A day after my last fuck I still hadn’t cum and now had a 6 day load churning in my balls needing release. I wanted a sure fire fuck – one where I knew I’d blow my load. When I saw my black fuck bud online and found out he was available, I knew I’d finally get to cum – after all, I’ve come absolutely every time I’ve fucked him.

The fuck was actually sorta uneventful – ’cause it was just like the last few. The only really interesting part was that his boyfriend came home just as he was about to leave and asked where he was going. lol – he said he was going to the gym. That delayed him a bit and I wanted him to come over while my bf was out. My bf doesn’t mind, but I just think it’s a bit more polite to not have him come home and find me fucking someone.

So, just like the last time I fucked him, we had him cum first, and then I fucked him. He’s got this big cushy black butt – not fat, sorta muscles with padding over them. It’s a sweet ass.. And it just feels good being inside his hole… Needless to say, since I hadn’t cum in 6 days and his hole feels really good, it didn’t take long to give him my big thick creamy load.

Thank god for dependable cumholes…

I’m two hookups behind on my blogging and figured I should fix that since I’ve got a guy coming over in a bit and don’t want to be three hookups behind. Both of the hookups went almost the same way they did the time before…

First, was a repeat hookup with the black guy who I’ve fucked a few times before. The one with ‘penile papules‘ and the ass that always gets me to cum… He’s always so ready to come over, and I always cum with him – I really should have him over more often.

So he comes over, we strip down. I’ve learned from previous times that I can avoid this awkward bit at the end when he wants to come and I’m sorta done, by getting him to cum before I fuck him. He seems to like it, so that’s what we do…

After he came I started fucking him. We started out doggy style, but pretty soon I pushed him onto his belly. He wanted his ass up so grabbed my pillow and stuck it under him and I was thinking “dude – you just came – you may not be all that clean down there and now you’re wiping it all over my pillow”. But it had been a while since we’d done laundry so I let it slide since the sheets needed cleaning anyway… Thing is, having a pillow under your ass makes your butt look great when you’re ass up in a bathhouse, but at least for me it makes it a lot more difficult to actually fuck the bottom. So before long I pulled the pillow out and had him flat on his belly which was much better.

Like some of the other times I’ve fucked him I started wondering whether I was going to be able to cum. He’s got a pretty big cushy black ass – it’s odd that I do always cum with him ’cause big asses are sometimes difficult for me. I changed positions so I was sorta sideways with him, but that didnt’ do it. So I changed back to being lined up and before long I felt my load cumming…

When I was done he seemed to want to cum again. He had told me he came before coming to my place, so I wasn’t sure why he was trying to jack off AGAIN. Before long he just gave up and that was the end of it. He got dressed and left…

The black guy I’ve fucked a few times recently hasn’t always had perfect chemistry, but his ass always feels so good that I figured it was time to fuck him again… The problem in the past is that he’s versatile and so he’s not just there for the load – he wants to cum after me and then he gets a bit forceful and it’s sorta the wrong energy.

Well, this time he said he wanted to cum before he got fucked. That was different, but what the heck… Since he was pretty horny, I played with his nipples a bit while he jacked off and it didn’t take long for him to cum. Somehow the sexual energy was just better this time… And there was an added benefit – his cumming first means his cum went to good use (cum makes great lube)…

I’m not sure how he managed to get fucked at all after cumming, but that’s exactly what happened. He couldn’t take it laying down and wanted to do it doggy style. I was able to slip in pretty easy that way. The last time I can remember cumming doggy style was when I fucked Dawson, but his hole felt so great it didn’t take me long to cum at all. I hadn’t cum in like 4 days, so he got a nice big load.

Then he was off to workout at the gym with my load up his butt

This afternoon I was horny and the black guy I fucked last week was online. He said he’d come over but then it took him FOREVER to get here. I had just given up and started looking for someone else when he rang the buzzer.

Thanks to a pill and looking at other profiles, I was rock hard when he arrived and so when I stripped down I was literally ready to go and he started giving me a blowjob. Thing is I had managed to catch the head of my dick on my zipper and it was a little tender and he kept grazing the tender part with his teeth, so I sorta called that off and went to rimming his hole.

He loves it when I rim him and he’s got a nice ass. The funny part is I like rimming him, but it’s always a little musky to the point where I never really want to felch him after I’ve blown my load, but that comes later… So I rimmed him for a little bit and he was spreading his ass cheeks wanting me to get in deeper.

Then I was just ready to fuck. I lubed up my dick and put a little on his ass and he flipped over. He had been on his back, and I sorta wanted to fuck him that way, or on his side or something… But he wanted to be on all fours on the bed, so that’s how we fucked.

I usually have to worry about tiring out a bit when I fuck, but standing up to fuck isn’t nearly as exhausting as having the bottom on his belly, so I was able to fuck him for a while sorta pretty much just casually fucking his hole. But that wasn’t going to get me off, so eventually I climbed up on top of him to fuck him.

He’s got a big beefy muscle butt on him and that’s usually a problem, but somehow it isn’t an issue with him. So fucked him for a while on his belly and it felt good, but when I turned sorta 90 degrees it felt incredible and that got me to cum pretty quickly. It was actually one of the most intense orgasms I felt for a while. It was like a whole body orgasm… Very cool that way.

I then slowly fucked his cummy ass until my dick popped out of his hole. We talked for a bit and then he started jacking off and wanted me to suck his nipple. I was fine with that, but then when he wanted me to pinch his other nipple I said ‘no’. I don’t really like bottoms who tell me what to do and this was the 2nd time he’s done it. Then just as he was literally about to cum he guided my hand over to his nipple. Whatever… I pinched his nipple a bit and he came.

The whole “do this”, “do that” thing doesn’t really do it for me. That’s my job, not the bottom’s. He’s a good fuck, it’s just getting him off that’s a bit of a pain. So we’ll see – it’ll probably be longer than a week next time…

This morning I was sorta casually on the hookup sites and had a few guys who wanted to hookup. I needed to get some work done so I told them maybe this afternoon or this evening. I’m not sure what it is, but it seems like it’s getting easier and easier to find bottoms. If I fucked all the guys who were seriously interested I think I’d be fucking a few times a day – and I just don’t have time for that…

Anyway, this guy had been hitting me up for a few months and today was the day it sorta just worked out. If I remember correctly I had given my number to him a while back and he called at like 3 in the morning one morning at which point I sent him a pretty abrupt e-mail telling him to delete my number from him phone. Today just seemed like a simple hookup so I had him come over.

You never really know what you’ll get and he was pretty much what I expected – a little bigger (taller, bigger build) but it all worked out really well… We started stripping down and he had a nice build on him – pretty muscular and solid, so still pretty “regular” if you know what I mean.

He got down and started giving me a blowjob, and then we swapped and I blew him for a bit. He had this nice big thick (but not huge) dick. He was uncut and had something I’ve seen only a few times before… Around the head of his dick it was rough, almost spikey. Still, it was the perfect sized dick – big, but not too big to blow. He asked me if I got fucked and I sorta laughed inside and just said “not today”…

I then got him on all fours on the bed and started rimming him. His hole wasn’t quite the type I completely dive into with gusto, but it was close. His ass was big and muscular and at one point he pulled his cheeks apart so I could get in nice and deep. He definitely liked getting rimmed.

