I wrote  a while back about the hot young jock who was coming to NYC and wanted to be my live-in boy (after a trial period where he had his own place). Then a couple weeks before he was supposed to be here, he dropped off the face of the earth – never heard from him again.

Well, the latest installment of “too good to be true” was a rich, young plastic surgeon who was coming to town for a conference and wanted to hookup with me… From the beginning things just didn’t add up… For starters he said he was interested in videotaping the fuck and didn’t mind having his face show. That raised serious question marks. What successful doctor would want the reputation of being in a bareback gay porn video (taking loads)?

Then he started asking if I wanted to do 3ways and groups with some of his friends. Generally I’m OK with that, but I wondered what sorta scenario he was looking for. Then he asked “do you like to party with other Tops or just Bottoms?” And I thought, “oh god – this is the PNP crowd” – too much money and lots of drugs. I quizzed him on it and he swore he didn’t do drugs. But there was just this overtone to what he said that was totally party boy / playboyish – I didn’t believe him a bit when he said he didn’t PNP. I was starting to see that he fit a certain type – and I’m not really all that into that type. The A-type personality rich boys and me never get along all that well – I’m way more mellow and “real”

He was supposed to be here a couple days ago, but I didn’t hear from him. Then he said he was delayed because there was some big accident and a bunch of people needed plastic surgery. Then I got these IMs and one of them had his full name and title. I googled him and looked on the hospital’s website and couldn’t find any trace of a doctor by that name (or a variation of that name). Add to that, he said his last name was Vanderbilt. I was now really suspicious – things just weren’t adding up.

He kept pushing his persona – saying he could have his driver pick me up, that he was staying at the Ritz Carlton on Park Avenue South (after telling me earlier he was staying at the Mandarin). But that didn’t make sense either… What doctor (attending a conference) needs a driver in NY? Use cabs for god’s sake. You only need a driver if you’re going from place to place and have packages.  I know enough doctors to know they just don’t live like that. One of the doctors I know is a brain surgeon at a world-renown hospital with at least 10 more years experience than this guy (who’s in his early 30s). The brain surgeon is LOADED and spends his money, but he’d never spend it like this guy… Even with the Nip/Tuck stereotype lifestyle built in, it didn’t add up…

Then when we were actually supposed to hookup he starts asking about whether I’d be into particular other guys… He sent me a bunch of pics and asked which one I wanted to hookup with…

Of course all those guys are hot. When he asked me “Which guy do you like better”? My response was “whichever one is most into bears”. I then mentioned groups are a bit of a chemistry thing. He didn’t get it. I was sitting there thinking the last thing I wanted was to be a 3rd wheel in group of jocks who were only into other jocks.

We chatted a bit more, while he said he read the blog, he seemed to think I looked like I did when I was in Dawson’s 20 Load Weekend. I told him that was 6 years ago – I didn’t look like that any more. I sent him a pic showing I now have a belly. He was still pressing on who I wanted to hookup with and not understanding when I said I wanted to hookup with guys who were into bears.

Then he started asking me weird questions like do I fuck with my clothes on all the time (no), would I take out my PA (of course), and was I planning on wearing a hood (not unless we’re doing video)? Then he told me the hood was scary. I told him that was sorta the point of it – it’s an executioner’s hood. Then he got all defensive and said “I know what it is, I have 3 doctorate degrees”. I just laughed at that comment – exactly what doctoral program had a class on executioner’s hoods? Plus, who gets 3 doctoral degrees?  I know a lot of people who are academic overachievers – he didn’t strike me as the type. And none of the academic overachievers I know have 3 Ph.D.’s (and Ph.D’s are pretty common in my family).

At that point I knew the guy was total bullshit. I mean things just didn’t add up -  1) flawless jock, 2) party boy, 3) crazy rich, 4) total playboy, 5) sexually obsessed, 6) lots of hot jock friends, 7) 3 doctoral degrees by his early 30s, and a great job. I’m sorry, but too many of those things are contradictory. I didn’t know what he was, but I was convinced by that point 1) he wasn’t into guys like me, and 2) he was a huge liar.

