Load 2010-24

Last week I was chatting up this Asian guy on BBRT. He was out of town but said he was planning on coming to NYC the next weekend. All of a sudden he said…

So I just confirmed my trip to NYC this Friday-Sunday. When can we meet? … It was your PA that made the decision point.

From the sound of it he was coming into town specifically to get fucked by me and my PA. In one way it’s nice, in another it sorta obligated me to hookup with him. (If you’re reading this and thinking of doing something similar – don’t do it – chances are I will not be able to hookup with you).

His pics were just so-so and I wondered what I had just gotten myself into. On the other hand, he wanted to get fucked with a PA and it had been a while since I did that and there were things about him that looked interesting… He was Asian and I like Asian guys. He seemed like he was in reasonably good shape, but not great shape, but good enough. And the part that was most curious was that his profile didn’t just say he was neg, but in his profile text he listed the date of his last test. But he asked me no questions and his “looking for” status was “no preference”. Combine that with his wanting to get fucked by a PA that would probably tear him up a bit and he seemed like a bit of a hungry pig – that much I knew I was going to like.

We exchanged texts and set up a time. I really did get the sense that he came into town specifically to get fucked by me and my PA – it was sorta weird. Friday evening I had a barbecue at a friend’s place in Jersey, so we arranged to meet Saturday afternoon.

That morning I decided I’d take a hot bath, try to stretch my PA and get my 0 gauge ring in. It didn’t happen – I didn’t get the 0 gauge ring in until the next day. But I thought it would be cool to  fuck with the additional weight of the 0 gauge. In hindsight it was good it didn’t go in. The 0 gauge has been a little painful as my hole stretches to adapt to it. Probably would have been a really bad idea to fuck with it a few hours after going up to the bigger size. As it turned out this was the last fuck with the 2 gauge – seems appropriate to fuck with it the last day it was in – sorta like a going away party for the ring – lol.

Now my next issue was that my PA is sorta distracting. I don’t fuck with it (very often) ’cause when it’s in I don’t perform as well. So knowing he wanted to get fucked with the PA was a bit of a complication. I decided to do both my herbal stuff as well as a little Viagra. So first thing in the morning I took some of the herbal stuff and then a couple hours before I was supposed to meet him I took about a 1/3rd of a Viagra (maybe a little less). I just hoped it would work well enough…

You’d think if he was coming into town specifically to get fucked by me he’d pick a hotel that was easy for me to get to. Instead he picked one down near Wall Street. And then on top of it there was track work and I wound up having to go all the way to Brooklyn double back to get to him. It took a bit over an hour for me to get there. I did feel the Viagra kick in when we got to 59th Street, but by the time I was finally approaching his hotel I was thinking “I hope he’s worth it…” Oh yeah – and the temperature was in the 90’s with high humidity…

Then I get into the elevator at his hotel and realize you need a key card to get up to the guest floors. I texted him to come down. When he got there I was shocked – he was totally cute – unlike his pics, he was quite thin – so thin I’d call him skinny. And his face was so much more adorable than his pics – he looked like a bit of a nerd in his pics. He real life had this hot faux hawk and was 110% my type… Not perfect, but I don’t expect perfection – but he was damn close to it. Needless to say I was glad I bothered to hookup with him.

We get to his hotel room and strip down. He was totally into me (which I always find odd coming from guys who have great bodies), and as I’ve said I was totally into him. I had forgotten that he told me he liked to party. So it turned into a 3way with Tina/Chrissy… But oddly, he did it 3 times while I was there and the interaction with him was completely normal – like he wasn’t doing anything at all. Again, I lucked out… There wasn’t even the weird odor I’ve smelled when guys smoked up before sex – I wonder what it was that he was doing – maybe it wasn’t Tina… Anyway, a minor distraction, but not a problem.

We made out and I felt up his body for a little while. Then he sucked my cock for a few minutes. Then he got on all fours on the bed and I started eating him out. He had told me he took a load earlier in the day, but it was in there pretty deep (or he had cleaned out) ’cause I didn’t taste anything. He had a great ass and I finally got totally hard.

