But then I noticed this hot little latin bottom who was being really friendly with me. Turned out he did my ‘intake’ - and even gave me his business card “in case I had questions”. Now here’s the thing… Was he being friendly or flirty? I’m horrible with stuff like this… but he was completely fuckable. I’d totally love to seed the ass of someone who’s job it is to promote safe sex… Do I send him an e-mail or just drop it?

Then the doctor came in and while not as judgmental as the lesbian I saw last time, just wouldn’t let go of the fact that I fucked raw… Whatever. He was still nice enough and I feel like supporting them (by bringing my ‘business’ to them) is helping the community.

So I’ll find out in a week and a half whether I’ve got any STDs…

One other thing that was sorta funny… There was a jar full of condoms at the clinic with a sign asking people to not take more than two. Seemed like a half-hearted gesture to me.

It’s too bad… He had a nice hole (visually, and nice to rim - not so nice to fuck), though his body was so-so, but I knew that going into it. Bottom line, his hole didn’t feel all that great when I was fucking him and he didn’t seem all that into me fucking him. Hell, I was making more noise when I was eating his hole than he was.

Another weird thing was that he had no curtains on his windows and we were fucking on his bed, right in front of the window. Didn’t bother me, but he must have quite a reputation with his neighbors.

Stopped by and fucked the black guy on my way to work this morning. Told him it needed to be quick ’cause I was running a little late.

I didn’t really rush or anything, just let myself into his place, found him on his bed, pulled off his underwear, rimmed him for a couple of minutes, greased up my dick with Vaseline, fucked him, shot my load, pulled out, washed up, and even pet the dog on my way out… All in 9 minutes (from the time I parked the car to the time I started it back up).

I love simple, no fuss fucks…

I really fucked up - I managed to delete the real blog instead of the test blog… All I could do was restore what feedburner had cached, which wasn’t much - most of the stuff from this year, plus a couple of old posts. If I had just waited to delete the test blog then I would have had all the posts on my new server in HTML format, but no… I managed to delete everything with no backup. Oh well - it’s done, not much I can do about it.

In the unlikely event that you’ve saved any of my posts, I’d appreciate it if you’d send them to me… rawtop@yahoo.com I’ll be restoring the posts of hookups for the past year from memory as I have the time.

Otherwise, I’ve migrated over to a new domain and it was a pretty straight forward process (except for deleting the blog). The new URL for the blog is http://www.rawtop.com/blog/ though if you go to the old URL all the links will take you to the new URL, so people (and search engine spiders) will eventually get what’s going on…

If you’re a blogger who has a link to my blog. First, thank you. And second, I’d appreciate it if you could change the link to point to http://www.rawtop.com/ - The link text would look something like this:

<a href="http://www.rawtop.com/">rawTOP's Bareback Blog</a>

Stopped by to see the black guy on my way to work this morning. He kept me waiting for 5 minutes in my car outside his place, and then had me watch some low-budget bareback porn while he finished getting ready (Hello - I'm trying to make this quick and get to work!). When I moved his pillow I realized he had it wrapped in plastic under the pillow cover. That seemed odd, but whatever…

Then he comes out and has his PA in and this leather "thing" - it was sorta like what you'd use to tie a bottom's hands to the side of his waist, but it was lacking the restraints - just went around each leg and around his waist. His PA was cool - I think he had a 0 gauge in (though he said it was 00 gauge).

He mentioned that he hoped I had some piss for him which wasn't something I was expecting, and then went down on my dick (PA and all). I wasn't planning on fucking him with my PA since I didn't want to dig up shit (which the PA seems pretty good at doing), but obviously he was expecting it, so I figured "what the hell"… I got up, he got on his back, put some Vaseline on his hole and I pushed the ring in and then my dick. It's a big ring and I had to take it slow, but eventually it was in there.

We fucked for a bit with him on his back, but I wanted to get off and the quickest way for me to do that is with him on his belly. So I had him flip over (while my dick stayed in his ass). DAMN! I had forgotten how good his ass felt this way (it has been a month since I last fucked him). His ass felt like these rock hard globes - and his hole was nice and tight.

