Last week I was chatting up this Asian guy on BBRT. He was out of town but said he was planning on coming to NYC the next weekend. All of a sudden he said…

So I just confirmed my trip to NYC this Friday-Sunday. When can we meet? … It was your PA that made the decision point.

From the sound of it he was coming into town specifically to get fucked by me and my PA. In one way it’s nice, in another it sorta obligated me to hookup with him. (If you’re reading this and thinking of doing something similar – don’t do it – chances are I will not be able to hookup with you).

His pics were just so-so and I wondered what I had just gotten myself into. On the other hand, he wanted to get fucked with a PA and it had been a while since I did that and there were things about him that looked interesting… He was Asian and I like Asian guys. He seemed like he was in reasonably good shape, but not great shape, but good enough. And the part that was most curious was that his profile didn’t just say he was neg, but in his profile text he listed the date of his last test. But he asked me no questions and his “looking for” status was “no preference”. Combine that with his wanting to get fucked by a PA that would probably tear him up a bit and he seemed like a bit of a hungry pig – that much I knew I was going to like.

We exchanged texts and set up a time. I really did get the sense that he came into town specifically to get fucked by me and my PA – it was sorta weird. Friday evening I had a barbecue at a friend’s place in Jersey, so we arranged to meet Saturday afternoon.

That morning I decided I’d take a hot bath, try to stretch my PA and get my 0 gauge ring in. It didn’t happen – I didn’t get the 0 gauge ring in until the next day. But I thought it would be cool to  fuck with the additional weight of the 0 gauge. In hindsight it was good it didn’t go in. The 0 gauge has been a little painful as my hole stretches to adapt to it. Probably would have been a really bad idea to fuck with it a few hours after going up to the bigger size. As it turned out this was the last fuck with the 2 gauge – seems appropriate to fuck with it the last day it was in – sorta like a going away party for the ring – lol.

Now my next issue was that my PA is sorta distracting. I don’t fuck with it (very often) ’cause when it’s in I don’t perform as well. So knowing he wanted to get fucked with the PA was a bit of a complication. I decided to do both my herbal stuff as well as a little Viagra. So first thing in the morning I took some of the herbal stuff and then a couple hours before I was supposed to meet him I took about a 1/3rd of a Viagra (maybe a little less). I just hoped it would work well enough…

You’d think if he was coming into town specifically to get fucked by me he’d pick a hotel that was easy for me to get to. Instead he picked one down near Wall Street. And then on top of it there was track work and I wound up having to go all the way to Brooklyn double back to get to him. It took a bit over an hour for me to get there. I did feel the Viagra kick in when we got to 59th Street, but by the time I was finally approaching his hotel I was thinking “I hope he’s worth it…” Oh yeah – and the temperature was in the 90’s with high humidity…

Then I get into the elevator at his hotel and realize you need a key card to get up to the guest floors. I texted him to come down. When he got there I was shocked – he was totally cute – unlike his pics, he was quite thin – so thin I’d call him skinny. And his face was so much more adorable than his pics – he looked like a bit of a nerd in his pics. He real life had this hot faux hawk and was 110% my type… Not perfect, but I don’t expect perfection – but he was damn close to it. Needless to say I was glad I bothered to hookup with him.

We get to his hotel room and strip down. He was totally into me (which I always find odd coming from guys who have great bodies), and as I’ve said I was totally into him. I had forgotten that he told me he liked to party. So it turned into a 3way with Tina/Chrissy… But oddly, he did it 3 times while I was there and the interaction with him was completely normal – like he wasn’t doing anything at all. Again, I lucked out… There wasn’t even the weird odor I’ve smelled when guys smoked up before sex – I wonder what it was that he was doing – maybe it wasn’t Tina… Anyway, a minor distraction, but not a problem.

We made out and I felt up his body for a little while. Then he sucked my cock for a few minutes. Then he got on all fours on the bed and I started eating him out. He had told me he took a load earlier in the day, but it was in there pretty deep (or he had cleaned out) ’cause I didn’t taste anything. He had a great ass and I finally got totally hard.

I stood up and started pushing my PA and cock into his ass. It’s always a little tricky getting such a big ring up some guy’s ass without hurting him or me in the process, but I did finally get it up there. I fucked him doggy style for a while, but every time I’d hit bottom in his ass it was a little painful for me as the ring would double back. So I pushed him onto his belly thinking maybe I wouldn’t get as deep in his ass that way.

With him on his belly there was still a little pain but not so much, but what I really noticed was hot small he was underneath me. He felt good… really good… There was something about his body where his hole was just in the perfect place for me. As you might guess, it wasn’t long before I was blowing my load in his hole. Between the Viagra and the herbal stuff I stayed hard after cumming and kept fucking his cummy hole (more slowly) for a while.

Finally I pulled out and he cleaned off my dick (it’s sorta surprising how many guys are into ATM these days – it seems everyone wants to clean off my dick after it comes out of their ass)… And given that my big PA digs up shit even in “clean” bottoms it said a lot about his ability to clean out that he could suck the dick right after it fucked him. Then I got behind him and started eating out his cummy hole. It tasted great… It’s sorta weird tasting my cum when I’m rimming a guy. I had fucked him enough after cumming that he had a fair amount of cum outside his ass – I didn’t have to work too hard to get my fill of cum.

We then laid around for a bit and chatted, cuddled, sucked each other’s cocks, etc. After 20 minutes or so I got hard enough for round two, but I wasn’t totally hard. In the past I’d noticed that my ring would hold my semi-hard cock in a guy’s ass, so I pushed the ring in and fucked him. I wasn’t totally hard and it was sorta an odd fuck. Seemed it was pretty intense for him – probably because my ring wasn’t as deep in his ass and when I’d pull out a bit the ring would stretch his sphincter. For me it wasn’t the greatest of fucks, but he seemed to like it because the PA was causing some pretty intense sensations.

I wasn’t going to cum, so eventually I just pulled out and we went back to cuddling, talking, sucking cock, etc. At this point I asked him what was up with him since he put the date of his last HIV test in his profile but then had “no preference” in for “looking for” status. He misinterpreted what I said and before I got “no preference” out he said “‘don’t care’ – did I forget to change that?” In other words before his test his HIV status was apparently listed as “don’t care”. Anyway, his answer was pretty simple – he had gotten into barebacking, loved it, never wanted to use condoms again and knew he’d eventually become poz. That still didn’t answer my question as to whether putting his HIV test date in his profile was there to attract neg tops or attract gift giving poz breeders. Either way, I didn’t get the sense he was bug chasing so much as just aware it would happen sooner or later and enjoying life in the process.

I seem to get a fair number of guys assuming I’m poz. I wonder if his coming to NYC paying for transportation and hotel mostly just to get fucked by one top wasn’t because he was thinking that being fucked with a big PA would be a memorable way to get pozzed. Thing was, even when we were discussing his status he didn’t ask questions about mine… He clearly just didn’t want to know. There are times when I wish I could be a mind reader…

When we went to fuck the third time I took my ring out. It was a big enough distraction I knew I’d do better without it. I rimmed him little before I started, but by this time his ass was pretty musky from all the fucking and cum, so it really wasn’t that big of a turn on. But when I went to fuck him it was a good fuck. Once again we started with him on all fours. He was jacking his dick, which usually I don’t like, but it wasn’t interfering with anything. Then he stopped and I asked if he had cum – he had. He didn’t ask me to stop, so I pushed him onto his belly and kept fucking him. There was something about his hole that felt incredible. It was cummy and I was going in at just the right angle, and of course like before I could feel how small he was under me. I almost came a second time. In all my preparations for that day I had forgotten my cock ring. Had I remembered it my dick might have been a little thicker and a little more sensitive and I just might have cum the second time. For me it was probably my favorite fuck of the day – even though I didn’t cum.

Afterwards we cuddled and he actually fell asleep in my arms for a few minutes. Eventually I had to go. It had been a busy 2 hours and I needed to get home.

All in all an excellent fuck…

So here it is…

If you want to see more pics of my PA, check out the photo album of my Prince Albert on Breeding Zone. You’ll need to be logged in to see the album. Originally I embedded a pic from that gallery in this post, but then I realized you couldn’t see it (oops).

Last Thursday I hadn’t cum in 6 days and just needed to blow a load. I had a really short window to actually hookup and I was busy and didn’t have hours to spend finding a bottom. I wasn’t having much luck and then I noticed a Latino online who I’ve been fucking since 2004. I actually didn’t write up the last time I fucked him (back in December) ’cause I videotaped it and never got around to editing the video. (Yeah, I know… I need to get off my ass and get it done…)

The problem was if I’m going to take my new Viagra prescription I need to do it 90+ minutes before hooking up. Things sorta happened at the last minute, and 90 minutes out I really didn’t know if it was going to happen, so I just took a little – about 1/3rd of a pill (maybe less). As I went to his place I felt my hands get all tingly so I knew it was kicking in, but wasn’t sure I had taken enough…

I get there and like always he’s on all fours on his bed just inside the door. He likes things pretty anonymous even though we’ve gotten to know each other a bit over the years. I had asked him not to lube his hole, ’cause it tastes funny and I like to start out rimming him (since he’s not looking to suck cock at the beginning). I get down on my knees and start eating out his ass and gradually start getting hard. The Viagra really isn’t helping all that much – I think I took too little or something. He said he had taken another load before I got there, but I didn’t taste any cum (too bad).

