This teen contacted me a few weeks ago…

hi, sir. i dont know if you got my message on xtube. im the 18 yo bottom from san diego who sees himself as a total cumhole but doesnt really know where to begin. your blog is so fucking hot to me and i would be honored to take your load. if you want some pics for your own viewing pleasure just email me. i’m very slim and very cute and i know what kind of boys you like. i think im a good match for you

I got back to him with a few pointers on how to get loads – things like looking for sex parties, going to a bathhouses (and laying face down), and how to be assertive about getting dick but not aggressive. He then got back to me and (among other things) told me a little more about himself…

a little about me. hmm. well i’m a senior in hs, 18 years old, into some sports, movies, just having fun i guess. but i also have this other side of me which seems to be an insatiable cum whore haha. which is why i respect you so much and love your blog. i feel the need to be used in every sense of the word and have my hole stuffed and filled with sperm. the sheer idea of having a man’s sperm inside me drives me crazy because, in a way, it makes him a part of me and it makes me his subordinate because i’m taking his load. it’s like an act of submission. i’m saying all this because i think you understand…

At this point I wasn’t sure if he was actually taking loads or not. It sorta sounded like he was just fantasizing about it. So I sent him a message and asked how he was thinking about getting started…

well i’m already on adam4adam but i’m getting dozens of messages every 20 minutes. it’s kind of difficult for me to figure out how to go about setting things up with tops because i can’t possibly take all of their loads…not enough hours in the day haha. the thing is, i don’t want to be picky. i just want to be a cumdump. and i feel like part of being a sub cumhole is to not tell guys “no” because one looks better than the other. am i right or is that just a misconception?

I STILL wasn’t sure if he was taking loads so I asked directly and suggested that he try hosting so he could schedule a bunch of tops and get one load after another.

yeah, i have been taking loads from this guy who lives one freeway exit away from me. it’s convenient so i havent branched out yet really. that’s why i wanted to talk on IM. i’ve got some questions that you might be able to answer. is there such thing as a sub bottom who loves taking loads but just prefers the neg ones? i’m not looking to be pozzed by any means so i feel like i’m sort of a walking paradox.

At this point I figured he needed me to be pretty direct, so I told him…

basically, cumdump bottom = poz bottom… you’ll be really conflicted until you accept that… you can try serosorting, but it will fail eventually. serosorting sounds like a nice idea, but it just doesn’t work long term unless you’re the relationship type who really gets to know his tops and even then i can say from personal experience that you don’t really know what risks your tops are taking…

He got back to me and told me that “made sense” and that was sorta the last thing we discussed on the poz issue other than the fact that he mentioned he’s never been tested for HIV and doesn’t plan to get tested for a while.

A few days had gone past and I had been busy and hadn’t gotten back to him. So then he tell me how “his top” took him to a bathhouse that had a lot of older guys and took him into the sauna and fucked him raw in front of the guys who were there. He pulled out and let two anonymous tops fuck him no questions asked one after the other. They both unloaded in his ass and then “his top” gave him a 3rd load. So he got 3 loads in 20 minutes and two of those loads were from complete strangers. Pretty hot, eh?

At this point I knew the guy was pretty serious so I asked him if he’d be interested in doing a blog to record his journey. He’s at this critical stage where he’s making major decisions and experimenting. Luckily he was up for it. I checked and TeenCumhole.com was available so I bought it for him and set it up a few days later. One of the things I was thinking as I bought the domain for him was that when you give someone a label, they usually live up to it. Call someone smart or stupid or “hot” or ugly and that’s how they see themselves and they tend to live up to the labels other people give them. In this case I was giving him a label – Teen Cumhole – and I fully expect he’ll adopt it and become a full-fledged cumhole.