But pretty quick it went from nirvana to hell… It was like my PA was pinching my dick and it hurt a lot. I tried a few more slow strokes to see if it would reposition itself, but it didn't and it needed to come out. I started taking it out, but that started hurting him 'cause he was tight, so I had to take it out slowly, but my pain was pretty consistent…

Finally, it was out and I got the ring off my dick (not much of any "dirt" - just some Vaseline clinging to it). I shoved back in, and resumed my enjoyment of his hole. I gotta say, his ass and his body are pretty great (not incredible, but just really, really nice) and I got off in no time - dumping my load in his hole.

I felt like I needed to piss, so I headed for the bathroom. He wanted me to piss on him, but only a few drops came out (it's hard to piss with a hardon). Then I noticed when the PA "pinched" my dick, it managed to create a little red dot/bruise/blister on the head of my dick. So I learned my lesson and won't fuck a tight bottom with my PA anymore…

Looking back on it I realized he had set everything up for a full-bore watersports scene - there was plastic under the sheets on the bed and everything. The problem is that I rarely take off my clothes when I'm there, so I wouldn't have wanted to roll around in piss in clothes I wear to work. Plus I didn't have time for clean up. Maybe if I had more time, but it was pretty unrealistic given my time constraints. But I think he was just hungry for it, and thought he could fit too much in a short amount of time.

Still, he's a great bottom - I love how eager he is and how good it feels to fuck him.

Saw a post on Craigslist the other day - a guy was hosting his friend who was blindfolded taking all neg loads. I vetted it a bit to make sure they really were only taking neg loads, but wasn't really sure if I wanted to go. At the last minute I made the decision to go - I had seen ads on CL where the guy did similar scenes twice before and almost went to the first one, even with this one I wasn't absolutely sure I should go - but I hadn't fucked in days and needed to seed hole… I had to be somewhere and didn't have a lot of time, but had just enough to swing by, fuck for a few minutes and drop a load.

I got there and it was an "OK" building (nothing special). I went in and the apartment was a simple studio. The host was attractive, but had an average build. The bottom looked excellent - at least what I could see of him (doggy style on the bed). This almost trollish guy was playing with him, but didn't seem to be doing very well. When I got the PA out of my dick and went over to the bed he moved out of the way to let me fuck the guy. The bottom was pretty hot - had a nice sorta muscular body. I wasn't completely hard, but needed to make it quick and was just hard enough to get inside him, so I just shoved in. Then the almost trollish guy starts touching my pecs, but I just pushed him aside - I needed to focus on the bottom, not get distracted by some guy who didn't turn me on in the least.

Doggy style wasn't working for me, so I pushed him forward, down on the bed, and then it really started feeling excellent. At one point he raised his ass up a bit and it didn't feel as good, so I pushed him down a bit but he went too far down, then I raised his hips up to just where I wanted them and he kept the position perfectly. To me, stuff like that is what makes a bottom a great bottom… They're completely willing to do the little things that make a difference to their top.

In the middle of fucking I hear the buzzer ring, and another guy joins us, but I had my back to the door and couldn't see him. I just stayed focused on fucking. I wanted to dump my load as quickly as possible. I'm guessing it was maybe 3 minutes before I came - not long at all.

I got up, and with my dick hanging out of my jeans (I hadn't taken off any clothes, just unzipped), I went to the bathroom to try to piss, but couldn't with a hardon, so just washed my dick, put the PA back into my dick, and tucked everything back in my pants. As I was leaving I saw the other guy who had come in - a stocky but attractive latin guy who looked like he was in his 20s. The almost trollish guy was fucking the bottom… The host asked me if I felt better now (weird question), I mumbled something and left. Ironically, I had to go to a church to give a presentation (not on a religious topic though).

The next day I asked the bottom how many loads he got and he said "about 10". I know he was hoping for a lot more, but still, 10 loads in a single night in a neg bottom isn't bad at all…

Yes, this means I've fucked 8 guys in 9 days…

If you follow the blog you'll remember I posted about an Asian guy who had contacted me on Manhunt who was coming town and was interested in a possible 3-way. Well, we didn't do a 3-way, but he did come over. He was hot - almost the type of Asian jock my bf would be into.