I then lubed up my dick and started fucking him. I kept him on all fours on the bed and I stood behind him. I wasn’t really in a rush or anything. But every now and then he’d abruptly pull off my dick. It was a little irritating ’cause it messed up my flow. So I pushed him onto his belly and fucked him my usual way.

Typically I like a pretty small butt ’cause it lets me get in deeper. This guy definitely didn’t have a small butt. His butt was this big black muscle butt, but even though he had a big butt it sorta just worked with my dick. Actually it felt pretty amazing. It was like there was a bit of friction inside his hole that rubbed me perfectly.

It wasn’t long before I came up his ass. Then I kept fucking his cummy ass nice and slow. Felt great.

When I rolled over my dick fell out of his ass and we just laid there slowly jacking our dicks and feeling each other up and we talked a bit. He kept saying over and over that I looked better and younger than my pics, which is sorta funny ’cause my pics are a bit old.

His skin was really sensitive and I’d just lightly stroke him and he’d totally get off on it. At one point he rode my dick a bit. But then he came by jacking off while I was sucked his nipple. I tasted his cum and it was just a little bit salty…

He was off to the gym – hoping maybe he’d suck off a guy in the steamroom – one time he even got fucked and took an anonymous load. His ass would definitely be well lubed with cum and ready for a steamroom fucking – who knows?

2pm came and it was officially the start of the gangbang and my bottom boy was still getting brown water when he douched, so the older more experienced bottom told him to use cold water when he douched and that seemed to do the trick.

The first top arrived while my bottom was still cleaning out, but the black bottom sucked his dick and things were off and starting… Then my bottom was finally done douching and more tops started arriving. I can’t really give a blow-by-blow since it’s all a bit of a blur, but I’ll give some highlights…

When I did the gang bang at IML I noticed that the white bottom was getting a lot more loads than the mixed race bottom. And the same thing happened at this gang bang – my bottom had something like 6 loads in him before the black bottom got his first load. Usually guys of color will at least fuck the bottom who’s of color, but in one case this huge black guy came in and completely ignored the black bottom and just went for the white boy. I know my bottom probably wishes the guy hadn’t been so into him ’cause the top managed to hurt one of the bottom’s ribs when he had him on his belly and was pounding him.

Sexual preference is what it is. I’m not faulting guys for liking who they like as much as observing that it’s not all that easy to be a gay man of color – white boys often get a lot more sex. When it was all said and done my bottom got 8 loads and the black guy got 4 loads. Some of the 4 loads came because my bottom needed to take a break (after the huge black top hurt him)…

About 16 or 17 tops had showed up and obviously a few didn’t give a load. One was this older guy who just didn’t fit in very well. I could tell he was harmless so didn’t force the point and ask him to leave. The bottoms were ignoring him and that was doing the trick. However, right in the middle of the gangbang there was a knock on the door and he went to answer it. I stopped him and answered the door myself and I was really glad I did – it was the maid asking if we wanted the room cleaned! What horrible timing. I said I just needed some clean towels and she went and got some for me. Afterwards I realized my fly was down the whole time I was interacting with her – but that was a lot better than the old naked guy answering the door…

That means my bottom was now up to 15 loads. 12 since he woke up that day, and the 15 came in about a 26 hour period. His record before was 9 loads in a day. I was hoping to get at least 25 loads up him over the weekend, so he was doing well so far in that regard.

In hindsight the loads at the gangbang were the last loads my bottom took – something changed in him and he stopped being a cum hungry slut – but more about that in later posts…

Well, the photoshoot yesterday didn’t happen. It’s been a bit of a learning experience trying to coordinate a shoot. Solos are a lot easier – you just need one guy to come. But with sex scenes it’s the worst of trying to hookup online multiplied many times over. First you have to get guys who are more or less into each other. Then you have to coordinate their schedules. Few guys want to commit to anything. Some don’t want to show their face, some only want to work with neg guys, etc. My take away is to treat it like a sex party where I set the date and time and see who can show up at that time. But I didn’t learn that lesson in time for yesterday’s shoot.

I had actually put a lot of work into trying to find models, etc. so I was in a pretty bad mood and that got my bf and I to fighting. Bottom line – he saw the trip as a vacation, I saw it as work with some down time mixed in. We finally patched things up and went out for a nice dinner then came back rested and headed out a bit later on (had to wait for the torrential rains to subside).

We went to Campus, one of the stripper bars, and a black guy who had been all over me the night before was on stage doing his non-nude dance. Now, the guys are generally pretty aggressive at the stripper bars, but most of them are straight. I had seen this guy hanging all over a bear, so when he came up to me and started doing the same thing I knew it was more than the regular aggressiveness. His type was hairy white bears with facial hair. He must of spent 30 minutes with me and it was really pretty intense. I wasn’t in the mood that night to go have a dance (plus they’re a complete rip off, so I just tipped him a bit).

Anyway, when he was done with his dance he came up to me and asked if I’d be his fluffer. I wasn’t sure if he was serious, so I said ’sure’, but didn’t know what would come of it. But a couple songs later he came back around and said the management wouldn’t mind ’cause they keep telling him he needs to get completely hard and it’s hard for him to get hard when it’s not with someone else. And I should mention he didn’t ask for any money. So the song before his dance started and we found a booth and I gave him a blowjob and he got nice and hard. He really was into bears – ’cause he’d stop me and make out, etc. It didn’t last long ’cause his song started and he had to rush on stage. Even though his dick is pretty big it doesn’t show as well as some ’cause it’s pretty bent – downwards – so it doesn’t stick out from his body.

So that was an interesting start to the evening. My bf was a bit jealous, but later in the evening he had plenty of attention from other guys, though none as intense and sincere.

I stayed there for a while and then went out to GI Joe – one of Montréal’s raunchier bathhouses. Just went by myself – my bf went out dancing with a guy he met who lived in NY. I should back up a bit and say I had forgotten to bring my pills on the trip and my libido was pretty low given all the stress I was feeling from things falling apart with the models, so I asked how much for the stuff they were selling and was told one type was $20 and another was $25. The guy said the $25 ones (“Forta”) were much better according to the customers who bought both. There were only two in the package and you were supposed to take the 2nd 3 hours after the first. Well, I’ll just say now, what they sold me sucked – my pills are WAY better than those (at least for me).

So I got undressed, and look around to see what’s up. There were a few bottoms on their bellies (what I look for), but not that many. I went to the basement where they have a big room with some glory holes. This attractive hairy bear came onto me. Long story short we got into a corner and I got down and gave him a blowjob. He was pretty horny and it wasn’t long before he was about to blow his load. He pulled out and turned away and I just grabbed his dick and went back to sucking it. He liked that and blew a big load in my mouth. So that was load #1.

After that I walked around a bit more and there was a guy on the top floor who was on all fours. I  went in and he barely looked at me – just kept his head down and his greasy ass up. I rimmed him a bit, got hard, and fucked him for a while. As I fucked him his ass went from greasy to wet – and in particular wet with loads he had taken earlier (it just feels different than lube). He seemed to have a lot of loads in there, so a couple times I got down and felched cum out of his ass – it was literally running out of his hole he had so much in there. Tasted good

I didn’t want to cum so early in the evening. It was at that point I thought I’d see how many holes I could get my dick in. I said that and believed it for a while, but also didn’t take it too seriously – there were willing holes I didn’t fuck.

