Load 2010-24

Last week I was chatting up this Asian guy on BBRT. He was out of town but said he was planning on coming to NYC the next weekend. All of a sudden he said…

So I just confirmed my trip to NYC this Friday-Sunday. When can we meet? … It was your PA that made the decision point.

From the sound of it he was coming into town specifically to get fucked by me and my PA. In one way it’s nice, in another it sorta obligated me to hookup with him. (If you’re reading this and thinking of doing something similar – don’t do it – chances are I will not be able to hookup with you).

His pics were just so-so and I wondered what I had just gotten myself into. On the other hand, he wanted to get fucked with a PA and it had been a while since I did that and there were things about him that looked interesting… He was Asian and I like Asian guys. He seemed like he was in reasonably good shape, but not great shape, but good enough. And the part that was most curious was that his profile didn’t just say he was neg, but in his profile text he listed the date of his last test. But he asked me no questions and his “looking for” status was “no preference”. Combine that with his wanting to get fucked by a PA that would probably tear him up a bit and he seemed like a bit of a hungry pig – that much I knew I was going to like.

We exchanged texts and set up a time. I really did get the sense that he came into town specifically to get fucked by me and my PA – it was sorta weird. Friday evening I had a barbecue at a friend’s place in Jersey, so we arranged to meet Saturday afternoon.

That morning I decided I’d take a hot bath, try to stretch my PA and get my 0 gauge ring in. It didn’t happen – I didn’t get the 0 gauge ring in until the next day. But I thought it would be cool to  fuck with the additional weight of the 0 gauge. In hindsight it was good it didn’t go in. The 0 gauge has been a little painful as my hole stretches to adapt to it. Probably would have been a really bad idea to fuck with it a few hours after going up to the bigger size. As it turned out this was the last fuck with the 2 gauge – seems appropriate to fuck with it the last day it was in – sorta like a going away party for the ring – lol.

Now my next issue was that my PA is sorta distracting. I don’t fuck with it (very often) ’cause when it’s in I don’t perform as well. So knowing he wanted to get fucked with the PA was a bit of a complication. I decided to do both my herbal stuff as well as a little Viagra. So first thing in the morning I took some of the herbal stuff and then a couple hours before I was supposed to meet him I took about a 1/3rd of a Viagra (maybe a little less). I just hoped it would work well enough…

You’d think if he was coming into town specifically to get fucked by me he’d pick a hotel that was easy for me to get to. Instead he picked one down near Wall Street. And then on top of it there was track work and I wound up having to go all the way to Brooklyn double back to get to him. It took a bit over an hour for me to get there. I did feel the Viagra kick in when we got to 59th Street, but by the time I was finally approaching his hotel I was thinking “I hope he’s worth it…” Oh yeah – and the temperature was in the 90’s with high humidity…

Then I get into the elevator at his hotel and realize you need a key card to get up to the guest floors. I texted him to come down. When he got there I was shocked – he was totally cute – unlike his pics, he was quite thin – so thin I’d call him skinny. And his face was so much more adorable than his pics – he looked like a bit of a nerd in his pics. He real life had this hot faux hawk and was 110% my type… Not perfect, but I don’t expect perfection – but he was damn close to it. Needless to say I was glad I bothered to hookup with him.

We get to his hotel room and strip down. He was totally into me (which I always find odd coming from guys who have great bodies), and as I’ve said I was totally into him. I had forgotten that he told me he liked to party. So it turned into a 3way with Tina/Chrissy… But oddly, he did it 3 times while I was there and the interaction with him was completely normal – like he wasn’t doing anything at all. Again, I lucked out… There wasn’t even the weird odor I’ve smelled when guys smoked up before sex – I wonder what it was that he was doing – maybe it wasn’t Tina… Anyway, a minor distraction, but not a problem.

We made out and I felt up his body for a little while. Then he sucked my cock for a few minutes. Then he got on all fours on the bed and I started eating him out. He had told me he took a load earlier in the day, but it was in there pretty deep (or he had cleaned out) ’cause I didn’t taste anything. He had a great ass and I finally got totally hard.