Then he kept going on…

I can’t help we are all into the way our bodies look
It is not because we are Plastic and Recon Surgeons either, I for one only treat tauma patients
We are all very educated with great personalities, none of us are superficial
Maybe you are more into twink looking guys? I don;t know, if that is true, that is ok, no offense will be taken
…
I kinda think you are placing me into a category just because I have a great body

(Oh yeah, all his hot jock friends were also rich plastic surgeons… right…)

Then as I was responding he logged off (nice). My response was…

no, i’m placing you in a category because all the other guys you’re into have great bodies…
if there was more diversity in who you were into i’d be a hell of a lot more comfortable.
if i were a muscle bear, i’d fit in pretty well…
but i’ve been around the block enough to know what situations work and what don’t. this one feels all wrong.

He connected long enough to see my response, then disconnected. A little while later he sent me an e-mail…

I am sorry I e-mailed you, I should have known you were going to be scared to meet someone that looked like me.

I just shook my head and wrote the following response…

You’re not understanding me… I am not scared – at all… I’ve had great 1-on-1 sex with guys just as hot as you. There are guys like you who are into “real men” and bears, but you don’t seem to be one of them – all your fuck buddies are body beautiful types. This isn’t about what you look like. It’s about who you (and your friends) are attracted to.

I had a full week of work last week, worked all weekend, ran around the city with a relative yesterday, and worked hard today. I’m exhausted. Dealing with a group of body conscious pretty boys is the last think I feel like doing tonight. My idea of the perfect fuck right now is a sub who gives up his hole, gets me to blow my load, and then slowly pampers me and gets me to relax. You guys are too high maintenance.

I understand the whole muscle worship thing and know some guys will do anything to get with someone like you. I’m not one of them. In my experience average guys are often better fucks. When everything else is equal I prefer a lean to muscular bottom, but there are a lot of factors that are more important to me than the guy’s body. It’s those other factors that make me not want to hookup with you.

The e-mail was returned saying the e-mail address didn’t exist. I tried his other e-mail address – same thing. He had deleted both of his e-mail addresses. Only total fakers use throw-away e-mail addresses – I’m sure he never intended to hookup with me…

So, after having out of town pretty boys fuck with me twice lately, next time I’m requiring a video chat. I’m also thinking I’ll verify their location by making them hit a page that tells me their IP address and then I’ll look it up on the services that say where IP addresses are located. Otherwise they can contact me when they get in town and give me a hotel address and get a quick anonymous fuck like everyone else…

Load 2010-29

[There are 3 other hookups I have happened that I need to write up... But here's the latest hookup...]

I think I just shot the biggest load I’ve ever shot up a guy’s ass…

There’s a guy I’ve seen online lately taking loads in the middle of the day. I’ve hooked up with him and his boyfriend before – boyfriend has a BIG dick and fucks hard (I saw him in action). Anyway, the bottom in the relationship has been home taking loads during the day lately. I don’t know the story I’m just imagining he’s out of work and likes to have a cummy hole for his boyfriend when his boyfriend comes home from work. I know if I were his boyfriend I’d be happy coming home to a boyfriend with a cummy hole

Anyway, there were two guys who wanted to hookup when I got online. First was the guy who I fucked, but then he didn’t respond and I didn’t know what happened. Then there was this other guy who wanted to come over, I gave him directions how to get here, he read the message and then never responded. (I hate flakes). I didn’t understand why the first guy hadn’t responded – it wasn’t like him. Then he finally responded saying he’d been in the bathroom cleaning out (an acceptable response). But then he said he had a local buddy coming over, could I come a little later. I said OK, then he got back to me a a few minutes later saying “come over”… I scarfed down lunch and headed over.

His place was a bit of a hike from my subway and it was hot out. I’m a bit sweaty when I get there. He comes down to get me and says his fuck buddy is still there – do I mind? I said no, and we head up to his place. Then he tells me he doesn’t have A/C. It was 95 degrees out, and he was on the top floor, southern exposure – with no air conditioning. Great… If he had told me that I would have told him to come to my place. I start worrying I’ll overheat. There was no way I was keeping any clothes on – it would just make the situation worse.

