Load 2010-17

Well, wearing a PA to avoid cumming worked – possibly too well. About 3 days after the hookup with the black fuck bud I tried to hookup, but had “some problems” making it happen, then life got busy, and then at about day 6 or 7 I sorta felt run down and not up for fucking (which is weird ’cause I had similar symptoms about 2 weeks after fucking the black guy last time). I wasn’t totally run down – just sorta.

I felt good enough to give it a shot and on day 7 had my Brazilian fuck bud over. He sucked my cock with my PA in, which was probably a mistake since it was sorta distracting when I wasn’t feeling 100%. I tried to make fucking happen, but it just wasn’t happening, so we both gave up.

Two days later I had a huge 9 day load in me and needed to unload. This “Asian / Pacific Islander” hit me up on Adam4Adam. He didn’t have a face pic, had a fuzzy torso shot, but had a nice butt pic (but even it was a little on the beefy side). I just had to cum so I said yes even though I really didn’t know who was going to show up at my door.

Before he got here he said he was looking for an anonymous hookup. I told him there’d be no taking then and I asked him if he’d be up for a hood or blindfold, he said yes, so I got my leather blindfold ready. His profile said he was neg, but didn’t say anything one way or the other about safe sex, and he asked no questions. I didn’t really know what to make of that – sorta guessed he was poz, but not public about it…

When he was a block away he texted saying he wanted a hood, so I scrambled and pulled out a hood for him, though I really wanted him blindfolded. He showed up and 1) he was a lot cuter than I thought he’d be, and 2) he was a lot heavier than I thought he’d be. I wanted to put the hood on him at the door and lead him back to the bedroom, but he made it clear he wanted to see his surroundings first.

When we got to the bedroom he got naked and honestly I wasn’t sure how the hookup would go. He was ADORABLE, but his body was really beefy. Imagine a stereotypical Samoan warrior (he’s not Samoan, but he looks like he could be), take away 99% of the tattoos, take 10 years off what you’re thinking, and you’ve pretty much got him. So he looks like a cute Pacific Islander muscle cub – which is not typically a type I do well with, but he was there and I had a 9 day load in my balls that needed release.

I went to put on the hood and realized I picked one with eye holes which was sorta dumb if it was supposed to be anonymous (but it was a last minute choice). I didn’t want to mess up the vibe by looking for another one, so I just went with it. It took a little work to get it over his head, but I finally managed.

I then told him to get on all fours on the bed. If it was going to be anonymous, I didn’t need a blowjob – we’d go right to anal. I pulled his ass cheeks apart and started rimming him. As soon as my mouth touched his ass I knew I was in luck. His whole body was silky smooth and his hole was just as smooth. I took my time eating his ass, though I don’t think he enjoyed it as much as I did – he just sorta laid there and didn’t react one way or the other.

I was jacking my dick the whole time I was rimming him. I had taken my PA out before he got there ’cause I didn’t want it to interfere this time. His hole was so good I had no problem getting rock hard.

Then I stood up and shoved in. Oh. My. God… His hole was incredible – it was silky and literally gripped my dick. I was either the best hole I’d ever been in or the 2nd best (the other being the Peruvian guy I fucked last year – who I still need to fuck again soon)… Usually doggy position isn’t a great position for me, but I knew I shouldn’t mess with perfection in this case – there was just something about his ass in this particular position. It also had the advantage of being a position that didn’t require a lot of physical exertion on my part. Part of my problems with other hookups is that my favorite position is with the bottom flat on his belly. In that position I have to repeatedly lift my entire body up and down (all 240 pounds of it) – that gets tiring pretty quickly, but in doggy there’s almost no physical exertion – which was good ’cause it was a border-line hot day and the fan in the window was barely cutting it – it would have been really easy to overheat.

As you can imagine – 9 day load + an incredible hole meant it wasn’t long before I was cumming in his ass. The orgasm was incredible. First I could feel the cum start leaking out pretty rapidly. It was like a bucket that was too full and sloshing it’s contents all over the place. That lasted so long I started wondering if I was going to cum for real, but I realized even if it stopped there I would have given him a nice size load. Then the full orgasm came and I started really blowing cum in his ass. That went on and on… It felt like I was giving him a gallon of cum up there – spurt after spurt after spurt. Finally it subsided.