In the past week he’s branching out, going to the bathhouse on his own, finding other tops to hookup with. I get the sense that this is the beginning of his sex life and he’s not doing it timidly – he’s learning to swim by jumping in the deep end. Not bad for a guy who only turned 18 a few months ago…

Needless to say, make sure you check out his blog – TeenCumhole.com. Give him encouragement and if you’re in the San Diego area and want to give him a load, contact him and make it happen. Or better yet, organize a gangbang for him…

Load 2010-4

OK, I’m at a measly 4 loads this year. It’s sorta pathetic, but I’ve got a life and it interferes with seeding hole… On completely the opposite side of that spectrum is “BareWhore24″ who is the bottom I kept referring to in my MAL write ups as “the hot piece of meat everyone wanted to fuck”. Well, on January 30th I gave him his 90th load of the year. That’s right – he’s averaging 3 loads a day and if he can keep it up he’ll get over 1,000 loads of cum in his ass this year. He’s being a good cumdump and telling the world about his exploits. You can find him on Twitter and he’s got a blog as well. (And if you want to fuck him he’s BBWhore24 on BarebackRT).

We’d been going back and forth about hooking up – almost did it at MAL, but it didn’t happen. So when we got back to NY we decided to fuck and film it. The first weekend he couldn’t do it, so we did it the second weekend.

When he got here he was hot as ever. But it his interaction with me was a little curious – when I went to kiss him he didn’t seem to want to kiss so I gave up on that really quickly. It’s not like I was trying to make out with him – just break the ice a little. That’s fine – he was there just to get fucked… But it was sort of a continuation of something I’d felt at MAL – there’s a side of him in e-mails and texts that’s really warm to me, but in person he’s sorta detached. I really don’t know what’s behind it, but the worst case scenario is that I’m just a notch on his bedpost and I’m absolutely fine being a notch on his bedpost if it gets my cum in his hole

He stripped down to a t-shirt, jockstrap and white socks and put on a hood he brought with him (identical to one I already had). Then he got on the bed with his ass in the air waiting for me and my bf to finish getting ready to film him. Needless to say seeing this just laying there wanting my dick and cum was pretty sweet…

I finish up what I’m doing and then pull out my dick and he gets off the bed to suck my dick….

That went on for literally a minute and it just wasn’t doing it for me. To really get me in the mood I need hole, so I had him get on the bed on all fours and I ate him out. It’s curious ’cause in his write up of our hookup on his blog he said…

Two minutes later he started to lick my asshole. Usually I am not really into having me cunt eaten out, it actually pretty much bores me. But he had the most amazing technique ever – felt so fucking good….

I guess I should thank that guy on 15th Street so many years ago (‘97?) who gave me a new perspective on rimming by chewing and sucking on my hole…

The funny part was I could sorta tell that he wasn’t totally into it. Bottoms almost never just silently lay there. I usually get some sort of feedback out of them and with him it was like he was indifferent to it. But honestly, I didn’t really care. He had an awesome hole and I liked rimming it (as much as I like rimming there are holes I don’t really get into).

Rimming gets me hard faster than anything else but with him it wasn’t like I even needed to jack my dick – it was just bouncing up and down and rock hard. In fact I didn’t want to jack too much ’cause I was afraid I’d get too close to cumming.

I took my time ’cause I wanted to get good footage of eating his ass, but eventually I had had my fill. I got up, lubed my dick and started fucking him.

He (obviously) has a good hole (you don’t get fucked that much if you don’t), but while I was fucking him I was thinking too much about the camera and the shot and not enough about actually cumming in his ass, so I fucked him for a while but it got to the point where I started overheating (with the lights, etc.) and I had to take a break. [He was kind in his write up and didn't mention me needing a break.]

Taking a break is usually pretty deadly for me. Once I lose it I lose it, but this was my lucky day and it helped that I had a truly hot bottom laying there waiting for my dick. What was sorta sweet was at one point I wasn’t hard and he started sucking on my cock and I got the sense that he was perfectly OK with sucking a soft cock. Most bottoms get turned off when the top isn’t hard.

Eventually I took off my shirt to cool down, got a hardon again, and went back to fucking. This time I really didn’t give a shit about the camera and just concentrated on fucking him and cumming his hole. I was pounding away at his hole. At first he was tightening up his ass to make it feel good for me, then I think it was too much for him to keep it up so I felt him go loose. It was a completely different sensation for me as a top, but it still felt good.