I stood up and started pushing my PA and cock into his ass. It’s always a little tricky getting such a big ring up some guy’s ass without hurting him or me in the process, but I did finally get it up there. I fucked him doggy style for a while, but every time I’d hit bottom in his ass it was a little painful for me as the ring would double back. So I pushed him onto his belly thinking maybe I wouldn’t get as deep in his ass that way.

With him on his belly there was still a little pain but not so much, but what I really noticed was hot small he was underneath me. He felt good… really good… There was something about his body where his hole was just in the perfect place for me. As you might guess, it wasn’t long before I was blowing my load in his hole. Between the Viagra and the herbal stuff I stayed hard after cumming and kept fucking his cummy hole (more slowly) for a while.

Finally I pulled out and he cleaned off my dick (it’s sorta surprising how many guys are into ATM these days – it seems everyone wants to clean off my dick after it comes out of their ass)… And given that my big PA digs up shit even in “clean” bottoms it said a lot about his ability to clean out that he could suck the dick right after it fucked him. Then I got behind him and started eating out his cummy hole. It tasted great… It’s sorta weird tasting my cum when I’m rimming a guy. I had fucked him enough after cumming that he had a fair amount of cum outside his ass – I didn’t have to work too hard to get my fill of cum.

We then laid around for a bit and chatted, cuddled, sucked each other’s cocks, etc. After 20 minutes or so I got hard enough for round two, but I wasn’t totally hard. In the past I’d noticed that my ring would hold my semi-hard cock in a guy’s ass, so I pushed the ring in and fucked him. I wasn’t totally hard and it was sorta an odd fuck. Seemed it was pretty intense for him – probably because my ring wasn’t as deep in his ass and when I’d pull out a bit the ring would stretch his sphincter. For me it wasn’t the greatest of fucks, but he seemed to like it because the PA was causing some pretty intense sensations.

I wasn’t going to cum, so eventually I just pulled out and we went back to cuddling, talking, sucking cock, etc. At this point I asked him what was up with him since he put the date of his last HIV test in his profile but then had “no preference” in for “looking for” status. He misinterpreted what I said and before I got “no preference” out he said “‘don’t care’ – did I forget to change that?” In other words before his test his HIV status was apparently listed as “don’t care”. Anyway, his answer was pretty simple – he had gotten into barebacking, loved it, never wanted to use condoms again and knew he’d eventually become poz. That still didn’t answer my question as to whether putting his HIV test date in his profile was there to attract neg tops or attract gift giving poz breeders. Either way, I didn’t get the sense he was bug chasing so much as just aware it would happen sooner or later and enjoying life in the process.

I seem to get a fair number of guys assuming I’m poz. I wonder if his coming to NYC paying for transportation and hotel mostly just to get fucked by one top wasn’t because he was thinking that being fucked with a big PA would be a memorable way to get pozzed. Thing was, even when we were discussing his status he didn’t ask questions about mine… He clearly just didn’t want to know. There are times when I wish I could be a mind reader…

When we went to fuck the third time I took my ring out. It was a big enough distraction I knew I’d do better without it. I rimmed him little before I started, but by this time his ass was pretty musky from all the fucking and cum, so it really wasn’t that big of a turn on. But when I went to fuck him it was a good fuck. Once again we started with him on all fours. He was jacking his dick, which usually I don’t like, but it wasn’t interfering with anything. Then he stopped and I asked if he had cum – he had. He didn’t ask me to stop, so I pushed him onto his belly and kept fucking him. There was something about his hole that felt incredible. It was cummy and I was going in at just the right angle, and of course like before I could feel how small he was under me. I almost came a second time. In all my preparations for that day I had forgotten my cock ring. Had I remembered it my dick might have been a little thicker and a little more sensitive and I just might have cum the second time. For me it was probably my favorite fuck of the day – even though I didn’t cum.

Afterwards we cuddled and he actually fell asleep in my arms for a few minutes. Eventually I had to go. It had been a busy 2 hours and I needed to get home.