I hadn’t said a word the entire time I was cumming. I was a little embarrassed how quickly I had cum and didn’t want it to end… The pace changed after that – I fucked him a bit more slowly, but I just kept fucking him and fucking him. His hole felt wonderfully wet. At one point I stopped and went to felch him, but while he was clean, he wasn’t squeaky clean, so I gave that up immediately and went back to fucking his cummy hole.

After a while he went from being on all fours (with his head down) to dropping upper torso down onto the bed. When he did that his hole changed completely and it felt just like a loose cavity – the incredible feeling pretty much stopped. So I figured it was time to change position, so I pushed him on his belly, but like so many cubs/bears that position just didn’t work at all, so I start winding up the fucking by whispering in his ear how big of a load he had taken and how wet his hole felt.

I pulled out and went around to the other side of the bed and had him clean off my dick with a little ATM. As he was sucking me I started feeling up his smooth body and sorta petting his head. When he stopped sucking me (since I was getting soft), he just buried his head in my crotch and never looked up at me. It reminded me a lot of playing with the puppy at MAL – I liked it a lot – it showed that anonymous sex can actually be very tender and intimate.

I pet him for quite a while and then laid down next to him at which point he started caressing me as I was caressing him. I’m not sure what he was going through in his head, but it seemed he needed both to be fucked like a cumdump and held tenderly – all without even talking to me. It was a really wonderful mix I don’t get very often – complete submission but tenderness too. I liked that.

Eventually we started talking a little bit. I asked if he liked puppy play and wound up having to explain it to him, and we talked about where he was from, his job, stuff like that…

Then, after a while I got hard again. This time he climbed on top of me and rode my cock. Once again, it felt incredible. It was like he was using my dick to give himself a prostate massage and was loving every minute of it. Besides rubbing my dick perfectly his hole just felt wet with all the cum.

When that was over we talked and caressed a bit more. If I didn’t have a boyfriend in the next room I would have kept him there longer and I know he wouldn’t have left. But I was hungry and needed to pay some attention to my bf, so I gradually wrapped things up and he left…

This is one of the few cases his having crappy profile pics was a good thing. If I had seen an accurate pic of his body I probably would have passed and missed a really good fuck.

Load 2010-4

OK, I’m at a measly 4 loads this year. It’s sorta pathetic, but I’ve got a life and it interferes with seeding hole… On completely the opposite side of that spectrum is “bbcunt” who is the bottom I kept referring to in my MAL write ups as “the hot piece of meat everyone wanted to fuck”. Well, on January 30th I gave him his 90th load of the year. That’s right – he’s averaging 3 loads a day and if he can keep it up he’ll get over 1,000 loads of cum in his ass this year. He’s being a good cumdump and telling the world about his exploits. You can find him on Twitter and he’s got a blog as well. (And if you want to fuck him email him – bbcunt@gmx.com).

We’d been going back and forth about hooking up – almost did it at MAL, but it didn’t happen. So when we got back to NY we decided to fuck and film it. The first weekend he couldn’t do it, so we did it the second weekend.

When he got here he was hot as ever. But it his interaction with me was a little curious – when I went to kiss him he didn’t seem to want to kiss so I gave up on that really quickly. It’s not like I was trying to make out with him – just break the ice a little. That’s fine – he was there just to get fucked… But it was sort of a continuation of something I’d felt at MAL – there’s a side of him in e-mails and texts that’s really warm to me, but in person he’s sorta detached. I really don’t know what’s behind it, but the worst case scenario is that I’m just a notch on his bedpost and I’m absolutely fine being a notch on his bedpost if it gets my cum in his hole

He stripped down to a t-shirt, jockstrap and white socks and put on a hood he brought with him (identical to one I already had). Then he got on the bed with his ass in the air waiting for me and my bf to finish getting ready to film him. Needless to say seeing this just laying there wanting my dick and cum was pretty sweet…

I finish up what I’m doing and then pull out my dick and he gets off the bed to suck my dick….