I wasn't really sure what he was up for and what he wasn't, which is why I didn't push too hard for the 3-way with someone I didn't know. But we IM'd just before he came over and it turns out the pics he had sent me with him in leather were more than a passing fantasy… He's versatile and under the training of an Asian dom top back home. From what I could tell he's pretty serious in the S/M scene… We talked a bit about what toys I had to play with (back from 9+ years ago - before I met my bf). When he heard I had a PA he was completely hooked. (What is it with all the bottoms wanting a big heavy PA knocking around inside them?) I asked him if he was into hoods and he said yes… So we were on.

He got here a little late 'cause he managed to get on the wrong subway, but when he came in he was hot - possibly better than his pics. My bf was out walking the dogs. He was a little hesitant, but when things settled down a little and it was clear all was good, I put the hood on him and then took off his clothes. He had a nice body - not all that tight, but still really nice. I also put puppy mitts on him and locked them together with a really heavy padlock. This pic isn't him, but he looked something like this…

I pushed him back, lifted his legs and dove into his hole… And then it hit me - this really bitter taste… It took me a while to place the taste, but finally I realized it was grapefruit. Then I realized what had happened - he was staying in one of the best hotels in NY and I'm guessing they had a grapefruit body wash in the bathroom and he used it not realizing it would make him taste sour. Sorta a dumb move for the hotel - after all, people on vacation want to have sex, but it's a stuffy hotel and it probably never crossed their mind…

I figured I could get used to the taste, so I dove back into his hole. He had told me he had recently gotten into fisting and his hole looked like it had seen some use. But that was a bit of a turn on since it's not easy to find slutty Asian guys…

It wasn't too much longer and I climbed up on the bed and started, carefully, putting the ring into him. It took a while to get positioned properly and I was being so careful putting the ring in I actually started going soft, but once the ring was in, the dick wasn't coming out easily - it sort held my dick in his hole - which was a new experience for me… And once I was in there it didn't take long to get hard. He had put his legs through his arms (remember his hands are tied together), so fucking him was pretty easy, but fucking him in that position didn't quite feel right, so I turned him over while my dick was still inside of him and with him on his belly started pounding away at his hole. He felt really great… His body was so silky smooth (the body wash wasn't all bad apparently), and his hole felt good… Didn't feel the PA so much, but it all felt really good and in no time I came in his ass.

When I pulled out, I reached over and grabbed a short billystick I had gotten out and put it in his hole, but then I smelled something. I had my glasses off, but then I saw what looked like a bunch of shit all around my PA. So I got up, told him I'd be a minute, and went into the bathroom to clean up. Let's just say it took a while to clean up. I had been worried that since he was in a hotel he wouldn't be able to clean out properly… Oh well, he was still a good fuck…

While I was cleaning up, my bf came in and when he saw him on the bed - he said sorta loudly - "I think you left someone tied up in here"… It was pretty funny.

Like a good S/M top, I came back and spent probably 45 minutes playing with him - used a sensation wheel on him (especially his dick), and a snake bite kit on his nipples… Just a slowly playing with him - since he was in sensory deprivation mode it was all about making him feel things he couldn't see. He seemed to like it - he was hard the entire time (actually he got hard the moment I put the hood on him and never went soft).

I then put my clothes back on, and took off the puppy mitts and then the hood. We layed there and cuddled while he jacked off. I always like it when I'm clothed and the guy is naked… It's a sensory thing…

We then chatted a little while, and he went and took a shower. While he was taking a shower my bf left and went over to the neighbor's to smoke up. When he came out he wanted to meet my bf, but didn't want to wait until my bf came back, so he left…

Next time I get a real S/M bottom I need to take it more seriously… Put in contacts, wear my executioner's hood, put the spike through my septum piercing… Maybe next time this guy's in town…

A week or two ago he contacted us on Adam4Adam and reminded us who he was. He's now in a relationship with a guy - they have an open relationship but the boyfriend thinks he's the only one seeding the guy's hole (that's a common theme in my hookups, isn't it?)

