I had a long IM chat yesterday with Mason Wyler (a bit over an hour). As a result of the chat my opinion of him has changed for the better…

The last week or so he’s had a lot of shit thrown at him. Someone outed him as poz before he was really ready to make it public, and then, given his history, people started saying all sorts of things about him. Some people even started openly wondering whether this was a bit of a publicity stunt. The skepticism comes from the fact that previously he said he had been raped but then then didn’t follow through with the police investigation. People then wondered whether there was merit to the rape allegations – thinking it had all been a publicity stunt. So this time some people wondered whether this too was a publicity stunt.

Well, after talking with him, I tend to believe 1) he really was raped, and 2) he really is poz.

For me the thing that really made me not particularly like him (as a person) was his blog post back in October 2008. Even to this day I think it’s pretty hostile to poz guys and guys who bareback. He swears I misread it and he his intention was to make fun of the stupidity of people who do fear-based anti-bareback campaigns. I’ll let you decide what you think of it. At a minimum I think you’ll be able to see where it can be interpreted as hostile, even if that wasn’t his intention. The real issue was the he didn’t communicate his thoughts clearly enough in that blog post. He looks at it and sees his original intention, but others of us fail to see that intention. But he’s a porn star, not a copy editor – so I’ll excuse that now that I’ve heard his side of things.

After chatting with him for an hour the worst thing I can say about him is that prior to testing poz he didn’t have any poz friends – so he may not have really understand what it’s like to be poz. That’s hardly a crime. Apparently his day-to-day life is pretty solitary – it’s just him and his boyfriend. I have a similarly codependent relationship and if we weren’t in Manhattan and if my bf weren’t a “people person” I’m sure I’d be in a similar situation. Now he’s starting to chat with some poz guys, but they don’t live near him – but at least he gets to interact with them one way or the other. I really think that will help him.

I still think that the ‘milieu’ he was in was not all that great. For example, his production company refuses to work with poz guys – they won’t even pair poz guys up with each other and have them do condom porn. To his production company, if you’re poz you’re an undesirable leper. As a result when he became poz he assumed his porn career was over because that’s what he was told by his production company – the anti-poz crowd was the only reality he really knew. I think he’s just now realizing that’s not the case – that he’s totally welcome in bareback porn, and there are other condom porn companies that don’t have a problem with him either.

It won’t surprise me if the world of condom porn continues to shun poz guys – there’s a reason why we call them “Condom Nazis”. In fact I sorta dare any (major) condom company to break the conventions and use Mason as a regular performer (more than a few scenes). It’s a statement that really needs to be made – that you can be poz and sexy and there’s a (sex) life after testing poz.

Strangely, the poz-hostile condom producers (who are supposed to be pro-condom) are basically saying condoms are only for neg guys, which means condom usage tends to continue to based in fear – it’s all about neg guys protecting themselves from dirty/evil poz guys. To me that’s just incredibly divisive…

Anyway, back to Mason… After an hour talking with him I really got the sense that he’s a sweet, somewhat submissive guy… He kept calling me ‘Sir’ which was pretty endearing. I don’t know if he just knows the buttons to push with guys like me or if he’s genuinely that way, but I liked our chat a lot… I kept getting the sense that he was sorta vulnerable and that he needed a protector. My daddy instincts kept getting triggered with him…   He would make an incredible boy for some top daddy…

The other side of him is the persona of Mason Wyler. He’s sorta built up this persona that he’s a total slut, and while there does seem to be a side of him that enjoys being a slut (he’s been in 200+ porn videos in about 5 year – averaging one every 9 days for 5 years), his day-to-day life is way more boring and average than that. It seems the persona he created works against him at time like this (and probably back when the whole rape thing was going on). People see the image of a slut and trivialize what he goes through when it comes to things like rape and HIV.

So what’s Mason’s future look like? Well, his porn career will change somewhat… Unfortunately, while there are poz guys in condom porn many of them don’t like to discuss their status, which means all of them have to sorta stay in the closet about their HIV status. As soon as one of them is known to be poz (like Mason) the assumption is that the guys he does scenes with are poz. I hate closets and lies… The whole idea that poz guys can’t be open about things just bugs me.