That went on for literally a minute and it just wasn’t doing it for me. To really get me in the mood I need hole, so I had him get on the bed on all fours and I ate him out. It’s curious ’cause in his write up of our hookup on his blog he said…

Two minutes later he started to lick my asshole. Usually I am not really into having me cunt eaten out, it actually pretty much bores me. But he had the most amazing technique ever – felt so fucking good….

I guess I should thank that guy on 15th Street so many years ago (‘97?) who gave me a new perspective on rimming by chewing and sucking on my hole…

The funny part was I could sorta tell that he wasn’t totally into it. Bottoms almost never just silently lay there. I usually get some sort of feedback out of them and with him it was like he was indifferent to it. But honestly, I didn’t really care. He had an awesome hole and I liked rimming it (as much as I like rimming there are holes I don’t really get into).

Rimming gets me hard faster than anything else but with him it wasn’t like I even needed to jack my dick – it was just bouncing up and down and rock hard. In fact I didn’t want to jack too much ’cause I was afraid I’d get too close to cumming.

I took my time ’cause I wanted to get good footage of eating his ass, but eventually I had had my fill. I got up, lubed my dick and started fucking him.

He (obviously) has a good hole (you don’t get fucked that much if you don’t), but while I was fucking him I was thinking too much about the camera and the shot and not enough about actually cumming in his ass, so I fucked him for a while but it got to the point where I started overheating (with the lights, etc.) and I had to take a break. [He was kind in his write up and didn't mention me needing a break.]

Taking a break is usually pretty deadly for me. Once I lose it I lose it, but this was my lucky day and it helped that I had a truly hot bottom laying there waiting for my dick. What was sorta sweet was at one point I wasn’t hard and he started sucking on my cock and I got the sense that he was perfectly OK with sucking a soft cock. Most bottoms get turned off when the top isn’t hard.

Eventually I took off my shirt to cool down, got a hardon again, and went back to fucking. This time I really didn’t give a shit about the camera and just concentrated on fucking him and cumming his hole. I was pounding away at his hole. At first he was tightening up his ass to make it feel good for me, then I think it was too much for him to keep it up so I felt him go loose. It was a completely different sensation for me as a top, but it still felt good.

It took a little while for me to get my load and then when I felt it coming it took a while for me to actually unload in him, but he did get it – and a pretty big load too… When I pulled out I told him to see if he could push a little out. Next thing I knew there was like this huge load coming out. I didn’t want him to lose the load, so I pushed as much back in with my fingers as I could, but there was cum all over his ass. I love to felch a load, so I dove in and cleaned all of my cum off his ass. I still wanted him to keep the load, so I didn’t suck any cum out, but I was tempted to… My fingers were still coated with a lot of thick jizz, so I had him lick it off. At first I don’t think he knew what I was doing, but as soon as he figured out there was cum on my fingers he lapped it up like it was his last supper.

We then handled the paperwork for the video and he got dressed and left. As he was leaving it was like he was studying the apartment. We’re in a small(ish) rental while we try to buy a new place and on top of that our cleaning guy left town about a month ago so the place is messy (anyone want a cleaning job?) I’ve had bottoms get a little offended when I commented on the state of their apartments. I never care whether a guy has a messy apartment, but being observed like that I saw a bit of what they must feel when I write stuff here…

All in all a really good fuck. I’ll work on the video and get it up later – though with everything I’ve got on my plate, it may take a while…

I woke up earlier than I wanted to on Sunday, but then tried to stay in bed and rest. When I did finally get up my bottom and I went to breakfast. It was better than the day before – the eggs weren’t runny and the hot food was actually hot (and it was free for me since I had bought the weekend pass).

When we got back to the room I thought it was odd that tops would come to the door hoping to fuck the bottom and he’d answer the door and say he wasn’t up for being fucked. His rib was still hurting from the rough fuck at the gangbang the prior day, but I got the sense that it was more than that.

Then he mentioned that the hot vers top jock who was at the gangbang wanted to come and “hang out” with us. He then mentioned that he had stayed up late IMing him and had been IMing in the morning as well. I could tell he was infatuated with him. Honestly, I think it’s great if a cumdump finds a gangbang top and falls in love. It’s sorta the perfect combination. Far better than meeting someone socially who’s going to freak out when they find out you like being an anonymous bareback gangbang bottom.