I finally got hard and started fucking him. Since he hadn’t lubed his hole, and didn’t have any lube available I was more or less just spit fucking him and there was a lot of friction. Lately I’ve noticed a huge difference in how good a fuck is based on the lube that’s used. This fuck was pretty dry and it wasn’t working all that well for me. Unfortunately the load he had taken before I got there wasn’t lubing his hole.

I pushed him onto his belly and gave him a decent fuck, but eventually got overheated and had to stop before I’d cum. I laid there for a while. We talked, he sucked my dick – and we basically just hung out for maybe 10 minutes. When I had cooled down and caught my 2nd wind, I went back to fucking him.

This time it still didn’t feel all that great, but I did manage to cum but it took a lot of effort. Given that I hadn’t cum in so many days I think it was a pretty big and thick load. He had a guy coming after me – that guy probably had a much better experience than I did ’cause my load was big enough to make his hole nice and silky.

I washed up and ran downtown to meet my bf at Boxers for drinks. After leaving his place I realize I forgot to wash my beard and it smelled like ass… I was glad I didn’t see anyone I had to kiss when I got to Boxers. I ran to the bathroom and took care of that problem and then had a few beers.

So the take away is #1 – take at least a 1/2 pill of Viagra and #2 get a small pocket sized bottle for lube and take my own to hookups.

Had sorta a weird hookup the other day… This guy hit me up on BBRT and despite my effort to get to the point and hookup, he was asking all these other questions. Finally I had to ask – did he want to fuck or not? If he wasn’t really into it I’d move onto someone else. He said yes. We agreed on a time and he came over.

I should backup and mention that my doc gave me a prescription for Viagra this past week and this was the first time trying it out. I cut the pill in two and took the small half – probably about a 40% dose. I was curious to see how it would work. An hour went by and nothing. Then at about and hour and 20 minutes it started kicking in. I felt really hot and flushed – uncomfortably so. I remember feeling the same way the first time I used the herbal stuff I normally use.

When I answered the door I had this raging, rock hard hardon in my pants. I’ll give Viagra definite points for hardness.

When we got to the bedroom he was pretty submissive. Didn’t do anything without being told. I was sorta expecting that since he had said he wanted to be tied up and used. I told him to get on his knees and he started sucking my dick. I put a collar on him as he was sucking my cock and then when he stood up and I took off his clothes, I put on wrist restraints which I locked together with a nice heavy lock.

I then told him to get on all fours on the bed. He was bit beefier than I usually hookup with, but I wanted to rim his ass. When he got on all fours I noticed his ass crack was darker than the rest of his ass (why are some guys like that?) and he smelled a bit funky. Not horrible, but a bit too far from squeaky clean for me to really get into rimming him. Needless to say I didn’t rim very enthusiastically and ended it pretty quickly.

I then pulled out the Wet Platinum, lubed up my dick and went to fuck him. He was 3 or 4 inches taller than me and bent over  on the bed his hole was 6 to 8 inches above my dick. There was no way I was going to be able to fuck him like that. I pushed him forward onto his belly and shoved my dick in. He was beefier than the guys I usually hookup with, but I found that if I was at a bit of an angle his hole felt pretty good on my dick.

This whole time he never really gave any positive feedback. It was like he really didn’t care who I was, and probably didn’t care if he even got fucked. It was like he was getting fucked to pass the time. He seemed sorta bored or like his his head was off somewhere else thinking about something. All in all he was sorta ‘vacant’ and ‘absent’. Add to that bad breath that I could smell when I was on top of him fucking him (I gotta remember to get guys with bad breath to go gargle with Listerine so I don’t have to smell that).

Then, on top of everything else, he asks for more lube, and when I pause for a second I realize I’m actually about to cum. If I pull out to get more lube I’ll cum while I’m out of his ass. I hadn’t even been fucking him for very long, but I had a 6 day load built up and could have cum in any decent hole that day – and his hole was doing the trick. So I paused, tried not to cum, spit on his hole a couple times and resumed my fucking. I knew it wasn’t going to go on for much longer.

As I was about to blow I was thinking about the fact that his profile said he was neg, yet he had asked no questions and here he was laying there like a piece of meat about to get my load – and totally disconnected from what he was doing. I would have loved to know what he was thinking at that moment. It was like he didn’t care, but there was more to it and I couldn’t tell what that more was…

I blew a decent load up his ass and kept fucking him for a little while – told him I wanted to keep going and give him a second load, but then the Viagra started to fail me and so I pulled out.

It had only been a few minutes at this point. What was I going to do with him? I had him clean off my dick, which given that his ass was a bit musky coulda been a bit disgusting, but he cleaned it right off like it was perfectly clean. I had him suck me some more, but I wasn’t really all that hard, so I stopped.

I asked him if he was into flogging. No. (Forget about asking about whipping if they’re not into flogging). I asked about padding. No. I was staring to run out of options. I played with his nipples and when I sucked on one of them he reacted positively (a first). I could tell he liked that. So then I searched for the suction cups I have for nipples, but couldn’t find them. I got out my nipple clamps and he indicated that he didn’t know if he could take them. I tried to use them gently, but you can’t really use nipple clamps gently – they kept slipping off. I was out of s/m tricks.

The whole time he was jacking his dick, which was a bit distracting. But it wasn’t like he was jacking it ’cause he was turned on – he was jacking it ’cause he seemed embarrassed about having a soft dick. Finally he got hard and stopped jacking. It was like a dog presenting a hard bone to his master – it was sorta cute. Thing was, he was a bottom – I didn’t really care about his cock.

I felt up his cummy ass and thought about fucking him some more, but my dick wasn’t really cooperating. Finally I just wrapped things up by taking off his collar and wrist restraints. He got the hint, got dressed and took off. We did talk a little as he was getting dressed. It wasn’t completely awkward, but I still have no clue where his mind was while we were having sex…

As a first time using Viagra it was a bit disappointing. It did get me rock hard, but it didn’t last very long. In some ways I like the herbal stuff I use better. I don’t get quite as hard with it, but I get thicker. I think I’ll use Viagra when I’m not completely horny (’cause that’s when the herbal stuff isn’t sufficient) and I’ll use the herbal stuff when I’m good and horny and just need a boost to make my cock bigger and more sensitive.

I’m looking for someone who first and foremost is a bit pervy and enjoys writing. I don’t want someone with a formal writing style – rather I need someone who has a pretty informal, honest and frank writing style. Ideally you’d also find a really broad range of guys hot ’cause I’ll need you to write about everything from skinny little teens to chubby daddies and that can be difficult if you’re not into the guys you’re writing about. (If I can’t find someone who’s into a broad range of guys I may hire a couple guys – one for twinks and jocks and another for “men”.)

I’m thinking I’ll hire two guys each for 8-10 hours a week – one for twinks/jocks and another for men. You can work a few hours each day – it doesn’t have to be two full days. And I can work around your schedule. For example, if you want to work 2 days every other week, that’s fine. However, long-term commitment to the project is essential. If you’re unemployed and will be going back to full-time work, that probably won’t work. If you’ve got part time work, or your in school, then it’s a much better match.

Pay will start at $10/hour (and go up in time if things go well). If you’re in the US the income you earn will be reported with a 1099 (independent contractor – no benefits and you’re responsible for paying your taxes). You’ll work from home, so you can be located anywhere in the world. I have a preference for someone who’s a native English speaker, though someone who’s been educated in the US (high school, college, etc.) will probably be fine if you really immersed yourself in gay culture while you were here.

If, after all that, you’re interested, send me an e-mail and explain how you’d be good for the position – rawtop@yahoo.com

UPDATE: I wrote this, went and took a short nap, came back and already had two responses and then a few more since then. I’ve changed the description above to hiring two guys, not one, since I want people to be working on stuff they find hot and if you’re into big hairy bears you probably won’t do so well with videos of 99 lb Asian teens and vice versa. So tell me what sorta stuff you’re most interested in…

UPDATE 2: I’ve got all the responses I could possibly handle. Actually a little confused as to who to pick. So not looking for anyone else. If you’ve already sent me something – be patient… I’m trying to figure things out – it’s not an easy process.

Went to a sex party last night and had a VERY good time. Fucked 4 guys, came in 3 of them. Given that I usually only cum once and I’m done, that’s very good indeed…

The organizer has been asking me to go for a while now. I got there a few minutes early to meet him and chat with him and finally the time rolls around and a guys start arriving. I was a little surprised when he asked me to pay (thought I remembered him telling me like a year ago that he’d comp me) – but in hindsight it was worth the $20, so no big deal.