I had sorta forgotten what he looked like. I remembered him being a nice guy, and attractive enough that I wanted to have sex with him. My bf remembered that he was hairy… When he got here he was attractive enough - nice body - lean and thin…

He came in, went into the bedroom stripped off his clothes and got right to business. He sucked on both our cocks for a while and then we got him up on the bed (doggy-style) and I fucked him while he gave my bf a blowjob. I pounded away at his hole, but I was pretty tired and just couldn't find it in me to cum. So I turned him over to my bf to fuck. He put the guy's legs up and fucked him pretty well. I was laying off to the side jacking. When my bf said he was getting close the guy told him to get off 'cause he wanted to try something. He had my bf lay down and I could tell that he wanted to get double fucked. I told him it's best to have the guy with the biggest dick lay down, so he crawled on top of me and my bf got behind him. This time double fucking a bottom felt better than the last time. My bf was rubbing the right parts of my dick and the guy was doing his job of making sure he didn't move forward and have my dick pop out of his hole.

After a couple minutes of double fucking my bf came, and the guy started riding my dick solo. It felt like a really good blowjob only better 'cause it was an ass that was lubed with cum. I put him on his belly and fucked him some more, but was starting to realize I just wasn't going to be able to cum. I'd been working on a tight deadline all day and had only finished what I had to do like 10 minutes before he got there - I was tired and not really in the mood to fuck. On top of that the guy was a smoker and a moaner. Either one would have been OK, but when he moaned he expelled air that smelled like an ashtray.

I tried a bit more with him on his back, but gave up. While I still had my cock in him he jacked off and came really quickly. It seems there are guys like this guy and my bf who can cum on queue several times a day, but they have really small loads. On the other hand, I cum a lot, but can't always cum. I sorta perfer my "problem" over theirs - I like to know that the bottom got "bred" really well with lots of cum…

While he was getting dressed he was talking a mile a minute. It was sorta funny…

If you're counting - that's the 7th guy I've fucked in 8 days, but I've only cum in 3 of them…

In the last one that's his boyfriend's cum leaking out of his hole… The best part was he was fantasizing that I was the one fucking him while getting nailed by his boyfriend. Gotta love that…

He's started a blog about his efforts to negotiate the whole "Be 'faithful' to my bf while enjoing being young and horny" thing… The stories are about how he goes to sex clubs behind his bf's back and gets fucked with condoms and gives blowjobs and swallows, but (at this point) is only getting loads in his ass from his boyfriend.

The kid loves cum in his ass so I suggested he find a few fuckbuddies he can trust and start taking loads from them…

I gotta get out to San Francisco sometime to give him my load…

Hooked up with the Brazillian tonight. His boyfriend is away visiting his parents for the next week or so and he wants to get as many loads from me during that time as possible. He's such a good bottom - totally focused on getting fucked. He didn't even give me a blowjob - just kissed me when I came in the door, we stripped, got into bed, kissed a little more and up went his legs and my cock found it's home up his hole…

Kissing and fucking pretty much summed up the hookup. He's still doesn't want me to rim him, and when I went to suck his cock (nice, uncut and thick) he went soft. I know I'm not the best cocksucker, but seriously - I'm not that bad… I'm guessing he wants me to be a total top and my sucking dick killed that for him…

After I came in his ass we layed around and kissed and talked a little… He mentioned he really liked my body (go figure), and he asked if I'd be into doing a home video of me fucking him (I said I would if I could wear a mask). When I had arrived I had my PA in and immediately took it out 'cause I figured he wouldn't be interested in it and it might turn him off, but while we're talking he said he asked whether it was possible to fuck with it, and when he heard it was he said he wanted me to keep it in next time…

Which reminds me, the friend of a friend also wants me to fuck him with the new, bigger PA. He also is getting a little obsessed by the idea of me fucking him when he's already got a load in his ass from someone else, so he's turning out to be a good little pig.

Anyway, the point of all the cuddling and kissing was to get me in the mood to fuck again. I put it in a little more, but wasn't doing all that well, but then a little later I turned him on his belly and gave him another good solid fuck… That got him going - and he jacked himself off right after that. I tasted his cum (a bit bitter), then licked it up and got it all in my beard and let him lick it off my face…

So, with him looking to get fucked a lot this week, I shouldn't have a problem finding a hole to fuck whenever I need one…

One final note on boyfriends… Mine has been getting plenty of action lately - doing several hookups a week on his own, which makes me quite happy… The Brazillian had to use his boyfriend's computer the other day and found he had left open his "alternate" e-mail and there were a whole bunch of messages about ads on Craigslist… So his boyfriend is out sowing his oats too…

The other assumption in Las Vegas' comment is that most or many poz guys lie about their HIV status. That's an awefully cynical view of the world which I just refuse to subscribe to. On something as important as HIV I think most people are decent and tell the truth if asked a clear, direct question. I will agree that "Are you clean?" is a stupid question - because it's not clear and direct.