It took a little while for me to get my load and then when I felt it coming it took a while for me to actually unload in him, but he did get it – and a pretty big load too… When I pulled out I told him to see if he could push a little out. Next thing I knew there was like this huge load coming out. I didn’t want him to lose the load, so I pushed as much back in with my fingers as I could, but there was cum all over his ass. I love to felch a load, so I dove in and cleaned all of my cum off his ass. I still wanted him to keep the load, so I didn’t suck any cum out, but I was tempted to… My fingers were still coated with a lot of thick jizz, so I had him lick it off. At first I don’t think he knew what I was doing, but as soon as he figured out there was cum on my fingers he lapped it up like it was his last supper.

We then handled the paperwork for the video and he got dressed and left. As he was leaving it was like he was studying the apartment. We’re in a small(ish) rental while we try to buy a new place and on top of that our cleaning guy left town about a month ago so the place is messy (anyone want a cleaning job?) I’ve had bottoms get a little offended when I commented on the state of their apartments. I never care whether a guy has a messy apartment, but being observed like that I saw a bit of what they must feel when I write stuff here…

All in all a really good fuck. I’ll work on the video and get it up later – though with everything I’ve got on my plate, it may take a while…

I woke up earlier than I wanted to on Sunday, but then tried to stay in bed and rest. When I did finally get up my bottom and I went to breakfast. It was better than the day before – the eggs weren’t runny and the hot food was actually hot (and it was free for me since I had bought the weekend pass).

When we got back to the room I thought it was odd that tops would come to the door hoping to fuck the bottom and he’d answer the door and say he wasn’t up for being fucked. His rib was still hurting from the rough fuck at the gangbang the prior day, but I got the sense that it was more than that.

Then he mentioned that the hot vers top jock who was at the gangbang wanted to come and “hang out” with us. He then mentioned that he had stayed up late IMing him and had been IMing in the morning as well. I could tell he was infatuated with him. Honestly, I think it’s great if a cumdump finds a gangbang top and falls in love. It’s sorta the perfect combination. Far better than meeting someone socially who’s going to freak out when they find out you like being an anonymous bareback gangbang bottom.

I said yes to the guy coming over, but I was apprehensive. There were a number of scenarios where it could work out great, and a few that would be a problem. It would have worked if he had come over, thrown the bottom on the bed, fucked him, and then spent the afternoon hunting for more tops to fuck the bottom. Or since he’s vers, maybe he’d spend the afternoon taking loads with my bottom – that would have been cool too… But there was something in the bottom’s eyes that worried me – love.

The guy came over and I was busy writing up the first blog post about Friday night. They laid on the bed and talked and sometimes would involve me in the discussion, but then things got more intense between them. They were kissing and cuddling and making out… Frankly, it was just the wrong time and place for that. I got to the end of my blog post and wondered what in the fuck I was supposed to do. It wasn’t comfortable sitting in the chair and I really wanted to be doing some filming – that was one of my primary objectives for the weekend and I hadn’t done any of it yet.

There was an older bottom online who wanted to come over and was up for being videotaped. I pushed him off a bit thinking I’d give the two love birds time to finish what they started, but when the bottom showed up they were taking things so slow they had just gotten naked and were getting ready to fuck. The trick took off his clothes and the two of them on the bed suddenly realized that it wasn’t just about the two of them any more. “My bottom” (I’m using those words loosely) asked “Should we leave” and I just said “Yeah”. I was fuming by this point because things had gotten so awkward. They got their clothes on while I got the camera and lights ready and then they left.

I had an interesting hookup with the trick in which I fisted him. It was my first time fisting and I got totally boned doing it – but I’ll save that for a separate blog post.

When the trick was gone I texted “my bottom” and told him I wanted to talk face to face. He was eating and got there like 30 minutes later. We had what I thought was a really good, honest talk. A lot of issues came out and I thought everything was back on track by the end of it.

A little after we were done talking this young sub texted me. He’d been wanting to hookup for a while and it just hadn’t happened, and he was interested in having sex with both me and “my bottom” even though he swore he was neg and he knew “my bottom” was a cum dump.

“My bottom” started cleaning up a bit (said it was in preparation for the gangbang), and then the young sub bottom showed up. He liked being a puppy and started nuzzling his head on my belly and getting me to pet him. He was really sweet and while he wasn’t very verbal, he did a fair amount of non-verbal communication (“my bottom” could have learned a lot from the kid). The young sub started sucking my dick and I got “my bottom” to come over and the puppy seemed really excited to service him.