Back when I was thin I had no problem knowing what to wear at sex parties. Naked with combat boots and a cock ring worked pretty well for me. But now that I’m a bear I’m never quite sure – it’s actually one of the reasons why I don’t go to parties very often – I’m a little body conscious. I know some guys are into my body type, but I know a lot of other guys aren’t. I decided to wear a pair of A&F boxers (and a cockring) and it worked well for me – I’d take off the boxers in the playroom and put them on when I went out to the living room. Actually I was more self-conscious out on the street ’cause I was wearing a “Black Is Beautiful” t-shirt. Not sure how well received a white boy would be with that t-shirt. But it was the black-on-black version (black with black lettering) – and it looks really good with my black Wesco boots…

So we strip down and then sorta have to wait since we’re both tops (and even if he were a bottom I wasn’t into him). Pretty soon some other guys show up and there are bottoms and versatile guys. I should mention that you could tell what someone was ’cause the organizer gave out wrist bands. There were non-porn movies playing in the living room, so I moved into the bedroom that was the play area. I was the only one there, but I wanted my mind on sex, so I just watched the porn that was on the TV there and slowly jacked my cock.

This versatile guy came in and stood next to me – so close we were touching even though there were just the two of us in the room. He was sorta cute, so we started playing with each other. I quickly figured out he was more versatile top and didn’t seem all that interested in bottoming. So when we hit a lull after some cocksucking and other guys were coming in I moved around a bit. But things were slow to start and after a little while I wound up sitting on the bed with him. We were alternating between me fingering his hairy ass – which was so tight there was no way he was getting fucked, and him sorta laying next to me with his head snuggled up against me.

Some of the initial guys who showed up weren’t really my type. They ranged anywhere from guys that were nice enough, but had weight issues (hint: if you’re a bottom and are sagging a bit – wear a t-shirt and a jockstrap – you’ll get a lot more action), one was a bit aggressive and didn’t seem to be anyone’s type – but at least he wasn’t too aggressive.

Finally some cuter guys showed up. The first really cute guy was this Asian twink. He was maybe 5′2″ and I doubt he was over 110 lbs. He started off watching TV in the living room and sorta latched onto the guy he was sitting next to. They came into the bedroom and started playing, but they’d ignore anyone who came up to them and tried to join in. At first I thought they were a couple who got off having sex in front of other guys. But as the night wore on I started comparing notes with this other top and we were both a bit frustrated we couldn’t fuck the Asian kid. The guy he latched onto did eventually start playing with other guys, but then the Asian kid was turning down everyone who made advances on him. More on him later.

Sex parties really need slutty bottoms to get them going (and tops of course). Well, this lean, furry almost daddyish type was the first guy to be a good slutty bottom (even though he flagging versatile). He and the versatile guy I cuddled/fingered earlier started playing, and then he got into the sling and started getting fucked. When the versatile guy was done, he sorta told me to fuck the guy. Lube was a bit of an issue (the party host just had this water based stuff that dried out really quickly), but the bottom had brought his own (silicone based I think) – so his ass felt great. He was pretty open and it felt a bit cunt like (or at least what I’d imagine a woman’s cunt to feel like).

Thanks to not cumming between fucks I’ve been shooting really huge loads lately. The hairy guy’s hole felt great and fairly quickly I felt like I was going to cum. I decided to try to cum a little and see if I could save some of the cum for later. So I just started unloading in his ass. I didn’t say anything though – I was trying to work out the mechanics of 1/2 a load in my head. As it turned out he got a pretty big load I pulled out briefly to try to stop my load, but just wound up continuing to cum so I shoved back in. I kept my dick in him and tried to continue to fuck him, but the problem was I had to fuck really gently so I wouldn’t keep blowing my load. So not long after I just pulled out. I’m not sure he ever knew he got my load…

I took a quick break, got a little lemonade and went back into the playroom. This other hot Asian guy had arrived. He wasn’t as young as the first one, but still had a great body, and the best part was he seemed to want to get fucked by as many guys as possible. He was pulling guys over to suck them while tops were fucking him. So when one top was done I started fucking him. Great hole. Great body. The first fuck had been in a sling, which is not a position I’m used to. This one was doggy, which I’m just rediscovering lately. I’m pretty sure he had a few loads in him already and his ass felt great. Once again it wasn’t long before I started cumming. And once again I was trying to work out the mechanics of not giving a full load and didn’t really say much when I came (plus I came pretty quickly). He still got a decent sized load, then I had to pull out to avoid cumming even more.

I stood a close by and sorta jacked my cummy dick a bit. He went to suck it some more, but it was too sensitive, so I bent over and told him my dick was really sensitive right then ’cause I’d just cum in his ass. He grinned and understood and stopped.

I then went for a longer break and more lemonade, and stood around and talked with the host for a while. The standoffish Asian twink came by at one point to get something to drink. I saw him observing me a little bit, but then he was gone. About this time a really hot guy came in and stripped naked except for boots. He was really hot and I wanted to fuck him pretty badly. He also kept looking at me, so I knew he’d be up for taking my dick. So I went into the playroom looking for him…

He was making out with some other guys, then he gradually wound up over by me. I felt up his body and it was pretty wonderful. Smooth, soft, but perfectly proportioned. His ass was so soft and smooth it felt like a baby’s ass or something… Then this other guy about the same age as him and just about as hot as he was horned in on the 3way that we were in and I didn’t feel like competing, so I removed myself from the group and just watched all the action from the sidelines. I had already cum twice when I can usually only cum once in a night, so my dick was starting to be a little temperamental. It would get hard when something really turned me on, but then sorta lose it pretty quickly when I stopped focusing on whatever the stimulus was.

Then the hot guy who horned in on the action with the hot guy I wanted to fuck got the hot guy I wanted to fuck into the sling. I hung close by the sling sorta waiting to fuck the hot bottom. I preferred to fuck him after he’d had a few loads in him anyway, so didn’t mind waiting my turn.

Now, I should mention that the young Asian twink who had been so picky had finally picked another top and was getting fucked on the bed while all this was going on. But then that sorta ended (the top came) and the Asian kid was making his way slowly to the door of the room. He walked in front of me and stopped to look at the hot bottom getting fucked in the sling. I figured what the hell and slowly and tentatively stroked his back as he stood in front of me. To my surprise he responded by backing up and pushing his ass into my crotch. BINGO! I had just been chosen by the picky bottom everyone wanted to fuck…

While I had been concentrating on fucking the hot bottom in the sling, when it was clear I could fuck the young picky Asian kid I lept at it… I didn’t want to scare him, so for a minute or two I just felt him up, but he was basically grinding his ass into my crotch and barely even looking back at me. It was very different than the more connected, intimate sex I’d seen him having with the other two tops. So I rubbed my dick up and down on his ass crack and finally spit on my dick and shoved in. He moaned and I knew I had him.

Fucking standing up wasn’t very comfortable, so I pulled out and moved him over to a clear spot in the bed. He got on all fours and I just started eating out his smooth sweet boi hole. He’d gotten fucked by two guys so far and had a nice cummy, well lubed hole – and he was so smooth and petite it was incredibly hot. Despite having already cum twice, the prospect of getting my load in his little boi hole had me boned, so I started fucking him. At first I tried doggy style with him, but that wasn’t quite right, so I quickly just pushed him down on the bed. I knew with small bottoms this is usually the best position.

I pumped away and it felt great in his cummy little ass… I also knew I it was going to be difficult for me to cum and I didn’t want to wear out. The room was getting hot and fucking a bottom on his belly takes a lot more work than it does standing up. So I just concentrated on cumming in his ass. Pretty quickly I could feel my orgasm cumming, but then it didn’t cum – it just continually felt like I was just about to cum. I kept at it and finally I could feel myself cumming just a little. Then it was like the weak dribble of a cum shot just kept going and going. The load definitely wasn’t as big as the others, but he did get my load and it was more than a few drops.

Immediately after I was done I got up and started felching his ass. Needless to say it was cummier and sweeter than before. It wasn’t really the place to lay next to him and cuddle him, but I tried to be tender but still make it clear the sex part was over. I don’t know that he really ever reached out to touch me the entire time, but I could tell he liked the affection he got from me. He wasn’t into me so much as into me being into him. A few other times later in the evening we’d pass each other, I’d pay him some attention and he’d seem to like it… I would have love to have been a mind reader to know what all was going on in his brain that night…

As I walked out the hot bottom was in the hallway. I paid him some attention, kissed him a bit, felt him up some more. He made the comment “You’re pretty bashful”. He sorta nailed it in a way – at sex parties I am sorta bashful. I responded with “Yeah, but I always manage to get my way”, and then he said something like “you’re just as hot as last time”. I immediately responded “this is my first time here”, but half way through saying it I realized he remembered hooking up with me at some point and I must have forgotten him – he did stand out in the crowd and did seem sorta familiar. I felt like shit – I mean he’s incredibly hot – how could I forget him? He let my comment slide (thank god) and we kept making out. But I really needed to take a break. I’d cum three times already…

I went and got some more lemonade, chatted with the host and the guys around him. The hot guy was across the room, and looking at him I started to realize who he was… He was actually a guy I had fucked and filmed about 18 months earlier. This isn’t the first time this has happened to me recently – when you put a hood on a bottom it’s easy to forget his face – it’s not burned into your memory like it is when you have regular sex without the hood.

