I show up at his place, the door’s ajar and I saw a naked guy through the window in the living room, so I just went in… There was theater memorabilia all over the place, and the guy looked like his pic, but wasn’t really my type (bodywise – which wasn’t visible in his pic). He wasn’t skanky or anything, just not my type…

I figured I’d give it a shot anyway, so I had him suck me. When I was sorta hard we tried fucking. Every time I’d pull out he’s clean off my dick…

Finally it was obvious it just wasn’t happening, so I told him I wanted to take a piss, clean up, and go. He asked if I wanted to piss on him, I said sure… I positioned myself over him, and he started sucking on my dick. It took a while for me to be able to piss with a 1/2 hardon, so I just gave it time and relaxed as much as I could.

I started to piss a bit while my dick was in his mouth and he swallowed it. But I don’t think he intended to be drinking piss, so when the next spurt came it went mostly on his chest.

He then got up and I heard him gagging a bit in the other room… My piss was probably pretty rank – it’s not like I’d been drinking beer all day at work… He returned, gave me his cell number and told me to stop by again sometime.

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Anyway, since January 10th, he’s gotten fucked 90 times with a condom. In 43 of those encounters the guy came in his ass (in the rubber). It should be mentioned that most of those encounters were in sex clubs where he’d offer his ass to whoever he thought was hot… He also got fucked bareback 9 times by guys he was pretty sure were neg – getting 7 loads of cum in his ass in the process. Plus his boyfriend has fucked him bareback 8 times and shot in his ass 4 times (which explains why he’s looking elsewhere for sex).

If you read his blog he’s been a bit conflicted about barebacking with guys other than his boyfriend. He likes it, but he’s worried about the risk he’s taking. It should be mentioned that if he became poz he might have issues with his career – so becoming poz is a problem for him on many levels…

A lot of his readers are telling him to stay “safe” and always use rubbers. But my contention is that he’s safer when he’s barebacking… Why? For two reasons – 1) He doesn’t know anything about the guys who fuck him with condoms but he does a good job vetting the guys who bareback him – he makes them get tested before they can fuck him raw, and 2) Condoms fail 10% of the time…

In other words, having 90 strangers fuck you with a condom and taking “safe” loads from 42 of them is the equivalent of having backing your ass to a glory hole and having 9 guys fuck you bareback and getting anonymous loads from 4 of them. Mind you, he’s had a lot more fun over the past 5 months than he would have backing his ass up to a glory hole one or two nights (risk vs. reward), but my point is – there’s still some significant risk…

Let’s go into more detail… What I’m about say is based on an article in the January 2002 issue of Journal of Sexually Transmitted Diseases, entitled “Reducing the Risk of Sexual HIV Transmission: Quantifying the Per-Act Risk for HIV on the Basis of Choice of Parnter, Sex Act, and Condom Use”. It was written by researchers from the Division of HIV/AIDS Prevention-Surveillance and Epidemiology at the CDC in Atlanta. I encourage people to read the entire article. The article doesn’t have new findings, but it’s a compilation of what was known at that point…

IMHO, the most important part of the article is the table at the top of the second page. To figure out how much risk you’re taking you take a number from each of the three columns and multiply them together and then compare the results.

Let’s take the two scenarios for Bubble Bottom Slut…

Getting fucked “safely” by strangers has the following risk factors – 43 for gay sex with a person of unknown HIV status, 100 for receptive anal and 1 for using a condom.
Total score: 4,300 (though I’ll discuss the 43 below)…

Getting fucked bareback by someone you’ve vetted pretty well – 1 for gay sex with someone who has had a recent, negative HIV test, 100 for receptive anal, and 20 for not using a condom.
Total score: 2,000

So just looking at those numbers it seems he’s more than twice as safe when he barebacks than he is when he’s taking “safe” loads from strangers in sex clubs.

But it gets worse… If you read the article closely they discuss how they came up with the 43 number – it’s based on an assumption that 10% of the people you’re having sex with are positive. Having sex with a HIV+ person has a risk factor of 430 – 43 is 10% of 430. Bubble Bottom Slut is having anonymous encounters at a gay sex club in San Francisco. Mind you it’s not the rauchiest of sex clubs, but the percentage of poz guys is probably more like 30-40% (and that’s a conservative estimate).

That means his risk is 3-4 times higher than we thought, and instead of being about twice as safe when he barebacks, he’s actually 12 to 17 times safer barebacking than he is having “safe sex”.