And as far as Seattle's "the only safe thing to do"… The answer to that is "not have sex" - everything else involves risk, which then means that all neg guys are naive for having sex. OK, that doesn't work, so let's start back at the beginning - risk reduction, in any form, helps.

It can take the body up to three months to make enough antibodies to be detectable on the HIV test, but most people will create enough antibodies in just 4 weeks after infection. This 4 week to 3 month time frame the window period. During the window period, the HIV test may not be able to detect infection. SO, you can be HIV POSITIVE, show negative on a test, and still be able to infect people.

Still think asking someone's status is risk reduction?

There are a shitload of guys out there that _know_ they're poz. If you don't ask them their status, then you won't know they're poz.

The fact that a few guys don't know their status is irrelevant. This is RISK REDUCTION, not risk elimination. Why is that hard for people to comprehend?

Let's say 50% of the guys you think of hooking up with are poz and 80% of those guys know they're poz (I'm pulling those numbers out of my ass — don't take them too literally - they'll actually vary for each person). If you don't ask their status, 50% of the guys you play with will be poz. If you do ask their status, then 10% of the guys you hookup with will be poz. That means you've had an 80% reduction in risk. Put another way, it means it will take you 5 times longer to become poz. During that time an effective vaccine could come out or at least there will be better treatments available… Or you might not become poz at all…

Asking is a form of risk reduction.

I guess the point is that a lot of people think that the harm reduction of just asking is so small given the number of guys who either don't know they're poz or who lie about it (particularly among guys who fuck around a lot bareback) that it's hardly worth it.

Yeah. And it helps as much as pulling out and douching.

20 year old - If the top really does pull out, then it is a form of risk reduction for the bottom (not the top). Though, if I were a bottom I'd be an idiot to make it my only form of risk reduction - but what we're talking about is multiple layers that add up to a fair amount of risk reduction.

When you repeatedly muliply fractions you get smaller and smaller numbers - that's the idea with risk reduction - if you practice multiple forms of it you can get a pretty decent reduction in risk.

Then there's the issue of how many poz guys really lie about their HIV status.

What does everyone thing about all this?

He said he was also up for getting fucked. His profile said "safe sex only", but we really didn't discuss how things would go. My profile gives a lot of hints that I want to bareback (without actually saying it in so many words). But apparently he didn't get the drift of what I was trying to communicate…

He gets here and he's a big guy, but attractive (nice face, muscular, but still pretty fat). It's clear from the onset that he's the type of guy who likes to be told what to do - verbally… My bf and I are pretty quiet when we're hooking up - we keep the chatter to the minimum and just take what we want and only tell the bottom what to do when it's necessary - not for every little thing. So we get him in the bedroom and start taking off our clothes, he sucks me a little, then I get on the bed lay down and have him blow me. I knew that was what he was here for… He gets me nice and hard and starts throwing his head onto my dick trying to get it as deep in his throat as possible. It was sorta cool - the guy was definitely an excellent cocksucker.

Meanwhile my bf is behind him, feeling up his dick and his hole. He then put some Gun Oil on his dick and shoved it up the guy's ass. The guy really starts groaning at that point - he's gagging on my dick and has another cock in his ass… My bf pulls out after a minute and the guy says "A condom would be nice". My bf and I look at each other wondering where that came from and so my bf reaches over gets a condom and puts it on and fucks him some more, but then pulls out and goes into the bathroom to clean up.

We then both sit on the bed and have him go back and forth between our dicks, but he keeps asking questions - like "what do you guys like to do?" and shit like that… I told him I like to fuck but didn't mention that what I really wanted to do was cum in his ass. I go soft just at the mention of condoms, so by this point he's not able to get it hard by sucking it, so he's mostly working on my bf.