I was contemplating just going home ’cause I’d already cum three times which is way beyond my normal abilities, but I had to go at least talk to the hot guy again. I went over and we started talking again. I asked him “You’re Village Cumhole, right?” and I could tell he was happy I remembered who he was. I apologized for forgetting him and blamed it on the hood (which is the truth). I then told him I wasn’t sure I had a 4th fuck in me, but I really wanted to fuck him. We played around a bunch – just kissing and feeling each other up.

I just felt like I couldn’t leave until I at least tried to fuck him, so I pulled him into the playroom. He started motions to drop to his knees, but I know myself well enough to know the only thing that would get me hard when I’m that out of it would be rimming… I told him to get on the bed and then I ate out his ass. And, as expected, I got pretty hard. he’s got such a sweet smooth hole…

When I was hard enough to fuck I pushed it in and went for it. Doggy position wasn’t really working for me, so I pushed him onto his belly. I knew it was a fair amount of exertion given the evening so far and the heat in the room, but it’s what was working for me best in the moment. I gave him a decent fuck – not very long, but long enough given the circumstances. Then I got him back on all fours, and finally just gave up and pulled out. I was pretty soft by the time I pulled out, but that was sorta expected and there was just no chance of a 4th load…

We wrapped things up, I got dressed and noticed the first Asian I fucked was leaving at the same time. But hot guy stopped me in the hall and we made out some more. I was a few minutes behind the Asian guy leaving, but when I got to the corner of the block there he was waiting to cross the street. He was lost in his music and didn’t see me, but I sorta wondered why he wasn’t already gone… He’s another one I’d like to fuck again and from the sounds of it he’s getting into porn – the guy who organized the party said he’d shot a scene with him… I’d love to shoot a scene with me fucking him – he’s hot!

So that was a pretty excellent night. I didn’t fuck as many guys as I thought I would but all the ones I fucked were sorta exceptional, and cumming three times definitely made it a great evening… Now I just need to go back on a regular basis…

Today was a frustrating day that at least ended well…

I started looking for someone to hookup with fairly early this morning. The first three guys who said they’d come over happened to all say they were neg in their profiles. One canceled right after I gave him the directions on how to get here. Another canceled when I asked for his address. Another one said he was leaving and never showed up. And then a fourth bottom who’s status was listed as “don’t care” wouldn’t tell me when he was going to get here – he just kept saying “yeah, I’m definitely coming”.

As a result I’m the #1 most viewed profile on BarebackRT today – which is not something I really wanted to accomplish ’cause as soon as you’re on their most viewed list you start getting e-mails from all over the world. I don’t want e-mails from all over the world. I want bottoms who are local who want to get fucked. Oh well.

Anyway, FINALLY this bottom hits me up. He describes himself as “sleazy” and he doesn’t list his status (= poz). By that point I was so fucking sick of neg bottoms and their indecisiveness I was actually looking forward to a good poz bottom. I mean fucking neg hole is fuck, but getting it to show up and take the load is a pain in the ass sometimes (like today).

This guy’s pics were horribly obscure – I honestly had no clue who was going to show up at my door. Then, he was a half hour late. I was thinking he too was going to flake on me and then the buzzer rang. Thank god! What showed up a minute later at my door wasn’t at all what I was expecting, but he was still attractive so I didn’t really care. His profile said he was early 40s. I’m guessing that was 7 to 10 years off, if not more. He was this older Latino with sexy graying hair. It was sorta hot actually, but more of a short thin daddy vibe and the daddy part wasn’t what I was expecting.

We went to the bedroom, he got down on his knees pretty quickly and started sucking my dick, but I was completely soft. I’m a grower not a shower, so soft is small in my case. And for some reason blowjobs are doing next to nothing for me these days. He tried for a minute or so and I didn’t get hard at all. I stopped the blowjob, had him take off the rest of his clothes, and get on the bed on all fours. I got down and started rimming his ass.

The guy had a great hole. Let’s just say it was an “experienced” hole and he knew how to control it for maximum effect. He was pushing his a sphincter in and out to match me in my rimming. I knew it was going to be a good fuck – anyone who has that much control of his ass always is.

I rimmed him for a little bit and then grabbed for the lube. There was a big bottle of Gun Oil close to me, but nothing came out when I squeezed it. Then I remembered I really wanted to use Wet Platinum ’cause every time I’ve used it I’ve had an easy time of cumming, so I grabbed the Wet Platinum and squeezed some in my hand. Too much came out so by the time I was done my dick was really slick with lube.

I stood up behind him with him on all fours on the bed. I really just needed to fuck and unload in a hole. It had been 6 days since I last fucked anyone and I’d been good and hadn’t cum the entire time. With this fuck and the one before I’m finding it’s really easy to fuck doggy style standing up. Sometimes the hole doesn’t feel right, but lately it’s been feeling great. I just kept this steady, sorta insistent pace – pretty steady. I think some guys think it’s a little boring ’cause it’s so consistent, but it was working for me.

I could tell I was going to cum fairly quickly. I didn’t cum right away – it took a while to build, but when I came it was like last time – it was an ENORMOUS load that just kept cumming and cumming. I wish I could have been inside his ass watching it come out. It felt like I dumped a gallon of cum in him. I had been silent the whole time I was fucking him, but was groaning as I came. When I was finally done he curled his feet around my legs and tried to hold me inside him. I fucked him a little, very slowly and finally pulled out. He jumped down off the bed and cleaned off my dick.

I thought about felching him, but then didn’t really feel like it when the time came.

The thing about doggy style is that it’s a lot less intimate. When I fuck with the bottom on his belly I wind up collapsed on top of him when I’m done. With doggy I never even get on the bed. It’s much more “slam, bam, thank you ‘mam” and when you’re done I’m standing up, refreshed (since it takes a lot less effort).

I knew this bottom wouldn’t have a problem with a pump-and-dump, so I sorta just ended it there. I mentioned that he got a HUGE load, he thanked me, we got dressed and he left.  The total hookup was 15 minutes, if not less. Hell, I’ve done 7 minute pump-and-dumps before – this felt pretty close to that only we took the time to take off our clothes. My bf was a little surprised that it ended so quickly and wasn’t a bad hookup. He asked if the bottom was OK with leaving so soon and asked if the bottom had cum. I was pretty sure the bottom was fine. He got what he was looking for and left with an ass that was flooded with cum.

I’m liking not cumming between fucks. It really lets me give the bottoms much bigger loads. Gotta go put my PA back in to make sure I don’t cum tonight…

Well, wearing a PA to avoid cumming worked – possibly too well. About 3 days after the hookup with the black fuck bud I tried to hookup, but had “some problems” making it happen, then life got busy, and then at about day 6 or 7 I sorta felt run down and not up for fucking (which is weird ’cause I had similar symptoms about 2 weeks after fucking the black guy last time). I wasn’t totally run down – just sorta.

I felt good enough to give it a shot and on day 7 had my Brazilian fuck bud over. He sucked my cock with my PA in, which was probably a mistake since it was sorta distracting when I wasn’t feeling 100%. I tried to make fucking happen, but it just wasn’t happening, so we both gave up.

Two days later I had a huge 9 day load in me and needed to unload. This “Asian / Pacific Islander” hit me up on Adam4Adam. He didn’t have a face pic, had a fuzzy torso shot, but had a nice butt pic (but even it was a little on the beefy side). I just had to cum so I said yes even though I really didn’t know who was going to show up at my door.

Before he got here he said he was looking for an anonymous hookup. I told him there’d be no taking then and I asked him if he’d be up for a hood or blindfold, he said yes, so I got my leather blindfold ready. His profile said he was neg, but didn’t say anything one way or the other about safe sex, and he asked no questions. I didn’t really know what to make of that – sorta guessed he was poz, but not public about it…

When he was a block away he texted saying he wanted a hood, so I scrambled and pulled out a hood for him, though I really wanted him blindfolded. He showed up and 1) he was a lot cuter than I thought he’d be, and 2) he was a lot heavier than I thought he’d be. I wanted to put the hood on him at the door and lead him back to the bedroom, but he made it clear he wanted to see his surroundings first.

When we got to the bedroom he got naked and honestly I wasn’t sure how the hookup would go. He was ADORABLE, but his body was really beefy. Imagine a stereotypical Samoan warrior (he’s not Samoan, but he looks like he could be), take away 99% of the tattoos, take 10 years off what you’re thinking, and you’ve pretty much got him. So he looks like a cute Pacific Islander muscle cub – which is not typically a type I do well with, but he was there and I had a 9 day load in my balls that needed release.

