If you remember it wasn’t that long ago that I thought the Brazilian was upset with me. Last night I had seen him online on BarebackRT, but was sorta tired. I knew he was available today, so we said we’d look for each other and fuck during the day. Then I wound up fucking the other guy last night and hoped that didn’t make it difficult to cum with the Brazilian today.

So I see him online and we arrange a time for me to go over to his place. I have to run a few errands before I go over and when I get there and buzz his bell a few times but he doesn’t answer. I try both of his phone numbers - no answer. A while back he had fallen asleep and a similar thing had happened. Needless to say I was pissed and wondering whether he was jerking me around, but there was nothing I could do and I just went home.

When I get home I see there’s a message from him saying something came up, he had to run downtown, and could we hookup at 1pm. If I had checked my e-mails before going out I would have seen it, so I stopped being angry at him, though a text message or call would have been nice.

So he gets over here a little after 1pm and we get naked (well, I kept my shirt on), and he gave me a blowjob. I think he was enjoying the blowjob, but it wasn’t all that great from my perspective. What I really wanted was to fuck. He had lubed his ass before he came over, so when he finally stopped, got up and bent over the bed it was easy to get in him.

I fucked him bent over the bed for a while, then pushed him onto the bed and fucked him on his belly - which is my favorite position with him. For a while I was wondering whether I could cum, but then I could feel it building and blew my load in his hole.

We rolled over made small talk for a couple minutes and then he had to be on his way and I needed to get back to work. I think he had another top scheduled for today, so who knows what he was off to…

All in all I think he’s getting fucked a lot these days. He’s finally discovered BarebackRT and he posts ads on Craigslist constantly. I commented on how many ads he’s placing and how he must be getting a lot of action. He just smiled and said something like “yeah, my butt is pretty happy”. What’s curious is that even though his profile still says he’s neg, his Craigslist ads never mention the word ‘neg’. We haven’t discussed it, but I wonder what point of the process he’s at these days…

He called and then came over. When he arrived I knew there was going to be a problem. Let’d just say he was short and Latin, but I wasn’t into him. His profile said he ws 38. I’d add about 10 years to that and he wasn’t aging all that well… I had him come in, showed him into the bedroom. We took off our clothes then I realized he was a smoker (who wanted to kiss)…

After a while, he sucked my dick a bit, but I wasn’t responding. I hadn’t taken a pill or anything ’cause I didn’t think I needed to ’cause I was pretty horny. But this guy just wasn’t doing anything for me. I figured I’d try to eat his ass to see if that would help. I went down only to find it didn’t smell all that clean. I sorta played at rimming, not wanting to get too serious if his hole was dirty…

I put a fair amount of spit on his hole, stood up and tried to fuck him. He said to go slow, but I just wasn’t getting in… So we went back to other stuff like him sucking my dick. Then we tried again and again I just wasn’t getting in. I wasn’t totally hard, but I was hard enough. So I fingered his hole and found he was incredibly tight. I think he was clenching, but who knows… Then as I was fingering him I felt shit up there…

That was the end of it. I said I didn’t think it was going to work and went into the bathroom to clean the lube off my dick. The had no intention of getting fucked. He didn’t clean out and he was clenching. And on top of that he didn’t do anything for me…

Hopefully I’ll find some decent ass tomorrow to make up for it…  ;)   At least I wasn’t the one who had to pay the bridge toll…

I moved to New York in 1990 to go to grad school. When I came here I was pretty inexperienced sexually. I had had sex for the first time just 8 months before, and had sex with a total of 3 guys at that point. A one night stand who was “my first”. An older guy I dated for the Spring semester of my Senior year before he moved to San Francisco, and a party boy I dated over the summer before I moved to NYC.

New York was like a big playground and I was this shy, sorta geeky, guy who didn’t know how to make the most of it. In hindsight I really should have gone to the big sex (”j/o”) club everyone was going to, but it scared me. I was taking things at my own pace, which in hindsight was way too inhibited…

Long story short, I ran up credit card debt (in part by going out to see the ex-boyfriend who moved to SF) and by the end of January I needed money. I knew there was a respectable hustler bar over on the east side - Rounds @ 53rd and 2nd avenue, so I went there and started doing sex work which I did for about 9 months to supplement my income.