I said yes to the guy coming over, but I was apprehensive. There were a number of scenarios where it could work out great, and a few that would be a problem. It would have worked if he had come over, thrown the bottom on the bed, fucked him, and then spent the afternoon hunting for more tops to fuck the bottom. Or since he’s vers, maybe he’d spend the afternoon taking loads with my bottom – that would have been cool too… But there was something in the bottom’s eyes that worried me – love.

The guy came over and I was busy writing up the first blog post about Friday night. They laid on the bed and talked and sometimes would involve me in the discussion, but then things got more intense between them. They were kissing and cuddling and making out… Frankly, it was just the wrong time and place for that. I got to the end of my blog post and wondered what in the fuck I was supposed to do. It wasn’t comfortable sitting in the chair and I really wanted to be doing some filming – that was one of my primary objectives for the weekend and I hadn’t done any of it yet.

There was an older bottom online who wanted to come over and was up for being videotaped. I pushed him off a bit thinking I’d give the two love birds time to finish what they started, but when the bottom showed up they were taking things so slow they had just gotten naked and were getting ready to fuck. The trick took off his clothes and the two of them on the bed suddenly realized that it wasn’t just about the two of them any more. “My bottom” (I’m using those words loosely) asked “Should we leave” and I just said “Yeah”. I was fuming by this point because things had gotten so awkward. They got their clothes on while I got the camera and lights ready and then they left.

I had an interesting hookup with the trick in which I fisted him. It was my first time fisting and I got totally boned doing it – but I’ll save that for a separate blog post.

When the trick was gone I texted “my bottom” and told him I wanted to talk face to face. He was eating and got there like 30 minutes later. We had what I thought was a really good, honest talk. A lot of issues came out and I thought everything was back on track by the end of it.

A little after we were done talking this young sub texted me. He’d been wanting to hookup for a while and it just hadn’t happened, and he was interested in having sex with both me and “my bottom” even though he swore he was neg and he knew “my bottom” was a cum dump.

“My bottom” started cleaning up a bit (said it was in preparation for the gangbang), and then the young sub bottom showed up. He liked being a puppy and started nuzzling his head on my belly and getting me to pet him. He was really sweet and while he wasn’t very verbal, he did a fair amount of non-verbal communication (“my bottom” could have learned a lot from the kid). The young sub started sucking my dick and I got “my bottom” to come over and the puppy seemed really excited to service him.

I got behind the puppy and he pulled down his pants and exposed his hole for me. Then he took off his pants and shoes completely as it got more serious. I fucked him a bit, but the position was a little awkward. I knew the perfect position would be doggy style (how appropriate) with the puppy on all fours, one of us behind and one of us on his knees in front. So I got up and figured I’d switch with “my bottom”. I got on my knees and got the puppy on all fours and “my bottom” started to fuck him. It seemed like just a minute or two later when “my bottom” announced he was really close and about to blow his load. I just asked “so you’re going to lube his hole for me?”, and then he blew his load up the puppy’s ass. [The sub bottom knew it was happening, knew he was about to take a load from a cumhole bottom and didn't do anything to say or indicate 'no'.]

Then “my bottom” went back to cleaning up the room as I fucked the puppy’s now cummy hole. At least that’s what I thought he was doing.

I was having a great time with the puppy – I loved how submissive he was. I had put a collar on him early on, and then he picked a hood and put that on (he LOVED hoods). I fucked him for quite a while but never did cum. The odd part was that he seemed a little hesitant to take my (neg) load, even though he had been fine taking “my bottom’s” poz load. When I had him on his back he’d stiffen his legs which made it difficult to really fuck him. It’s not like that’s puppy play – if you’ve ever seen a dog roll on his back and be submissive their legs are never straight.

We had a good session that was really tender and intimate. I loved how tactile he was to the point where I’d really love to do more puppy play (hint, hint to any of you in the NY area who identify as puppies).

I tried to get “my bottom” to get back into the play, but he resisted. I suggested having the puppy rim his hole (dogs like ass, right?), but he wasn’t even willing to do that.

As we were winding up “my bottom” left and said he was going downstairs for a drink or something. I was still concentrating on the puppy and didn’t really think twice about it. I asked him to do final approvals for the gangbang and send out the final e-mail with details, which he did before he left.