I went to put on the hood and realized I picked one with eye holes which was sorta dumb if it was supposed to be anonymous (but it was a last minute choice). I didn’t want to mess up the vibe by looking for another one, so I just went with it. It took a little work to get it over his head, but I finally managed.

I then told him to get on all fours on the bed. If it was going to be anonymous, I didn’t need a blowjob – we’d go right to anal. I pulled his ass cheeks apart and started rimming him. As soon as my mouth touched his ass I knew I was in luck. His whole body was silky smooth and his hole was just as smooth. I took my time eating his ass, though I don’t think he enjoyed it as much as I did – he just sorta laid there and didn’t react one way or the other.

I was jacking my dick the whole time I was rimming him. I had taken my PA out before he got there ’cause I didn’t want it to interfere this time. His hole was so good I had no problem getting rock hard.

Then I stood up and shoved in. Oh. My. God… His hole was incredible – it was silky and literally gripped my dick. I was either the best hole I’d ever been in or the 2nd best (the other being the Peruvian guy I fucked last year – who I still need to fuck again soon)… Usually doggy position isn’t a great position for me, but I knew I shouldn’t mess with perfection in this case – there was just something about his ass in this particular position. It also had the advantage of being a position that didn’t require a lot of physical exertion on my part. Part of my problems with other hookups is that my favorite position is with the bottom flat on his belly. In that position I have to repeatedly lift my entire body up and down (all 240 pounds of it) – that gets tiring pretty quickly, but in doggy there’s almost no physical exertion – which was good ’cause it was a border-line hot day and the fan in the window was barely cutting it – it would have been really easy to overheat.

As you can imagine – 9 day load + an incredible hole meant it wasn’t long before I was cumming in his ass. The orgasm was incredible. First I could feel the cum start leaking out pretty rapidly. It was like a bucket that was too full and sloshing it’s contents all over the place. That lasted so long I started wondering if I was going to cum for real, but I realized even if it stopped there I would have given him a nice size load. Then the full orgasm came and I started really blowing cum in his ass. That went on and on… It felt like I was giving him a gallon of cum up there – spurt after spurt after spurt. Finally it subsided.

I hadn’t said a word the entire time I was cumming. I was a little embarrassed how quickly I had cum and didn’t want it to end… The pace changed after that – I fucked him a bit more slowly, but I just kept fucking him and fucking him. His hole felt wonderfully wet. At one point I stopped and went to felch him, but while he was clean, he wasn’t squeaky clean, so I gave that up immediately and went back to fucking his cummy hole.

After a while he went from being on all fours (with his head down) to dropping upper torso down onto the bed. When he did that his hole changed completely and it felt just like a loose cavity – the incredible feeling pretty much stopped. So I figured it was time to change position, so I pushed him on his belly, but like so many cubs/bears that position just didn’t work at all, so I start winding up the fucking by whispering in his ear how big of a load he had taken and how wet his hole felt.

I pulled out and went around to the other side of the bed and had him clean off my dick with a little ATM. As he was sucking me I started feeling up his smooth body and sorta petting his head. When he stopped sucking me (since I was getting soft), he just buried his head in my crotch and never looked up at me. It reminded me a lot of playing with the puppy at MAL – I liked it a lot – it showed that anonymous sex can actually be very tender and intimate.

I pet him for quite a while and then laid down next to him at which point he started caressing me as I was caressing him. I’m not sure what he was going through in his head, but it seemed he needed both to be fucked like a cumdump and held tenderly – all without even talking to me. It was a really wonderful mix I don’t get very often – complete submission but tenderness too. I liked that.

Eventually we started talking a little bit. I asked if he liked puppy play and wound up having to explain it to him, and we talked about where he was from, his job, stuff like that…

Then, after a while I got hard again. This time he climbed on top of me and rode my cock. Once again, it felt incredible. It was like he was using my dick to give himself a prostate massage and was loving every minute of it. Besides rubbing my dick perfectly his hole just felt wet with all the cum.

When that was over we talked and caressed a bit more. If I didn’t have a boyfriend in the next room I would have kept him there longer and I know he wouldn’t have left. But I was hungry and needed to pay some attention to my bf, so I gradually wrapped things up and he left…

This is one of the few cases his having crappy profile pics was a good thing. If I had seen an accurate pic of his body I probably would have passed and missed a really good fuck.

I had to go down to Callen-Lorde to get some blood drawn (a very hot, young, Middle Eastern bear did the blood draw). So since I was downtown I figured I’d go out drinking. I had brought a bunch of happy hour drink tokens with me that I had from before – 3 for Gym Bar and one for Boxers. Since Gym Bar was right around the corner from Callen Lorde, I started there.

While I was waiting for my boyfriend to arrive I was checking out this hot Asian guy. He was there with his boyfriend, so presumably not available, but he was fun to look at nonetheless.

When my bf got there we were trying to figure out what we were doing for the rest of the evening. My bf and I texted friends to see if they wanted to come out but no one was available. I sorta felt like just drinking a shitload of beer and getting drunk. I texted PortaUrinal to see what he was up for since I really didn’t feel like wasting my piss. He was stuck at work so unfortunately I finally had to just give in and take a whiz in the bathroom.

3 pints of Stella later we left and headed over to Boxers. I was twittering and saw SmithSeeks tweet that he’d be up for meeting and having a beer. I had no clue who he was – his Twitter avatar is just a jockstrap – but I figured, what the hell, so I told him to come over. Then when I was starting pint number 5 PortaUrinal said he was done with work and on his way over (thank god).

PortaUrinal got there first and I took him into the bathroom immediately ’cause I had to unload. I had given him a load of piss at IML a year ago but honestly didn’t remember what he looked like since he just came into a dark hotel room, got on his knees, drank my piss and left. Last time my piss was the worst he’d ever tasted (which is saying quite a bit given that he’s a dedicated piss pig), but this time I’d had enough beer that he said it tasted great. It’s weird though, when you’ve got your dick in someone’s mouth it’s hard to tell exactly how much your pissing…

Then SmithSeeks showed up. Considering I hadn’t seen a pic I really lucked out – he was this HOT, lean, tall black guy. And the best part was he got along really well with my bf – he seemed as much into him as he was into me (we’re such different types people are usually just into one or the other of us). Right after SmithSeeks got there I had to take another leak, so I found PortaUrinal and took care of business.

PortaUrinal started by sorta hanging back and just always being available. When SmithSeeks needed to take a piss he took care of him, etc. but as the night wore on it seemed like I was using going down into the basement with him over and over again, and eventually he just joined in our conversation and then would follow people to the bathroom whenever they needed to relieve themselves. He didn’t want it to end – he was getting load after load of tasty piss, so after a while he started buying beers for us to keep us at the bar and pissing down his throat.

SmithSeeks was a lot of fun too. We made out a bit and I kept feeling up his body while we sat in the smoking area and chatted. His body felt incredible (and not just because I was drunk). He liked me enough to tweet “Not a bottom, but would def think about it for @rawTOP”. I just hope if he ever gets in the mood to take dick that he gives me a shout…   Oh yeah – he’s got a nice dick too. Sucked on it a bit in the bathroom at one point.

When it was all said and done PortaUrinal got 14 loads of piss – it was a good night for him. I completely lost count of how much beer I had – I’m guessing around 8 pints. The only thing I had to eat was this little pizza that my bf and I split at Boxers, so I wound up completely wasted. But it was a fun evening..

The bottom is actually the bottom I fucked a couple of years ago with my PA. He was getting gangbanged and I think I sorta tore him up inside and he couldn’t really take dick after that. Then one of the tops told him he wasn’t really neg – that he was poz (making the fact that I tore him up a little more significant)… There was a lot of drama and the bottom didn’t really like the things I said when I wrote up the encounter. For a while he didn’t want anything to do with me, but then he finally came back for more – deep down he needed it.

Anyway, that fuck was one I videotaped – here it is…

And here’s an earlier video I did of him…

So here’s how it went down this time… He hits me up on BBRT and wishes me Happy Pride. I ask him if he’s looking and can host, he says ‘probably’ and asks if I’ve pissed yet (he likes to get pissed on). I tell him I can come over pretty much right away (he’s within easy walking distance). And he says “thats up to u SIR. [Whether I drink a bunch so I can piss on him.] or u can just come over and dump a quick load in me SIR. u tested recently?” I avoid the question about my status (just to sorta play a head game with him), and say “give me your address and i’ll come over now”. There’s a bit of a delay and he finally says “sorry SIR – could u answer my question SIR? have u been tested recently SIR?” Since he pushes the issue I answer – “last test was january. it was neg.” He comes back with “understood SIR. thank u for answering SIR. XXX west XXXrd street SIR. #XX. hole will be lubed for you SIR. no pa, right?” I tell him I’ll take the PA out to fuck him. He thanks me and says he wishes he got my 6 day load. I tell him he’ll be getting a 3 day load and it’ll be plenty big and thick. I get dressed and head over.