The other guy is in bed with boxers on. The bottom and I start stripping down and then the bottom starts sucking my dick. The other guy takes off his boxers and I see this flacid dick that is insanely thick… I can see what the bottom likes about him… The bottom switches from my dick to the huge dick and sits down to suck the guy’s dick. I was sorta hoping he’d stand up so I could rim his ass. Then the other top asks if I want to fuck him while he sucks his dick… That was s dumb question… Of course I did…

I felt his ass and it seemed cummy (or really well lubed), so I just put some spit on the end of my dick and shoved in. Now, it had been 12 days since the last time I had fucked and I think 9 days since I had cum. His hole felt good, the position I was fucking in was ‘adequate’ and I came pretty quickly. When I came I was amazed at the volume of what came out. Not that I could see it, but I could tell there was a crazy amount of cum cumming out of my cock. They were big thick powerful spurts that kept cumming and cumming… I literally flooded the guy’s ass.

This is the point at which I made a mistake. He started pulling off, but I was still milking the cum out of my cock, so held onto his ass for a few seconds. At that point I should have had him stay where he was and felched the load out of his ass. I mean it would have been a lot of cum and should have tasted really good. But he quickly cupped his hand beneath his ass and ran to the bathroom to deal with his flooded ass. Too bad.

When he came back he asked if I wanted to clean up. The implication was that it was time for me to go. When I said I was fine I started getting my clothes and putting them on. He then followed up with “if you wanna stay that’s OK too…” but I had already started going to get my clothes to put them on and honestly it was crazy hot in there… So I just put on my stuff and left.

When I was leaving his building I looked at the time – it had been about 10 minutes – including taking my clothes off and putting them back on.

Hopefully his boyfriend will enjoy the cummy hole when he gets home. Gotta seed the boyfriend sometime too (he’s a versatile top).

Load 2010-25

Last week the beefy Asian (that looks a bit like a young Samoan warrior) came over. It’s funny, I always say there are exceptions and he sorta proves the point – if you described his body in stats or words, or even showed me an accurate pic, I might not be all that interested ’cause he’s beefier/heavier than I usually go for. But I really like fucking him – it just works with him – he’s definitely the exception to the rule for me. The fact that he’s really cute and has a great hole helps a lot…

It’d been about a month since the last time I fucked him. At one point a couple weeks after we fucked he got all sensitive on me and thought just ’cause I didn’t hookup with him again right after the first time – that I didn’t like him. People really don’t understand me sometimes… So many guys think I’m not interested in them when I am interested – it’s just circumstances aren’t working out. The truth of the matter is I don’t hookup all that much (compared to some guys). I mean this is only the 35th hookup I’ve had this year… We’re about 30 weeks into the year, so that’s just over 1 hookup a week. And there are a lot of bottoms out there who are looking for loads, and I’m uptown and it’s not always easy to hookup – timing is often everything with me. And then there are the times when I’m online, but not looking. And for god’s sake, I’ve got a boyfriend – I’m not really looking for some deep, meaningful relationship. If I’m looking for anything it’s guys to go drinking with – but lately haven’t fucked any of the guys I’ve gone drinking with (though there is one I want to fuck)…

So anyway, all that got worked out and he came over last week. He saw my bf was cooking when he arrived which freaked him out a bit, but soon we were in the bedroom stripping down and getting busy. I sucked his dick for a bit, then I had him get on the bed on all fours and I ate out his ass. He’s got a nice smooth hole, and rimming a good hole always gets me totally hard. I had skipped the Viagra and taken the herbal stuff. When I’m horny to start with it works well and I’m not really liking Viagra so far. Anyway, the herbal stuff was working just fine. After eating out his hole I was nice and thick and hard.

I got up, grabbed some Wet Platinum (I know I sound like an advertisement today – but so far I’ve cum every time when using the stuff), lubed up my dick, put a little on his hole and shoved in. His hole felt good. It had been 4 days since I had cum, so I knew I would cum pretty easily. I wanted to give him a decent length fuck, so I fucked him on all fours for a little while. I knew I wasn’t going to cum that way, but then my need to cum sorta took over and I pushed him flat on his belly, got at a little angle where his hole was rubbing my cock just right and kept going. He moved around a little, but I discouraged it. I wanted him nice and still so I could concentrate on how his ass was grabbing my dick. It felt good. Needless to say, I came pretty quickly at that point. All in all the fuck hadn’t lasted all that long. I kept going – slow dicking his cummy hole, but finally pulled out.