Anyway, I went back down to the basement and in one of the pitch black glory holes there was a bald (or shaved head) cocksucker. I was feeling him up and felt his ass an it was dripping with cum. The glory holes there are big enough that they’re good for fucking. So apparently he’d been there a while and had spent plenty of time with his ass pushed up against the glory hole letting complete strangers he couldn’t see fuck him and dump their loads in him.

Needless to say I wanted to fuck his cummy ass. I had to get on my tippy toes to do it, but I fucked him for a while. Oddly he didn’t seem to want it to go on for long and he stopped after a few minutes. So I kept walking around.

When I was in my room I saw one of the models who contacted me about porn walk past. He’s a hot, ripped muscle daddy type who had wanted to do a leather scene. I stopped him, told him who I was and apologized things didn’t work out. It was then I realized he was up for doing more than I realized and it might have worked out with him (another lesson learned). Anyway, it was good meeting him and we kept seeing each other all night… [As a bit of an update - once again I misread him and today he tells me I should have fucked him at the bathhouse...]

Up on the top floor again a few doors down from my room and in the room next to the first guy I fucked there was this hot, lean, upper 20s guy laying on his belly. He looked a bit like a Euro boy type. I went in and started rimming him but my dick wasn’t cooperating, so I stopped and told him I’d be back. I don’t think he believed me, but I went to my room and jacked my dick until I was hard and then went back to his room and went straight to fucking him. I knew he was the guy who was going to get my load and I didn’t hold back fucking him. And yes, he did get my load and he wanted me to come back for more…

I knew I needed a little downtime and I was hoping I’d have a second wind, so I laid in my room and tried to recharge. I was playing with my iPhone (I’ve gotten addicted to playing solitaire on it), and I snapped a few pics of myself in the mirror over the bed… [And yeah, I'm heavy - I'm a bear - if it bothers you just get over it...]

The stuff I had taken was making me sweat like crazy, but after a while I figured I was as ready as I’d ever be. (They really did suck – I should have been rock hard after a 20 minute rest – oh well). So I looked around again and wound up in the basement again.

For some strange reason guys were really into me. Problem was some of the guys who were all over me I wasn’t into at all. Finally I found myself in a dark corner (by the 2nd guy I had fucked) and there were two reasonably hot guys competing to service me. One kept feeling up my butt wanting to fuck me, and the other spent a lot of time on his knees sucking me. Oh, I should mention there was this other guy who was back there who was a hot little hairy muscle guy with a pierced uncut cock – very hot, but he left.

Long story short I figured I might as well suck some dick since it didn’t look like either of them wanted to get fucked. So I got on my knees and the top who had been feeling up my ass had this cock that was thin and curved up and to the left. (Weird that it was the 2nd seriously curved cock I had sucked that night). He was trying to face fuck me pretty hard – forcing my head down on his dick – that never sets well with me and I resisted and sucked the other guy’s cock as well. The other guy had a uncut dick with really long foreskin that was leaking like crazy.

Long story short the guy with the uncut cock blew his load in my mouth and before I could even swallow I went back to sucking the other guy. Given how rough he was and the fact that I was squatting and my legs were going to sleep I stopped it after a bit and stood up. At that point he got down and sucked me until he blew his load. So I didn’t get that load, but did make a guy cum…

After that I knew it was time to go, so I got dressed and caught a cab…

Yesterday afternoon was the perfect moment in my IML experience. While I have issues with how IML is run, it’s moments like this that will get me back here next year.

For starters the guys who were taking over my blackout party wanted to come by to talk to me (NotSoInnocent and BountyHunter from BarebackRT). Then while I was waiting for them a hot black bottom from LA contacts me and wants to come over. While I was chatting with him the straight married lawyer who I played around with last year called me and was in the hotel and wanted to stop by.

First the guys who were doing the party got here. One was in leather the other in street clothes. Nice guys. We chatted a bit and then there was a knock at the door – it was the straight lawyer. He came in and was curious that I had other guys in the room who were potential bottoms… After doing his forceful dominance thing with one of the guys – basically sitting on him like he was a horse or a dog or something, he saw that my gear was out on the desk from the session the day before and he picked through it and started putting a collar on one of the guys. Then he got one of the floggers and started using it on the guy’s ass…

The other guy decided he wanted to get into his leather and come back, so he left. It wasn’t long before the remaining guy was tied up and the lawyer and I were using him. I let the lawyer lead – he has this subtle but persistent energy to him where he forces you firmly but gently to do what he wants.

After a while he had the bottom on the bed pushing the bottom down with his legs as laid back on the bed. I was flogging the backside of the guy’s legs. (BTW, the “bottom” is usually a top.) After a bit I took some rope and some restraints and basically did a loose version of a hog tie with the guy on his belly and his ankles tied to his collar.

Then there was another knock on the door. I was expecting the other guy doing the party to come back, but it was the black guy. I had told him the straight guy was coming over so he asked if he was still there, and I brought him into the room… He’s not big on S/M and just wanted to get fucked. He stripped down and presented his ass to me. I ate out his ass for a while as the straight guy continued to play with the guy who was all tied up.

I started fucked the black guy with him in a doggy position, then I pushed him into the middle of the bed where he was right next to the guy tied up and the straight guy started forcing him down on the bed with his legs. That lasted for a bit but the black guy was a bit nervous and didn’t like being forced down so he pushed himself back up a bit.

The straight guy had already started feeling the scene was changing and I could tell he wasn’t 100% into what was going on. He’s about dominance and control. He seems more interested in the fact that he could fuck you if he wanted to than actually fucking. He’s simply not motivated to fuck at all – it’s all about dominance to him. When the black guy pushed himself back up that was sorta the end of his attention span. Plus the bottom who was tied up was getting to his limit as well.

The straight guy got up, we untied the bottom to the point he could get himself out of the rest of what he had on, and I went back to fucking the black guy. The straight guy then asked if he could take the whip he had left with me the year before – he wanted to go walk around the hotel. I figured that was the last I was going to see of him and the whip, and he left. Then the bottom got himself untied and he left too – wondering why his friend hadn’t come back…

At last the black guy and I were alone, which was a good thing. I can fuck when I’m around other people, but I’m better when I’m 1-on-1… Being watched makes me a bit nervous. He had a bubbly full ass (and a lean body). His ass felt good, but it was a bit of a challenge getting just the right part of my dick rubbed the right way. I was starting to think I wasn’t going to be able to cum when I had him change a bit and I fucked him on his belly with one leg bent – so I was sorta coming at his ass from an angle. That was better, but I still wondered if I could cum. Finally he was almost falling off the bed (supporting himself with his arms touching the floor) and I found the goove and knew I’d get my nut. A couple minutes later he got my 2 day load up his butt.

We talked for a bit and then he was on his way. One of the things he mentioned was that I needed new pics – that my pictures didn’t do me justice. So I pulled out the camera and had him take a few. The first couple didn’t come out very well (see pic to the right – lol) – I was backlit so the initial pics were completely useless. I tried to get the flash to work, but finally gave up and took a picture in a different location in the room.

I then laid down for a bit and thought that was a cool ending to the last afternoon at IML. But then there was a knock on the door – the guy who was hosting the party had come back in leather. I told him I had just come, but if he wanted to play with flogging or something I was up for that. He had never been flogged and was a versatile top, but was willing to give it a try.

I knew I had to be pretty gentle on him since it was his first time. He pulled out a video camera and a blindfold and so we recorded his flogging. Hopefully he’ll put it up on a tube site so I can embed it here.