When I get to his place I press the buzzer. No response. I press again. No response. Then I call him and it goes to voicemail. I leave a rather terse message. Then I ring the buzzer a few more times. Then I text him. Finally I login to BBRT and see he’s left me a message… “actually SIR – just found a load a little closer and ready now. so gonna cancel on u – im sorry!” The little shit… I know it’s a lie – that he’s in his apartment listening to me ringing his bell and calling him. But there’s no point waiting, so I leave.

He finally responds to my text and among other things says “i have no good excuse but i really do apologize SIR.” He’s obviously a Catholic and doesn’t realize he’s dealing with a Protestant. Protestants only care about actions – apologies that aren’t accompanied with action are meaningless and sorta insulting. I give him an earful and tell him I’m just 4 blocks away – I can come back. I mean it’s one thing to get cold feet and that was his chance to redeem himself. He apologizes some more but doesn’t take me up on my offer to redeem himself. I tell him he should be a better sub than that and that next time he’s getting fucked with the PA as punishment. I know he doesn’t like it, but he can endure it… Seems like a good way to get back at him. He then gets back to me with more of an explanation…

i don’t have a good explanation SIR, like i said. i am actually in formal training with a master now to be a better slave SIR, and for the first time i just dug in my heels and disobeyed a direct order from him SIR. he has already told me i will be punished quite severely SIR. i am truly sorry to have let both of u down. i don’t know why i did it SIR. i am sure that he will correct the matter and you will have full access to my hole any time you need it in the future SIR. in spite of my behavior today, he is an excellent master SIR and has been training me well.

I’d love to be there when he gets punished. I don’t think he’s all that much into pain, but it would be sorta fun to take a whip to him and then fuck him in with the PA and dump a big load in his abused hole.

At the root of the problem is the fact that he’s a submissive cumdump who wants to stay neg. I think his misgivings about tops is what makes him disobey. Honestly, I think his life would make a lot more sense if he were poz. Being poz just sorta fits with where his head is at sexually. But it’s the conflict between the two that’s at the root of all of this. He wants to submit, but he’s concerned about the implications.

We’ll see what happens next…

A day after my last fuck I still hadn’t cum and now had a 6 day load churning in my balls needing release. I wanted a sure fire fuck – one where I knew I’d blow my load. When I saw my black fuck bud online and found out he was available, I knew I’d finally get to cum – after all, I’ve come absolutely every time I’ve fucked him.

The fuck was actually sorta uneventful – ’cause it was just like the last few. The only really interesting part was that his boyfriend came home just as he was about to leave and asked where he was going. lol – he said he was going to the gym. That delayed him a bit and I wanted him to come over while my bf was out. My bf doesn’t mind, but I just think it’s a bit more polite to not have him come home and find me fucking someone.

So, just like the last time I fucked him, we had him cum first, and then I fucked him. He’s got this big cushy black butt – not fat, sorta muscles with padding over them. It’s a sweet ass.. And it just feels good being inside his hole… Needless to say, since I hadn’t cum in 6 days and his hole feels really good, it didn’t take long to give him my big thick creamy load.

Thank god for dependable cumholes…

For some reason I’ve felt like wearing my prince albert lately. So I put it in a little over a week ago, and I was pleasantly surprised to find that having my PA in accomplished the goal… Jacking off with a PA just doesn’t feel as good and even if I do it, I don’t even get close to cumming. So if I wear my PA I don’t cum between fucks. Perfect!

[And those of you who were asking about my foreskin - well, you can see it in the pic. I haven't pulled it down as much as I could, but as you can see, the doctor who circumcised me was a little sloppy and it sometimes covers part of the head of my cock. I've actually had guys think I'm uncut.]

Earlier this week I had a 5 day load built up and wanted to unload. There was this guy on Adam4Adam – my age, a little shorter, and fairly thin. He looked nice in his pics so I told him to come over. Just before he came over I clicked on his face pic and noticed his face had “a bit more character” to it than I could see in the smaller pic. Whatever… I like faces, but a pretty face isn’t mandatory…

He shows up, we go to the bedroom, and we strip down. It was one of those really hot days and he got here early. I had only turned the A/C on in the bedroom maybe 20 minutes before and it didn’t feel all that cool yet, so I took off everything as well (usually I’ll leave a shirt on, but I didn’t want to over heat).

His body wasn’t exactly what I was expecting or hoping for. He was really skinny, but sorta had a little belly too. His profile had said “neg, safe sex only” though he hadn’t asked any of the follow-up questions you get from guys who are worried neg bottoms. When he was on his way over I was envisioning a hookup with a guy who was a bit more “innocent” (it’s hard to find the right word). But as he sucked my dick and I started fucking him that image just didn’t really fit and it threw me off a bit. For one, his hole had seen a lot of use – that’s not a bad thing at all – it just didn’t fit the image of what I thought I’d be fucking that day.

Then I realized what his “type” was… He reminded me of the skinny guys you encounter in dark rooms. Attractive enough, decent bodies but not great bodies – they’re literally just holes who will take dick from anyone. I’m not saying that’s his scene – it’s just the image that came to me as I was fucking him.

I was reasonably hard as he was sucking my dick and then as I was fucking him, but something about it just wasn’t working. The heat in the bedroom wasn’t helping. If I had jut been laying on the bed it would have been fine, but as I exerted myself it got pretty hot. Usually it’s pretty easy to find a position that works with skinny guys, but with him nothing seemed to work.

Finally I just pulled out ’cause I wasn’t hard enough. He tried to get me hard – sucked my dick, etc. and after a while I did get hard enough to fuck again. This time the thoughts in my mind were completely different – I saw myself using some slutty hole who spends his nights in dark backrooms taking cock after cock. But even with that fantasy going through my head I could just tell I wasn’t going to cum. Which is sorta surprising ’cause I hadn’t cum in 5 days. So I just gave up.

We laid there, he jacked his dick. I sucked it for a while. It’s sorta funny his dick pic made him look like he had a little dick, but he actually had a very nice one (it was the one thing about him that was better than his pics). But my blowjob wasn’t getting him to cum (I’m hardly an expert cocksucker), so I pulled off, and he jacked his dick. Just as he was cumming I tried to go back down on him but he made it difficult, but I persisted and got his load. I find it really weird that he wouldn’t want me to swallow his load. I know some poz guys are like that with neg guys even though it’s pretty safe. Maybe he wasn’t so ‘neg’ after all and maybe my fantasy of him spending time in some dark room taking cock wasn’t so far from the truth… Who knows?

I’ve got another bottom coming over in a couple hours, so I figure I need to write up the last one so I don’t get behind on my writing…

The squirmy, neg, “safe sex only” Asian bottom I bred a couple weeks ago kept texting me telling me he wanted another load. While he’s sorta a difficult bottom, there’s something about him that made me want to get my load in him again – sort of an innocence / naïveté, so last Thursday he came over to get fucked again. He’s gotta come quite a ways to get here (from way out in Queens) – I’m sorta surprised he’s so into coming.

The hookup went sorta like last time, only quicker… We got naked, he sucked my dick, I ate his ass, and then we went to fuck. Same as last time he started squirming around, and like last time it was sorta distracting, but I just concentrated on the task at hand. I hadn’t cum since I fucked the muscle daddy 3 days before, so I knew I’d have a nice big thick load for him and I just visualized cumming deep in his ass.

Like last time I found the position that felt good was with him sorta on an angle with one leg up a bit and one straight. I got him in that position and I could feel my load building up in my balls. Then he started squirming and so I just pushed through it and wouldn’t let him squirm much and then he calmed down and a few seconds later I came in his ass.

I think he was surprised I came so quickly. Last time I fucked and fucked and couldn’t cum and then only came after taking a short break. This time I probably only fucked him for 5 minutes. I think he was sorta disappointed, but I had accomplished my goal of giving him another load.

Like last time we talked a little and then he wanted to jack off. I had really sorta hated it last time and just wasn’t in the mood for a repeat, but a repeat was what he wanted. Last time he had me finger him so deep that my hand actually ached afterwards from the weird angle I had to maintain. This time I just didn’t go in as deep even though he wanted me to. And I didn’t put as much effort into sucking his nipple either. But I still wanted it to be a generally good experience for him so he’d want more, so I went through the motions without really pushing it. I think he sensed I wasn’t doing 100% and he just concentrated on cumming and came a lot quicker than last time.

I still find it funny that someone who lists themselves as “neg, safe sex only” is so hungry for cum. We all know barebacking is addictive – I can just tell he’ll be taking more and more loads over the next year. He’s a cumhole in the making and still pretty early in the process, which is why I think I wanted to give him my load. They may be difficult at that stage, but there’s the reward of seeing them crave something they’re a bit conflicted about.