I stood up and started pushing my PA and cock into his ass. It’s always a little tricky getting such a big ring up some guy’s ass without hurting him or me in the process, but I did finally get it up there. I fucked him doggy style for a while, but every time I’d hit bottom in his ass it was a little painful for me as the ring would double back. So I pushed him onto his belly thinking maybe I wouldn’t get as deep in his ass that way.

With him on his belly there was still a little pain but not so much, but what I really noticed was hot small he was underneath me. He felt good… really good… There was something about his body where his hole was just in the perfect place for me. As you might guess, it wasn’t long before I was blowing my load in his hole. Between the Viagra and the herbal stuff I stayed hard after cumming and kept fucking his cummy hole (more slowly) for a while.

Finally I pulled out and he cleaned off my dick (it’s sorta surprising how many guys are into ATM these days – it seems everyone wants to clean off my dick after it comes out of their ass)… And given that my big PA digs up shit even in “clean” bottoms it said a lot about his ability to clean out that he could suck the dick right after it fucked him. Then I got behind him and started eating out his cummy hole. It tasted great… It’s sorta weird tasting my cum when I’m rimming a guy. I had fucked him enough after cumming that he had a fair amount of cum outside his ass – I didn’t have to work too hard to get my fill of cum.

We then laid around for a bit and chatted, cuddled, sucked each other’s cocks, etc. After 20 minutes or so I got hard enough for round two, but I wasn’t totally hard. In the past I’d noticed that my ring would hold my semi-hard cock in a guy’s ass, so I pushed the ring in and fucked him. I wasn’t totally hard and it was sorta an odd fuck. Seemed it was pretty intense for him – probably because my ring wasn’t as deep in his ass and when I’d pull out a bit the ring would stretch his sphincter. For me it wasn’t the greatest of fucks, but he seemed to like it because the PA was causing some pretty intense sensations.

I wasn’t going to cum, so eventually I just pulled out and we went back to cuddling, talking, sucking cock, etc. At this point I asked him what was up with him since he put the date of his last HIV test in his profile but then had “no preference” in for “looking for” status. He misinterpreted what I said and before I got “no preference” out he said “‘don’t care’ – did I forget to change that?” In other words before his test his HIV status was apparently listed as “don’t care”. Anyway, his answer was pretty simple – he had gotten into barebacking, loved it, never wanted to use condoms again and knew he’d eventually become poz. That still didn’t answer my question as to whether putting his HIV test date in his profile was there to attract neg tops or attract gift giving poz breeders. Either way, I didn’t get the sense he was bug chasing so much as just aware it would happen sooner or later and enjoying life in the process.

I seem to get a fair number of guys assuming I’m poz. I wonder if his coming to NYC paying for transportation and hotel mostly just to get fucked by one top wasn’t because he was thinking that being fucked with a big PA would be a memorable way to get pozzed. Thing was, even when we were discussing his status he didn’t ask questions about mine… He clearly just didn’t want to know. There are times when I wish I could be a mind reader…

When we went to fuck the third time I took my ring out. It was a big enough distraction I knew I’d do better without it. I rimmed him little before I started, but by this time his ass was pretty musky from all the fucking and cum, so it really wasn’t that big of a turn on. But when I went to fuck him it was a good fuck. Once again we started with him on all fours. He was jacking his dick, which usually I don’t like, but it wasn’t interfering with anything. Then he stopped and I asked if he had cum – he had. He didn’t ask me to stop, so I pushed him onto his belly and kept fucking him. There was something about his hole that felt incredible. It was cummy and I was going in at just the right angle, and of course like before I could feel how small he was under me. I almost came a second time. In all my preparations for that day I had forgotten my cock ring. Had I remembered it my dick might have been a little thicker and a little more sensitive and I just might have cum the second time. For me it was probably my favorite fuck of the day – even though I didn’t cum.

Afterwards we cuddled and he actually fell asleep in my arms for a few minutes. Eventually I had to go. It had been a busy 2 hours and I needed to get home.

All in all an excellent fuck…

Load 2010-22

Had sorta a weird hookup the other day… This guy hit me up on BBRT and despite my effort to get to the point and hookup, he was asking all these other questions. Finally I had to ask – did he want to fuck or not? If he wasn’t really into it I’d move onto someone else. He said yes. We agreed on a time and he came over.