I got behind the puppy and he pulled down his pants and exposed his hole for me. Then he took off his pants and shoes completely as it got more serious. I fucked him a bit, but the position was a little awkward. I knew the perfect position would be doggy style (how appropriate) with the puppy on all fours, one of us behind and one of us on his knees in front. So I got up and figured I’d switch with “my bottom”. I got on my knees and got the puppy on all fours and “my bottom” started to fuck him. It seemed like just a minute or two later when “my bottom” announced he was really close and about to blow his load. I just asked “so you’re going to lube his hole for me?”, and then he blew his load up the puppy’s ass. [The sub bottom knew it was happening, knew he was about to take a load from a cumhole bottom and didn't do anything to say or indicate 'no'.]

Then “my bottom” went back to cleaning up the room as I fucked the puppy’s now cummy hole. At least that’s what I thought he was doing.

I was having a great time with the puppy – I loved how submissive he was. I had put a collar on him early on, and then he picked a hood and put that on (he LOVED hoods). I fucked him for quite a while but never did cum. The odd part was that he seemed a little hesitant to take my (neg) load, even though he had been fine taking “my bottom’s” poz load. When I had him on his back he’d stiffen his legs which made it difficult to really fuck him. It’s not like that’s puppy play – if you’ve ever seen a dog roll on his back and be submissive their legs are never straight.

We had a good session that was really tender and intimate. I loved how tactile he was to the point where I’d really love to do more puppy play (hint, hint to any of you in the NY area who identify as puppies).

I tried to get “my bottom” to get back into the play, but he resisted. I suggested having the puppy rim his hole (dogs like ass, right?), but he wasn’t even willing to do that.

As we were winding up “my bottom” left and said he was going downstairs for a drink or something. I was still concentrating on the puppy and didn’t really think twice about it. I asked him to do final approvals for the gangbang and send out the final e-mail with details, which he did before he left.

The puppy took off his hood which was his non-verbal signal that he was done. I took off his collar releasing him and he got ready and went. He had told me that the load he got from “my bottom” was his first one at MAL. I asked him how MAL was going for him and he said something like “it’s going great now” and then rubbed his head in my lap. I was seriously falling for the pup… He said he’d try to come to the gangbang. He’d mentioned hed’ be up for it previously as long as he was hooded since he didn’t want anyone to recognize him.

Then he left and I went and had dinner and a beer with Jayson Park. (Actually, he didn’t have dinner – just drank a beer while he watched me eat).

Then I went back up to the room to prep for the gangbang and “my bottom” wasn’t back and he hadn’t responded to a couple of text messages I had sent. Then about 30 minutes before the gangbang was supposed to start I noticed that his stuff was missing. While I had been fucking the puppy he had packed up and left. How he could sit there and do the final approvals and sent out the confirmation for the gangbang when he knew he was leaving is beyond me.

Later I found he had sent me an e-mail after he left…

On my way back to NYC via train. I just needed to leave…

Thanks for letting me join you this weekend.  Had a blast.

That e-mail sorta sums up his contradictions. He had a great time, but he had to leave without saying anything.

There’s so much I could say about him, but it would all be conjecture. I really don’t feel like I understand him much at all. I know deep down he’s a good guy, but he seems horribly conflicted. I’ve seen his personal Facebook page and in his profile pic he’s this completely normal, happy regular gay guy. But then he likes to get gangbanged, but then he also seems to have issues with getting gangbanged. He seems like he’s got a lot to work out, and I hope for his sake he gets to the bottom of it all.

With everything that had already happened that day I wasn’t really looking forward to the gangbang anyway. I knew Jayson was headed off drinking for the evening so after sending out a cancellation notice on BBRT, I called him up and we went out to the Eagle and then to the Reaction dance party later that night (but that’s another blog post).

And a couple postscripts to this post…

First, when it was done the day was actually a good day. I fisted someone for the first time, and found I really love playing with puppies, and Jayson and I had fun when we went out and a good fuck when we got back. So yeah, there was drama, but the sum total of the day was really good.