All in all an excellent fuck…

I got this e-mail the other day…

Hey dude-

Im 21, 6′2” 210 lbs athleic in the military. I’m stationed in San Angelo Tx. I know you are in NYC but ive read your blogs and wanted to see if you could help me. I’ve wanted to be bred, and by that i mean actually converted for a long time. since i was 18. Its kinda hard for me to find any poz guys to help me out in the military and im not so good on sites- so i wanted to see if you might be able to help me out. I know a lot of people dont understandwhy i want to do what i’m trying to do, but ive made up my mind.

Please let me know if you know anyone willing to initiate me into the brotherhood

Thanks man!

What is it about military guys wanting to get pozzed? He’s hardly the first one I’ve seen… I mean I even blogged about a Craigslist ad I saw almost 3 years ago now where a military bottom wanted to get pozzed, and I’ve seen profiles before with the same deal.

Personally I think it has a certain logic to it. If you watch the Newshour on PBS there’s this list of young guys just like them that are being killed in Iraq and Afghanistan every day. It’s sort of a chicken and egg thing – do people who don’t value their lives go into the military or does the military teach their recruits that their life is cheap? I probably just said that wrong ’cause I don’t mean to be judgmental – what I mean is that being in the military and being attracted to danger sorta go hand in hand.

The impulse that makes someone want to go into a battlefield where they can get shot is pretty much the same as a neg bottom who wants to get pozzed. I mean, the war in Iraq isn’t really necessary for national defense – people who want to fight there are simply turned on by danger (or hate Arabs, or whatever)…

That’s why I don’t think it’s fair to look at bug chasers like they’re two headed freaks. We don’t look at guys who are volunteering for the military that way and they’re pretty much doing the same thing as a bug chaser, IMHO.

So he wants me to post his pics and give out his e-mail in case any of you out there are willing to help him on his quest. The funny part is he didn’t want his real name used, but the pics he initially sent me were face pics. lol [That means I've seen his face pics and can say that he's VERY hot!]

[pics removed]

For hookup stuff he goes by “Brad”, and his e-mail is [removed]. If you’re interested in making his wish comet true – contact him…

[And for those of you have a problem with this - think about the fact that he's been wanting it for 3 years... He's on a quest and it will happen sooner or later...]

UPDATE: Got a message from him…

Hey man!!! Ive found someone and just started taking loads!
You can keep the post up but if u could remove my pics n email id appreciate it!
I’ll keep you posted with updates on my journey
Thanks!!

I asked, and the guy he found is high viral load poz… Looks like he’s getting what wanted.

Got this e-mail this morning and thought there might be a few of you in SoCal who can help this twink out in his quest for poz cum…

Hi my name is *** I was looking at BB shit today and came across your blog, k I know this is weird, but I’ve been trying for like a year to find a hot top to poz me my residence is ***, california aka orange county, seeing as it seems like you talk to people everywhere or at least know a few maybe you can help me I know it seems easy but I want it to be with a guy who is at least under 33, only because I want it to be really hot I want him to want to poz me and that’s the whole point of fucking me, long story short I’ve been trying to find a guy for a little over a year and have been unsuccessful, so if you could help me, refer me 2 someone or idk really but its my biggest fantasy, I’ve wanted to do this for 3 years took 2 to think about and 1 to start looking.

If you want to contact him, his e-mail is: [removed]

And for all of you who are appalled by this… Notice the part where he’s been thinking about it for 3 years… It’s not like he’s made the decision lightly nor is is likely he’ll stay neg once he’s made the decision to get pozzed after that much thinking about it…

Here are some pics of him. Had to crop out his face, but he really is pretty cute…

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UPDATE: The twink asked me to take things down, that he’s “got things covered now”….

UPDATE: It’s now a month or so after the gangbang. The bottom got an HIV test and he’s negative. That means chances are he really is negative and what happened at the gangbang was of no consequence. Just reminder – this is all hearsay – it could be the guy who said he was poz wasn’t poz at all, but just playing some sort of weird game. Or it could be the bottom was lucky that night… Who knows.