But it gets even worse… If you read the article carefully you’ll see that they say the risk factor (20) for not using a condom is based on a 5% failure rate for condoms (1/20 = 5%), but they say you only achieve a 5% failure rate when the condom is used perfectly. The real failure rate is around 10% (some studies say as high as 13%). So that means in reality his risk level needs to be doubled again and he’s actually about 25 times safer getting fucked bareback than he is having safe sex.

If Bubble Bottom Slut tested HIV+ today, based on his activity since January 10th, it’s far more likely that he became positive from the “safe sex” he’s been having than the little bit of barebacking he’s been doing.

Put another way, he could have had his vetted bareback fuck buddies cum in his ass over 1,000 times and not taken the risk he’s taken getting fucked “safely” by the 43 strangers who’ve used rubbers when they shot their wads in his ass…

Even if you’re skeptical of the accuracy of those numbers, the point is that he’s a lot safer getting fucked bareback by negative guys than fucked “safely” by strangers. It’s the reason why the San Francisco Department of Health promotes the concept of serosorting.

The important part in this scenario is for Bubble Bottom Slut to really know and trust his tops… When I say ‘know’ what I mean is that he wants tops who are doing low risk activity (which can include being a bareback top with negative bottoms). My advice to him is to find 100% tops who never bottom…

The reason I say find 100% tops is because those of us who don’t bottom are at much lower risk. Insertive anal has a risk factor of 13 – compared to 100 for receptive anal – so it’s 7.7 times safer.

Frankly, ’serosorting’ will probably work better for him (as a bottom) than it will for me (as a top) because he’s so careful. I tend to trust what people put in their profiles or say something like “your neg, right?” He actually goes through a lengthy process where he makes them go get an HIV test. He is actually doing serosorting properly – I’m a bit lazy with it.

So, if you’re one of the people encouraging Bubble Bottom Slut to “be safe” and use rubbers, you’re actually telling him to engage in high risk activity. He’s actually a lot safer with his vetted bareback fuck buddies.

The question is whether he’d be as satisfied with a sex life where we was only getting fucked by a few, well vetted guys. He seems to like public sex with strangers. And if he’s going to be engaging in public sex with strangers, then he’s being as safe as he can be by using condoms when he does it.

Bottom line, he should stop worrying about the little bit of bareback sex he’s having – it’s low risk. If he wants to reduce his risk, he should start by cutting down on all the strangers who are fucking him with condoms…

Let’s take his latest post… He talks about hooking up with a “kid” off Craigslist, doctoring the condom and fucking the kid raw when the kid thinks he’s got a condom on, and then cumming in the kid’s ass. Not only does he call his trick a “kid”, but he insinuates that he might be a virgin – it’s all in there to make people feel more strongly (one way or the other) when reading the story – which does make for a good read…

But what gives ‘Confessions’ away is the details of how things went when he bit a hole in the condom… First off, have you ever tried to bite a hole in the tip of a condom while having sex without the other person noticing? I have (years ago – not in that headspace anymore). It’s not easy and the one or two times I tried I was unsuccessful – the condom did just fine. If he really did write up how that went it would be pretty funny, ’cause he’d keep biting and biting and nothing would be happening and the kid would be like “fuck me already”…

Next he says (more than once) that the condom stayed on the shaft of his dick and just the head was uncovered. That’s just pure bullshit. I have had condoms fail on me before (intentionally and accidentally – again years ago – don’t touch the things anymore), and after one or two strokes the condom is all bunched up at the base of my dick like a bit messy plastic bag.

If you don’t believe me – try it yourself… Just try to discretely bite a hole in a condom and see how long it takes you to actually puncture the rubber. Then when you do finally get a small hole in there (use a knife or razor blade when you give up trying to bite a hole in it), put it over your hard dick and masturbate a little and you’ll see what happens. But realize ‘Confessions’ has said in the past he’s got a big dick, and the kid’s hole was tight, and that he was fucking the kid pretty hard. I know there’s no way in hell to keep a condom on the shaft of a big dick that’s pounding a tight hole…

IMHO, ‘Confessions’ not only didn’t do what he said, but he’s never doctored a condom in his life. If he had, he’d know it just doesn’t work the way he described…

Some of what ‘Confessions’ says is true. He’s fucked a couple of guys I’ve fucked (at least he says he has) and in one particular case, he described the guy’s personality pretty perfectly. But I think he likes to embellish some of the details pretty significantly… When he said he barebacked the husband of an A-list celebrity all sorts of people tried to guess who the guy was. He told me some of the comments got pretty close, and even told me who the person was. I’m tempted to spill the beans, but it’s really irrelevant – ’cause it’s all fiction… He may have actually fucked some guy in the bathroom of a mostly straight club, and the guy might have had a passing resemblance to the husband of a big name actress, but seriously…