Despite the fact that I had dated someone who did drugs every weekend, I hadn’t done drugs until after I moved to NY - and then only X and only a handful of times. One of those times was the Saint-at-Large White Party. I went out to clubs a lot back then, but the White Party was huge. I had nothing but these skimpy white little shorts on that didn’t leave much to the imagination. I remember seeing guys walking around in K holes… And then there was him - this adorable Latino who I saw on the dance floor. He was muscular, very little body fat, short, great smile - in other words totally my type (even today). I’ll call him “Alex”, but that’s not his real name…

He liked me, I liked him and we left the dance floor together. I was on cloud nine. From my perspective he was totally out of my league and here he was just wanting me. I had never had someone that hot want me before… We made out, talked (as much as you could in a club) and then he mentioned he was working the party - that he was a bartender and had to work the second shift.

If you know anything about circuit parties the White Party is up there and being a bartender at the White Party is about as good as it gets if you’re a bartender. When he had to go check in for work I followed him back into the kitchen and saw a guy from my gym. Alex asked me how I knew Jason and I said he went to my gym. I knew Jason managed a club - what I didn’t realize was that he had been the General Manager of the Saint, he was then the manager of the Saint-at-Large, and he then became the General Manager of the Roxy until it closed a couple years ago. Funny how small the world is - even in a city like New York. Anyway, Jason was Alex’s boss.

Alex then went on duty. He’d sneak me a drink every now and then, but there was a guy watching him and he could really only give me soda… Finally, I went home. Since I couldn’t really hang out with him and didn’t have any intention of hooking up with anyone else, there wasn’t any point in staying once I had gotten the dancing out of my system.

The walk home was magical. I was in love (so to speak), it was sunrise, snow was gently falling, and I was coming down from a wonderful high on X. If you’ve been in NYC on a quiet morning when it’s snowing you’ll know it’s really special even when you’re not high and coming home from meeting a really hot guy… The City gets really quiet when it’s snowing… As I walked through Times Square the lights were brightly flashing, and the subway generators, which you can’t even hear on a normal day, seemed incredibly loud.

It was puppy love - infatuation - whatever you want to call it. It only lasted for six weeks, but it was a really memorable six weeks… On the plus side - he was bartending at Uncle Charlie’s which was one of my favorite bars (and a really popular bar back then), and then he quit there and started bartending at the Roxy. In fact some nights he was the only gay bartender at the Roxy. The owner was straight and tended to hire straight guys who’d sorta half way pretend to flirt with the gay guys to get good tips. And then right about the time we broke up he started bartending and then go-go dancing at a club named Parallel Bar where John Blair was throwing parties (but it turned out to be a bit of a flash in the pan).

Sexually things were pretty intense. He had this wonderful uncut cock that was always hard as steel. Back then I was “versatile”, but he was always a top with me. My memory is pretty fuzzy, but I’m pretty sure he’d always want to fuck me raw, but I’d always put a condom on him when he fucked me (we’re talking the height of the AIDS crisis). At some point before I met him I had gotten a tear “down there” and wasn’t the best bottom, and I always felt like he wanted more from me sexually. Maybe it was just my insecurities - I don’t know…

There were some notable firsts with Alex… He showed me how to trim my body hair with a beard trimmer. I still have a trimmer just like the one he used on me that first time. He taught me to use black hair care products to style a short “Chelsea boy” haircut. And he had me buy my first pair of combat boots…

But there were some downsides - he worked weird hours. Even though he’d been here for years his English was pretty rough and it was hard to communicate. That was particularly difficult when I went out with his friends and they were all speaking Portuguese and I didn’t have a clue what was going on around me. We were also just very different. I still remember him always watching this “feel good about yourself” sorta “spiritualist” who was on late night community access TV back then. I thought the guy was silly, but Alex was his #1 fan.

And the other big problem was that I was escorting and there were nights I needed to make money and he’d ask me what I was up to and I had to lie. I think he felt something was going on. It was, but it wasn’t what he thought it was… The escorting was also an issue ’cause I had started doing it a year after I had first had sex, which was confusing enough, and then I was trying to balance letting old men fuck me with having a hot go-go boy as a boyfriend…

Eventually he broke up with me. I was crushed - I’d see him out at the clubs and bars - he was friendly, but it was over. Curiously his next boyfriend was a blond Latino I had fucked the previous fall/winter. His English was really bad too - and they didn’t last long together since one spoke Spanish and the other Portuguese and neither spoke English all that well.