Just a reminder: I have no clue which parts of this story are the closest to the truth. It’s three sides to a story and the truth is in there somewhere. Or it could just have been a matter of different people having different perceptions of the situation…

So the gangbang a couple weeks ago where I got the video of me fucking the guy with my PA… Well, it’s gotten even more interesting… Turns out the bottom took a poz load that night despite the fact that the organizing top had promised him to screen the tops and only have neg tops fucking him…

First I noticed the bottom had changed his HIV status on Manhunt from “Negative” to “Don’t Know”. I asked why and he said…

well a) since i figured thats a more accurate representation and b) since i found out that one of the guys who bred me at the gang bang is poz and lied about his status to get in

Needless to say that peeked my interest, so I inquired further, asking the organizing top what happened…

it was a guy that I had been talking to for over a week… about loading guys, etc. I originally asked his status and he said he was unsure. Told me that for weeks.

So we continued talking afterward and then it came out that he was actually poz. To our knowledge, he is not on meds (according to him) and he wouldn’t give us info on his viral load. So not sure. He claims that he told us he was poz, but he didn’t.

Then the bottom told me more…

his name is *** on here [Manhunt]. he was the second load i took.

honestly, although most of the time i was doing it in very controlled situations (but not always), i have been bbing for such a long time that it is of course possible that i’ve taken poz loads before and not known it. however, this guy’s attitude was so appalling. he lied to get in to the gangbang and he was completely unapologetic about his blatant decision to knowingly do that to me. he is an unhappy, bitter person. that affected and upsets me more than the fact that he was poz.

Notice how he doesn’t say the guy told him he didn’t know his status… Curious. Personally, I view “don’t know” as riskier than “poz” since at least with poz you can ask their viral load…

In another email the bottom said

of course i realize the risks of taking loads. still, thinking about that guy, about how he would just blatantly lie like that and not care at all about the consequences…and how he could be so young and so bitter… that type of thing just makes me sad.

It sounds like he’s pretty mad at the poz guy, right? Well, that’s where it gets a bit more complicated…

I knew the poz guy – he’d been hitting me up to fuck him and I just hadn’t found the time. So I shot an e-mail off to him asking about it and mention the bottom seems pissed. He says…

he and i have spoken extensively on the topic. he wants to hang out again but hes not sure when. he doesnt seem THAT angry to me.

Who knows if that’s true or not… It is suspect given that the whole thing started with him not being fully open about his HIV status…

Then the bottom tells me…

yeah, i’d like to try to stay neg. i’ve managed to take loads for years without turning poz…we’ll see what happens at my next test. i know that part of that is luck, but part of it is screening and seeing if i trust the person (which i can’t do if i’m letting someone else set up a gang bang). of course on rare occasions i’ve also done things like take random loads from guys at the park or in nasty vid stores, etc, which clearly has virtually no control or screening.

one of the ways i dealt with the stress of finding out about all of that was to sexualize it. i’ve never been into the “bug chaser” scene at all. but my friend *** [his "master"] helped spur me on to jo-ing about getting fucked by that guy. he was actually one of the hotter fucks of the night – he was fun and mean and had a good cock.

So his master has him jacking off to the idea of taking a poz load… He did the same thing with obese guys – had the bottom get fucked by a really obese guy and then told the bottom he was only allowed to jack off while thinking about getting fucked by that guy. That resulted in the bottom getting turned on by the idea of being used by fat guys, now he’s going to start getting turned on by the idea of taking poz loads.

Now also think about how rough the bottom was fucked that night… I fucked him with the PA and he was hurting from that. The top before me had a huge dick and fucked him really rough. It goes without saying that the poz load got worked in there really well. It’s two weeks later and the bottom feels fine (no “fuck flu”), but who knows…

Since he’s jacking off to the memory of taking a poz load, and he’s thinking of meeting up with the guy again (if you believe the poz guy) – I think the bottom is at a big turning point in his life.