It was a good session. Couldn’t go all that hard on him, but he took more than he thought he could and actually got off on the pain, which wasn’t something he was expecting. Eventually my wrist was getting tired and he was starting to reach his limit, so we stopped.

All in all, pretty much the perfect IML afternoon…

Sorry I’ve been pretty absent lately. I was crazy busy with mainstream work, had a few deadlines this past Monday, and have also gotten wrapped up in possibly selling our place and getting something bigger (we don’t have enough space). Then when I got over the stress of all the work, I just sorta collapsed out of exhaustion. And then on top of everything else, my I asked my bf the other night if it some left overs in the fridge were still good, he said yes, but they weren’t, so that meant 24+ hrs of feeling like shit…

But Tuesday (before I ate the tainted food) I did manage to hookup with a hot black guy from the neighborhood. He’s someone I’ve been meaning to hookup with for a while but I couldn’t quite tell from the pics what he’d be like, but he was actually pretty hot in person… Nice guy, lean but solid/thick, attracive…

We stripped down (I kept on my shirt), he gave me a blowjob, I returned the favor, then he blew me some more. Finally I bent him over the bed and ate out his ass. His ass was big and muscular, so I had to work to get in deep enough to get to his hole. The best way I can describe things is that he smelled like a black man and the smell was strongest (but not too strong) when I was rimming him.

Since his hole was nice and wet and I had him bent over, I figured I’d just fuck him right then and there, so I did. I almost grabbed the lube, but didn’t and turns out I didn’t need it. His hole felt good. I had been really horny all day – constantly popping a boner. Even though I didn’t need it, I had taken part of a pill earlier in the day which always helps things (except this time it also seemed to give me a little headache). I was afraid it was going to help too much and I’d cum too quickly so I took it easy.

Then I had him get on his stomach. Usually this is my favorite way to fuck and feels the best, but it didn’t quite feel as good with him, but given that I wanted to prolong things a bit that was a good thing. He just laid there taking dick. Occasionally we’d kiss or something, but despite his being versatile, in that moment he was pretty much a sub bottom who was letting me use him. He had a great body, smelled like a black guy, his dark skin was a big contrast to my lilly white skin, and was submissive. Sexually racist fantasies went through my head, but didn’t really stick ’cause that’s not something I dwell on much. (I need to find a black guy who gets into that – could be fun. Years ago I had a black guy ask me to call him the N word when I was fucking him, but I couldn’t do it back then – definitely could now…)

It took a while, but when I finally came I blew a big load up his hole. It had been days since I had last cum and I knew he was getting a nice big thick load up there. I rolled him over and kept my dick in him like I often do. Thanks to the pill it took a while to go soft so I just kept slowly pumping his cummy hole. When I did finally go soft and pulled out he got down and cleaned off my dick.

We laid next to each other talked a little bit and I just sorta slowly stroked his back, ass, and head. I could tell he really loved it. He just laid there and didn’t move a muscle. I wondered which he liked better – getting fucked or getting this pseudo massage? I could tell he didn’t want me to stop, so it went on and on.

Finally I started getting hard again, so I stopped that and went back to fucking him. His hole was all wet and cummy and felt even better than the first time, but it’s not easy for me to cum more than once, so I wasn’t able to give him another load.

Then we talked a bit more and then wrapped things up. All in all a very good fuck to start the new year…

We had plans to have drinks with a couple guys who know I do porn, so we had just under 2 hours to spend at Steamworks. I wasn’t sure how I was going to perform so I took a pill just before getting there. Don’t usually take a full pill and was a little worried about it.

We get there, decent place and a fair number of people for the middle of the afternoon (which is always good). They’ve got a couple of dark mazes, a sling room, whirlpools, and dry and wet saunas – and a gym – so pretty much everything…

The first guy I hooked up with was in the sling room. He started feeling me up and he seemed to have a nice body (it was dark), but he wasn’t getting on his knees to blow me, so I left and he wound up following me. He was Asian and we wound up back at my room. There was some sucking and whatnot, but I really wanted to fuck. He finally put his ass up and I tried to push in, but I didn’t have any lube, and was sorta parched and couldn’t come up with enough spit. He wasn’t making it easy for me and seemed a bit reluctant. Then I saw him looking on the shelf by the bed for some condoms and when he didn’t find any he finally figured out I intended to bareback him and he ended things and left.

Next up was a black guy who came into my room while I was jacking my dick. He seemed to expect me to worship his “big black dick”, but I don’t do dick worship. When he said “tell me you love my big black dick” and I said nothing it was sorta clear things weren’t going to work. When I played with his ass he was into it. He let me rim him, but didn’t seem interested in getting fucked. He was into me and didn’t seem to be getting the fact that I wasn’t into him, so I said I wanted to take a break and walk around.

Next I saw this Latin (Mexican?) guy in one of the mazes, but I wasn’t all that hard so he moved on. Then I went into the dry sauna and there was this guy in there who was hungry to get fucked. Problem was there was a bit of a crowd and he jumped on someone else’s dick before I got a chance. But he wasn’t exactly a sub bottom ’cause as soon as he came it was over. The guy who was fucking him didn’t get to cum. But it was sorta funny that as he left he said “Happy Boxing Day guys!”

That got me boned so I went back to my room and jacked my dick. The Mexican guy I saw earlier came in and we played a bit, but once again he wasn’t really a bottom and things sorta fizzled.

I was starting to get frustrated ’cause I just wanted to fuck. I headed back to the dry sauna but saw my bf going in, so I figured I’d give him some space. This other guy was about to go in and he saw me and when I didn’t go in he came out and asked if I wanted to go to his room. This guy was a real bottom (finally), though a bit on the assertive side. I’m guessing he was Italian (he had a bit of an accent). He was probably upper 30s, and had a thick, but solid build.

Needless to say, after a short blowjob I had my raw dick up his ass. He was trying to direct things a bit too much but I still got my way more often than not. The weirdest part was that he was so into me he told me he loved me a couple of times. We fucked for a while, but as I mentioned I was a bit parched and couldn’t cum. It might have also been how non-submissive he was – not sure. But at least I got a good fuck in.

I had to run ’cause it was close to 5. As I went back to my room I saw a really hot young guy laying on his belly in a black jockstrap. Damn! While I might have gotten rejected if I had tried, I really wanted to fuck him, but I didn’t have time. The place seemed to be picking up and it was too bad I had to leave.

My bf didn’t have such a great time. One guy he was really into completely ignored him and then the cute guy went after a 65 year old guy. My bf knows the age ’cause he talked to the 65 year old guy later. It’s too bad my bf didn’t have fun ’cause it means when I travel with him he’s not going to want to go to the baths. Like I’d sorta like to go back today, but don’t think it’s going to happen.

Then we went and had drinks. Got to meet the guy behind Gay Porn Pig (who also does some other sites) as well as a reader of this blog who’s a flight attendant and has a couple of non-sexual blogs. The Gay Porn Pig guy gave me some great pointers about what I should do in the next year. The other guy was sorta funny – he reads this blog way too closely. There were little references I had dropped that he remembered with a bit too much clarity.

The Gay Porn Pig guy had to go so then we hung out with the other guy. We changed bars and went to the Black Eagle and managed to get kicked out of the backroom because we were talking too much and not having sex. That was sorta funny and a bit ironic. At one point my bf and the guy wanted to go for a cigarette and I wanted to stick around in the backroom (was hoping for a blowjob), but my bf wanted me to go with them. Guess I shouldn’t have gone. Having someone suck my dick would have changed the dynamics and made things more sexual. Oh well.