I should backup and mention that my doc gave me a prescription for Viagra this past week and this was the first time trying it out. I cut the pill in two and took the small half – probably about a 40% dose. I was curious to see how it would work. An hour went by and nothing. Then at about and hour and 20 minutes it started kicking in. I felt really hot and flushed – uncomfortably so. I remember feeling the same way the first time I used the herbal stuff I normally use.

When I answered the door I had this raging, rock hard hardon in my pants. I’ll give Viagra definite points for hardness.

When we got to the bedroom he was pretty submissive. Didn’t do anything without being told. I was sorta expecting that since he had said he wanted to be tied up and used. I told him to get on his knees and he started sucking my dick. I put a collar on him as he was sucking my cock and then when he stood up and I took off his clothes, I put on wrist restraints which I locked together with a nice heavy lock.

I then told him to get on all fours on the bed. He was bit beefier than I usually hookup with, but I wanted to rim his ass. When he got on all fours I noticed his ass crack was darker than the rest of his ass (why are some guys like that?) and he smelled a bit funky. Not horrible, but a bit too far from squeaky clean for me to really get into rimming him. Needless to say I didn’t rim very enthusiastically and ended it pretty quickly.

I then pulled out the Wet Platinum, lubed up my dick and went to fuck him. He was 3 or 4 inches taller than me and bent over  on the bed his hole was 6 to 8 inches above my dick. There was no way I was going to be able to fuck him like that. I pushed him forward onto his belly and shoved my dick in. He was beefier than the guys I usually hookup with, but I found that if I was at a bit of an angle his hole felt pretty good on my dick.

This whole time he never really gave any positive feedback. It was like he really didn’t care who I was, and probably didn’t care if he even got fucked. It was like he was getting fucked to pass the time. He seemed sorta bored or like his his head was off somewhere else thinking about something. All in all he was sorta ‘vacant’ and ‘absent’. Add to that bad breath that I could smell when I was on top of him fucking him (I gotta remember to get guys with bad breath to go gargle with Listerine so I don’t have to smell that).

Then, on top of everything else, he asks for more lube, and when I pause for a second I realize I’m actually about to cum. If I pull out to get more lube I’ll cum while I’m out of his ass. I hadn’t even been fucking him for very long, but I had a 6 day load built up and could have cum in any decent hole that day – and his hole was doing the trick. So I paused, tried not to cum, spit on his hole a couple times and resumed my fucking. I knew it wasn’t going to go on for much longer.

As I was about to blow I was thinking about the fact that his profile said he was neg, yet he had asked no questions and here he was laying there like a piece of meat about to get my load – and totally disconnected from what he was doing. I would have loved to know what he was thinking at that moment. It was like he didn’t care, but there was more to it and I couldn’t tell what that more was…

I blew a decent load up his ass and kept fucking him for a little while – told him I wanted to keep going and give him a second load, but then the Viagra started to fail me and so I pulled out.

It had only been a few minutes at this point. What was I going to do with him? I had him clean off my dick, which given that his ass was a bit musky coulda been a bit disgusting, but he cleaned it right off like it was perfectly clean. I had him suck me some more, but I wasn’t really all that hard, so I stopped.

I asked him if he was into flogging. No. (Forget about asking about whipping if they’re not into flogging). I asked about padding. No. I was staring to run out of options. I played with his nipples and when I sucked on one of them he reacted positively (a first). I could tell he liked that. So then I searched for the suction cups I have for nipples, but couldn’t find them. I got out my nipple clamps and he indicated that he didn’t know if he could take them. I tried to use them gently, but you can’t really use nipple clamps gently – they kept slipping off. I was out of s/m tricks.

The whole time he was jacking his dick, which was a bit distracting. But it wasn’t like he was jacking it ’cause he was turned on – he was jacking it ’cause he seemed embarrassed about having a soft dick. Finally he got hard and stopped jacking. It was like a dog presenting a hard bone to his master – it was sorta cute. Thing was, he was a bottom – I didn’t really care about his cock.