The puppy took off his hood which was his non-verbal signal that he was done. I took off his collar releasing him and he got ready and went. He had told me that the load he got from “my bottom” was his first one at MAL. I asked him how MAL was going for him and he said something like “it’s going great now” and then rubbed his head in my lap. I was seriously falling for the pup… He said he’d try to come to the gangbang. He’d mentioned hed’ be up for it previously as long as he was hooded since he didn’t want anyone to recognize him.

Then he left and I went and had dinner and a beer with Jayson Park. (Actually, he didn’t have dinner – just drank a beer while he watched me eat).

Then I went back up to the room to prep for the gangbang and “my bottom” wasn’t back and he hadn’t responded to a couple of text messages I had sent. Then about 30 minutes before the gangbang was supposed to start I noticed that his stuff was missing. While I had been fucking the puppy he had packed up and left. How he could sit there and do the final approvals and sent out the confirmation for the gangbang when he knew he was leaving is beyond me.

Later I found he had sent me an e-mail after he left…

On my way back to NYC via train. I just needed to leave…

Thanks for letting me join you this weekend.  Had a blast.

That e-mail sorta sums up his contradictions. He had a great time, but he had to leave without saying anything.

There’s so much I could say about him, but it would all be conjecture. I really don’t feel like I understand him much at all. I know deep down he’s a good guy, but he seems horribly conflicted. I’ve seen his personal Facebook page and in his profile pic he’s this completely normal, happy regular gay guy. But then he likes to get gangbanged, but then he also seems to have issues with getting gangbanged. He seems like he’s got a lot to work out, and I hope for his sake he gets to the bottom of it all.

With everything that had already happened that day I wasn’t really looking forward to the gangbang anyway. I knew Jayson was headed off drinking for the evening so after sending out a cancellation notice on BBRT, I called him up and we went out to the Eagle and then to the Reaction dance party later that night (but that’s another blog post).

And a couple postscripts to this post…

First, when it was done the day was actually a good day. I fisted someone for the first time, and found I really love playing with puppies, and Jayson and I had fun when we went out and a good fuck when we got back. So yeah, there was drama, but the sum total of the day was really good.

Second, the sub bottom texted me later and asked what “my bottom’s” HIV status was. Silly boy. I reiterated what I told him before – that the guy had taken 15 loads so far during the weekend and then later told him the load was “undetectable” but that if he was concerned he should be more careful and tell his limits to his tops. Personally, I think the sub bottom is doing a weird form of bug chasing where he puts himself in situations where he will take poz cum, but he does it in a way which is completely submissive so it’s done to him rather than him actively doing it – which sorta fits with his submissiveness. From my perspective I knew “my bottom” was on meds so there was almost a zero chance the sub bottom would get pozzed.

Load 2009-24

So I was sitting here this afternoon writing up those hookups I just posted and it got me boned. I hadn’t really thought about hooking up today. I jacked off 3 times yesterday and didn’t know if I could even cum today. In fact I had tried to jack off earlier in the day and couldn’t cum. And if you had asked me earlier in the day if I’d be up for hooking up I would have said ‘no’. I was recovering from having 5 rather strong margaritas last night and not particularly horny. But still when I got boned I figured I’d see what was out there.

And what do you know – when I looked in the new member list there was a guy that showed he was 0 miles from me. He had about 20 views of his profile and he was online, so I said ‘hi’ and one thing led to another and he wanted me to come over for a blindfolded hookup. His pics weren’t all that great, but anonymous holes always get me going so I decided to head over.

I delayed it a little ’cause I had just taken part of a pill and wanted it to kick in. Also, my boyfriend had a trick in the bedroom so I couldn’t get in there to change my clothes. I waited and waited but my boyfriend never came out of the bedroom (he spent over 3 hours with the guy). I looked like hell. I’m way overdue for a haircut and look messy. On top of that I had thrown this a t-shirt from Uniqlo that I literally put on ’cause it was Saturday and I didn’t think I needed to look good ’cause I wasn’t going anywhere. And I didn’t have any socks and didn’t have a cockring. But I went anyway ’cause I figured the guy would be blindfold and never see me anyway – so what I looked like really didn’t matter.