So all in all a good day yesterday, though I wish I had been able to give someone my load.

So he comes over and he’s really hesitant, so I take the lead and rim his ass, then he gives me a blowjob. But when I go to lube up my dick and fuck him, he scoots away from my dick and tells me he doesn’t get fucked raw.

Now my Adam4Adam profile is really clear that I’m looking to bareback. I tell him as much and he says “I thought I was clear in my message”. “No, you weren’t clear. Trust me, if you had said anything like that I wouldn’t have had you come over.” He asked if I wanted him to leave and I said yes…

So he left.

I had taken a part of a pill, so now I’m all hard with no one to fuck.

I took part of a pill, cleaned up and got ready, and walked over. It was a long walk, but it was perfect weather, so it was nice… When I got there he really was pretty hot. A perfect body, really dark skin that was a complete contrast to my pale skin, and he had very masculine qualities combined with pretty bottomy/sub/fem qualities and I sorta liked the weird mixture of it all…

We got naked and I was damp with perspiration – not sure if it was from walking over, the temperature of the apartment, or the pill making me flush and warm. He gave me this incredible blowjob and spent a lot of time on his knees servicing my dick and balls. He was definitely pretty submissive. But one thing I’ve noticed is that guys who don’t want to take loads in their ass try to make up for it with oral sex. I was starting to wonder…

We took a quick break and he ran into the living room and rummaged around and came back with some stuff. He apologized and said he didn’t have lube – would Vasiline be OK? Needless to say, it was fine with me – in fact things were sorta looking up at that point. He blew me some more and then lubed up his ass with Vaseline, but before he sat on my dick he pulled out a condom and opened it up. I think he saw the look in my face and said “you don’t like condoms?” I said “no” (of course) and he just tossed it aside and resumed sitting on my dick.

We fucked with him riding me, then with him on his back (half off the mattress he had on the floor), but he kept checking my balls when I was fucking him. I knew exactly what he was doing – he was checking to see when my balls pulled up so he could get me out of him before I blew my load. Thing was it was sorta the wrong position for me, so I wasn’t close to cumming.

When I pulled out there was a little smell and some shit on my dick (what is it with bottoms not getting clean these days?) So we took a break and I went into the bathroom to clean off my dick. Thing was he didn’t seem to have any soap and if you’ve ever tried to clean a dick with Vaseline with no soap you’ll know it’s not easy, but I got it as clean as I could.

He asked me how he could get me to cum and I said I didn’t know. He gave me another blowjob while I was standing up, then had me lay down and continued on. The blowjob went on for a while and his oral skills were really pretty good. Thing was I wasn’t completely hard ’cause I was realizing there was a good chance I wasn’t going to get my load in his ass. But he seemed completely content to suck on my dick and balls even if I wasn’t totally hard. And he was really cute down there

Then we laid down next to each other, and one thing led to another and soon I had him with his legs over his head and my raw dick back up his ass. At first he was jacking off furiously, then he relaxed and just let me fuck him.

I really wanted him on his belly, so I flipped him over and continued fucking him. This is when it felt the best and I really felt I could cum. But he kept acting like it was hurting him and wanted me to slow down. I could sorta tell he was just trying to avoid getting my cum in his ass. I tried my hardest to cum without going too fast, but the fact of the matter was I needed to just pound him for a little while to cum, but he wasn’t letting it get to that point.

Then he suggested we change positions and he rode my dick again (with his back toward me). He jacked off riding my dick until he came and then left my dick up his butt while he came down from his orgasm.

He seemed totally into me, and wants to hookup again. I’m up for it just ’cause he’s hot and I want to see if I can get my cum in that hot ass of his before he realizes I’m cumming and pulls off my dick. It feels like it’s a game – he’s playing me by seeing how much he can give me without actually getting my cum in his ass (and not actually telling me to not cum in him), and I’m playing him seeing if I can cum quickly and quietly before he realizes it…

I sorta felt like fucking someone today – been in a weird mood sexually the past few days. That research study I’m in asks about sexual desire in three different ways – 1) sexual interest, 2) sexual arousal, and 3) horniness. I never really thought about it in those terms, but they’re a good way to break it down. I mean there are times when I want to fuck someone (sexual interest), but I’m not all that horny and can’t necessarily get it up. Then there are times when I see things on line that get me hard, but don’t feel like going through the bother of hooking up…

Anyway, getting back to the story, today was one of those days when I had sexual interest, but intermittent sexual arousal and horiness. But I was still determined to fuck someone… There were a few possibilities on Adam4Adam and BarebackRT. One was too far away (Brooklyn), another was a bit flaky but I probably could have set something up, but there was this one black guy who had an incredible body who I really wanted to fuck, but he delayed things ’cause he was hooking up with two other guys who were going to give him loads. I figured a cummy hole and a great body were worth waiting for…

At one pointed he asked if I “partied” and I said ‘no’, but didn’t care if he did. I probably should have been more complete in my answer. I don’t really care if a bottom has been partying (provided they aren’t messy and distracted), but I don’t like it when they do it around me. It’s one thing if they do a quick snort of something, but completely different when it’s a whole complicated process.

So the guy shows up, he’s just as hot as his pics (which are incredibly hot). Muscular with zero body fat and a really thin waist. He gets naked and I start playing with his hole, but he wants to party a little first… OK, whatever – I figured he’d do something quick and we’d be on our way. But no, he pulls out a thing that looked like a little bong, the drugs, a lighter, and a little mini torch. It was all way too much. I put up with it just ’cause, I wanted to fuck and didn’t want to completely ruin the moment. I figured it would be over quickly, but it took forever…

When that was done we finally got down to business. He sucked my dick and then I fucked him on his back with his legs in the air. I could tell he wanted me in really deep. I had taken a pill and was really hard, so no problems there. But after fucking him for a while I couldn’t hold back and came in his ass. It didn’t seem like it had been that long so I didn’t let on that I had cum. I just rolled him over and kept fucking him and pounded him pretty hard.

The nice thing was there was a few times when I felt like I was really close to cumming a second time. In hindsight I probably should have faked an orgasm so he knew he got my load, but I didn’t… But he was definitely getting a good fuck.

Then he wanted to take a breather, but it turned out he wanted to smoke some more… UGH!!! At this point I started losing it. Despite having taken a pill, I wasn’t getting more than a chubby. When he was done I sucked on his nipples, and then we went into the shower and I pissed on him. But it completely lacked any chemistry and wasn’t all that hot at all.

He rinsed off and came back and I just wasn’t getting hard. I rimmed him a little, then had him suck my dick. That got me just hard enough to fuck him again which I did, and then he had me piss in his ass which was sorta hot (been a long time since I’d done that).

While he was cleaning up I got dressed. When he came out he saw me and said “Are you done” and I nodded. I was absolutely not going through another round of him smoking.

If he hadn’t been so hot it would have been a bad hookup, but he was hot (and a nice guy too) which meant it wasn’t all that bad, though I wouldn’t do it again (at least not that way).

The best part is his profile – “HIV negative” / “Safe Sex Only”. Yet he spent all night last night PNPing with two guys, and apparently had two more give hm loads before he came to me. He needs to learn to be uninhibited without the drugs…

There’s a guy who was visiting NYC a month or two ago who I really wanted to fuck, but things didn’t work out. Well, he’s here at IML and we just hooked up…

Again, not a leather hookup (oh well), but he’s so totally my type I didn’t care. He’s a 22 y.o., short, black guy who’s got a really lean, slightly muscular body, and a phenomenal ass.