Bottom line, Confession’s sex life is just too spectacular, and now there are serious holes in some of the critical details. I think there are elements of truth to it… I think plenty of “safe sex” guys will forego condoms in the heat of the moment, and there are definitely tops out there that will cum in a guy’s ass when the bottom doesn’t want it. I know, I’ve been there… Hell, I’ve even taken off a condom half way through having sex and then cum in the guy’s ass… [Again, not in that headspace anymore - so don't have a tizzy, plus I knew I was neg (and still am).] I’ve even barebacked “monogamous” boyfriends, but you don’t have notable sex every week or two. Real sex lives are more boring than that – even if you’re a bit of a slut…

I’m not saying you shouldn’t read Confessions (he’ll stay in my blogroll), I’m just saying you should take a lot of what he says with a grain of salt, ’cause chances what you’re reading is at least partially fiction…

Incidentally, from a professional standpoint, what he’s done (intentionally or inadvertently) is brilliant Internet marketing – but that’s the subject for another post…

UPDATE:

I’ve just become confident in a hunch I’ve had for a while… That Confessions is the same guy who for years kept literally begging me to fuck him and cum in his ass. I even went to hookup with him once – though I think he gave me the wrong address and phone number (or he’s not as attractive as his pics)… Sorta puts a whole other light on the guy… Not a bad light, just a different light…

This would just be an occasional, on-going thing (not a one-time gangbang) and we’d need to work out the practical details… But if you’re interested, e-mail me at rawtop@yahoo.com. Send me your pics, stats, availability and most importantly, tell me your limits…

I’m guessing there are a fair number of bottoms who’d be up for it, so just realize I’m only going to pick one or two bottoms to work with…

ENJOY!

Nothing like a major company alluding to chicks with dicks… Guess it’s a nod to all the people doing searches for porn…

Buy bareback direct from sellers and save?!?!? The only people who would be selling bareback are escorts… Hmmm…

On the plus side, my blog is the #2 feed for the term ‘bareback‘ when you search in their blog section.

Both Ask and Google rank ‘Confessions of a Bareback Top’ highly which is weird since he hasn’t had a posting in over 3 months. I was more psyched to see I had gotten into the top blogs for ‘bareback’ on Google a few days ago, but it looks like I’ve been knocked out of that for the moment (have to work on that)…

I was seriously horny yesterday… I hadn’t jacked off and was supposed to hookup with the guy who lives near where I work on my way to work, but he didn’t answer when I called to confirm. Then I contacted the bisexual guy who goes around fucking women and getting fucked by guys in the work van his company has him working out of. I fucked him in Decemer and he seemed up for it yesterday, but then he never set up a definite time. (Incidentally he mentioned the load I gave him back then was the only time he’s gotten cum in his ass…)

So I posted on Craigslist hoping to find someone to fuck on the way home from work. A few guys responded and I picked the guy who seemed like your normal, average bear (the other guys seemed like freaks)…

I show up at his place and the apartment number wasn’t on the door, and the door didn’t look like it was ajar, like he said it would be. But I push on the door and it swings open, look around and he’s bent over the ottoman. He was bigger than I expected, really big in fact. I thought about just leaving, but I was horny and needed to cum. Needless to say I wasn’t going to do anything other than fuck the guy…

He had told me that he didn’t have lube so spit would have to do. I start jacking off, but he’s not really doing it for me. I get a little hard, but not completely so I grab the base of my dick to get it hard enough to get in. I try to get it in his hole, have a little trouble, but finally get in. He starts trash talking (you know the type), doesn’t bother me, but not my style.

I’m fucking him less than a minute when I feel like I’m going to cum (I really needed to cum). It’s funny sometimes cumming is actually the last part of the orgasm, but I get “that feeling”, slow down, nothing comes out, and then I cum… Whatever – he got my load… I pump in an out another couple times and then pull out.

He seems pretty confused as to why I’m leaving. Says something about spraying over him (was he looking for piss? don’t know), I just zip up and leave.

Despite the fact that he got my load and he sent me a thank you e-mail, it had to be pretty bad sex for him. It’s not like I’d want to fuck him again – he was just a hole to get me off…

But I think not jacking off may be the way to go to be able to cum when I’m fucking guys… So I’ll try that for a while and see how it goes…

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There’s a lot of guys who casually throw around the term ‘breed’/'bred’ these days. A few years back when you said you ‘bred’ a guy it meant you pozzed him. Well, my use of ‘bred’ is more pedestrian… Don’t read anything more into it. I used it ’cause it sounded good…

Anyway, the buppie I fucked a few weeks ago has kept in touch and we hooked up yesterday. This time we got right down to business pretty quickly and went pretty much directly to his bedroom.