A couple days ago I was thinking how I never look my bottoms in the eye when I’m fucking them and cumming in their asses. I gotta try that one of these days. But I also sorta like keeping the sex impersonal and treating them like a hole. Afterwards is where I get tender with the guys I fucked. We laid there and sorta caressed each other. It was so relaxing for him he actually fell asleep briefly at one point (the second guy in a row that happened with – I’m starting to wonder – lol). We talked a little, he jacked off, we had some more quiet tender moments, and then he left.

I was in the middle of doing some porn blogging when he had arrived, so when he left I went back to it. I finished up the post about the top with the 10″ dick, and then randomly picked a video from Bareback Masters to blog. I had to do a double take… The bottom in the video (Ian Cody) looked a lot like the guy I had just fucked. In the pics he was younger, thinner, lacked a tattoo, and had bleach blond hair, but there was one pic where his lips had a certain look and I just knew it was him – I’d had those lips inches from my face 15 minutes earlier.

I texted him to ask if had done porn and he more or less said yes. I sorta put my foot in my mouth saying I thought he was hotter now than he was back then which he (being a bit sensitive to start with) interpreted as I didn’t think he was very hot back then. I googled his name and found other pics of him – some were quite hot and he totally looked great with bleach blond hair. I tried to respond in a way to get my foot out of my mouth, but I don’t think he was buying it. But I really didn’t see how it mattered – I’m fucking who he is today, and I think he’s hot now.

Sorta a weird coincidence to sit down and find his pics right after fucking him… Hopefully we’ll hookup again soon…

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Last week I was chatting up this Asian guy on BBRT. He was out of town but said he was planning on coming to NYC the next weekend. All of a sudden he said…

So I just confirmed my trip to NYC this Friday-Sunday. When can we meet? … It was your PA that made the decision point.

From the sound of it he was coming into town specifically to get fucked by me and my PA. In one way it’s nice, in another it sorta obligated me to hookup with him. (If you’re reading this and thinking of doing something similar – don’t do it – chances are I will not be able to hookup with you).

His pics were just so-so and I wondered what I had just gotten myself into. On the other hand, he wanted to get fucked with a PA and it had been a while since I did that and there were things about him that looked interesting… He was Asian and I like Asian guys. He seemed like he was in reasonably good shape, but not great shape, but good enough. And the part that was most curious was that his profile didn’t just say he was neg, but in his profile text he listed the date of his last test. But he asked me no questions and his “looking for” status was “no preference”. Combine that with his wanting to get fucked by a PA that would probably tear him up a bit and he seemed like a bit of a hungry pig – that much I knew I was going to like.

We exchanged texts and set up a time. I really did get the sense that he came into town specifically to get fucked by me and my PA – it was sorta weird. Friday evening I had a barbecue at a friend’s place in Jersey, so we arranged to meet Saturday afternoon.

That morning I decided I’d take a hot bath, try to stretch my PA and get my 0 gauge ring in. It didn’t happen – I didn’t get the 0 gauge ring in until the next day. But I thought it would be cool to  fuck with the additional weight of the 0 gauge. In hindsight it was good it didn’t go in. The 0 gauge has been a little painful as my hole stretches to adapt to it. Probably would have been a really bad idea to fuck with it a few hours after going up to the bigger size. As it turned out this was the last fuck with the 2 gauge – seems appropriate to fuck with it the last day it was in – sorta like a going away party for the ring – lol.

Now my next issue was that my PA is sorta distracting. I don’t fuck with it (very often) ’cause when it’s in I don’t perform as well. So knowing he wanted to get fucked with the PA was a bit of a complication. I decided to do both my herbal stuff as well as a little Viagra. So first thing in the morning I took some of the herbal stuff and then a couple hours before I was supposed to meet him I took about a 1/3rd of a Viagra (maybe a little less). I just hoped it would work well enough…

You’d think if he was coming into town specifically to get fucked by me he’d pick a hotel that was easy for me to get to. Instead he picked one down near Wall Street. And then on top of it there was track work and I wound up having to go all the way to Brooklyn double back to get to him. It took a bit over an hour for me to get there. I did feel the Viagra kick in when we got to 59th Street, but by the time I was finally approaching his hotel I was thinking “I hope he’s worth it…” Oh yeah – and the temperature was in the 90’s with high humidity…

Then I get into the elevator at his hotel and realize you need a key card to get up to the guest floors. I texted him to come down. When he got there I was shocked – he was totally cute – unlike his pics, he was quite thin – so thin I’d call him skinny. And his face was so much more adorable than his pics – he looked like a bit of a nerd in his pics. He real life had this hot faux hawk and was 110% my type… Not perfect, but I don’t expect perfection – but he was damn close to it. Needless to say I was glad I bothered to hookup with him.

