i’d like to add (even tho, i’m pretty late to the game) that rawtop posts video of himself. And that to me, gives some legitimacy to what rawtop says.

the other interesting thing I got off your blog, rawtop, was the calle lorde referral. I’m going to check that place out and hopefully it’ll be cool.

Back in the day when I still occasionally used rubbers, I always used the thinnest rubbers I could get and almost always used oil based lube, and I always lubed my dick before putting on the condom - and I never had a condom break on me…

What lubing your dick first does accomplish is that the rubber will slide up and down on your dick and it will wind up usually covering half your dick or less as it gradually slides down your dick (a few times I’d pull out and find it clinging to the head of my dick). But it never actually broke.

Plus, a thin condom would rip even faster than a thick one simply because it’s thinner.

Doherfucker, thank you for your comments. We too tried to comment on COBT’s site, but did not have the time nor energy to create an account. IF all this is meant to be democratic, we say - let freedom ring. But again, the shit that some bare tops do is just fucked up! Nuff said.

Anyway, cut to a week later, i’m reading Confessions and he decribes my physical appearance, where I live, time of night, a couple of the things we said…he was writing about me…but he MADE UP MOST OF THE STORY. According to his account I was begging him to fuck me…more like the other way around. He’s a homely, sad, pudgey fucker who needs lessons on giving a BJ.

Hope this online life is giving him the satisfaction his real life never will.

Jesse

What rawTOP described with the condom happened exactly like he said. The rubber basically got bunched up at the base of his cock once he was done with me. So at least there is truth in what he says.

“fiction or not, my site is 50 times more successful than yours and we both know that.”

For starters, he doesn’t deny it’s fiction. But he knows better than to say “50x more popular” ’cause we used to share stats and when he came back I added him back into my Google Analytics expecting him to do the same (he didn’t)…

When he was at the top of his game, not including the spikes in traffic he got from sites like gawker and queerty, he was getting about 900-1200 visits a day when i was getting 600-700 visits a day - that’s only about 50% more popular. Sure, there were spikes where he’d get a few thousand visits a day, but most of those people hated his guts and the spikes say more about the power of the sites that linked to him and not so much about his “popularity”.

Since I’ve added the stories section and the porn section and started fucking a bit more, my traffic has gone up considerably. Earlier this week I had 899 visits to the site, though that was largely due to traffic from being on the home page of the gay section at bestmaleblogs.com and it will go down a bit…

All in all, I’m happy with how things are going with the blog and don’t feel Confession’s blog threatens me in any way. He used to be cooperative and we’d send each other traffic. Now I send him 3 times more than he sends me. In the past month I’ve sent him over 1,000 visitors and he’s sent me 313 visitors.

The other thing that makes me convinced doherfucker is the same person as Confessions is the intensity and consistency of their arguements. Again… Whatever…

How very sad that this dirty laundry has been aired so publicly. Still, at least having a modest readership means that few people are likely to be discussing it.

It’s been lovely, but I really do have to go now.

This is probably the most attention you have gotten in months, and I accept your thanks for that.

This will be my last visit to this site.

Plus, people have been debating the truth/fiction thing regarding Confessions for a while now. It’s not a new topic - I just chimed in on it.

The aspect I didn’t put in my last comment ’cause I couldn’t phrase it properly at the time is that guys who bareback are being judged by society. I think the people passing judgments are somewhat misguided, but I guess it bothers me somewhat that people would make an opinion about bareback tops in general based on reading some fiction on a blog they assumed was true.

Confessions’ writing style has always been a bit hyped. He used to tell me one-on-one that the details weren’t always as fantastic as they sounded (for example - plenty of time passing for the bottom to say ‘no’ and saying nothing, but when it was written up the time element was missing and it came off as non-consensual.)

Let’s make it clear what’s fiction and only be judged on what we actually do. Not that I feel it’s necessary to for society to understand us, but at least when there are spikes of publicity they should be realistic - not based on fiction. Confessions is all about getting publicity that confuses people’s understanding of us. I no longer feel that’s a good thing…

No rawtop - I dont have the extra time to create fake blog sites and reply to your bile via a hidden personality. I emailed you about this topic - no need for me to make it public…

Or I can, but that would be giving you way too much publicity.

I really dont mind your post now that I re-read it…because not only have I dealt with worse, but I dont care enough beyond this posting.

I’ve read your comment and am still not convinced that you’re not motivated out of envy or because there are similarities in what you both do.

If you allowed people to leave comments without forcing them to sign up to google, then I wouldn’t have had to create an account this morning.

Plenty of us read blogs without either feeling the need to comment all the time or when we do the blogs aren’t always insistent on having a registered googler sign in first. Yours does, so I signed up and left a comment.

I’m not bareback top, but seeing as though you already seem to have trust issues in believing that your fellow men tell the truth I wouldn’t expect you to believe me.

How many other bloggers are you going to start accusing of being economical with the truth? I hope whatever it takes to raise your self esteem from this exercise is working. Pity it’s at the expense of others’ integrity.

I think I’ll stop reading your blog now. I’m not a fan of negativity.

There are a lot of guys who are much piggier than I am who are premier barebackers - I know I’m not in their league.

And remember, I was fine with ‘Confessions’ last time around. In our private e-mails he was real and actually a bit vulnerable - I liked him…

Now I don’t know what to think of him - I’m still trying to figure that out. What I do know is that at least portions of what he writes are fiction - so I said as much…

And my current theory is that the comment by ‘doherfucker’ (above) was left by ‘Confessions’… The profile was just registered and parts of it sound a lot like an e-mail he sent me. Whatever…

Both of you can exist in the same stratosphere, if you want to. I suspect that there’s a touch of envy here and just because your own condom experiences don’t match his do not make him a liar, embellisher or fake.

There’s more than enough arse out there that wants filling with cum. Why not be a little nicer to your fellow fucker instead of writing a post that sucks (and not in a good way).

I enjoy your blog, but if you’re going to concentrate on trying to derail ‘the competition’ instead of writing about your sex life then your readership will get bored.

Maybe your pissed that he got laid more. I don’t know.

Still, you’ve written many great blog entries and they do come across as very realistic. Keep up the good work.