It’s always weird to do a write up knowing the guy I fucked is going to read it, but here we go… It’s also weird to feel like a tourist attraction. “Yeah, I went to see the statue of Liberty, went to the stop of the Empire State Building, got fucked by rawTOP, and saw Central Park”, but that was sorta the case with this hookup as well. Usually things don’t work out with tourists. They’re just not in town long enough, and to put it bluntly, I have a life and my schedule just doesn’t work with theirs. But yesterday things did work out.

Between medical tests yesterday, I spent the afternoon downtown with Jayson Park – curiously not having sex. We were talking business instead. But talking business while sitting in a public place (Whole Foods TriBeCa) does take a little delicacy when the business is porn (most of the sites I wanted to go to were blocked by Whole Foods proxy server). Luckily Jayson had managed to snag the corner table so we had some privacy. I was sorta hoping I’d have time to fuck someone while I was downtown after meeting up with Jayson. There was this neg, “safe sex only”, vers top I really wanted to fuck, but he wigged out on me when I got serious and gave him my number.

As I was killing the last hour before my 2nd test I logged onto Adam4Adam and BBRT. My iPhone battery was dying, so I didn’t have  much time. Luckily there was this hot tourist muscle daddy who got to the point and gave me the address for his hotel and room number pretty quickly. Mobile interfaces leave a lot to be desired and I could tell he was hot, but couldn’t tell much more about him. I could also tell from how he worded things that he connected me with this blog.

I switch to texting ’cause it takes less battery, and I’m running a little late. He asks me if I like a cummy hole and I say yes. When I show up he’s as hot as I thought he’d be – this big muscular, solid guy with a sexy foreign accent. He had just gotten out of the shower and had a towel around his waist. He was a little shy, which surprised me a little. It was a bit warm, so I stripped down to just my socks (in hindsight that’s sorta a tribute to Jayson since he’s got a white sock fetish, but I didn’t think of that at the time)… He asks me if I like using a hole with another top and I answer ‘no’ mostly ’cause I needed to get home and really only had time for a pump-and-dump.

We start playing, but he’s a little bit tentative. I start playing with his nipples, stuff like that… All the while jacking my dick. I had taken a pill that morning, but didn’t bring a cock ring, so I was hoping I wouldn’t have problems – especially since I’m hit or miss with big, beefy guys, but my dick was getting pretty hard, pretty quick. It helped that it had been 2 or 3 days since I had cum and I hadn’t had sex for over a week since there were a few days there where I was pretty fatigued for some reason.

Finally he sucks my dick. In hindsight I’d been running around in fairly hot weather. I hope I wasn’t too rank down there. Guess I should have asked. He didn’t suck me for very long. When he was done I got him on all fours on the bed and started eating out his ass. He was nice and clean and his hole actually felt good on my tongue. He seemed a bit loose, but not too loose. I remembered what he said about a cummy hole so sucked on him a bit, but wasn’t tasting any cum. I asked if he had loads in him and he said he’d taken 2, but then had to clean out, so didn’t have any in him right then. Too bad.

I stood up, grabbed his lube, lubed up, and started fucking him. His hole really did feel good. I was sorta standing behind him with him on the edge of the bed. I can actually fuck for a long time that way ’cause it doesn’t take nearly as much exertion as when I’ve got the bottom on his belly and I’m lifting my whole body up and down. But I didn’t have a lot of time so I pushed him forward onto his belly since that’s usually the way that makes me cum fastest.

I was a little worried ’cause he was such a big guy and I usually don’t do well with big guys, but things worked really well with him. Looking back I wonder if part of it isn’t the lube. He had Wet Platinum, which is silicone based. I sorta think that might’ve really helped. One way or the other his hole felt perfect, the pressure on my dick was perfect and it wasn’t long before I was blowing a nice big load up his muscle butt.

In hindsight I should have gone down and felched his cummy ass, but I didn’t. I cuddled with him for a few minutes. He was surprised I was “so cuddly”. Actually, I didn’t cuddle with him as long as I usually do.

Then there was a knock on the door. Turns out he had tried to get another guy to come over to give him a quick load so he’d have a cummy ass for me. (Such a good bottom!) That’s what he was asking about when he asked if I liked working over a bottom with another top. Given that things were sorta done, it would have been fine if the guy had come in. I would have gotten into seeing him get fucked by the next top as I was getting dressed to leave. But he seemed to want a little more 1-on-1 time with me, so he told the guy to wait. I figured the guy was going to come back in 15 or 20 minutes, ’cause he was completely unrushed and we continued talking for a little bit longer. I felt like I was the one rushing out of there to get home. Turns out the other top was waiting patiently in the hallway for me to leave. He was a bit younger and pretty cute/hot…

This morning I started thinking… The guy was from South Africa (hence the sexy accent), and I realized we don’t really think about the fact that African guys can get reinfected with HIV when they have sex with American guys. In Africa the dominant type of HIV is HIV-2. In Europe and North America the dominant type of HIV is HIV-1. While it’s almost unheard of to get two strains of HIV-1 or two strains of HIV-2, you can get both HIV-1 and HIV-2. I don’t know what the guy’s status was. His profile just said “Ask Me”. Given that he was about to get load 4, and probably got more loads later that night, and presumably had gotten equal numbers on other days, I’m assuming he’s poz. If he’s not on meds, then I’d think getting HIV-1 would be a bit of an issue for him. If he was on meds (more likely) then the question is will the meds for HIV-2 protect him by acting as a form of PrEP (Pre-Exposure Prophylaxis) for HIV-1? What if the US top had a really high viral load – would his meds still be able to protect him? These aren’t things we really think about much ’cause we rarely ever fuck with guys from Africa, but I can see where they’d be issues for African guys who go on sex holidays like he was doing (he started his trip by going to IML).

This guy’s been hitting me up for a few weeks now on Adam4Adam wanting me to fuck him. He’s a cute 30ish Asian guy who looks a bit boy-next-door geeky in his pics. I wasn’t sure if he was real ’cause he was pretty far away and his profile said “neg, safe sex only”. I get a lot of “neg, safe sex only” guys hitting me up on Adam about half just like my cock and think they’re so special I’ll wear a condom just for them or I’ll just do oral with them. The other half are actually willing to get barebacked and take loads, despite what their profile says. This guy was in the latter group, though I have a feeling he really is neg ’cause I forget exactly what he said, but he did sorta discuss status. I always ask safe sex guys if they’re OK with bareback and I think his response was something like “you’re neg, so it’s OK.”

That response is actually sorta laughable. I’ve jokingly heard that Adam is the cure for HIV – guys who are poz miraculously become neg when they’re on Adam4Adam… So his just reiterating my status back to me and not asking any real questions is not a very effective way of staying neg – at least not if that’s what he does on a regular basis…

Anyway, he was pretty persistent and I realized that he was serious about riding over an hour each way on the subway to get to me. Today things worked out and he came over. The elevator was temporarily out in the building so he had to walk up 5 flights of stairs to get to me. He was pretty winded by the time he got up. We went to the bedroom, he stripped down to his underwear and just fell on the bed face down. It was sorta hot having him like that. He looked sorta vulnerable. I pulled off his underwear and dove into his ass. He was apologizing ’cause he was sweaty, but really there was no musk down there… It was pretty nice actually.

He had a small build – like I tend to like. He was packing a few extra pounds, but not much. It was very boy-next-doorish. While I thought he’d be sorta geeky based on his pics, he was more ‘green’. Later he told me he’d only really started bottoming in the past couple of years – before that he was a top. I’m guessing he was just adapting to the New York sexual marketplace – since here he’s better equipped to be a bottom, if you know what I mean…

His hole was nice. The cool part is he had cleaned out well so I could really eat him out. When I’d get deep he’d like it and he’d pull his cheeks apart so I could get deeper. He also sorta liked it when I’d suck a bit on his hole – which is something I like to do when the hole is really clean (or really cummy).

After rimming him a bit he had caught his breath and we switched to him giving me a blowjob. And we kissed a bit, stuff like that… Then he got on all fours and aimed his ass at me. I misinterpreted and started getting ready to fuck him, but he wanted me to rim him some more. But after rimming him a bit I was ready to fuck.

I pushed on his hole and there was  a little resistance and then I slipped in in one quick motion. I went in so easily I was surprised when he started complaining saying it was painful. I held onto his hips and tried to get him used to it, but he kept complaining, so I pulled out. But then we went back at it and the second time he didn’t have much of any pain at all.

At this point I more or less had him on his belly but the thing was he started squirming all around. Here I was trying to get in a groove and every time I was starting to get into one he’d move. It was sorta irritating, and I was wondering whether this was how he was planning to disrupt things so I didn’t actually cum in his ass – he was a “safe sex” bottom after all. That sorta made me more determined to  not stop until I came in his ass. It seemed like he needed to learn that if you get fucked bareback, you’ll get loads in your ass, whether you want them there or not.