Second, the sub bottom texted me later and asked what “my bottom’s” HIV status was. Silly boy. I reiterated what I told him before – that the guy had taken 15 loads so far during the weekend and then later told him the load was “undetectable” but that if he was concerned he should be more careful and tell his limits to his tops. Personally, I think the sub bottom is doing a weird form of bug chasing where he puts himself in situations where he will take poz cum, but he does it in a way which is completely submissive so it’s done to him rather than him actively doing it – which sorta fits with his submissiveness. From my perspective I knew “my bottom” was on meds so there was almost a zero chance the sub bottom would get pozzed.

Load 2010-1

UPDATE: Remembered a few more details, so I changed the post…

A lot as happened since Saturday morning, but I’ll try my best to remember the details. My bottom had taken three loads in pretty rapid succession the night before and we had a gangbang scheduled for 2pm on Saturday with over 100 tops expressing an interest in coming. However, the gangbang of another cumhole the night before was a bit of a dud, so I wasn’t sure how things would go…

I didn’t sleep well that night and got up feeling tired. One of the lessons I learned at IML was to eat properly so you don’t get run down, so I went to breakfast (the bottom said he didn’t want to eat). I had a full breakfast with cold runny eggs, cold french toast, etc. – it was pretty lame, but it got food into my system.

I wanted to videotape me fucking the bottom, so I set up the lights and got the camera ready… For a few reasons my dick just wasn’t into it. It was hot, I was tired, and I think my digesting food didn’t help either. So we took a break. However, I did notice a certain hesitation on the part of the bottom about being videotaped. I couldn’t have been more clear when we were discussing the weekend. I was paying the room charges and finding tops to fuck him in exchange for him letting me videotape him. I was fine with him wearing a hood, but me videotaping him was a given (so I thought)…

The bottom then decided he was hungry so he went for breakfast. While he was downstairs eating there was a knock on the door. I had been giving out the room number and wondered who the guy was here for. He was young and lean and pretty hot so I had him come in. We started playing together and he just wasn’t responding when I touched his ass, so I asked if he had been chatting with a top or a bottom and he said a bottom. Now mind you, I looked nothing like the bottom – I’m not sure why he didn’t say something sooner. So I texted my bottom and told him he had a top waiting for him and then I played the role of cocksucker to keep the guy happy and in the room while the bottom got back. Frankly, I did a lot more cocksucking than I’m usually comfortable with and he said he almost blew his load a few times, but I was purposely just trying to edge him and not let him cum since while I love the taste of cum, I wanted the load up my bottom’s ass, not down my throat.

Finally the bottom got back and it was just in time ’cause the guy was literally ready to blow. The bottom started giving him a blowjob but I told him he was ready to blow so the bottom just bent over the bed and took the guy’s dick and since I had been edging him for 15 minutes or so he blew in the bottom’s ass pretty quickly.

After that another top came by and fucked him and blew in his ass. I was sitting and jacking my dick and seeing him take a load got me boned. So now that he had 2 loads in him I got up and started fucking him. I suggested putting our hoods on and turning on the video camera but he talked me out of him. Later he said he was worried it would interrupt the flow and I accepted the explanation, but now I wonder if it was just avoidance…

So I just kept fucking him. His hole felt good and it was getting me off that he was taking loads… It wasn’t long before I blew my load up his hole. The last time I came had been Thursday, so it was a big load. When the other top had gone the bottom seemed really happy.

Then another top came by a little while later and the bottom took a 4th load – all before the gangbang… So now he was up to 7 loads.

Things have been busy/crazy and I need to write up what’s been going on before I forget…

Friday I was planning on leaving NYC at 9am so I’d get into DC around 1pm, but that didn’t happen. I had worked until 9:45pm the night before getting stuff ready for one of my sponsors. I manage their hosted blogs and they wanted to announce a new tube-style porn blog I’d been working on for them (MilkYourBone.com). Unfortunately they had all this content I had to go through and they got it to me at the last minute so I couldn’t have one of the guys who does work for me take care of it.

Long story short that put me way behind. I should have spent the afternoon getting ready – our cleaning guy moved out of town a few weeks ago, so I had to do laundry on top of everything else… All of it got pushed to the next day – the day I was supposed to leave at 9am. Bottom line I left NYC 5 1/2 hours after I intended to leave. And because I didn’t leave when I  planned traffic wasn’t as good as I had hoped and the trip took a bit longer than expected.