A few years later (’94/’95) I was at a gym and saw him. He had moved to Miami, but was in town for some reason. I still remember his face lit up when he saw me. There was a chemistry between us, even if we weren’t meant to be…

Fast forward 13 or 14 years to last night. I get an e-mail with pictures the new models on ManifestMen.com. I go and download some of them - there’s Zeb Atlas, and a few other guys. Loving Latinos like I do, I download pics of this one guy they call “Alexandre” and as I’m looking at the pics I realize it looks a lot like the guy I dated. He had been on a club flyer back when he was go-go dancing which I had kept, and I pulled it out and I’m almost certain it’s the same guy. It’s 17 years after the picture was taken, but the mouth is the same, his facial features are really similar. His body has changed a lot over those 17 years - far bigger and more ripped now.

I don’t know if he’d even remember me, but I’m just glad to see he’s still around and looking well…

Here are the recent pics of him from ManifestMen.com…

And here are the pics of him back in 1991…

Since some of you will find this interesting - here’s pics of what I looked like back then. These are from a photoshoot I did for Playguy within a few months of dating Alex… I did the photoshoot ’cause I was tired of having guys fuck me for money, but the photographer (Roberto Romo) fucked me in the middle of the shoot. I went away thinking it was pointless - I didn’t avoid getting fucked and now my pictures were going to be public. The reason why my ass looks so puckered is ’cause it’s freshly fucked

What’s funny is how insecure I was back then. I really didn’t think I looked all that hot. But looking at the pics, I’d totally fuck that…

So how’s that for a blast from the past? Don’t see an ex for over a decade and he winds up on Manifest Men. It really is a small world…

My theory is that the pills I was taking had something in them that’s lacking in my body. When I get a regular dose of whatever the magic ingredient is I have no problem getting hard, staying hard, and giving bottoms loads. I can even perform well when I’ve taken the pills days before. The fact that I stopped taking them and had no problems for a couple weeks tells me, whatever the magic ingredient is - that it stays in your system. I’m just not getting whatever that is in my regular diet.

But today, for the second time in a row, I had problems getting hard with a bottom. It was the Brazilian guy from the neighborhood who’s a regular fuck buddy. While I did get hard enough to fuck him for a bit, there’s really no point in going into the details ’cause not much of anything happened.

Before he actually even came over I had ordered more pills. The ones I was taking are no longer being sold, so I had to try the new type of pill by the same manufacturer. Hopefully it will work as well as the old one.

Well, with this fuck I hit 50 loads given so far this year. If things keep up I’ll hit 82 for the year… Not bad - way better than last year.

So this skinny Brazilian guy’s been hitting me up the past couple weeks on Manhunt, today I finally got to hookup with him. After doing the research study interview at CHEST I headed over to his place. When I saw the building I thought his place was going to be a miserable hell hole, but while it was really small it turned out to be not so bad…

He was a really sweet guy - skinny as a rail and somewhat child-like even though he was in his 30s… He was so happy I was hooking up with him… He wanted to put on a blindfold (he thought I was the only guy on the Internet who was also into blindfolds), but his building didn’t have a buzzer system so he put it on after we had met and chatted - it was more about him concentrating on the fuck rather than being an anonymous thing…

He took off his clothes pretty quickly he must have had a 27 or 28 inch waist and was so skinny he had a 6 pack - plus he was Latino - so he was definitely my type and I had zero problem popping a woodie. Before he put the blindfold on he pointed out where the lube and condoms were and then made it clear the condoms were completely optional.

We got down to business pretty quickly. He got on the bed and I pulled off his underwear and started eating out his ass. He was loving it - sorta whimpering and saying stuff I didn’t understand while I was eating him out. His ass was so skinny it was really pretty hot. His hole looked like it had gotten fucked a lot, which was fine with me - I like fucking sluts…

When I went to fuck him he wanted poppers. As soon as he had had a few really good inhales I started fucking him. I didn’t use any lube other than spit and he seemed to have a bit of trouble taking it so I went slow at first, but then when I got in nice and deep with his legs up over my shoulders I started fucking about as hard as I felt like. I could tell he’d just take it - he was happy to have me fuck him and would take whatever I gave him…

He kept whimpering and muttering things. Several times I thought I heard him saying “help me” followed by some other stuff, but I couldn’t really tell what it all was. It sounded like English (not Portuguese), but I couldn’t really get a handle on what he was saying.