I get up, go around behind him and feel his hole. I didn't feel like rimming him, but just feeling him up got me hard enough that I could fuck. I slap my cock a few times on the top of his butt and then rub it on his hole. He pushes back making it clear he was up for getting fucked. I get some lube, and push in (raw of course). It's a nice hole and actually I felt like I might be able to cum right after I got into him - his hole was rubbing my dick just right. But it was a little bit of an awkward position, so I didn't cum. Again he mentions that "a condom would be nice" but I tell him I go soft with condoms. Once again, the mention of condoms put me off my game and I had a hard time getting back into him. I then had him stand up and bend over to suck my bf (he had been on his knees with me kneeling behind him). I got in him again and fucked him a bit, but it just wasn't happening for me.

At this point he wanted to get on the bed with his head hanging over the side and have us bang his mouth. We did it for a bit and while I was face fucking him, my bf raised up his legs, took off his underwear that he had put back on, and fucked him raw. But I was going soft by this point - I knew I wasn't going to get a load in his ass, so didn't have a lot of motivation… My bf pulled out and got on top of him and used his face as a hole. I told my bf to cum, he asked the guy if he swallowed and the guy said yes, so my bf fucked his face and dumped a load down his throat.

My bf needed to get ready for a meeting, so he left and I played with the guy. I told him I'd cum with a blow job fewer than 5 times in my life and he said he wanted to try and make me cum. I figured I didn't have anything to lose - as long as he knew the odds, I might as well get the blowjob. He worked really hard on my shaft while I played with his hole (he had put his underwear on yet again and I had to pull them down a bit to get to his hole). I got hard enough and at times it that I felt like I might cum, but I never could actually cum despite the fact that he tried, and tried and tried to get me to cum (but I just don't cum that way).

He felt really bad about not being able to get me to cum - I think it hit at his core since he sees himself as a primo cocksucker. When he did finally give up, we laid around for a couple of minutes and chatted. Turns out he's bisexual - been in relationships with guys in the past, but currently married to a woman who understands that he's hooking up with guys on the side. He even offered to rim my hole for me - said straight guys who eat cunt do it better than gay guys. Not so sure about that one and I wasn't into getting my hole eaten out…

Nice guy, but since I can't cum in his ass, don't know that we'll hookup with him again unless my bf wants to…

Last night I fucked the hottest guy I've fucked since the Korean guy nearly a year ago - he was a perfect 10 - cute, short, latin, tight body, tattoos, great ass, wonderful hole, nicely dressed, and interested in both me and my bf.

Once again, I found him on Adam4Adam (I'm starting to love that site). His profile said he was neg but didn't say anything one way or the other about safe sex, and I was pleasantly surprised when we was game to do a 3-way with my bf.

When he showed up he was really hot and really well dressed, we went into the bedroom and he got right down to business by immediately getting out of all his clothes… He had on a 2ist thong and it looked better on him than it does in this picture:

IF this guy goes to sex parties and sex clubs I think he'd be the ass that everyone would want to dump their load into (you know the type - other guys may get raw dick in their ass, but the hottest guy in the room gets the loads provided he's not a prima donna) - his ass was that good… A hard, perky, real bubble butt that didn't have an ounce of fat on it.

We made out a little, I sucked his cock briefly (nice, long and uncut), he sucked my bf's cock and then mine a little. I ate out his ass - his hole felt like he had just been fucked or had used a dildo on it - slightly puffy lips, but since he was standing up and pretty short I couldn't really get in there and eat him out the way I wanted to… I put some gun oil on my dick and while we were still standing up playing, I went up behind him and slide my dick up in him as he was bent over giving my bf a blow job. It felt nice - took my dick real easy without being too loose.

I fucked him slow for a while as we stood there. Then I pulled out so we could reposition ourselves on the bed. He cleaned my dick off with the towel and then didn't want to lay on the bed until we put the towel down. (The fact that he's a clean freak is why I don't think he goes to sex parties, 'cause if he did go to sex parties he'd be poz by now). I pushed his legs up, put a little more gun oil on my dick and went in - all the way to the hilt… He felt good. We kissed a little while I was fucking him… I wasn't really pounding his so much as going in as deep as I could…

My bf looked a little left out at this point, so I gave him a turn… It was hot watching the guy take my bf's dick… After pounding him for a while my bf asked me if I wanted him to cum. I said I did, so he asked the guy whether he wanted the cum inside him and he said yes - so he got he the first load.