We get to his hotel room and strip down. He was totally into me (which I always find odd coming from guys who have great bodies), and as I’ve said I was totally into him. I had forgotten that he told me he liked to party. So it turned into a 3way with Tina/Chrissy… But oddly, he did it 3 times while I was there and the interaction with him was completely normal – like he wasn’t doing anything at all. Again, I lucked out… There wasn’t even the weird odor I’ve smelled when guys smoked up before sex – I wonder what it was that he was doing – maybe it wasn’t Tina… Anyway, a minor distraction, but not a problem.

We made out and I felt up his body for a little while. Then he sucked my cock for a few minutes. Then he got on all fours on the bed and I started eating him out. He had told me he took a load earlier in the day, but it was in there pretty deep (or he had cleaned out) ’cause I didn’t taste anything. He had a great ass and I finally got totally hard.

I stood up and started pushing my PA and cock into his ass. It’s always a little tricky getting such a big ring up some guy’s ass without hurting him or me in the process, but I did finally get it up there. I fucked him doggy style for a while, but every time I’d hit bottom in his ass it was a little painful for me as the ring would double back. So I pushed him onto his belly thinking maybe I wouldn’t get as deep in his ass that way.

With him on his belly there was still a little pain but not so much, but what I really noticed was hot small he was underneath me. He felt good… really good… There was something about his body where his hole was just in the perfect place for me. As you might guess, it wasn’t long before I was blowing my load in his hole. Between the Viagra and the herbal stuff I stayed hard after cumming and kept fucking his cummy hole (more slowly) for a while.

Finally I pulled out and he cleaned off my dick (it’s sorta surprising how many guys are into ATM these days – it seems everyone wants to clean off my dick after it comes out of their ass)… And given that my big PA digs up shit even in “clean” bottoms it said a lot about his ability to clean out that he could suck the dick right after it fucked him. Then I got behind him and started eating out his cummy hole. It tasted great… It’s sorta weird tasting my cum when I’m rimming a guy. I had fucked him enough after cumming that he had a fair amount of cum outside his ass – I didn’t have to work too hard to get my fill of cum.

We then laid around for a bit and chatted, cuddled, sucked each other’s cocks, etc. After 20 minutes or so I got hard enough for round two, but I wasn’t totally hard. In the past I’d noticed that my ring would hold my semi-hard cock in a guy’s ass, so I pushed the ring in and fucked him. I wasn’t totally hard and it was sorta an odd fuck. Seemed it was pretty intense for him – probably because my ring wasn’t as deep in his ass and when I’d pull out a bit the ring would stretch his sphincter. For me it wasn’t the greatest of fucks, but he seemed to like it because the PA was causing some pretty intense sensations.

I wasn’t going to cum, so eventually I just pulled out and we went back to cuddling, talking, sucking cock, etc. At this point I asked him what was up with him since he put the date of his last HIV test in his profile but then had “no preference” in for “looking for” status. He misinterpreted what I said and before I got “no preference” out he said “‘don’t care’ – did I forget to change that?” In other words before his test his HIV status was apparently listed as “don’t care”. Anyway, his answer was pretty simple – he had gotten into barebacking, loved it, never wanted to use condoms again and knew he’d eventually become poz. That still didn’t answer my question as to whether putting his HIV test date in his profile was there to attract neg tops or attract gift giving poz breeders. Either way, I didn’t get the sense he was bug chasing so much as just aware it would happen sooner or later and enjoying life in the process.