I then flipped him over and kept fucking him. He felt really good. I could have cum several times but I took my time… I was getting hot and we were both sweating pretty profusely. Finally I just dumped my load deep in his ass…

Since my dog had eaten my pills, I didn’t have any help staying hard, but that wasn’t an issue. After I came I stayed hard for a while and kept slowly fucking him. I must have stayed in him 5 or 10 minutes and we just sorta cuddled.

This is when I really realized how child-like he was. I had sensed it for a while, but he was like a kid in a candy store or a kid who just opened the Christmas present he really wanted. At one point he said “I can’t believe you picked me“… He seemed really needy. In a way it was sweet, in another way I felt bad for him. He was literally fauning over me… I like sub bottoms, but he was a little over the top…

When we got up from cuddling he sucked me clean. While I figured he must be pretty clean since he didn’t have to clean me off before licking me click,  I wasn’t confident enough about that to felch his hole (I knew he had gotten home just a little before I got there and didn’t know how well he had douched)… Maybe next time on that one…

All in all a sweet guy who I definitely want to fuck again…

I did go to the gangbang last night. I’ve started the write up on it, but I’m waiting for pics of me fucking the bottom from the top who organized it…

This morning I was still horny. I was a little worried about how a hookup would go ’cause I hadn’t eaten much of anything, and hadn’t taken any pills or anything (except last night)… But when I was looking at pics on Manhunt I had a rock hard cock, so I knew things should at least be able to work for fucking - even if I couldn’t cum…

There were a few options, but this one hot light-skinned black guy couldn’t commit to hooking up, and other guys were too far away (subway is running via shuttle buses again this weekend). Then the Brazilian guy who lives near me contacted me and said “Fuck Me”. It was quick, easy and local - so I had him come over…

It was a pretty basic hookup with him… He sucked my cock, I fucked him, came in his ass, we cuddled, and he left… Pretty much like a lot of the other times we hooked up. The only thing that was different was that I nearly came when I had his legs up - that almost never happens - usually I can only cum with him on his belly. The other notable thing was that I was able to come 12 hours after I last came - that something that’s usually pretty hard for me…

So it was a good hookup. Got me over my horniness…

Well, after two quickie pump-and-dumps lately - 12 minutes and 4 minutes - I figured it was time for something slightly more meaningful, so when the Brazilian guy in my neighborhood sent me a message on Manhunt saying “give me your load”… I figured - why not? I checked with my bf, took a shower, and headed out…

I hadn’t taken any pills or anything so I put a leather cock ring on before I left. When I got there I made it nice and snug and he got down on his knees and gave me a blowjob. At one point he indicated that he wanted me to put my hands either side of his head and fuck his face, which I did. Didn’t seem to be able to get in far enough to gag him or anything though…

It’s funny hands forcing a head onto a dick is one of those things I absolutely hate when I’m the one giving head - but I guess if you’re a bottom who likes to get pounded it might be enjoyable.

After a while I reached down to feel his hole - it had been really well lubed. He doesn’t like me to rim him for some reason, so he fact that he was lubed wasn’t a problem.

We then move on to fucking and as usual start with his legs in the air. He likes to kiss in this position, so we do some of that while I’m fucking him. But (like usual again), I need him on his belly in order to cum, so I flip him over fuck him that way. His hole was working my dick just right and after a while I felt my orgasm coming. But then it sorta passes, I slow down a bit and then I cum… This delayed cumming thing is getting a bit weird…

We cuddle a bit and catch up on things (it had been over two months since we last fucked), and then I take my leave…

A little routine, but not a bad way to get the day started…

Well, with this load I’ve given more loads so far this year than I did all of last year. My spreadsheet of fucks says if I keep it up I’ll get to 92 loads this year…

I saw the Brazilian guy online yesterday and asked him whether he was up for hooking up after work. He was, and he said he was going to try to get some loads in him before we hooked up. I suggested a few tops and versatile guys I saw online in the neighborhood including the (versatile) top I tagged a bottom with who’d told me the bottom was neg when he was actually poz. That top flaked out on him, the cute thin versatile guy I’d fucked a while back only likes white guys, but the Brazilian guy said he’d gotten one guy to dump in his ass, had another consistent fuck buddy on the way over, and would try for more - that his goal was to get fucked by 5 guys..