So I got in at 7pm instead of 1pm which sorta fucked things up. I really wanted to videotape me fucking someone that afternoon, but that wasn’t going to happen. I had just enough time to deal with all the e-mails and try to relax a bit before the bottom arrived.

Actually Jayson Park came over for a bit in the middle of all that. We hung out and talked. He was doing a porn shoot for Dick Wadd later that night, so I knew he wasn’t up for really getting fucked – his hole had to stay in good shape so the shoot went well for him. He was looking really hot. It’s like he doesn’t have an ounce of fat on him – and his butt – my god, his butt was so little, perky and fuckable… Anyway, at one point I touched him (’cause I couldn’t keep my hands off him), then we were kissing, then I wanted to rim him, so I pulled down his pants and started eating out his primo hole. Well, hard dick, great ass… Next thing you knew my dick was up his hole. It wasn’t a real fuck though. For starters I knew he had the shoot later and didn’t want to do anything that would mess that up (though I should have used something other than spit). And second, I had this crazy idea that the only loads I’d give this weekend would be ones I videotaped… So I just sorta play fucked him and then pulled out and we went back to hanging out.

He had to run, then there was a bottom from NYC who I’ve been meaning to fuck who was having a gangbang. I went over to his room about an hour after the gangbang was supposed to have started and when I went in he was the only one there. He was head down (blindfolded?) with his ass in the air. There was a sign near the door where tops were supposed to make a mark when they gave him a load. Only one top had made a mark. However, when I went to rim him his hole was totally cummy. In fact it tasted pretty incredible. I didn’t suck his hole ’cause it’s a little rude to take loads out of a cum dump that’s getting gangbanged, but there was plenty of cum on the outside of his ass… I fucked him for a bit and kept pulling out and cleaning off the cum I’d worked out of his ass. Thing was, I just wasn’t ready to cum right then.

At that point I was hard and wondering if there were other holes to fuck, so I walked all the floors in the hotel, but it just wasn’t happening yet. Then I went downstairs and had a beer, but when not much was happening there either I came back up to finish unpacking.

The boy arrived before I was done unpacking. I had just gone out for drinks with him a couple days before – didn’t really know him, though I knew he was a decent guy and got into taking lots of loads. I also sorta suspected that he wasn’t as submissive as I was really looking for and honestly that’s been a bit of an issue this weekend, but more on that later (nothing major – just little things).

Of course bottom boy comes into the room for a weekend of fucking – he wanted my dick and I wanted his hole so we fucked a bit, but like with Jayson, it was just play fucking. I wanted him to get my load when I was videotaping it… After he settled in a bit we went downstairs for a beer. This was actually his first leather event (hadn’t even been to a real leather bar) so he was a bit nervous.

After the beer we decided to go over to a bear event at a bar near by that someone told me had a darkroom. I’m not all that into bears, but I figured I might be able to get my dick in some holes and get a few loads for my boy. We walked over only to find the place was dead, so we left and came back to the hotel. We could have gone to a sex party we knew about but both of us were too tired to bother with a sex party that had a $15 cover and required driving.

By that time the hotel was a bit like a bathhouse. I put a blue hanky on the door knob and left it ajar and guys started looking in and then a few came in. The first two seemed like a couple. They were pretty hot, and the top was pretty aggressive. He wanted to fuck with a condom but I said I didn’t have any (there were actually the two from the registration bag – but they were in the trash by that point). The aggressive top kept trying to force my head down to suck his dick, but I don’t suck dick by force, so that wasn’t happening. However, I fucked the bottom raw with the two of them watching and they were into it, but didn’t want to do it themselves.

They left and then this top came in. Older guy with a nice dick. He wanted to fuck with a condom too, but had brought his own. My bottom indicated it was OK (he just wanted to get fucked), so I let the top fuck him. The fucking brought other guys into the room who wanted to watch, etc. Eventually the safe sex top wasn’t cumming and the condom was hurting the bottom so we had him stop. He left pretty quickly then I figured I’d show the others what the bottom really wanted and started fucking him raw. When I pulled out one of them took my place.