That means I’d guess Mason will mostly be doing bareback porn (where being poz is no big deal) even though he’s open to both condom and bareback. But he really prefers bareback – so much so that he wishes could start his own bareback porn production company (though he doesn’t have the capital to do it). Frankly, I’m really glad he’ll be doing bareback porn. I’m totally looking forward to featuring it here on the site. It’ll be hot seeing him take loads

In terms of Mason’s personal future – I get the sense he still has a few things to figure out about being poz, but that’s to be expected. Hopefully he’ll get some poz friends and compare notes. If you’re in Houston and poz (and don’t want to just get in his pants) you might try hitting him up – I got the sense he’d really like a local poz buddy…

But all in all, he’ll be fine… I’m guessing he’ll be better than ever a year from now…

Over on Breeding Zone I archive the world of bareback blogging just because I’ve seen so many blogs fall by the wayside over the years and it’s a shame to see all their stories just disappear. Hell, a blogger named Geek Slut is the blogger who inspired me to start my blog and all his stories are gone now. I really wish I could go back and read his old stories, but I can’t.

Anyway, I pulled the feed for one blogger who took serious offense at the fact that I pulled and used his RSS feed. Umm, it’s public, he didn’t use snippets, and the last S in RSS stands for ’syndication’ – which is exactly what I was doing. There’s long-standing precedents for archiving web content – take a look at archive.org and you can see what web sites looked like going back over 10 years. I don’t think he understands the web well enough to understand all that – whatever…

However, his biggest issue seemed to be that he hated being associated with me… On his blog he the following of me…

[rawTOP] repulses me physically, morally and character-wise; he’s sincerely damaged

I love how he throws in not liking my body with the other things – as if there’s a connection between the two. lol

Then he described our brief conversation as follows…

I then explained how I found his views, opinions and more importantly, actions morally repugnant to me and did not want to associate myself with him or his blog. He then went into a diatribe of how he’s a regular Mother Teresa and essentially providing a service to all young kids who (misguidedly!) want to become HIV +.

Actually, I never said any of that. I said more or less what I said above – that I’m trying to preserve the the written legacy of barebackers. In the brief conversation we did have he said the following…

The reality is, I hold NO opinions that coincide with yours (I don’t even respect them) and you do and write things on your blog that make me cringe, specifically intentionally trying to “convert” people to HIV to please an audience. That is so fucking twisted and abusive that it’s devoid of any morality. Meaning, and this is VERY important, I wouldn’t WANT any followers from your blog. I understand you’re only trying to make money. Just don’t do it off me as I don’t want to be in any way associated with you or your blog

Ummm… As far as I know, I’m neg. How exactly am I trying to convert people to HIV? (Sounds like a religion, the way he’s talking about it). If he’s talking about the fact that I find bug chasing sorta fascinating, I allow it to be discussed on my forum, and I think it’s a lot more honest than burying your head in the sand and pretending that being a bareback bottom won’t make you poz – well, yeah, but that’s not anywhere close to what he’s saying try to “convert” people.

Bottom line – my point of view is consistent and honest. His is just fucked up. He has a blog dedicated to his bareback exploits – that’s what you’d call promoting barebacking. Barebacking is risky – especially for bottoms. Yet he doesn’t want to discuss that risk apparently. In the same blog post where he criticizes me he talks about how he convinced to some tops to take raw dick. So he talks about how it’s fun to get guys to take risks, but then wants to pretend he lives in a world where there are no risks. Yeah, that’s way more responsible than what I do…

There are three mentions of ‘risk’ on his blog – one was the risk of getting caught having public sex, another was in a comment submitted by a user, and the third was he didn’t want to “risk” cumming too quickly, so he put on a condom to reduce the sensation and last longer.

There are also three mentions of HIV on his blog – one is in reference to me, the other two are complaining that he realized two of the bottoms he fucked were poz after he fucked them. [Dude, assume all bareback bottoms are poz and you'll be a hell of a lot closer to the truth.] The words ‘poz’ and ‘pos’ never show up on his blog (only HIV).

Apparently his is a world where “neg” bareback bottoms are really neg and risk never needs to be discussed or explored. Problem is, that world doesn’t really exist. I know, I tried living in it and found things just didn’t work that way.

My approach is to acknowledge the risk, discuss the risk, figure out if it’s right for the particular person, and then have them take responsibility for their sex life and accept the potential consequences ideally before they take the risk. Yes, in some cases “accepting the consequences” means the person embraces the consequences and actually seeks out getting pozzed. It’s their sex life and it’s an informed decision – who is he to say that’s wrong? I have WAY more respect for bug chasers than I do for guys who think they can get fucked raw all the time and stay neg.

I know some guys just don’t want to think about HIV and risk. I get that. But if you’ve never thought about it and you’re kidding yourself by thinking you can have high risk sex and stay neg – then you’re doing a disservice to  yourself and others. While there’s no need to constantly think about the risk – think about it long enough to figure out what’s right for you – so deep down you understand and accept the risks.

So what do you think? Does he have a point?