I felt up his cummy ass and thought about fucking him some more, but my dick wasn’t really cooperating. Finally I just wrapped things up by taking off his collar and wrist restraints. He got the hint, got dressed and took off. We did talk a little as he was getting dressed. It wasn’t completely awkward, but I still have no clue where his mind was while we were having sex…

As a first time using Viagra it was a bit disappointing. It did get me rock hard, but it didn’t last very long. In some ways I like the herbal stuff I use better. I don’t get quite as hard with it, but I get thicker. I think I’ll use Viagra when I’m not completely horny (’cause that’s when the herbal stuff isn’t sufficient) and I’ll use the herbal stuff when I’m good and horny and just need a boost to make my cock bigger and more sensitive.

Grrrr… I just got stood up by a sub bottom and it’s not the first time he’s done shit like this… When I was first trying to hookup with him he’d cancel at the last minute, but he hasn’t done that in quite a while. He hasn’t been as eager as I’d like, but he hasn’t told me one thing and done another in quite a while.

The bottom is actually the bottom I fucked a couple of years ago with my PA. He was getting gangbanged and I think I sorta tore him up inside and he couldn’t really take dick after that. Then one of the tops told him he wasn’t really neg – that he was poz (making the fact that I tore him up a little more significant)… There was a lot of drama and the bottom didn’t really like the things I said when I wrote up the encounter. For a while he didn’t want anything to do with me, but then he finally came back for more – deep down he needed it.

Anyway, that fuck was one I videotaped – here it is…

And here’s an earlier video I did of him…

So here’s how it went down this time… He hits me up on BBRT and wishes me Happy Pride. I ask him if he’s looking and can host, he says ‘probably’ and asks if I’ve pissed yet (he likes to get pissed on). I tell him I can come over pretty much right away (he’s within easy walking distance). And he says “thats up to u SIR. [Whether I drink a bunch so I can piss on him.] or u can just come over and dump a quick load in me SIR. u tested recently?” I avoid the question about my status (just to sorta play a head game with him), and say “give me your address and i’ll come over now”. There’s a bit of a delay and he finally says “sorry SIR – could u answer my question SIR? have u been tested recently SIR?” Since he pushes the issue I answer – “last test was january. it was neg.” He comes back with “understood SIR. thank u for answering SIR. XXX west XXXrd street SIR. #XX. hole will be lubed for you SIR. no pa, right?” I tell him I’ll take the PA out to fuck him. He thanks me and says he wishes he got my 6 day load. I tell him he’ll be getting a 3 day load and it’ll be plenty big and thick. I get dressed and head over.

When I get to his place I press the buzzer. No response. I press again. No response. Then I call him and it goes to voicemail. I leave a rather terse message. Then I ring the buzzer a few more times. Then I text him. Finally I login to BBRT and see he’s left me a message… “actually SIR – just found a load a little closer and ready now. so gonna cancel on u – im sorry!” The little shit… I know it’s a lie – that he’s in his apartment listening to me ringing his bell and calling him. But there’s no point waiting, so I leave.

He finally responds to my text and among other things says “i have no good excuse but i really do apologize SIR.” He’s obviously a Catholic and doesn’t realize he’s dealing with a Protestant. Protestants only care about actions – apologies that aren’t accompanied with action are meaningless and sorta insulting. I give him an earful and tell him I’m just 4 blocks away – I can come back. I mean it’s one thing to get cold feet and that was his chance to redeem himself. He apologizes some more but doesn’t take me up on my offer to redeem himself. I tell him he should be a better sub than that and that next time he’s getting fucked with the PA as punishment. I know he doesn’t like it, but he can endure it… Seems like a good way to get back at him. He then gets back to me with more of an explanation…

i don’t have a good explanation SIR, like i said. i am actually in formal training with a master now to be a better slave SIR, and for the first time i just dug in my heels and disobeyed a direct order from him SIR. he has already told me i will be punished quite severely SIR. i am truly sorry to have let both of u down. i don’t know why i did it SIR. i am sure that he will correct the matter and you will have full access to my hole any time you need it in the future SIR. in spite of my behavior today, he is an excellent master SIR and has been training me well.

I’d love to be there when he gets punished. I don’t think he’s all that much into pain, but it would be sorta fun to take a whip to him and then fuck him in with the PA and dump a big load in his abused hole.