At that point things started getting hot and heavy. Guys would come in and out of the room, tops were fucking the bottom. At one point there was a 10 or 15 minute stretch where three guys blew their loads in the bottom in rapid succession. It was like a breeding frenzy – very hot…

Then this hot tattooed bottom I’d been chatting up online comes into the room and this whole group of guys sorta followed him in. He was the hot piece of meat that everyone wanted to fuck (including me). I felt up his ass and it was cummy, so I shoved my dick in, but I just fucked him for a bit and then passed him off to another top. The problem was the energy in the room changed and it was sorta out of control (in a bad way), so I closed the door so other guys couldn’t get in, and then was sorta happy when the hot piece of meat decided to leave and everyone followed him out.

UPDATE: The “hot piece of meat” mentioned the encounter on his blog:

I found out that a couple of rooms further down the hallway from my room there was a bb gangbang going on (open door, blue hanky on the door knot), organized by rawTOP (u know who I am talking about). We have been chatting online and exchanged phone numbers because I am just SO turned on by his blog, his videos and his stories. But for some reason he does not seem too much into me or not very eager to fuck my cunt and breed me because it takes him FOREVER to get back to me via text or mail (if he gets back to me at all). But I decided to check that little party out. There was one bottom being fucked by rawTOP and some tops around him waiting for their turn. As I entered the room I realised there were some guys following me – NICE! I bend over the bed and rawTOP was the first one who fucked my ass for some minutes (FINALLY!!) before he handed me over to some other fucker (at this time I did not really care who fucked my so I can’t tell what the guys looked like). After sometime I felt a little akward because I had the feeling I was crashing a party I was not really meant to be at: All the fuckers turned towards my ass and I felt uncomfortable. I LOVE cum up my ass but it did not feel right to steal all the fuckers from that other bottom and fuck up rawTOPs gangbang. So I decided to leave.

[For the record: I'm totally into the guy and would love to give him a proper fuck some time! (And videotape it too!)]

At that point we were both pretty tired and decided to go to bed. The bottom had gotten 3 loads in him pretty quickly, and I had gotten my dick in 4 holes, so it was a decent start to the weekend.

As we went to bed I cuddled with the bottom a bit, but he seemed really distant. I was having a really hard time reading him and days later as I write this I still don’t think I really understand him – just understand bits and pieces of him poorly… Looking back I’d say there are times when he seems to build a bit of an emotional protective wall between him and the other person. He doesn’t seem to mind it when the person uses him sexually, but he doesn’t give much of anything other than his body to the person. So as I was cuddling him, he didn’t respond, but didn’t complain either. It’s been a long time since I’ve cuddled with a bottom and gotten zero response. It was a bit odd…

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The other day I wasn’t really feeling like I was in the mood to hookup, but I was sorta horny and figured I could cum if I tried. I didn’t really want to have someone come over only to have it not go well, so when my Italian daddy fuck buddy e-mailed me I figured he’d be perfect. After all he made a huge shitty mess of my bathroom last time, so he owes me…

I e-mail back and as usual, he’s at my place a half hour later. He’s so eager and dependable – there’s something to be said for that… I take him to the bedroom, we take off our clothes (I leave my shirt on), and he starts sucking my dick. Thing was the blowjob just wasn’t doing it for me, so I had him get on all fours on the bed and I ate him out. Rimming his ass wasn’t really what I was in the mood for either, but it got me harder than the blowjob…

As soon as I was hard enough to fuck I lubed up my dick and shoved in. He was really just there so I could dump my load and I came a few minutes later. I felt just a little guilty it was such a quick fuck, so we laid there and I felt his furry muscular pecs while he jacked off. It took him no time to cum.

We talked a little bit – mostly while he was putting on his clothes. The poor guy has been unemployed for over a year. Frankly, this is the age of the Internet – there’s no excuse for not working in some manner – sell something on eBay, start a blog – do something… Still he’s a generation older than me and not as Internet savvy as I am…

He was out the door about 15 minutes after he got there… But he’s perfectly happy being a pump-and-dump hole for me, and I’m glad he likes it – ’cause that’s my mood sometimes.