So he arrives that evening, I ask him how he’s done - he says he’s got 6 loads in him, from 4 guys… So I was going to be top #5 and load #7… I’m not quite sure what to think… If what he’s saying is true, he’s come a long way… This is someone who’s pretty cautious about who fucks him and says he usually uses condoms when he fucks. Now it looks like he’s just hungry for loads. On the other hand it’s almost like he’s reading the blog and trying to beat out the 5 loads the bottom got from 5 tops in the gangbang I organized a little over a week ago. But to my knowledge he doesn’t read the blog… Still, it was really hot for him to offer me sloppy seconds…

While I’m waiting for him to get undressed I lay back on the bed and stroke my cock. When he finally gets naked he sucks my cock a bit, but then he made it clear he was here to get fucked, not suck dick… He gets on all fours, I lube up and push in. Now here’s the weird thing… For someone who’d been fucked at least 6 times that day, his hole was tight. And if he had any loads in him, I couldn’t tell. I told him to keep the loads in him, but they didn’t seem to be there…

Anyway, he was there to get fucked and fuck him I did. Pretty hard too… But my hard fuck seemed to match where he was at as well. Usually he likes me to fuck him with his legs up so we can kiss and stuff. But there wasn’t any of that this time… I probably only fucked him for 5 minutes, maybe a little longer, and then I felt my orgasm building and I dumped in his ass. Finally he hole felt cummy…

After I came I kept my dick in his ass, and we spooned while I kept slowly fucking him. His hole was nice and silky and wet by this point… As soon as we laid down he just started chatting about life - catching up on things… After about 10 minutes my dick went soft, he pulled off, turned over and we started kissing… We just laid there talking and kissing for a while until he realized he was late for dinner with his boyfriend and had to run…

I’m not sure what to think. I don’t get why he was so tight and dry… Part of me thinks he was just telling me what I wanted to hear. But I do believe he was a man on a mission that day and wanted to get fucked as much as possible. Who knows… Either way it was a good fuck, though there’s something to be said for a gangbang where you can felch loads out of the bottom… 5 loads at a gangbang beats 7 loads one at a time…

I was going to hookup with the cub I fucked last week - he had contacted me and it was clear he was hungry for more cum. I asked him if he had gotten any other loads since I fucked him and he said he doesn’t usually get fucked bareback, but he thought it was really hot and wanted a repeat. I could tell where his mind was at. He’s the worried neg bottom who thinks barebacking is hot, but usually doesn’t act on his feelings. Anyway, I wanted to give him another load to get him a little more comfortable with the idea of letting guys breed him - so maybe he’d get hungry enough that he’d start having other guys give him loads…

But when I logged into Manhunt to see if he was online this really hot, hairy, muscular Latino e-mails me and says he wants my cum in his ass. I look at his profile - he lists himself as a versatile top and I can see why - his dick looks like it’s practically beer can thick… He didn’t have a face pic, but he e-mailed me his ass pic… It was pretty much perfect as well. He was way downtown, but I really wanted to fuck him. So I told him I needed to take care of few things and then I’d drive down.

I take care of what I need to do, hop in the car and head down. When I get there he hides behind the door as he opens it. He’s naked… He leads me into his apartment and I practically fall in love… I hadn’t realized he was a little guy - about 5′8″. His pictures were perfectly accurate, but what they didn’t show was his back… It had a huge, exquisite tattoo on it that went all the way down to the top of his ass. And his ass was incredible as well.