Now that he was lubed with my bf's cum, I had him turn over (my favorite position with small guys), put a little more lube on my dick and shoved in. His legs were spread and his but was these two perky mounds of muscle. That, and how his hole felt was a complete turn on. I fucked him for a few minutes and felt it coming… I had a 4 day load in me and he got all of it - wave after wave of cum.

I rolled onto my side with my dick still in him and he started jacking his dick. A minute or so later he came. I swirled my finger around in it and tasted it… We layed there for a few more minutes chatting - found out where he lived, what he did for a living, stuff like that… Nice guy.

Clean freak that he was, he wanted to take a shower, so I'm not sure whether he went home with our loads in his ass or not…

All in all, the best hookup in nearly a year. I hope he's hungry for cum and becomes a regular fuck.

While I haven't been the biggest slut, I've been barebacking for about 10 years now - some of the guys I know were poz, others I assume were poz (though none lately), plus there's all the guys who were complete strangers…

I used to have a gay doctor who was one of the first doctors to treat AIDS patients in the early '80s and over the years saw a lot of poz guys. He made the comment to me one time that he doesn't know anyone who became positive by topping - at least no one he believed.

Yes, I know it's possible for me to become poz. There have been some threads on places like BNSkin that brought up the topic and one or two guys will chime in and say that's how they became poz. But that's one or two guys in a community of hundreds (if not thousands) of poz guys…

Bottom line, being a raw top is relatively safe. Get used to it…

Answer: For starters, you don't automatically become poz when you start barebacking. The fact of the matter is that some of us have been barebacking for many years and are still negative (in my case 10 years on and off). Even bareback bottoms may stay negative if they're careful.

What is important is for your friend to figure out what he feels is "acceptable level of risk". It comes down to risk, reward, and regret… 5 or 10 years from now if your friend regrets that he didn't take more risks sexually, then he should have taken more risks. But at the same time he needs to balance that with an understanding that he is choosing to take risks and he may become poz as a result.

We take risks in many aspects of our lives and many every day things can kill or disable us if things go wrong. I don't understand why we expect our sex lives to be risk-free when we accept risk in other parts of our lives. It's hypocritical for a society to accept and even glorify some things that are risky and stigmatize others.

So tell your friend to find a balance between enjoyment and risk, and be sure he's not getting into barebacking for the wrong reasons (depression or drug usage). If he takes it slow and is picky about who fucks him he can probably stay neg for quite a long time, but he needs to find the right tops. He can do blindfolded "pump-and-dumps" and still stay negative IF he can find negative tops. 1) Ask about HIV status (don't assume) and also ask when the last test was - I find most guys don't ask that and it's really important. 2) Go with guys who take less risk themselves (i.e. total tops are at less risk than versatile guys, and guys who hookup less frequently are less risk than those who go to sex parties). 3) Stay away from guys who do hard drugs.

What's important is that he not just throw in the towel. The more people tell him barebacking will end with him becoming poz, the more likely he is to just give up and "accept" that he's going to become poz anyway, so he might as well not try to stay neg.

But be there for him in a supportive manner - help him make choices that are less risky but still satisfy his needs.

Answer: If it doesn't appeal to you, then don't worry about it. But at the same time try to not be so judgmental.

Ever watch someone on TV ski down the face of a mountain after jumping out of a helicopter? Ever drive fast on the highway (or for that matter travel in a car on a highway)? Ever run across a street against the light when there's oncoming traffic and you might trip and fall?

The point is that we all take risks every day - some of which could kill or disable us. We take some of the risks for no other reason than to enjoy ourselves in the moment. It's no different with sex.

The difference with sex is that we're biologically programmed to want to inseminate and be inseminated. If that weren't the case we wouldn't be the dominant species on the planet.

So stop and think for a moment why it is that you're asking the question about this one particular risky activity when you probably don't think twice about extreme sports, or fatalities on highways, or people who run in front of oncoming traffic…

So I come home to him cleaning and after I grab myself a glass of wine and relax a bit I go into the bedroom where he's cleaning my bf's desk. I initiate and we play around just a little… The guy is a smoker - a serious smoker (unfiltered cigarettes he rolls himself). He's tried to mask it by chewing gum or something, but it's not all that effective - and the issue is that he likes to frenchh kiss with tounge and it's just not working for me. I like the guy and think of him as a friend, so I play along a little. About the time he's sucking my dick my bf comes in to see what we're up to, and gets his dick sucked a bit too before he has to go back and check on dinner that's cooking on the stove.