He arrives and he’s shorter and cuter than I was expecting. He was wearing a hoodie, flip flops and the bottoms from hospital scrubs. He started stripping down just inside the door – no shirt, no underwear… I was loving it…

We kiss a bit and then he climbs on the bed and presents his ass to me. It was a truly incredible ass, and a really nice hole. I get down on my knees and rim him, which he seems to really love – it kept him moaning…

After rimming him for a while I got some spit on the head of my dick, stand up and fuck him. His hole felt great – nice and reasonably tight boi hole… He takes the dick really well and after a bit of warm up I fucking him fairly hard. Then I push him forward and fuck him on his belly.

Fucking little lean guys on their bellies almost always gets me to cum, and this time was no exception. It felt really good to give him my load…

I roll him on his side and keep my dick in him. Pumping him a little here and there while we enjoy the moment and talk about stuff… He’s not into leather – just came with a friend ’cause he’d never been before…

After a while of laying there cuddling he got up to look at the view. While he was standing naked in front of the window I started rimming his ass again… Didn’t taste any cum cause I must have cum pretty deep. He asked how the cum tasted and I told him I didn’t taste any. Then when I was taking a brief break he basically farted some of my cum out of his ass and it landed on the carpet. It was sorta funny, but I could also tell it wasn’t all that “clean” (not shitty, but just not clean), so I cleaned it up with a towel and didn’t pursue it further.

All in all a really good fuck. Didn’t capture it on camera ’cause I just wanted to enjoy his body. If he wants to fuck again I’ll see if he wants to videotape it…

Back in 2001 when my bf and I had been together for a little over 3 years, I wasn’t getting enough sex and I was fucking guys on the side (bareback of course). It was during this time that I fucked “Max” who went on to be the NY-based porn producer for Treasure Island, which is how 3 years later I wound up fucking Dawson in Dawson’s 20 Load weekend… But I digress…

My memory’s a little fuzzy, but if I remember correctly my bf found out I was fucking guys behind his back, there was a big argument, and the outcome was that we’d do 3-ways with bottoms. We thought this would be a great idea. We found a few guys and had a few good hookups (one of the guys we even later saw on Law & Order). But the problem was guys were usually either into one or the other of us, and we always used condoms, which I hated.

But we did find a few bottoms and the very first guy we did a 3-way with was this little, well-built, poz black guy. My bf was fine with him being poz because we were going to fuck him with rubbers… I remember a few things about him – like how his hole felt – it was like a wonderful muscular tube. The other thing was that he went shopping with us afterwards to Triple 5 Soul… (That was the first and last time we went shopping with someone after fucking them)…

Anyway, a few years later I see him online and we chat, he figures out I bareback, and he mentions that he wished he had taken my load. And then later he figured out I was the person behind this blog… For a number of reasons we never hooked up again – until last night…

I see him online yesterday on BarebackRT and tell him I want to fuck him. He had the day off, so he comes over after I was done with work. He looks great – hasn’t changed much in 7 years. He apologizes for having gained 10 lbs, but as I find later, the 10 lbs works well on him… Of course, I gained a lot more than 10 lbs over that time, but he’s fine with it…

He had said he was OK with pics or video provided people couldn’t figure out who he was, but the problem was I couldn’t find the tripod and my bf wasn’t around. I didn’t want the distraction of having to hold the video camera while I fucked, so video was out. After taking off the necessary clothes, I grab the camera and take pictures of his ass. The pictures aren’t as hot as the real thing… What you can’t see is how he’s like the perfect little beefy, muscular bottom. Nice ass, great chest and arms…

So then I put down the camera and eat out his ass, then I have him blow me, then eat out his ass some more, then he blows me again, etc… I then lube up his hole and my dick, pick up the camera again and go to fuck him. But the camera doesn’t take a picture when I press the button. I look and it turns out the memory is full on the camera. So sorry guys – ass shots are all you’re getting…

He’s a bit sensitive when I start fucking him, so I take it slow… His hole feels really good… He’s on his stomach, which is my favorite position with little guys. It would have been so easy to just blow my load after a few strokes, but I wanted it to last a while, so I fuck him with slow and deliberate strokes. Finally, I just can’t hold back any more and I unload in his ass. That’s what he came for – it’s the load he’s been wanting for years…

I keep my dick in his ass (I had taken a couple pills so I was able to stay fairly hard after cumming). I continue to slowly fuck him as we cuddle and talk a bit. His ass is all cummy and feels absolutely incredible… He tells me that was the first load he’d gotten in his ass in about two years. He has a boyfriend, doesn’t live in Manhattan where it’s easier to get laid, and since he’s versatile most guys seem to want him to top.

I remembered he was a sweet guy, but had forgotten what his personality was like. He’s sorta straight-laced in many ways – until he starts talking about sex. While he doesn’t get enough of it, he loves fucking raw – breeding and getting bred. And he’s really in love with Treasure Island videos…

I think I fucked him longer after I came than I did before. It was just nice and relaxed. Then I pulled out, he cleaned off my dick for me, and we cuddled and talked some more. Among other things we talked about him being poz… He’s been poz for something like 20 years – looks great, and has had very few health problems. (He previously he’d told me he’s been “undetectable” for years). He also mentioned he had jacked off 5 times that day thinking about taking my load. That was too bad ’cause I remember him having a really nice dick – but he wasn’t getting hard ’cause he had jacked off so much…

Then I wanted to fuck him more, so I went back and pounded his ass. This time I didn’t have to worry about cumming, so I was a bit more forceful than the first time. But at the same time, since I had cum earlier, I wasn’t completely hard. Eventually I went a bit too soft to fuck and we cuddled some more with my dick in his ass.

It felt really good to cuddle with him – his body was beefy and muscular – his chest and arms felt really good.

All in all it was a great hookup. I need to get him back here and videotape it (can’t believe I couldn’t find the damn tripod – but once he was here I wanted it to be about him, not about the video equipment…)

Anyway, that made me think about a lot of things including the fact that I really need to get back to the gym. Not that cubs and bears aren’t a big part of the leather community, but just that I’d really be happier with a different body composition (maybe more like a muscle bear or something)… Plus, when I mentioned it to my bf he said I should lose weight and fit into my old leather from 10 years ago – but that would mean I’d need to drop 55-60 lbs – not sure that’s going to happen before Memorial Day…

Either way – I didn’t sleep well – just got a few hours of sleep but when I got up I was in the mood to go to the gym (hadn’t been in over a year – or is it two years – can’t remember). Thinking about it I realized there’s like 5 different guys I could hookup with between my place and the gym. So I texted one of them – a black guy I’d been corresponding with on bnskin and manhunt. I didn’t hear back from him until I was already at the gym so I told him I’d go after I finished up there.

So after working out, I’m functioning on like 3 hours of sleep, no food, and just had an exhausting workout. I grab a Tropicana orange juice at a bodega so I’d have some energy, and head over to his place a few blocks away. His place is surprisingly nice – he did an incredible job turning a so-so apartment into a really warm, well-designed place. But more than that, he seemed like a really sweet guy – and his ass – OMG – it was fucking hot… He had this little waist and a perky little butt that made me definitely want to fuck him.