[And no, I'm not going to tell you who he is and I'll delete any comments that say who he is... He doesn't need the free publicity.]

A couple months ago an 18 y.o. contacted me here on the blog. “hi, sir. i dont know if you got my message on xtube. im the 18 yo bottom from san diego who sees himself as a total cumhole but doesnt really know where to begin.” We started chatting and I thought it would be cool to sorta document his development from thinking of himself as a cumhole to actually being a full-fledged cumhole, so I set up TeenCumhole.com for him – bought the domain, set up the blogging software, etc.

Well, after about a month it became clear he’s not really a cumhole, at least not to the degree I was hoping he would be. There are cumholes and there are cumholes… The kid is a cumhole to a point – after about a month of experimenting he decided he wants to be the exclusive cumhole for someone he now sees as his boyfriend. That might work if they weren’t quite so lovey dovey… It started out well with the top taking him to a bathhouse and having random guys fuck him and breed him in the steamroom and every now and then the top does something similar – recently he advertised on Craigslist and had basically whored out the bottom boy to other tops. But it’s not all that regular an occurrence. It would be one thing if it were a weekly event, but it’s not like that.

There are other ways in which the relationship with his top doesn’t quite make sense. The top told him he was neg, but never seems to check or discuss the status of the guys he has fuck him. In one of the sessions he was telling the other tops “yeah, knock him up” and then recently he wanted to flip and have the bottom fuck him. Personally I wonder whether the top is everything the bottom thinks he is. I mean seriously – do the math – IMHO something just doesn’t add up.

Meanwhile he’s going off to college at the end of summer – 3 1/2 hours away, and wants to have an exclusive, long-distance relationship with the top where he doesn’t fuck anyone else (unless the top organizes it). I remember one of my first roommates in college tried to have a long-distance relationship with his girlfriend. It ended in disaster as have most of the long-distance relationships I’ve seen.

As far as I’m concerned, when you’re young you should experiment. Then you settle down in your late 20s, early 30s… You just need to get certain things out of your system before settling down. But he doesn’t want to hear any of that. And honestly he needs to make his own mistakes – I get that…

But the bottom line is I’ve set up TeenCumhole.com for someone who it turns out isn’t all that much of a cumhole. That leaves me in a bit of a quandry as to what I should do with the blog. It’s not like he’s going to update it very often and our last IM sorta ended badly – so he really has zero incentive to update it.

I really want TeenCumhole.com to be written by one or more true cumholes – the type of guys who have gotten addicted to taking loads and just can’t get enough. I remember years ago on one of the bareback discussion boards there was a twink who loved taking loads so much he’d let dirty, unwashed homeless guys fuck him. He’d literally take any load – no questions asked. That’s sorta extreme, but it would also be cool if there were a bottom who loved to hang out at bathhouses, ass in the air, taking loads for hours on end… The point being there are guys who figure out the joys of being a slut at an early age and can be an inspiration to other guys their age… Now I just need to find one or more of them who want to write up posts for a blog… If you’re a teen who fits what I’m looking for (or you know of one), contact me and we’ll work something out…

Too bad the first cumhole didn’t work out. When his relationship ends I wonder what will come next for him…

This teen contacted me a few weeks ago…

hi, sir. i dont know if you got my message on xtube. im the 18 yo bottom from san diego who sees himself as a total cumhole but doesnt really know where to begin. your blog is so fucking hot to me and i would be honored to take your load. if you want some pics for your own viewing pleasure just email me. i’m very slim and very cute and i know what kind of boys you like. i think im a good match for you

I got back to him with a few pointers on how to get loads – things like looking for sex parties, going to a bathhouses (and laying face down), and how to be assertive about getting dick but not aggressive. He then got back to me and (among other things) told me a little more about himself…

a little about me. hmm. well i’m a senior in hs, 18 years old, into some sports, movies, just having fun i guess. but i also have this other side of me which seems to be an insatiable cum whore haha. which is why i respect you so much and love your blog. i feel the need to be used in every sense of the word and have my hole stuffed and filled with sperm. the sheer idea of having a man’s sperm inside me drives me crazy because, in a way, it makes him a part of me and it makes me his subordinate because i’m taking his load. it’s like an act of submission. i’m saying all this because i think you understand…

At this point I wasn’t sure if he was actually taking loads or not. It sorta sounded like he was just fantasizing about it. So I sent him a message and asked how he was thinking about getting started…

well i’m already on adam4adam but i’m getting dozens of messages every 20 minutes. it’s kind of difficult for me to figure out how to go about setting things up with tops because i can’t possibly take all of their loads…not enough hours in the day haha. the thing is, i don’t want to be picky. i just want to be a cumdump. and i feel like part of being a sub cumhole is to not tell guys “no” because one looks better than the other. am i right or is that just a misconception?