He was just a few blocks away. I head over and the door is open and I just push in. It’s an alcove studio and he’s on the bed on all fours with his hole in the air. Sweet. He was naked except for running shoes and a blindfold. For some reason I kick off my shoes but otherwise stay dressed. I pull my dick out and get on my knees and eat out his hole. Nice hole. He just lays there and moans contentedly.

I get him lubed with spit and stand up and start to fuck him, but he wants a little more lube, so I oblige. All I could see is his back ass and legs. I’m not quite sure the best words to describe it, but he just looked like a sweet piece of meat – a great piggy hole.

Curiously, it didn’t take long at all to cum in his ass. It’s weird. I sorta expected problems, but didn’t have any. Since I had taken a pill I stayed hard after I came. I just slowly fucked his hole. He liked it when I’d pull almost completely out and push back in. That felt pretty great as well – it was like he had folds in his ass that would flop one way and then the other and massage my dick in the process.

He liked it when I’d put all my weight on him. I was just thinking it would be a quick pump-and-dump but it was turning into more than that. When we rolled over on our sides and I continued to fuck him I noticed that he had these wonderful hairy runners legs. I also really liked his little hands – they were small but masculine. Given his little hands I was expecting a little dick, but that wasn’t the case at all. He wasn’t hard but it was clear he had this big meaty uncut cock… Beyond that he has this tough piggy look to him. He had a closely clipped head. He was balding, but it worked on him. His face was pot marked from acne, but somehow it was hot on him (like the guy in Connecticut I used to fuck)… All in all he reminded me of the guys from Bareback That Hole – they’re regular guys with plenty of “imperfections” but somehow those imperfections just make them hotter and piggier.

He also wanted me to piss in his ass, but I just couldn’t manage it. And I could tell he wanted me to hang around a bit, and I did for a little while. We kept stopping and he’d give me awesome blowjobs. But finally I had sorta had enough and didn’t want to draw it out to the point where a great hookup became unpleasant, so I ate his well fucked ass a little and then headed out.

Load 2009-21

[I'm really behind on writing things up. I'll try to catch up over the next couple days...]

There’s a guy who has bee hitting me up on Adam4Adam for over a year – probably closer to two years. It was mostly a scheduling thing, but I also just didn’t get a clear vibe off his pics and profile and while I thought he’d probably be a good hole, I wasn’t sure if he was someone who was worth going out of my way for…

Well, we finally hooked up Saturday afternoon and I should have gone out of my way a long time ago…   Initial impressions were that he was attractive, thin, and sorta preppy. We got undressed he had a great body – better than his pics. He got down and sucked my cock briefly, then I bent him over and rimmed his smooth hairless hole. He had the type of hole that looked like it was “experienced” but well maintained, if you know what I mean. He was perfectly clean and it was fun to eat out his hole…

Then he made it clear that he was up for more than just fucking. I forget exactly how he said it, but I remember him mentioning hoods and a few other things. That wasn’t what I was expecting, so I sorta had to scramble a bit. Went over to the chest by the side of the bed where I had my “toys” (the ones that aren’t in storage). He was laying on his belly on the bed and I just pulled things out and put them on him… collar, wrist restraints (locked together with a heavy lock), ankle restraints, a spreader bar between his legs, and a spandex hood over his face.

Even though he was all hooded and bound I wanted to start with just fucking him. I haven’t used my spreader bar in a long time. The thing I like about it is that I can have the bottom’s legs up in position that is easy to manage. I can either hold the bar with one hand or if I lean forward I can control it with my shoulders. Honestly I feel like I’ve become a one trick pony lately in that I always cum with the bottom on his belly. I was surprised how good it felt using the spreader bar. I mean the guy had a great hole, but it was rubbing my dick better than it usually does when the bottom has his legs in the air. I think part of it is that I can control the height of the guy’s hole by controlling his legs.

Anyway, felt good, but finally I flipped him over, legs still spread with the spreader bar, and fucked him. Given that he had a hood on it was pretty impersonal – like he was just a piece of meat. But I like it like that. One thing I have gotten into is fucking a guy from an angle. It feels different and on some guys it feels really great. It wasn’t all that long before I blew my load up his hole.