While he’s looking around for something, I start undressing. He asks if I want my dick sucked. I tell him I want to rim his ass first… He gets on all fours at the edge of the bed and I dive in and enjoy his ass. I knew he wanted to suck dick, so when I was rock hard, I offer him my dick. He has me lay down on the bed and he starts sucking my cock. It goes on, and on, and on… At one point he tells me to just relax and enjoy. He has his hand on my belly and I’m feeling his hairy forearm with my hand… At one point he has me reposition to the edge of the bed he can be kneeling on the floor. But he just keeps sucking and sucking. And it’s a decent blow job…

Finally I tell him I want his ass. I really wanted to rim him and then fuck him, but he gets on his back and immediately reaches for the hand lotion and puts a bunch all over his hole (so much for rimming)… I push back his legs and shove in… He feels good. It’s just really hot having this little, hairy Brazilian musle boy under me. His big dick just isn’t in the mood (he must have jacked off or something earlier), but I didn’t care. I just liked fucking a prime piece of meat…

I have to actually work not to cum. I had a five day load in me and he just gave me a really long blow job… I flip him over and fuck him on his belly. After a little while I can’t hold it any more. I tell him he’s a good pussy boy bottom and blow my 5 day load up his ass…

I wanna keep on fucking him, so I get him up into doggy position and continue to fuck him. He takes this as a queue and starts jacking off, and then blows his load pretty quickly. He must have been jacking off a lot ’cause there wasn’t much on the bed when he had me pull out and we laid down. Problem was there were brown spots on the bed - he was dirty… So I get up and go into the bathroom and wash off my dick. He turned on the TV, so I sit down and watch the local news on NY1, not sure what he wanted to do next.

When he comes back we play around a little more, but it was clear it was time to go… All in all a pretty good hookup. Definitely like some of the hot guys I’ve been fucking lately…

BTW, I’ve now cum in as many asses so far this year as I did in all of 2006. I’m definitely enjoying things this year!

Had a nice hookup with the Brazilian guy tonight. It was pretty much like the last time though shorter. I was waiting for him naked with all the lights out in the apartment except those in the bedroom.

He sucked me, we made out, he rode my dick, I fucked him in the missionary position and then on his belly before shooting a nice load deep up his ass. We laid around and talked about life and then he was on his way…

Nice, simple, relaxed…

Wasn’t sure I was up for hooking up today after the hotel pump-and-dump last night, but more of the pills I tried the other day came in the mail today - they actually screwed up the order. They didn’t have the bottle of 30 pills I ordered, so they gave me 30 packets of 3 pills each - 3 times what I was expecting.

So when this beefy latin muscle head who lived a few blocks away messaged me on Adam4Adam I popped a couple pills hoping something would happen (need 45+ minutes for them to kick in), but then he backed out pretty quickly. Think the prospect of taking a load got a little too real for him as soon as he knew I was local and wanting to hookup right then.

So since I was ready to fuck, I went looking for someone else. I had seen the Brazilian guy on all day, so I contacted him since I wanted something easy. After a little bit he came over. I had only taken two pills (instead of the full dose of three) - it was a good amount - no weird effects, just a nice chubby dick…

He started by kneeling on the floor and blowing me, then we moved to the bed where he continued to blow me. I wasn’t in any rush to hurry things along - just wanted a nice, relaxing time with a familiar bottom…

Eventually he moved on to sitting on my dick. It had been a while since I’d really had someone site on my dick for more than a few seconds. I used to go soft in that position, but that wasn’t really a problem. When he was bending over kissing me the sensation on my dick was unremarkable, but as soon as he sat back and ground my dick nice and deep into his ass it felt pretty great…

Then I flipped him over and fucked him missionary style (legs in the air). It felt really good. I pounded him, but not too hard… It didn’t take long before I was flooding his ass with cum. I stayed in him and bent over him and held him for a while. Thanks to the pills my dick wasn’t going soft…

After a while of that I pulled out and we laid next to each other and talked. He’s going through sexual issues with his boyfriend. They’re trying 3-ways and having a lot of the issues my bf and I have gone through. And they’re also finding it necessary to be honest with friends about the fact that they have an open relationship to stop them from thinking something bad is happening in their relationship (been there too). When we moved onto discussing movies I started playing with my dick and got another chubby.

So I rolled him over onto his belly and pounded away at his ass. This time I could tell I wasn’t going to cum, but it just felt good to fuck. After a bit of that we spooned, and then fucked some more before the dogs started whining at the door of the bedroom telling me they needed to go out… I walked with him (and the dogs) most of the way back to his apartment before turning around.