I STILL wasn’t sure if he was taking loads so I asked directly and suggested that he try hosting so he could schedule a bunch of tops and get one load after another.

yeah, i have been taking loads from this guy who lives one freeway exit away from me. it’s convenient so i havent branched out yet really. that’s why i wanted to talk on IM. i’ve got some questions that you might be able to answer. is there such thing as a sub bottom who loves taking loads but just prefers the neg ones? i’m not looking to be pozzed by any means so i feel like i’m sort of a walking paradox.

At this point I figured he needed me to be pretty direct, so I told him…

basically, cumdump bottom = poz bottom… you’ll be really conflicted until you accept that… you can try serosorting, but it will fail eventually. serosorting sounds like a nice idea, but it just doesn’t work long term unless you’re the relationship type who really gets to know his tops and even then i can say from personal experience that you don’t really know what risks your tops are taking…

He got back to me and told me that “made sense” and that was sorta the last thing we discussed on the poz issue other than the fact that he mentioned he’s never been tested for HIV and doesn’t plan to get tested for a while.

A few days had gone past and I had been busy and hadn’t gotten back to him. So then he tell me how “his top” took him to a bathhouse that had a lot of older guys and took him into the sauna and fucked him raw in front of the guys who were there. He pulled out and let two anonymous tops fuck him no questions asked one after the other. They both unloaded in his ass and then “his top” gave him a 3rd load. So he got 3 loads in 20 minutes and two of those loads were from complete strangers. Pretty hot, eh?

At this point I knew the guy was pretty serious so I asked him if he’d be interested in doing a blog to record his journey. He’s at this critical stage where he’s making major decisions and experimenting. Luckily he was up for it. I checked and TeenCumhole.com was available so I bought it for him and set it up a few days later. One of the things I was thinking as I bought the domain for him was that when you give someone a label, they usually live up to it. Call someone smart or stupid or “hot” or ugly and that’s how they see themselves and they tend to live up to the labels other people give them. In this case I was giving him a label – Teen Cumhole – and I fully expect he’ll adopt it and become a full-fledged cumhole.

In the past week he’s branching out, going to the bathhouse on his own, finding other tops to hookup with. I get the sense that this is the beginning of his sex life and he’s not doing it timidly – he’s learning to swim by jumping in the deep end. Not bad for a guy who only turned 18 a few months ago…

Needless to say, make sure you check out his blog – TeenCumhole.com. Give him encouragement and if you’re in the San Diego area and want to give him a load, contact him and make it happen. Or better yet, organize a gangbang for him…

Not really, but why in the hell do I keep running into him after not seeing him for years? First I saw Michael at the Eagle a couple weeks ago (he even blogged about my blog post), then today my bf and I sit down for lunch on Pearl Street (near Wall St.) – the place is almost empty and what few people are around are straight people. But who sits down on the public benches a few feet away? Michael Musto… Go figure. I swear if I see him again soon I really will think he’s stalking me.

We were scouting for apartments. I gotta say the rental prices for what we want are a little depressing. We just want to rent for a year before we buy something else, but it just bothers me to spend that much on housing! So many places are $3,500+ for a 2 bedroom – and that’s with 2 free months calculated in – so they’re closer to $4,000/month when all is said and done. Then again, the value of our place is dropping at nearly $10,000/month, so anything is cheaper than holding onto the place we have now.

OK, I know it seems like it’s all I’m talking about lately, but it’s new and fresh… Anyway, here’s the last bit I’ll say for a while…

The new Bareback Buds Blog had it’s first full day yesterday. According to Google Analytics there were 1,065 page views on the blog (946 unique).

Plus it went out via my combined RSS feed to 172 more people so there were about 1,100+ eyeballs seeing the posts. Over time that will grow as it gets a following and as it starts to get traffic from search engines. Still, not bad stats for day 1…

I’ve seen the stats for a number of different bareback blogs and most average in the 100-200 visits/day range and it goes without saying that they start with even less, so this beats that hands down… There are some like BikeGuy13 and Matt & Dan who’ve built up bigger followings (Bike Guy says he gets about 700-800/day), but the vast majority of sex blogs get less than he gets. Bottom line, if you want to start blogging your sex life, the buds blog is a great place to do it.

So far 8 guys have signed up for the blog, and 4 have written stories. If you’ve got a story to tell, sign up, and tell it… And you guys who just like to read – post comments and let the guys know how they’re doing! Or at least contact them via e-mail… It really will encourage them to write more.