum on my fingers he lapped it up like it was his last supper.

We then handled the paperwork for the video and he got dressed and left. As he was leaving it was like he was studying the apartment. We’re in a small(ish) rental while we try to buy a new place and on top of that our cleaning guy left town about a month ago so the place is messy (anyone want a cleaning job?) I’ve had bottoms get a little offended when I commented on the state of their apartments. I never care whether a guy has a messy apartment, but being observed like that I saw a bit of what they must feel when I write stuff here…

All in all a really good fuck. I’ll work on the video and get it up later – though with everything I’ve got on my plate, it may take a while…