Load 2010-1

UPDATE: Remembered a few more details, so I changed the post…

A lot as happened since Saturday morning, but I’ll try my best to remember the details. My bottom had taken three loads in pretty rapid succession the night before and we had a gangbang scheduled for 2pm on Saturday with over 100 tops expressing an interest in coming. However, the gangbang of another cumhole the night before was a bit of a dud, so I wasn’t sure how things would go…

I didn’t sleep well that night and got up feeling tired. One of the lessons I learned at IML was to eat properly so you don’t get run down, so I went to breakfast (the bottom said he didn’t want to eat). I had a full breakfast with cold runny eggs, cold french toast, etc. – it was pretty lame, but it got food into my system.

I wanted to videotape me fucking the bottom, so I set up the lights and got the camera ready… For a few reasons my dick just wasn’t into it. It was hot, I was tired, and I think my digesting food didn’t help either. So we took a break. However, I did notice a certain hesitation on the part of the bottom about being videotaped. I couldn’t have been more clear when we were discussing the weekend. I was paying the room charges and finding tops to fuck him in exchange for him letting me videotape him. I was fine with him wearing a hood, but me videotaping him was a given (so I thought)…

The bottom then decided he was hungry so he went for breakfast. While he was downstairs eating there was a knock on the door. I had been giving out the room number and wondered who the guy was here for. He was young and lean and pretty hot so I had him come in. We started playing together and he just wasn’t responding when I touched his ass, so I asked if he had been chatting with a top or a bottom and he said a bottom. Now mind you, I looked nothing like the bottom – I’m not sure why he didn’t say something sooner. So I texted my bottom and told him he had a top waiting for him and then I played the role of cocksucker to keep the guy happy and in the room while the bottom got back. Frankly, I did a lot more cocksucking than I’m usually comfortable with and he said he almost blew his load a few times, but I was purposely just trying to edge him and not let him cum since while I love the taste of cum, I wanted the load up my bottom’s ass, not down my throat.

Finally the bottom got back and it was just in time ’cause the guy was literally ready to blow. The bottom started giving him a blowjob but I told him he was ready to blow so the bottom just bent over the bed and took the guy’s dick and since I had been edging him for 15 minutes or so he blew in the bottom’s ass pretty quickly.

After that another top came by and fucked him and blew in his ass. I was sitting and jacking my dick and seeing him take a load got me boned. So now that he had 2 loads in him I got up and started fucking him. I suggested putting our hoods on and turning on the video camera but he talked me out of him. Later he said he was worried it would interrupt the flow and I accepted the explanation, but now I wonder if it was just avoidance…

So I just kept fucking him. His hole felt good and it was getting me off that he was taking loads… It wasn’t long before I blew my load up his hole. The last time I came had been Thursday, so it was a big load. When the other top had gone the bottom seemed really happy.

Then another top came by a little while later and the bottom took a 4th load – all before the gangbang… So now he was up to 7 loads.

Things have been busy/crazy and I need to write up what’s been going on before I forget…

Friday I was planning on leaving NYC at 9am so I’d get into DC around 1pm, but that didn’t happen. I had worked until 9:45pm the night before getting stuff ready for one of my sponsors. I manage their hosted blogs and they wanted to announce a new tube-style porn blog I’d been working on for them (MilkYourBone.com). Unfortunately they had all this content I had to go through and they got it to me at the last minute so I couldn’t have one of the guys who does work for me take care of it.

Long story short that put me way behind. I should have spent the afternoon getting ready – our cleaning guy moved out of town a few weeks ago, so I had to do laundry on top of everything else… All of it got pushed to the next day – the day I was supposed to leave at 9am. Bottom line I left NYC 5 1/2 hours after I intended to leave. And because I didn’t leave when I  planned traffic wasn’t as good as I had hoped and the trip took a bit longer than expected.

So I got in at 7pm instead of 1pm which sorta fucked things up. I really wanted to videotape me fucking someone that afternoon, but that wasn’t going to happen. I had just enough time to deal with all the e-mails and try to relax a bit before the bottom arrived.

Actually Jayson Park came over for a bit in the middle of all that. We hung out and talked. He was doing a porn shoot for Dick Wadd later that night, so I knew he wasn’t up for really getting fucked – his hole had to stay in good shape so the shoot went well for him. He was looking really hot. It’s like he doesn’t have an ounce of fat on him – and his butt – my god, his butt was so little, perky and fuckable… Anyway, at one point I touched him (’cause I couldn’t keep my hands off him), then we were kissing, then I wanted to rim him, so I pulled down his pants and started eating out his primo hole. Well, hard dick, great ass… Next thing you knew my dick was up his hole. It wasn’t a real fuck though. For starters I knew he had the shoot later and didn’t want to do anything that would mess that up (though I should have used something other than spit). And second, I had this crazy idea that the only loads I’d give this weekend would be ones I videotaped… So I just sorta play fucked him and then pulled out and we went back to hanging out.