After I came he told me he wanted to clean off my dick, which is exactly what I had in mind… Then he wanted me to use my finger to get cum out of his ass and feed it to him, but I had been thinking before he got there that my finger nails needed trimming, so I didn’t really want to try that. I felched his hole a bit and then stuck my finger in but gave up quickly – afraid I was going to rip his ass with my fingernail.

So in terms of fucking I was sorta done, but I had a hot guy in restraints ass up on my bed so I couldn’t just stop there. I went over to the toy chest and pulled out a butt plug, spit on it and shoved it up his cummy ass. I then pulled out a small rubber paddle and a small wood paddle and tried them on him. But I could tell by the way he was reacting to them that it wasn’t pleasant for him. I don’t know what made me think he’d like flogging if he didn’t like paddling, but I figured I’d try. I think part of it was just me being insistent. So I got my softest flogger (made of deer skin) and started trying to flog him.

Flogging him was a little tricky given his position on the bed. I was having a hard time with my aim. Then when I figured out the aim part the flogger started sticking to the sweat on my back, so I had to grab my t-shirt and put it back on. Then I was able to get in a groove and did pretty well with landing the flogger where it was supposed to go.

At first he was pretty quiet and didn’t really react one way or the other. Flogging is partly about endurance. The experience changes as time goes on. I kept checking in with him and he seemed to be fine with it. Then there was a point at which I could tell he was more than “fine” with it – he was actually enjoying it. I was hitting him harder and harder with the flogger and if anything his reaction became more and more positive. Finally I was hitting him about as hard as I could with that flogger so I asked him if he wanted to step up to a different flogger that might hurt more. He seemed game for it, so I started light with that one.

As I hit harder and harder he just got more and more into it. At one point he said “I’m afraid to say this, but I’m actually really loving the pain”. That’s just what I wanted to hear. I love inflicting pain (if the bottom likes it as well), so I hit him harder.   That got me sorta hard, so I pulled out the butt plug to fuck him. As I did this squirt of cum flew out of his ass and landed on my fingers. Of course, I licked it off my fingers – couldn’t let it go to waste! But when I went to fuck him I wasn’t really ready to fuck, so I stopped pretty quickly and went back to flogging.

I figured if he liked getting his ass flogged he’d like getting his back flogged. So I removed the spreader bar, took some art off the wall and had him stand up and lean against the wall. But he didn’t really like having his back flogged. Said he was very anally oriented and just wanted his ass flogged, so I put him back on the bed with his ass up on the edge of the bed. It was a pretty sight seeing his puckered fuck hole exposed like that. Later he told me he liked having the butt plug in ’cause every time the flogger it the butt plug would send the force deeper in his hole. But personally I liked seeing his hole winking at me.

I could tell he was really getting into it so I was hitting pretty much as hard as I could and making the sets longer and longer. The harder I hit him and the longer it went on the more he seemed to like it. After a while though I knew that if I kept going I’d stop enjoying it, so I wound it down and laid down beside him. We talked a bit and I could tell he was hungry for more, but I was sorta at my limit, so we talked.

At one point he was telling me how his ex used to fist him all weekend long – to the point that his hole would get sore and he couldn’t take anymore at which point his boyfriend was frustrated and wanted more, so they’d have guys over and sometimes his boyfriend would get fucked  – which is one of the messages I remember getting from him last year – wanting me to come over and fuck both of them… He asked me if I was into fisting and I said I’d never gotten into it ’cause I have really big hands. He didn’t seem to think that would be a problem and said his hole is really good about guiding a top’s fist… So maybe next time I’ll get to fist someone for the first time!

That discussion got me hard and so I lifted up his legs and just started fucking him again. It went on for a little while, but then that also wound down. We talked a little more and then I sorta wrapped things up. I could tell he could have gone on and on, but my bf was out in the living room and it had gone on pretty long (for me).

Oh, and next time I think he’ll be up for me videotaping it. Should be fun!

Load 2009-8

Yesterday afternoon was the perfect moment in my IML experience. While I have issues with how IML is run, it’s moments like this that will get me back here next year.

For starters the guys who were taking over my blackout party wanted to come by to talk to me (NotSoInnocent and BountyHunter from BarebackRT). Then while I was waiting for them a hot black bottom from LA contacts me and wants to come over. While I was chatting with him the straight married lawyer who I played around with last year called me and was in the hotel and wanted to stop by.