I seem to get a fair number of guys assuming I’m poz. I wonder if his coming to NYC paying for transportation and hotel mostly just to get fucked by one top wasn’t because he was thinking that being fucked with a big PA would be a memorable way to get pozzed. Thing was, even when we were discussing his status he didn’t ask questions about mine… He clearly just didn’t want to know. There are times when I wish I could be a mind reader…

When we went to fuck the third time I took my ring out. It was a big enough distraction I knew I’d do better without it. I rimmed him little before I started, but by this time his ass was pretty musky from all the fucking and cum, so it really wasn’t that big of a turn on. But when I went to fuck him it was a good fuck. Once again we started with him on all fours. He was jacking his dick, which usually I don’t like, but it wasn’t interfering with anything. Then he stopped and I asked if he had cum – he had. He didn’t ask me to stop, so I pushed him onto his belly and kept fucking him. There was something about his hole that felt incredible. It was cummy and I was going in at just the right angle, and of course like before I could feel how small he was under me. I almost came a second time. In all my preparations for that day I had forgotten my cock ring. Had I remembered it my dick might have been a little thicker and a little more sensitive and I just might have cum the second time. For me it was probably my favorite fuck of the day – even though I didn’t cum.

Afterwards we cuddled and he actually fell asleep in my arms for a few minutes. Eventually I had to go. It had been a busy 2 hours and I needed to get home.

All in all an excellent fuck…

Load 2010-23

Last Thursday I hadn’t cum in 6 days and just needed to blow a load. I had a really short window to actually hookup and I was busy and didn’t have hours to spend finding a bottom. I wasn’t having much luck and then I noticed a Latino online who I’ve been fucking since 2004. I actually didn’t write up the last time I fucked him (back in December) ’cause I videotaped it and never got around to editing the video. (Yeah, I know… I need to get off my ass and get it done…)

The problem was if I’m going to take my new Viagra prescription I need to do it 90+ minutes before hooking up. Things sorta happened at the last minute, and 90 minutes out I really didn’t know if it was going to happen, so I just took a little – about 1/3rd of a pill (maybe less). As I went to his place I felt my hands get all tingly so I knew it was kicking in, but wasn’t sure I had taken enough…

I get there and like always he’s on all fours on his bed just inside the door. He likes things pretty anonymous even though we’ve gotten to know each other a bit over the years. I had asked him not to lube his hole, ’cause it tastes funny and I like to start out rimming him (since he’s not looking to suck cock at the beginning). I get down on my knees and start eating out his ass and gradually start getting hard. The Viagra really isn’t helping all that much – I think I took too little or something. He said he had taken another load before I got there, but I didn’t taste any cum (too bad).

I finally got hard and started fucking him. Since he hadn’t lubed his hole, and didn’t have any lube available I was more or less just spit fucking him and there was a lot of friction. Lately I’ve noticed a huge difference in how good a fuck is based on the lube that’s used. This fuck was pretty dry and it wasn’t working all that well for me. Unfortunately the load he had taken before I got there wasn’t lubing his hole.

I pushed him onto his belly and gave him a decent fuck, but eventually got overheated and had to stop before I’d cum. I laid there for a while. We talked, he sucked my dick – and we basically just hung out for maybe 10 minutes. When I had cooled down and caught my 2nd wind, I went back to fucking him.

This time it still didn’t feel all that great, but I did manage to cum but it took a lot of effort. Given that I hadn’t cum in so many days I think it was a pretty big and thick load. He had a guy coming after me – that guy probably had a much better experience than I did ’cause my load was big enough to make his hole nice and silky.

I washed up and ran downtown to meet my bf at Boxers for drinks. After leaving his place I realize I forgot to wash my beard and it smelled like ass… I was glad I didn’t see anyone I had to kiss when I got to Boxers. I ran to the bathroom and took care of that problem and then had a few beers.

So the take away is #1 – take at least a 1/2 pill of Viagra and #2 get a small pocket sized bottle for lube and take my own to hookups.

Load 2010-22

Had sorta a weird hookup the other day… This guy hit me up on BBRT and despite my effort to get to the point and hookup, he was asking all these other questions. Finally I had to ask – did he want to fuck or not? If he wasn’t really into it I’d move onto someone else. He said yes. We agreed on a time and he came over.

I should backup and mention that my doc gave me a prescription for Viagra this past week and this was the first time trying it out. I cut the pill in two and took the small half – probably about a 40% dose. I was curious to see how it would work. An hour went by and nothing. Then at about and hour and 20 minutes it started kicking in. I felt really hot and flushed – uncomfortably so. I remember feeling the same way the first time I used the herbal stuff I normally use.

When I answered the door I had this raging, rock hard hardon in my pants. I’ll give Viagra definite points for hardness.