We play a bit more - I feel up his hole and when I get to his dick I realize he's into CBT 'cause he's got a neoprene ring around his dick and balls. Then my bf wants a cigarette which is a production since he rolls them, so we take a break and then have dinner…

After dinner he's cleaning a bit more and we play some more. I finally get my cock in his ass, but I'm not totally hard 'cause the chemistry is off for me. My bf didn't join us this time so he went out and got him. My bf wasn't totally into the situation so he did like I did the other day and just layed there and was one of those "do me" tops… I got it up enough to fuck him while he was sucking my bf, but it didn't last all that long and I didn't cum. After that he rode my bf but my dick never got hard again…

So, it was and OK experience, and I don't mind a little affection and maybe a blowjob next time he comes over, but that's about all I'm interested in…

When the piercing is stretched sufficiently, I'll definitely move up to at least a 0 gauge ring, not sure if I want to go up to 00 gauge or not. A year or so ago I wanted to buy a bigger ring and I liked the size of the 00 ga ring when I looked at it in the store, so I bought it thinking with a little stretching I could jump from 2 ga to 00 ga. WRONG. The thing's a real whopper. When I put it in the head of my dick it filled my entire urethra, which means if I ever go up to that size then I'll have two equal size holes in my dick. I then bought a 0 ga ring, but couldn't quite get things stretched out enough to fit that one either since my 2 ga wasn't a true 2 ga. But if I wear the new ring for a while I should be able to go up to 0 ga, then I'll have to figure out whether I really want to go to 00 or not. Once you stretch out a PA it takes forever for the hole to get smaller.

Pics of the new baby will come in a few days…

I was in a mellow mood last night - sorta felt grounded and centered - it was nice. I got myself a drink, sat down and tried to figure out the details of my new cell phone and watched a little TV. As usual, I checked out the hookup sites, but wasn't really looking to hookup since I usually can't perform all that well when I've had a few drinks in me.

I got a note from a guy on Adam4Adam who's been wanting to hookup with me and my bf for a while now. I told him it would just be a 1-on-1 with me since my bf had just jacked off. He was good with that so after a little back and forth he came over. I was worried that he'd be dirty after a day of work (since he was coming from work), but he said he had douched at work (that's a well prepared bottom!). He shows up and he's more or less like his pics except he had a bit of a belly that wasn't evident in his pics, and he had this big long pony tail that went half way down his back that you couldn't see in the pics. I'm not against pony tails, but this guy was balding so he would have looked a lot hotter if he went with really short hair…

I figured, what the hell - he seemed like a nice guy, he wasn't disgusting, and despite the unexpected "items" he still seemed fuckable. But mentally I set my limits… This was going to be a "no recip" hookup. We took off our clothes I laid down on the bed and he started by giving me a blow job. I was just going to be one of those "do me" tops that lays there and expects the bottom to service him. After a while I started playing with his ass - seemed nice enough. He was shoving my cock down as far as he could get it - trying to deep throat me. He changed positions so he could get it deeper in his his throat which put his ass closer to me so I played with his ass some more and finger fucked him. I was in a mellow mood, so I wasn't in any rush - just let him gag himself on my dick… He seemed to be having fun…

Blow jobs are fine and all, but eventually I get bored of them, so finally I got up and he knew what that meant. He layed face down, ass up on the bed. I spit on his hole and my dick a little and shoved in. He had no problem taking me. Usually I'm all wound up when I fuck - nervous energy. And in those cases I like to cum somewhat quickly 'cause if it goes on for too long I run out of energy and can't cum. But last night I didn't feel like I was really in a hurry. Honestly I didn't know if I could cum - I just let things progress naturally and figured if it happened, it happened. If he didn't get my cum, at least he would get a good fuck.

But eventually, I could feel it coming. His ass was stroking my dick just right… I kept in that groove and after a while I came in his ass. I had been fucking him longer than I usually fuck guys, so I just collapsed on the bed next to him and we had a quiet moment until we both caught our breath…

All in all, it was an interesting fuck - very mellow. Would I hookup with him again? Probably not, but you never know… If only he'd cut off the pony tail…