Apparently the ‘cologne’ I smelled last time is some sort of lube. ‘Cause right before I went to rim him he remembered he had lubed his butt and I liked to rim and he went and cleaned up a little bit. There was still a pretty strong smell of ‘cologne’ but it wasn’t too bad… He’s got the type of ass where the actual sphincter is recessed a bit, so I couldn’t get in as deeply with my tounge as I wanted to, so I shifted to fucking.

This time around his hole felt really good and I knew I was going to be able to cum. Which is weird ’cause if you’d asked me 1/2 before I got there how it was going to go I would have thought there were going to be problems… Not only did I know I was going to be able to cum, but I could tell I was going to cum quickly. I knew enough from previous times not to hold off, ’cause a lot of times when I hold off I can’t cum later, and cumming is pretty important to me. (And this is just load 14 for the year. If I had kept up with my goal of 100 loads in 2007, I’d be at 42 now…)

So I could feel myself coming pretty quick. I didn’t rush it or anything, but just let it happen when it did. I figured since I hadn’t fucked him for very long that I’d try to keep fucking him. My dick was sensitive immediately after I came, but when I stayed pretty hard and kept fucking him slowly. I got him in a doggie position and jacked him off a little, but it worked better for him to jack himself off. Then we rolled over and he jacked off while I continued to fuck him and play with his nipples.

We laid around a little afterwards and talked, but not for long. I learned what he did for a living, he found out what I did. We talked about changes in the neighborhood…

I’m not quite sure why it was so easy to cum. It might have been the fact that I had only cum once in the last 6 days. I also took a multivitamin and ate a little before I went over (including a banana since I’m sometimes low on potasium). Who knows why I could cum so easily. I’m just happy I could…

I’ve got feeds set up for each of the blogs, plus another one that combines them all into one feed so if you’re interested in everything you don’t have to monitor 3 feeds…

Feed for the blog about my sex life (this blog)

Feed for the porn blog (including pics and video in the future)

Feed for bareback stories (mostly fiction)

Combined Feed (includes everything)

When I get a chance I’ll be working on putting up a bunch of images on the porn blog and tweaking the look and feel of the site as a whole…

I’ve been wanting to get back to fucking the friend of a friend I fucked back in December, but for one reason or another it just wasn’t happening. First my bf thought he was competition since it was the first time I’ve really had a “friend with benefits” and my bf didn’t know what to make of it… Then life was busy and I wasn’t hooking up with anyone, then I didn’t see him on-line much… You get the picture – a thousand excuses…

Then, he put two and two together and figured out I was the person behind this blog, which was a little weird since someone in my circle of friends now knows the sordid details of my sex life. Then again, he’s participating in them…

Since the details of my hookups with him all got trashed when i managed to delete my blog a few months ago, I just sum it up by saying we fucked three times and I never could cum with him. He’s a good bottom, eager to please, nice clean hole, but his body type is the type I find it difficult to cum with. But I still really like to fuck him – just wish I could give him my load.

So yesterday I had saved up a 3 day load for him and we were going to hookup after work. Then there were some complications, and he wound up just coming over for drinks with me and my bf. By the time he got here I had had about a shot’s worth of Glenlivet. I made him and my bf a margarita and myself another scotch… By the time my bf went out of the room and he started giving me a blow job, it all felt good, but I wasn’t at my peak…

Anyway, my bf came back into the room while I was getting blown. He sat down and watched for a little bit, but he hasn’t had much of a libido the last few weeks. Even though he’s been warming up to the idea of having sex with the guy, he hasn’t had much of a libido the last few weeks, so he went out for a smoke while the two of us had some fun.

We progressed from a blow job to him on his knees bent over the living room couch with my raw dick in his ass. His hole was a little dry, so we moved to the bedroom and I lubed up with Gun Oil and fuck him for a while standing up with him bent over the bed, and then we moved up onto the bed and had him on his stomach… The whole time I was fucking him, he was sorta whimpering…

It felt good barebacking him, but between the fact that I still need to find the right position with him, and the fact that I was a bit drunk, and I hadn’t eaten in hours, I started getting soft. So I rolled over and we kissed and cuddled briefly until we figured we should wrap it up before my bf got back…

We then sat around and had another round of drinks and talked…

Now I’ve got a 4 day load and need to find a hole to deposit it in…