When we got to the bedroom he was pretty submissive. Didn’t do anything without being told. I was sorta expecting that since he had said he wanted to be tied up and used. I told him to get on his knees and he started sucking my dick. I put a collar on him as he was sucking my cock and then when he stood up and I took off his clothes, I put on wrist restraints which I locked together with a nice heavy lock.

I then told him to get on all fours on the bed. He was bit beefier than I usually hookup with, but I wanted to rim his ass. When he got on all fours I noticed his ass crack was darker than the rest of his ass (why are some guys like that?) and he smelled a bit funky. Not horrible, but a bit too far from squeaky clean for me to really get into rimming him. Needless to say I didn’t rim very enthusiastically and ended it pretty quickly.

I then pulled out the Wet Platinum, lubed up my dick and went to fuck him. He was 3 or 4 inches taller than me and bent over  on the bed his hole was 6 to 8 inches above my dick. There was no way I was going to be able to fuck him like that. I pushed him forward onto his belly and shoved my dick in. He was beefier than the guys I usually hookup with, but I found that if I was at a bit of an angle his hole felt pretty good on my dick.

This whole time he never really gave any positive feedback. It was like he really didn’t care who I was, and probably didn’t care if he even got fucked. It was like he was getting fucked to pass the time. He seemed sorta bored or like his his head was off somewhere else thinking about something. All in all he was sorta ‘vacant’ and ‘absent’. Add to that bad breath that I could smell when I was on top of him fucking him (I gotta remember to get guys with bad breath to go gargle with Listerine so I don’t have to smell that).

Then, on top of everything else, he asks for more lube, and when I pause for a second I realize I’m actually about to cum. If I pull out to get more lube I’ll cum while I’m out of his ass. I hadn’t even been fucking him for very long, but I had a 6 day load built up and could have cum in any decent hole that day – and his hole was doing the trick. So I paused, tried not to cum, spit on his hole a couple times and resumed my fucking. I knew it wasn’t going to go on for much longer.

As I was about to blow I was thinking about the fact that his profile said he was neg, yet he had asked no questions and here he was laying there like a piece of meat about to get my load – and totally disconnected from what he was doing. I would have loved to know what he was thinking at that moment. It was like he didn’t care, but there was more to it and I couldn’t tell what that more was…

I blew a decent load up his ass and kept fucking him for a little while – told him I wanted to keep going and give him a second load, but then the Viagra started to fail me and so I pulled out.

It had only been a few minutes at this point. What was I going to do with him? I had him clean off my dick, which given that his ass was a bit musky coulda been a bit disgusting, but he cleaned it right off like it was perfectly clean. I had him suck me some more, but I wasn’t really all that hard, so I stopped.

I asked him if he was into flogging. No. (Forget about asking about whipping if they’re not into flogging). I asked about padding. No. I was staring to run out of options. I played with his nipples and when I sucked on one of them he reacted positively (a first). I could tell he liked that. So then I searched for the suction cups I have for nipples, but couldn’t find them. I got out my nipple clamps and he indicated that he didn’t know if he could take them. I tried to use them gently, but you can’t really use nipple clamps gently – they kept slipping off. I was out of s/m tricks.

The whole time he was jacking his dick, which was a bit distracting. But it wasn’t like he was jacking it ’cause he was turned on – he was jacking it ’cause he seemed embarrassed about having a soft dick. Finally he got hard and stopped jacking. It was like a dog presenting a hard bone to his master – it was sorta cute. Thing was, he was a bottom – I didn’t really care about his cock.

I felt up his cummy ass and thought about fucking him some more, but my dick wasn’t really cooperating. Finally I just wrapped things up by taking off his collar and wrist restraints. He got the hint, got dressed and took off. We did talk a little as he was getting dressed. It wasn’t completely awkward, but I still have no clue where his mind was while we were having sex…

As a first time using Viagra it was a bit disappointing. It did get me rock hard, but it didn’t last very long. In some ways I like the herbal stuff I use better. I don’t get quite as hard with it, but I get thicker. I think I’ll use Viagra when I’m not completely horny (’cause that’s when the herbal stuff isn’t sufficient) and I’ll use the herbal stuff when I’m good and horny and just need a boost to make my cock bigger and more sensitive.