At the root of the problem is the fact that he’s a submissive cumdump who wants to stay neg. I think his misgivings about tops is what makes him disobey. Honestly, I think his life would make a lot more sense if he were poz. Being poz just sorta fits with where his head is at sexually. But it’s the conflict between the two that’s at the root of all of this. He wants to submit, but he’s concerned about the implications.

We’ll see what happens next…

Load 2010-15

I’ve got another bottom coming over in a couple hours, so I figure I need to write up the last one so I don’t get behind on my writing…

The squirmy, neg, “safe sex only” Asian bottom I bred a couple weeks ago kept texting me telling me he wanted another load. While he’s sorta a difficult bottom, there’s something about him that made me want to get my load in him again – sort of an innocence / naïveté, so last Thursday he came over to get fucked again. He’s gotta come quite a ways to get here (from way out in Queens) – I’m sorta surprised he’s so into coming.

The hookup went sorta like last time, only quicker… We got naked, he sucked my dick, I ate his ass, and then we went to fuck. Same as last time he started squirming around, and like last time it was sorta distracting, but I just concentrated on the task at hand. I hadn’t cum since I fucked the muscle daddy 3 days before, so I knew I’d have a nice big thick load for him and I just visualized cumming deep in his ass.

Like last time I found the position that felt good was with him sorta on an angle with one leg up a bit and one straight. I got him in that position and I could feel my load building up in my balls. Then he started squirming and so I just pushed through it and wouldn’t let him squirm much and then he calmed down and a few seconds later I came in his ass.

I think he was surprised I came so quickly. Last time I fucked and fucked and couldn’t cum and then only came after taking a short break. This time I probably only fucked him for 5 minutes. I think he was sorta disappointed, but I had accomplished my goal of giving him another load.

Like last time we talked a little and then he wanted to jack off. I had really sorta hated it last time and just wasn’t in the mood for a repeat, but a repeat was what he wanted. Last time he had me finger him so deep that my hand actually ached afterwards from the weird angle I had to maintain. This time I just didn’t go in as deep even though he wanted me to. And I didn’t put as much effort into sucking his nipple either. But I still wanted it to be a generally good experience for him so he’d want more, so I went through the motions without really pushing it. I think he sensed I wasn’t doing 100% and he just concentrated on cumming and came a lot quicker than last time.

I still find it funny that someone who lists themselves as “neg, safe sex only” is so hungry for cum. We all know barebacking is addictive – I can just tell he’ll be taking more and more loads over the next year. He’s a cumhole in the making and still pretty early in the process, which is why I think I wanted to give him my load. They may be difficult at that stage, but there’s the reward of seeing them crave something they’re a bit conflicted about.

Load 2010-13

This guy’s been hitting me up for a few weeks now on Adam4Adam wanting me to fuck him. He’s a cute 30ish Asian guy who looks a bit boy-next-door geeky in his pics. I wasn’t sure if he was real ’cause he was pretty far away and his profile said “neg, safe sex only”. I get a lot of “neg, safe sex only” guys hitting me up on Adam about half just like my cock and think they’re so special I’ll wear a condom just for them or I’ll just do oral with them. The other half are actually willing to get barebacked and take loads, despite what their profile says. This guy was in the latter group, though I have a feeling he really is neg ’cause I forget exactly what he said, but he did sorta discuss status. I always ask safe sex guys if they’re OK with bareback and I think his response was something like “you’re neg, so it’s OK.”

That response is actually sorta laughable. I’ve jokingly heard that Adam is the cure for HIV – guys who are poz miraculously become neg when they’re on Adam4Adam… So his just reiterating my status back to me and not asking any real questions is not a very effective way of staying neg – at least not if that’s what he does on a regular basis…

Anyway, he was pretty persistent and I realized that he was serious about riding over an hour each way on the subway to get to me. Today things worked out and he came over. The elevator was temporarily out in the building so he had to walk up 5 flights of stairs to get to me. He was pretty winded by the time he got up. We went to the bedroom, he stripped down to his underwear and just fell on the bed face down. It was sorta hot having him like that. He looked sorta vulnerable. I pulled off his underwear and dove into his ass. He was apologizing ’cause he was sweaty, but really there was no musk down there… It was pretty nice actually.