But all his squirming did throw me off my game. The room was starting to get hot and my dick was starting to lose it. So we took a break. He cleaned off my dick, and then gave me a bit of a blowjob, but it wasn’t really doing the trick, so we just laid down for a few minutes. It seemed like we’d sorta stopped, but I was still really determined to do everything I could to give him a load.

When we started back I ate out his ass, got really hard and started fucking him again. This time he just laid there and let me pound him. In all his wiggling around I had discovered one particular position with him that felt better than the others so I got him in that position and just fuck him and fucked him until I could feel my load cumming… I gave him a nice sized load deep in his ass.

It wasn’t long after that my dick popped out of his ass, but he wanted more. Sometimes I get a second wind so we laid there for a bit. He started jacking off and liked it when I’d finger his ass. But he wanted me to finger him deep. Oddly that’s actually a little strenuous. I never realized my finger could get tired from fingering a guy’s ass, but it did. But I put up with it to get him off. He came, I licked a bit of it up and then we talked a bit more and then it was over and he was on his way.

He started by giving me a blowjob. His blowjobs don’t always go well. Early on his teeth would scrape my dick – that’s not such an issue any more. But this time (and others) he managed to suck my dick in a way that the head of my dick was so sensitive it was almost painful. I’m not quite sure how he did it… I think the head of my dick was rubbing on the ridges on the roof of his mouth or something. Anyway, it was distracting and uncomfortable. I tried to move him around to get in a different position, but it just wasn’t working.

Despite the pain I was fairly hard, so I just went to fucking him. I fucked him for a while and pounded him pretty well, but just wasn’t cumming. Finally I sorta lost my hardon. He sucked me some more, and I got hard again and fucked him a little more, but then lost it again. I did have the A/C on but was still feeling a bit overheated. I tried directing the A/C to blow on me, but that didn’t seem to help. At one point we took a break and just cuddled. That actually worked better than him giving me a blowjob. I fucked him a little more, but finally it was just clear I wasn’t cumming. It was first thing in the morning so maybe I was also low on blood sugar. All I knew was that my bf was waiting to go to breakfast and I didn’t want to draw it out too long so I called it quits.

I REALLY want to give him a load, so next time he comes over I’m going to be really horned and we’ll keep it to a pump and dump. That always seems to work best with him…

I’m two hookups behind on my blogging and figured I should fix that since I’ve got a guy coming over in a bit and don’t want to be three hookups behind. Both of the hookups went almost the same way they did the time before…

First, was a repeat hookup with the black guy who I’ve fucked a few times before. The one with ‘penile papules‘ and the ass that always gets me to cum… He’s always so ready to come over, and I always cum with him – I really should have him over more often.

So he comes over, we strip down. I’ve learned from previous times that I can avoid this awkward bit at the end when he wants to come and I’m sorta done, by getting him to cum before I fuck him. He seems to like it, so that’s what we do…

After he came I started fucking him. We started out doggy style, but pretty soon I pushed him onto his belly. He wanted his ass up so grabbed my pillow and stuck it under him and I was thinking “dude – you just came – you may not be all that clean down there and now you’re wiping it all over my pillow”. But it had been a while since we’d done laundry so I let it slide since the sheets needed cleaning anyway… Thing is, having a pillow under your ass makes your butt look great when you’re ass up in a bathhouse, but at least for me it makes it a lot more difficult to actually fuck the bottom. So before long I pulled the pillow out and had him flat on his belly which was much better.

Like some of the other times I’ve fucked him I started wondering whether I was going to be able to cum. He’s got a pretty big cushy black ass – it’s odd that I do always cum with him ’cause big asses are sometimes difficult for me. I changed positions so I was sorta sideways with him, but that didnt’ do it. So I changed back to being lined up and before long I felt my load cumming…

When I was done he seemed to want to cum again. He had told me he came before coming to my place, so I wasn’t sure why he was trying to jack off AGAIN. Before long he just gave up and that was the end of it. He got dressed and left…

So here are some of the topics that have been discussed on Breeding Zone in the last few weeks…

• Bottoms in urban areas should be getting about 200 to 300 loads a year
• Bottoms like to get fucked by older beefy guys, tops like to fuck younger leaner guys (femmy guys and chubby daddy bottoms are pretty much out of luck)
• Most guys rarely discuss HIV status before barebacking
• Very few guys would discourage a neg friend who was starting to take poz loads
• Barebacking isn’t about an intimate connection – barebackers FAR prefer anonymous sex
• Most guys were under 18 when they took their first load, and in their 20s when they took their first poz load
• Neg bottoms generally want to stay neg, but think about getting pozzed every now and then

If you’re going to IML, post your availability and any bb sex parties you’re having in the IML forum, and you can follow that forum on Twitter – it’s user @IML2010.

The bareback bloggers forum is a great place to see all the different bloggers in one place and discover new ones. And the bareback stories section continues to be one of the most popular areas of the site.

So if you haven’t checked out Breeding Zone, check it out, register and participate!

For a while now I’ve sorta had a goal of seeding someone half my age – well, it finally happened. Usually I hookup with guys who are upper 20s and 30s, but this one 21 y.o. had been hitting me up and finally things worked out and I fucked him…

He came by and he was possibly hotter than his pics. The perfect twink body – tight, low body fat, some nice tatts – and he was a nice guy with a cute face. When he took off his clothes he had on this neon lime jockstrap that really accentuated his ass beautifully.

I sucked his cock a bit, he sucked mine and then I got him on all fours with his ass hanging off the bed. I got some lube and started lubing up my dick and his ass. When I stuck a finger in him to lube his ass I could tell he was really tight. My finger didn’t go in easily despite the fact that he’s a versatile bottom. Made me wonder exactly how much he gets fucked.

When I went to push my dick in it was a good thing I was pretty hard ’cause it wasn’t easy getting in. I put on more lube, and finally my dick popped into his ass. But it hurt him so much he pulled off. I put on some more lube and he went and laid down flat on the bed. His little perky ass was hot and I knew with him on his belly there was no way he could pull off. So when I pushed in again I tried to take it easy on him, but he wasn’t going anywhere – he sorta had to take it.

I was really gentle until he loosened up a bit then I started fucking harder and harder. Didn’t have to go all that hard ’cause he was still so tight he made me cum just a few minutes later. I was a little disappointed I had cum so quickly, but hey, it was still a good fuck.

I turned him on his side and spooned a bit with my dick in his ass. I was pretty tactile but he didn’t really return it. It was sorta weird, I knew he was into me – he made that clear in what he said, but at the same time he was sorta hands off.

He wanted to cum and started jacking his dick. I asked him what would get him off and he said he was tactile, so I just felt up his body while he jacked off (rough job, but someone’s gotta do it). When he got close I started sucking on the tip of his dick and got his load (sorta mild – not too tangy)…

We then laid there a bit and talked. Interesting guy.

Yesterday I had just gotten up when this Latino hit me up on BarebackRT. He was fuckin’ hot – lean and muscular, scruffy with major tattoos that were really hot, a nice face, etc… In other words exactly my type. He listed himself as neg and versatile, but there was no discussion of status – he just wanted a load. He asked if I’d be into a scene where he was waiting on his bed ass up in a jockstrap and that sounded perfect to me.

I took a quick shower, jumped in the car and was there in about 45 minutes. After figuring out how to get past the guard at his door, I found his door ajar and went in. He was indeed on the bed, ass up, not looking back at me and he was pretty close to his pics – very hot. I dropped my pants, pulled his legs back to get better access to his hole and started rimming him. He seemed to like it

When we went to fuck he looked back and told me to grab the lube on the floor. Problem was there wasn’t any. At this point things got a little weird and he started looking around for lube. Finally I got him back on the bed, used spit for lube and shoved in. His hole felt good.

I wanted him on his belly, but he didn’t really get the hint or understand what I wanted, so instead of making the situation awkward I just continued fucking him doggy style. Doggy style doesn’t usually get me off, but with this guy it did and all of a sudden I felt like I was about to cum. I had only been fucking him for a couple minutes – it was sorta soon to be cumming, but I’ve learned if I hold back it can be impossible to cum later, so I just unloaded in his ass.

I should mention that he knew I was cumming and sorta tried to pull forward and off my dick, but I was gripping his hips and didn’t let him pull off – and made sure he got my load. Maybe his effort to stay neg was trying not to actually take the load, but we all know that doesn’t work very well.

He got up immediately and started muttering things about not being able to find the lube. I was thinking “dude – you’ve got a cummy ass – you don’t need lube if you’re intending to get fucked again…” He was sorta completely disconnected from me and at that point I realized he had probably been up all night partying… I prefer sober bottoms, but even a disconnected hookup is fun with a guy as hot as he was.

I got dressed and left. The whole hookup probably took 10 minutes and it was still before 9am… Great way to start the day… [If anyone is into taking early morning loads - let me know - it's my favorite time of the day to fuck...]