He had to run, then there was a bottom from NYC who I’ve been meaning to fuck who was having a gangbang. I went over to his room about an hour after the gangbang was supposed to have started and when I went in he was the only one there. He was head down (blindfolded?) with his ass in the air. There was a sign near the door where tops were supposed to make a mark when they gave him a load. Only one top had made a mark. However, when I went to rim him his hole was totally cummy. In fact it tasted pretty incredible. I didn’t suck his hole ’cause it’s a little rude to take loads out of a cum dump that’s getting gangbanged, but there was plenty of cum on the outside of his ass… I fucked him for a bit and kept pulling out and cleaning off the cum I’d worked out of his ass. Thing was, I just wasn’t ready to cum right then.

At that point I was hard and wondering if there were other holes to fuck, so I walked all the floors in the hotel, but it just wasn’t happening yet. Then I went downstairs and had a beer, but when not much was happening there either I came back up to finish unpacking.

The boy arrived before I was done unpacking. I had just gone out for drinks with him a couple days before – didn’t really know him, though I knew he was a decent guy and got into taking lots of loads. I also sorta suspected that he wasn’t as submissive as I was really looking for and honestly that’s been a bit of an issue this weekend, but more on that later (nothing major – just little things).

Of course bottom boy comes into the room for a weekend of fucking – he wanted my dick and I wanted his hole so we fucked a bit, but like with Jayson, it was just play fucking. I wanted him to get my load when I was videotaping it… After he settled in a bit we went downstairs for a beer. This was actually his first leather event (hadn’t even been to a real leather bar) so he was a bit nervous.

After the beer we decided to go over to a bear event at a bar near by that someone told me had a darkroom. I’m not all that into bears, but I figured I might be able to get my dick in some holes and get a few loads for my boy. We walked over only to find the place was dead, so we left and came back to the hotel. We could have gone to a sex party we knew about but both of us were too tired to bother with a sex party that had a $15 cover and required driving.

By that time the hotel was a bit like a bathhouse. I put a blue hanky on the door knob and left it ajar and guys started looking in and then a few came in. The first two seemed like a couple. They were pretty hot, and the top was pretty aggressive. He wanted to fuck with a condom but I said I didn’t have any (there were actually the two from the registration bag – but they were in the trash by that point). The aggressive top kept trying to force my head down to suck his dick, but I don’t suck dick by force, so that wasn’t happening. However, I fucked the bottom raw with the two of them watching and they were into it, but didn’t want to do it themselves.

They left and then this top came in. Older guy with a nice dick. He wanted to fuck with a condom too, but had brought his own. My bottom indicated it was OK (he just wanted to get fucked), so I let the top fuck him. The fucking brought other guys into the room who wanted to watch, etc. Eventually the safe sex top wasn’t cumming and the condom was hurting the bottom so we had him stop. He left pretty quickly then I figured I’d show the others what the bottom really wanted and started fucking him raw. When I pulled out one of them took my place.

At that point things started getting hot and heavy. Guys would come in and out of the room, tops were fucking the bottom. At one point there was a 10 or 15 minute stretch where three guys blew their loads in the bottom in rapid succession. It was like a breeding frenzy – very hot…

Then this hot tattooed bottom I’d been chatting up online comes into the room and this whole group of guys sorta followed him in. He was the hot piece of meat that everyone wanted to fuck (including me). I felt up his ass and it was cummy, so I shoved my dick in, but I just fucked him for a bit and then passed him off to another top. The problem was the energy in the room changed and it was sorta out of control (in a bad way), so I closed the door so other guys couldn’t get in, and then was sorta happy when the hot piece of meat decided to leave and everyone followed him out.

UPDATE: The “hot piece of meat” mentioned the encounter on his blog:

I found out that a couple of rooms further down the hallway from my room there was a bb gangbang going on (open door, blue hanky on the door knot), organized by rawTOP (u know who I am talking about). We have been chatting online and exchanged phone numbers because I am just SO turned on by his blog, his videos and his stories. But for some reason he does not seem too much into me or not very eager to fuck my cunt and breed me because it takes him FOREVER to get back to me via text or mail (if he gets back to me at all). But I decided to check that little party out. There was one bottom being fucked by rawTOP and some tops around him waiting for their turn. As I entered the room I realised there were some guys following me – NICE! I bend over the bed and rawTOP was the first one who fucked my ass for some minutes (FINALLY!!) before he handed me over to some other fucker (at this time I did not really care who fucked my so I can’t tell what the guys looked like). After sometime I felt a little akward because I had the feeling I was crashing a party I was not really meant to be at: All the fuckers turned towards my ass and I felt uncomfortable. I LOVE cum up my ass but it did not feel right to steal all the fuckers from that other bottom and fuck up rawTOPs gangbang. So I decided to leave.

[For the record: I'm totally into the guy and would love to give him a proper fuck some time! (And videotape it too!)]

At that point we were both pretty tired and decided to go to bed. The bottom had gotten 3 loads in him pretty quickly, and I had gotten my dick in 4 holes, so it was a decent start to the weekend.