He had a small build – like I tend to like. He was packing a few extra pounds, but not much. It was very boy-next-doorish. While I thought he’d be sorta geeky based on his pics, he was more ‘green’. Later he told me he’d only really started bottoming in the past couple of years – before that he was a top. I’m guessing he was just adapting to the New York sexual marketplace – since here he’s better equipped to be a bottom, if you know what I mean…

His hole was nice. The cool part is he had cleaned out well so I could really eat him out. When I’d get deep he’d like it and he’d pull his cheeks apart so I could get deeper. He also sorta liked it when I’d suck a bit on his hole – which is something I like to do when the hole is really clean (or really cummy).

After rimming him a bit he had caught his breath and we switched to him giving me a blowjob. And we kissed a bit, stuff like that… Then he got on all fours and aimed his ass at me. I misinterpreted and started getting ready to fuck him, but he wanted me to rim him some more. But after rimming him a bit I was ready to fuck.

I pushed on his hole and there was  a little resistance and then I slipped in in one quick motion. I went in so easily I was surprised when he started complaining saying it was painful. I held onto his hips and tried to get him used to it, but he kept complaining, so I pulled out. But then we went back at it and the second time he didn’t have much of any pain at all.

At this point I more or less had him on his belly but the thing was he started squirming all around. Here I was trying to get in a groove and every time I was starting to get into one he’d move. It was sorta irritating, and I was wondering whether this was how he was planning to disrupt things so I didn’t actually cum in his ass – he was a “safe sex” bottom after all. That sorta made me more determined to  not stop until I came in his ass. It seemed like he needed to learn that if you get fucked bareback, you’ll get loads in your ass, whether you want them there or not.

But all his squirming did throw me off my game. The room was starting to get hot and my dick was starting to lose it. So we took a break. He cleaned off my dick, and then gave me a bit of a blowjob, but it wasn’t really doing the trick, so we just laid down for a few minutes. It seemed like we’d sorta stopped, but I was still really determined to do everything I could to give him a load.

When we started back I ate out his ass, got really hard and started fucking him again. This time he just laid there and let me pound him. In all his wiggling around I had discovered one particular position with him that felt better than the others so I got him in that position and just fuck him and fucked him until I could feel my load cumming… I gave him a nice sized load deep in his ass.

It wasn’t long after that my dick popped out of his ass, but he wanted more. Sometimes I get a second wind so we laid there for a bit. He started jacking off and liked it when I’d finger his ass. But he wanted me to finger him deep. Oddly that’s actually a little strenuous. I never realized my finger could get tired from fingering a guy’s ass, but it did. But I put up with it to get him off. He came, I licked a bit of it up and then we talked a bit more and then it was over and he was on his way.

While some repeats work out well, some don’t… I’ve been off my game lately when I fuck the Italian daddy who likes to take my load. I’ve been hit or miss with him from the beginning – not sure quite why… Sometimes it’s easy to give him a load, other times it’s impossible. Last time he looked like he had gained some weight and I wondered whether that was it, but this time he was looking much hotter. He’d been out in the sun and had a bit of a tan that worked really well on him.

He started by giving me a blowjob. His blowjobs don’t always go well. Early on his teeth would scrape my dick – that’s not such an issue any more. But this time (and others) he managed to suck my dick in a way that the head of my dick was so sensitive it was almost painful. I’m not quite sure how he did it… I think the head of my dick was rubbing on the ridges on the roof of his mouth or something. Anyway, it was distracting and uncomfortable. I tried to move him around to get in a different position, but it just wasn’t working.

Despite the pain I was fairly hard, so I just went to fucking him. I fucked him for a while and pounded him pretty well, but just wasn’t cumming. Finally I sorta lost my hardon. He sucked me some more, and I got hard again and fucked him a little more, but then lost it again. I did have the A/C on but was still feeling a bit overheated. I tried directing the A/C to blow on me, but that didn’t seem to help. At one point we took a break and just cuddled. That actually worked better than him giving me a blowjob. I fucked him a little more, but finally it was just clear I wasn’t cumming. It was first thing in the morning so maybe I was also low on blood sugar. All I knew was that my bf was waiting to go to breakfast and I didn’t want to draw it out too long so I called it quits.

I REALLY want to give him a load, so next time he comes over I’m going to be really horned and we’ll keep it to a pump and dump. That always seems to work best with him…