It was just what I needed - a relaxed, easy-going fuck…

Later that night I logged into Manhunt to find this message from him…

I have enjoyed our fucks but this last one has been my favorite, you must have cum alot to make my legs drip with cum as I walked down back to my place

And he was looking for more guys to fuck him - even posted an ad on Craigslist. He didn’t mention they would be getting sloppy seconds…

I’m happy to report the Brazilian guy who I fucked five times last year (1, 2, 3, 4, 5) is back on the fuck buddy list. The last two times I just couldn’t cum when I fucked him and I had sorta stopped trying to hookup with him ’cause I figured the chemistry had changed or something.

So earlier this week we were chatting on Manhunt and we got past the weirdness of not having hooked up in months. He thought I wasn’t into him, but I made it clear I wanted to give it another shot. So we figured out tonight would be a good night, and oddly enough my attempt to schedule a hookup in advance (something I almost never do) actually worked out…

I went over to his place after work and after stripping down (I left on my shirt), I asked him if he wanted me to leave my PA in or take it out. He said “whatever you want”. I took it out ’cause I didn’t want there to be any complications… I wanted things to work between us.

As soon as I took it out he got down on his knees and gave me a great blowjob. I’ve been good about my New Year’s resolution and haven’t been cumming between fucks, so I was a little worried I’d cum while he was blowing me - something I’ve only done a handful of times, but with a 4 day load in my balls I could have cum if I had let myself. But I wasn’t going to give an oral load when I could get my load up his butt…

Every time in the past when we went to fuck he’d throw his legs up and only later get on his stomach. This time he did something different - got on all fours. His legs are longer than mine so is was difficult to fuck him doggy style so I pushed him down onto his belly. His hole felt really good… Since I hadn’t cum in 4 days it was only maybe 5 minutes before I felt the orgasm coming. The weird part is that it took a while after that point for me to actually cum. But I did and gave him a nice big load. (BTW, guys have been commenting lately about how much cum I get in their ass - something I can’t confirm since I never actually see my cum anymore…)

I rolled him onto his side with my dick still in his butt and we laid there spooning. It felt nice. We caught up on each other’s lives - stuff like that. He seemed like he was in a different headspace than he had been last year. Previously he was really hungry for cum. He’d try really hard to get me going again - hoping for a second load up his ass. This time he just wanted to cuddle and be affectionate, which was fine with me - being mellow after a good fuck is nice…

I had to get home since I knew my bf was cooking dinner - so after a while I excused myself, got dressed and left. But it was a good hookup and I’m glad I’ve got a good, neg bottom available again - and so close too…

He really wants to take my load, which I like a lot… And he mentioned that he’s interested in a 3-way with me and my bf, which should be cool… I’d like to see him taking loads other than mine. Given how much he wants my cum in his ass he’s gotta have other guys who seed him, but I don’t know that he’d want to talk about it. Last time I asked him he made it sound like he plays safe with the other guys he hooks up with…

Oh well, gave him a good fuck (minus the cum). When I can’t cum I tend to fuck for longer than when I can cum, so at least he got something out of it…

On my way there I was looking forward to it since I’ve always cum the other 4 times I’ve fucked him. I figured after two recent hookups where I couldn’t cum, he’d get me back on track…

I get there early and we start messing around. When I go to fuck him his hole feels so good… It’s like a wonderful, fleshy tube… I flip him over (we always start with his legs in the air and then wind up with him on his belly). At this point I remembered that while I’ve always cum with him, I usually have to start fantasizing about other shit and just treat him like a piece of meat. I may always cum with him, but it’s not particularly easy to cum. Given that I didn’t have 100% to put into it, it just wasn’t happening… I gave him a decent fuck and then rolled over, pulled out, and we cuddled a bit. I tried to get him to sit on my dick, but he seemed to know I couldn’t cum.

He had a business phone call come in (good thing I didn’t show up on time), so I got dressed, said good bye and left…

I gotta get out of this rut of bad sex… Have a guy coming over at noon for a 3-way, let’s hope that goes better…

Well FINALLY I broke my streak of not having sex and finally got my cum up someone’s ass… There were a couple guys who were interested who lived downtown, but I didn’t feel like going that far to have sex, then I got a note from the Brazilian guy I’ve fucked twice before.