We go into the bedroom and he’s got a frame up for a sling. He pulls out the sling and some sheets and towels to put under it. Once he’s got it up we take off our clothes. I’m dripping wet with sweat (like literally dripping wet). I was hoping he’d take the hint and want to smell my pits and get off on how sweaty I was, but he didn’t…

When he took off his underwear his balls were huge. I asked if he did saline injection or something (I knew he hooked up with someone last night), but he said ‘no’. I touched them and they were hard and lumpy. Something was seriously going on down there and I was really wishing he’d offer an explanation, but he didn’t. Everything else about him was so good, so I kept going…

He gave me a little blow job and then climbed into the sling. It had been a long time since I’d fucked someone in sling (I own one, but never put it up – yeah, I know, I know…) I’m mostly hard and shove in and start fucking. The sling was a link or two too high for me and I had to get on my tip toes to get things lined up just right, but the bigger problem was that I just wasn’t “feeling it” (if you read the blog enough, you know what I mean)…

After a while I feel myself getting soft so I just pull out. I wanted to try another position (him bent over the bed), but my dick just wasn’t cooperating. Not sure if it was ’cause I was tired, or the chemistry was off, or the fact that I kept thinking about his balls, but one way or the other it just wasn’t happening. I had him give me a blow job, but nothing came of it.

So finally I wrapped things up and left…

Things may not have worked out with that guy, but maybe fucking guys on my way to or from the gym is a way to stay motivated and get to the gym. But probably should fuck on the way there – so I have some energy to fuck…

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There’s been this bottom sorta chasing me online. One time we made plans and he never showed up, so my bf and I had things to do and went out and then I get a message from him asking why I didn’t answer the door when get got there…

Anyway, he was really eager to hookup with me, but at the same time he was a total high-maintenance bottom. He’d get all mad if I didn’t get back to him right away or if I had to cancel plans to hookup…

So yesterday I was aching to hookup and breed some ass. I hadn’t cum while I was away for Thanksgiving and then when I got back my attempts to hookup weren’t all that successful. A week had passed and I hadn’t cum. At that point I knew I had a huge load built up and I was determined to get it someone’s ass…

So after some hysterics on his part, the guy agrees to come over. I give him the address and ask him to confirm that he’s definitely coming over. There are a few more messages from him, but he never actually confirms. I send him a message asking for him to confirm, see he’s online, but never hear from him…

I wasn’t going to have him prevent me from busting my load. I mean I had to cum so badly that for like a day and a half I felt like I had to piss all the time – I didn’t need to piss – I needed to cum (don’t know how priests do it).

So I start looking for another cumhole – guys that loved to get fucked and take loads – not anything tender or romatic – just a cumhole. But the weird part is a few were online, but none of them were responding to their messages. Then just as I get a message from one of them, the doorbell rings.

This was actually a really awkward moment. Our (straight) neighbor from down the hall was over having a drink and a cigarette with my boyfriend. I hate the smell of smoke, so I make them go into the second bedroom, put a powerful fan in the window and stand next to the fan, but still here he was and I had a trick arriving…

My bf came out of the bedroom and asked if the bell was a trick and I say it was (he knew I was trying to hookup). He said it was OK that the neighbor knew we had an open relationship ’cause he had told him he had thrown a guy out while I was away at a conference for being fat and having a small dick. Apparently the neighbor (who we think is sorta gay, but in a relationship with a woman) was really titillated by the whole idea of me having sex in the next room and wanted to watch (but that’s another story – and thank god it didn’t happen)…

This story is getting pretty long and it hasn’t even started yet… Oh well…

So the guy shows up and I hurry him into the master bedroom before the neighbor sees him. He’s a bit femmy, but not a complete girl (in other words, fuckable). We start stripping, he sucks my dick, but it doesn’t get hard – just chubby… He asks me if I’m really neg and I say ‘yeah’. He then asks how I stay neg and I say it helps being a top and I don’t hookup all that much…

I turn him around and start eating his ass (which he really likes). It didn’t smell clean enough down there for me to really go to town on it, but it was clean enough… The weird part was how soft his ass was. Nice shape, but totally soft.

We then get in bed, he gets on his back and throws his legs in the air. It’s not my favorite way to fuck, but he had already started jacking his dick – again, not something I really like bottoms to do, but I just needed a hole and didn’t want complications. So I lube up my dick and start to fuck him. He has a hard time taking my dick, so we pause, he takes a hit of poppers, and I try again. This time he’s OK.

He keeps wanting me to talk dirty to him… I try, but mostly just want to fuck him, cum and be done with it. His hole did feel pretty good… Then I say something about wanting to cum in his ass and he says to hold on ’cause he wants to cum at the same time I do. I slow down a little and the next time I say I want to cum in his ass a moment later he cums. UGH! I didn’t say I was coming in his ass, just that I wanted to cum in his ass… I try to keep fucking him, but he can’t take it…

At this point I’m seriously pissed. I start thinking about who else I can hookup with who’d be an easy fuck and regret having sent a quick message to the cumhole who’s message I got right when the guy got to my place…

The guy suggests he eat my load, or that I cum on him. I make it crystal clear that the only way I’ll cum is in his ass. He gets this weird expression on his face and says “Really? Oh wow… It’s so real…” At that point I knew he never intended to get my cum in his ass and his cumming before me was a way to make sure he didn’t get cum in his ass. I feel used and just want him to leave. I even say something like, “well, so that’s it, eh?” He asks if he can come back (!), and then he puts two and two together and realizes that if he doesn’t take my cum now, he’s not going to get to come back.

Anyway, for some reason I didn’t kick him out right then and there and we spend a little time cuddling so he can recuperate and I can finish fucking him. I’m still not sure he’s going to let me cum in him, but whatever… We talk a bit and he tells me that he’s only ever done bareback with a boyfriend and then only after 2 or 3 months of dating. I asked if the guy came in his ass and he said he wasn’t sure – he just never saw the guy cum… (Weird). But he said lately whenever he gets fucked (with a condom) he’s jacking off to what it would be like raw – and what it would be like to take the load…

So after a while we start fucking again. This time I didn’t say much – didn’t want to tell him I was about to cum and give him the opportunity to fuck things up. He keeps telling me to talk to him and I do a little bit, but after a while I just shut up and fuck him.

Finally, I can feel my orgasm coming… Wasn’t quite sure how a 7 day load would go. First it just felt like cum was leaking out of me – that went on and on… I knew at that point he was getting my cum in his ass. And finally the I came in earnest – and that went on for a while too. It felt like I put a gallon of cum in his ass! The guy who didn’t want cum in his ass got a shit load of cum – planted deep too…

I knew he wanted to cum again, so I tried to keep fucking him, but eventually pulled out. He then started farting – but it was a really wet sloppy sorta fart. It was sorta cool and to me showed just how much cum I’d gotten up there. He was a bit embarrassed and then reached down and realized he was farting cum out of his ass…

While I sorta wanted things to be over at that point, he still wanted to cum, so we tried to get him off. I played for a while with his cummy ass, but after a while it was clear he wasn’t going to be able to cum.