First the guys who were doing the party got here. One was in leather the other in street clothes. Nice guys. We chatted a bit and then there was a knock at the door – it was the straight lawyer. He came in and was curious that I had other guys in the room who were potential bottoms… After doing his forceful dominance thing with one of the guys – basically sitting on him like he was a horse or a dog or something, he saw that my gear was out on the desk from the session the day before and he picked through it and started putting a collar on one of the guys. Then he got one of the floggers and started using it on the guy’s ass…

The other guy decided he wanted to get into his leather and come back, so he left. It wasn’t long before the remaining guy was tied up and the lawyer and I were using him. I let the lawyer lead – he has this subtle but persistent energy to him where he forces you firmly but gently to do what he wants.

After a while he had the bottom on the bed pushing the bottom down with his legs as laid back on the bed. I was flogging the backside of the guy’s legs. (BTW, the “bottom” is usually a top.) After a bit I took some rope and some restraints and basically did a loose version of a hog tie with the guy on his belly and his ankles tied to his collar.

Then there was another knock on the door. I was expecting the other guy doing the party to come back, but it was the black guy. I had told him the straight guy was coming over so he asked if he was still there, and I brought him into the room… He’s not big on S/M and just wanted to get fucked. He stripped down and presented his ass to me. I ate out his ass for a while as the straight guy continued to play with the guy who was all tied up.

I started fucked the black guy with him in a doggy position, then I pushed him into the middle of the bed where he was right next to the guy tied up and the straight guy started forcing him down on the bed with his legs. That lasted for a bit but the black guy was a bit nervous and didn’t like being forced down so he pushed himself back up a bit.

The straight guy had already started feeling the scene was changing and I could tell he wasn’t 100% into what was going on. He’s about dominance and control. He seems more interested in the fact that he could fuck you if he wanted to than actually fucking. He’s simply not motivated to fuck at all – it’s all about dominance to him. When the black guy pushed himself back up that was sorta the end of his attention span. Plus the bottom who was tied up was getting to his limit as well.

The straight guy got up, we untied the bottom to the point he could get himself out of the rest of what he had on, and I went back to fucking the black guy. The straight guy then asked if he could take the whip he had left with me the year before – he wanted to go walk around the hotel. I figured that was the last I was going to see of him and the whip, and he left. Then the bottom got himself untied and he left too – wondering why his friend hadn’t come back…

At last the black guy and I were alone, which was a good thing. I can fuck when I’m around other people, but I’m better when I’m 1-on-1… Being watched makes me a bit nervous. He had a bubbly full ass (and a lean body). His ass felt good, but it was a bit of a challenge getting just the right part of my dick rubbed the right way. I was starting to think I wasn’t going to be able to cum when I had him change a bit and I fucked him on his belly with one leg bent – so I was sorta coming at his ass from an angle. That was better, but I still wondered if I could cum. Finally he was almost falling off the bed (supporting himself with his arms touching the floor) and I found the goove and knew I’d get my nut. A couple minutes later he got my 2 day load up his butt.

We talked for a bit and then he was on his way. One of the things he mentioned was that I needed new pics – that my pictures didn’t do me justice. So I pulled out the camera and had him take a few. The first couple didn’t come out very well (see pic to the right – lol) – I was backlit so the initial pics were completely useless. I tried to get the flash to work, but finally gave up and took a picture in a different location in the room.

I then laid down for a bit and thought that was a cool ending to the last afternoon at IML. But then there was a knock on the door – the guy who was hosting the party had come back in leather. I told him I had just come, but if he wanted to play with flogging or something I was up for that. He had never been flogged and was a versatile top, but was willing to give it a try.

I knew I had to be pretty gentle on him since it was his first time. He pulled out a video camera and a blindfold and so we recorded his flogging. Hopefully he’ll put it up on a tube site so I can embed it here.

It was a good session. Couldn’t go all that hard on him, but he took more than he thought he could and actually got off on the pain, which wasn’t something he was expecting. Eventually my wrist was getting tired and he was starting to reach his limit, so we stopped.

All in all, pretty much the perfect IML afternoon…