You might be wondering what happened to “round 3″… Well, a 2 or 3 months ago I was supposed to hookup with him, I had just had foot surgery and wasn’t able to walk to his place (he didn’t want to come to my place), so I took the bus (it’s not that far). I get there, ring the bell, ring it again, and ring it again and no one answers. I then follow someone into the building, and knock on his door a few times and still no answer. I hang out in the hallway for a while thinking he must have run out for something and he’d be right back… Still no answer. UGH! I get home and there he is on-line. I ask what happened and he said he fell asleep. OK, whatever…

So I was a little leery going over there today. He had seemed to freak out a little when I told him a few weeks ago that I might have had chlamydia when I fucked him last, but he’s the one who got back to me telling me he had gotten tested and everything was negative.

But he was horny today, so things worked out…

I got to his place and like before, he’s just wearing underwear. I take off my clothes, we kiss a little and then get down to business. This guy LOVES to get fucked and he’s always the same - lubes up his hole, throws his legs in the air and gets right into fucking pretty quick. And like usual, I can’t seem to cum with him unless he’s on his belly, so after we kiss and fuck for a while I flipped him over and just pounded his ass until I came.

And like usual that wasn’t the end of it - he really wants the fucking to go on and on, but it never does with me. So we just laid around cuddled and talked a little until I could get hard again and keep fucking him. In the middle of it he checks messages on his phone and takes no fewer than 3 incoming calls. It doesn’t really bother me, ’cause he’s pretty clear about still being into playing with me - even while he’s on his phone.

I think the first call was a friend, the next was a friend who was a DJ who he had been out with the previous night since the guy DJ’d at some club. And the last call was his boyfriend. During most of the calls he’d snuggle with me, kiss me or lick my balls, and he was doing the same while his boyfriend was on the phone. It was sorta funny. The guy definitely likes the idea of cheating on his boyfriend.

After a while I finally got hard enough to fuck him a bit more, but it was a pretty lame fuck (I have to admit), then I dressed and left. While I was getting up I mentioned that I need to lose some weight ’cause with all the work and no exercise I’ve packed on a few more pounds. But he was nice and said he liked me this way…

Hooked up with the Brazillian tonight. His boyfriend is away visiting his parents for the next week or so and he wants to get as many loads from me during that time as possible. He's such a good bottom - totally focused on getting fucked. He didn't even give me a blowjob - just kissed me when I came in the door, we stripped, got into bed, kissed a little more and up went his legs and my cock found it's home up his hole…

Kissing and fucking pretty much summed up the hookup. He's still doesn't want me to rim him, and when I went to suck his cock (nice, uncut and thick) he went soft. I know I'm not the best cocksucker, but seriously - I'm not that bad… I'm guessing he wants me to be a total top and my sucking dick killed that for him…

After I came in his ass we layed around and kissed and talked a little… He mentioned he really liked my body (go figure), and he asked if I'd be into doing a home video of me fucking him (I said I would if I could wear a mask). When I had arrived I had my PA in and immediately took it out 'cause I figured he wouldn't be interested in it and it might turn him off, but while we're talking he said he asked whether it was possible to fuck with it, and when he heard it was he said he wanted me to keep it in next time…

Which reminds me, the friend of a friend also wants me to fuck him with the new, bigger PA. He also is getting a little obsessed by the idea of me fucking him when he's already got a load in his ass from someone else, so he's turning out to be a good little pig.

Anyway, the point of all the cuddling and kissing was to get me in the mood to fuck again. I put it in a little more, but wasn't doing all that well, but then a little later I turned him on his belly and gave him another good solid fuck… That got him going - and he jacked himself off right after that. I tasted his cum (a bit bitter), then licked it up and got it all in my beard and let him lick it off my face…

So, with him looking to get fucked a lot this week, I shouldn't have a problem finding a hole to fuck whenever I need one…

One final note on boyfriends… Mine has been getting plenty of action lately - doing several hookups a week on his own, which makes me quite happy… The Brazillian had to use his boyfriend's computer the other day and found he had left open his "alternate" e-mail and there were a whole bunch of messages about ads on Craigslist… So his boyfriend is out sowing his oats too…