I half expected him to go into the bathroom and shit the cum out, but he didn’t. He took a leak, got dressed and left. He left with a completely juicy ass and probably had a huge wet spot in the seat of his pants when he finally got to the end of his subway ride and stood up…

But more importantly – he’s now a cumhole. He’s gone from fantasizing about it to taking a load from a complete stranger – and a big load at that… I’m glad I could be the one to get him over the hump and started down the slippery slope…

So I’m thinking of not jacking off for the rest of the year – so none of my cum goes to waste – have it all get deposited properly in some guy’s ass… If nothing else it will keep me properly focused on sex. If I had done that at the beginning of the year I probably would have made my initial goal of 100 loads up guys’s asses this year. As it stands, if I’m lucky I’ll do 1/4 of that…

There were a couple of options, but one guy had contacted me before – looked like a small muscular latino and said he liked stocky guys. (Sounded like a pefect match). [I now know he's light skinned black or mixed race, but whatever...]

So I go over to his place – full floor in a renovated brownstone in one of the best parts of Harlem. The name on his buzzer was Dr. John Doe (named changed of course) – a little pretentious, but maybe it meant he wasn’t a skanky cum dump…

He comes down to meet me – just like his pics – cute, lean, muscular… He was wearing a tank top and jeans that were riding low and showing his ass… Things were looking good.

We get into the apartment and start to kiss and feel each other up. Long story short, I get his pants off, and start eating his ass. Now the problems start. He just stands there. He obviously likes me eating his ass, but he doesn’t bend over or make it easy for me in any way… As a result, I have to keep ‘coming up for air’ since the way he’s standing I can’t breathe at the same time I’m rimming him.

He asks me if I like his ass and I say it’s pretty incredible. I play at poking my dick at his hole and then suggest we find somewhere more comfortable (since we were still standing next to the door). We go over to the bed and he sits on the bed, I raise up his legs and go to eat him out again. When I stop for a moment he tells me to keep rimming him. Demanding, but whatever… The whole time he’s jacking his dick.

I then go to fuck him. I don’t usually like missionary position when I’m fucking someone I just met, but whatever… The problem is, he won’t let his legs go back towards his chest – he keeps them straight up. I push, and he pushes back. This makes fucking him difficult. And he keeps repeatedly asking me to tell him how much I like his ass.

I try to flip him over and fuck him on all fours (since he never stopped stroking his dick) – but he’s still a bit rigid.

I’m losing it pretty quickly. He then says he wants to suck my dick, but won’t get up from laying flat on his back to do it – he makes me get in this weird position.

I try a little more to get hard, but it’s just not going to happen. I figure I’d suck his dick, but when I go down to do it, he doesn’t move his hand.

He starts asking what’s wrong. He obviously thinks I’m not into him, which is true, but it’s not a physical thing – it’s a chemistry thing. When you start talking about what’s going wrong in a hookup – it’s time to leave. So I say as much. On top of everything else I hadn’t gotten enough sleep, didn’t feel 100%, and the apartment was pretty warm (which always puts me off my game).

He keeps asking what’s wrong – if it was him… I keep deflecting the question… Oh well. I really wanted him to be a good cumhole, but that about sums it up – he doesn’t see himself as a cumhole. If I had to guess – he wants stocky guys who go gaga over him and keep telling him how wonderful he and his body is. He did have a great body – but to me it was just the perfect piece of meat…

Oh yeah, as I was leaving I noticed he had a painting of himself in the living room… It was one of the only pieces of art…

I googled his name when I got home. Let’s just say he’s doing well… Head of something at a pretty important institution…

So now I’ve got a 3+ day load in my balls and need to cum, but don’t want to waste it by jacking off. I’ll rest a little and look for a good bottom in a few hours…

Me: “Where are you located?” (since his ad just said “downtown”)

Him: “im in chelsea teens/7th ave you and your stats”

Me: “39, 6′, 230, 8″, white. we’ve corresponded before-check past emails for my pics. I’m close and can stop by in a little bit if you want…”"

Him: “hey dont see an old email from you but im HOT and HORNY you wanna CUM over or send me a DICK pic… do you know what I look like?”

Me: “What’s you address – I’ll be there in a few minutes… and yeah, I know what you look like you sent me a lot of emails trying to get me to fuck you… ”

Him (again): “hey im ready where r u CUM and Get it”

Me: “16 & 7 what’s your address?“

Him: “Kewl its 6pm now what time,I will send you my addy”

Me: “Not asking a third time… I WAS looking for NOW. the games are really tiring…”

I give up, sign out of mail and send a text message to a guy who gave me his cell number and told me to call him whenever I was looking to fuck, but he texts back that he’s off to a Project Runway party (which I didn’t really understand until I got home and my boyfriend was watching the first show of the new season – great crop of designers BTW).

So I check my e-mail one more time and he had finally sent me his address… I send a message back saying I’ll be there in a bit.

I arrive and it’s a ‘modest’ apartment (nothing particularly wrong with that- some cumholes live in real dives) . In the pic he had sent me he had really short hair, but now it was really long. We played around a bit, he sucked my cock. I wanted to rim him and he cleaned off the lube he had put on his hole. The whole time he’s trying to talk dirty and a lot of what he’s saying is focused on the fact that he’s black and I’m white. I can definitely get into the whole racial thing, but the way he was going about it wasn’t really doing it for me.

Then I went to fuck him… We’re both standing – he’s bent over a desk. Thing is his legs are longer than mine and my dick comes to a point about 2 inches below his hole. I can get in his hole, but not comfortably and I’m not in the mood to stand on my tip toes to fuck him (been there, done that – no fun…) I ask him to lower his ass, he doesn’t get it. I then push down (pretty hard) on his lower back and he stays right where he is. I move him around to the couch thinking that might be better. No luck. I have him lay on his stomach and he manages to lay in a way that’s awkward for me.

I’m so over the hookup and my dick is almost too soft to fuck. Then he says (still talking dirty) “You like your hard dick in a black hole, don’t you?” I’m thinking – Guy, can’t you notice I’m soft? What’s the talk about my hard dick? It’s not hard!

At that point I give up. I say “it’s not working for me”, pull up my pants, put on my jacket, grab my bag and leave…

For someone who I think (based on his Craigslist postings) gets fucked a lot - he’s a really bad bottom…

I’m out-of-town for a few days in a small city in the south… God I love NY… There’s just a weird karma down here… Mind you parts of it are so charmingly stereotypical – like the woman on the plane saying “Thank you so much…” just like Kyra Sedgwick – and then the waitress last night would could have been Kyra Sedgwick’s younger sister…

I’m finding it funny reading profiles that say “I’m just a country guy who’s recently moved to the city”. Guys – this place barely passes for a City. I know – I spent two hours walking “downtown” when I got a bit lost today (until I realized I had Google Maps on my cell phone). The place is a wasteland. I finally found the “good” part of downtown only to see boarded up buildings there too… Yes, there’s a nice part of the city and it’s quaint and charming, but lets just say you need to stay in the numbered streets and they seem to stop at 4th Street.

And the choice of men isn’t much better… It’s been a long time since my bf and I spent days apart and I was hoping for a little action. The thing is, the guys just aren’t all that hot (IMO). My bf might think so – he likes beefy/stocky/chubby white guys, but that’s not my type. And the black guys down here are different too – there’s more shades of brown in NY, and a different attitude (which is true for white guys as well)…

Whatever. Anyway, I tried one… It was an OK experience, he looked mostly black, was a little chubby but not too bad… Unfortunately he took off his shirt… I needed to fuck and I did, and I came in his ass. But then he wanted to keep going and I just wanted it to be over. I tried to play along, and finally he jacked off onto my chest – a lot of cum – my belly was covered in cum and it was dripping all over the place… But I was just glad when he left.

So that’s about it. Wish it were better, but whatever…