Remember the bug chasing bottom I met up with at IML? The one I did the whipping video of and who wrote up the whole post about how he’s now taking all loads – both neg and poz? Well, he’s in San Francisco this weekend for Dore Alley and he’s looking to continue what he started at IML and get as much cum in his ass as possible…

Here’s what he wrote up…

Cum hungry bottom visiting San Francisco from July 24-31, Dore Alley, new to taking loads of cum up my ass but hungry for as much as I can get.

6 ft, 170lbs, dark bl/beard, and a total bottom. Looking for total TOP MEN only to come by and breed my ass. I’m staying at a hotel in SOMA and I’m also looking for guys who want to join in a gang fuck I’m organizing for Saturday evening in my hotel room. Bring your buddies.

So guys, lets make this week a really good one for him… All you tops in SF get in contact with him and see if you can’t give him a load before he leaves!

He likes the sexual energy of total tops. Mind you, the “dom top” who worked him over during the gang bang at IML was actually versatile, but in “top mode” – so that’s fine with him as well… What really gets him off is being dominated. Taking loads is a totally submissive act for him. But his submission goes way beyond taking loads. He’ll drink your piss, and will get into it if you slap him around. If he trusts you he also gets into being punched and if you leave bruises he’ll be showing them off in a day or two when they’re visible. But don’t get the wrong impression – he’s a really sweet genuine guy which is why I’m doing this post… I like the guy a lot…

So give him what he wants boys and keep his hole nice and cummy this week… You can contact him by sending him an e-mail… henk01@hotmail.com

Just as a reminder of what he looks like here’s a pic I took of him @ IML… Maybe if you hookup with him this week you should take pics or a video…

And here’s the video of me whipping and fucking him… Don’t quite know why, but this video has done really well on XTube – over 176,000 views, and it’s got a perfect 5 star rating!

Just thought I’d give some publicity for BareBottom1980 (the blogger in Omaha) who’s got a top whoring out his ass this Saturday, Juy 5th… Here’s the description from the Craigslist ad the top put up…

I’m arranging a cumdump gangbang session this Saturday, July 5, for a bottom bud of mine. he’s 28, a little on the bigger size body-wise, but he can take your cock like a pro. bang him as hard as you want, he loves it, no load will be refused. we’re getting a hotel room for the action, so a freewill donation of a few bucks would be welcome but not necessary. we’re getting a hotel near 108th and L in omaha

let me say again, no load will be refused, none whatsoever. bring your buddies with you if you want, the more cum he gets the hungrier his hole becomes. we’re looking for raw loads only. the whole point is to get as much seed in him as possible. there may be pictures taken, but they would only be showing your cock, nothing identifiable. its just for his humiliation. if you dont want to do that, no problem, he’ll take your jizz and i’ll take a picture of it leaking out his hole after you pull-out.

looks, age, stats, not as important as willingness to breed. pic is preferred but not absolute requirement.

‘perv4cum’ on BarebackRT is organizing it – he’s a 25 y.o. poz top. BareBottom1980 is neg – you do the math…

If you’re out near Omaha and want to give him a load, you can contact him at barebottom1980@yahoo.com, or you can contact the top on BarebackRT (via his profile or the party listing) or via the e-mail in the Craigslist ad. Literally no load will be refused…

Think that about sums it up…

There was a discussion a while back about whether bug chasers were urban legend or not. Back then I think it was a legitimate question. Now I think you can say pretty definitively that bug chasers do exist – and some of them even have blogs…

• There’s Matt & Dan who seem to be competing to see who can get pozzed first.
• Then there’s BareBottom1980 (the bottom for this gangbang) who’s showing that heavy guys can be bug chasers too…
• Probably the first one was Cosmaz who may not have considered himself a bug chaser at the time, but chronicled his experiences a few years ago when he was using meth, going to sex clubs, and wound up poz as a result.

The other day I almost wrote up a post ’cause I saw two bug chasing ads on Craigslist on the same day.

I think bug chasing has existed for a while, but most guys didn’t want to associate themselves with the term – like the bottom from IML… But now that some of them have blogs it means bug chasers are getting their voice, which will lead more guys to being willing to identify themselves as bug chasers… It’s like they’re coming out of the closet, just as barebacking came out of the closet a little over 10 years ago…