As we went to bed I cuddled with the bottom a bit, but he seemed really distant. I was having a really hard time reading him and days later as I write this I still don’t think I really understand him – just understand bits and pieces of him poorly… Looking back I’d say there are times when he seems to build a bit of an emotional protective wall between him and the other person. He doesn’t seem to mind it when the person uses him sexually, but he doesn’t give much of anything other than his body to the person. So as I was cuddling him, he didn’t respond, but didn’t complain either. It’s been a long time since I’ve cuddled with a bottom and gotten zero response. It was a bit odd…

Load 2009-29

The other day I wasn’t really feeling like I was in the mood to hookup, but I was sorta horny and figured I could cum if I tried. I didn’t really want to have someone come over only to have it not go well, so when my Italian daddy fuck buddy e-mailed me I figured he’d be perfect. After all he made a huge shitty mess of my bathroom last time, so he owes me…

I e-mail back and as usual, he’s at my place a half hour later. He’s so eager and dependable – there’s something to be said for that… I take him to the bedroom, we take off our clothes (I leave my shirt on), and he starts sucking my dick. Thing was the blowjob just wasn’t doing it for me, so I had him get on all fours on the bed and I ate him out. Rimming his ass wasn’t really what I was in the mood for either, but it got me harder than the blowjob…

As soon as I was hard enough to fuck I lubed up my dick and shoved in. He was really just there so I could dump my load and I came a few minutes later. I felt just a little guilty it was such a quick fuck, so we laid there and I felt his furry muscular pecs while he jacked off. It took him no time to cum.

We talked a little bit – mostly while he was putting on his clothes. The poor guy has been unemployed for over a year. Frankly, this is the age of the Internet – there’s no excuse for not working in some manner – sell something on eBay, start a blog – do something… Still he’s a generation older than me and not as Internet savvy as I am…

He was out the door about 15 minutes after he got there… But he’s perfectly happy being a pump-and-dump hole for me, and I’m glad he likes it – ’cause that’s my mood sometimes.

Load 2009-26

So a while back I fucked a submissive piss bottom – even videotaped my fucking him a couple times. Anyway, he’s neg and wants to stay neg, but at the same time he’s a submissive bottom who generally lets the tops call the shots. It’s a bit of a Catch-22 – if he’s a good sub bottom he’ll let the tops use him how they want and won’t even ask if they’re poz or neg – but he wants to stay neg. It’s like the two sides of him are in conflict. Anyway, he didn’t like some of the things I said in my write ups in the past and got a bit mad at me. So for the longest time he’d be friendly online, but wouldn’t actually hookup with me.

The other day we’re chatting and he’s telling me how he promised himself not to let me fuck him again. I could tell part of him wanted it, so I tried to reason with him. It took forever to get him to see my point, but finally I said – “sub bottoms are supposed to be more trusting. there were no permanent scars – that’s about all you should be worried about.” And it’s true – nothing bad happened. Finally he let down his guard and he was at my place a half hour later.

He asked if I wanted him to wear anything in particular, I didn’t really care. When he got here he literally reeked of dried piss. I mean there are homeless people who smell better. He headed into the bedroom and started taking off his clothes and I started thinking – there’s no fucking way he’s going to make my bed smell like that. So I had him go into the bathroom. I needed to piss anyway…

So he got naked and got into the tub and I pissed on him. It wasn’t easy – had a bit of a boner and my PA means I piss out of two holes so I don’t have much force when I piss. But he still got soaked half way decently. He was rubbing my piss all over him and the piss got him rock hard.

I’ve always seen him as a bit of a piece of meat – just something to piss on and load up with cum. So I had him get out of the tub and bend over the toilet and I just started fucking his hole. I usually cum with the bottom on his belly, but with all the craziness in my life lately it had been over a month since I’d fucked anyone. The bottom line was I was horny and had no problem getting hard or cumming (zero need for pills).

When I came it went on and on and on… It was like it just wouldn’t stop. He got a HUGE load of cum. When I pulled out he turned around and cleaned off my dick. He was feeling his hole a bit and could tell he got a big load.

At that point I was sorta done with him. He smelled too much to keep him around the apartment much longer, so I had him dress and leave. Total thing was maybe a little over 10 minutes – pretty much a pump-and-dump.

I immediately went and opened all the windows trying to get the smell of stale piss out of the apartment. Even so I smelled it for a few hours afterwards – and he hadn’t even really touched anything… Amazing.

I walked the dogs about 30-40 minutes later and saw him coming from the park near me. He had gone there hoping for more loads, but said he didn’t get any…  Let’s see – taking anonymous loads in parks and wanting to stay neg – yeah, the guy is conflicted, but that angst is part of what makes him interesting…

Another neg, “safe sex only” bottom is on his way over to get fucked raw… Gotta say they’re fun to breed…

Back when Obama was running there were people who just couldn’t stand the thought of him getting elected – Obama gave them the willies. Back then I wondered out loud if racism wasn’t the reason for that type of opposition and a few of you slammed me for saying it. Well, it appears I wasn’t far from the mark and racism is at the root of “teabagger” movement that’s going on right now. It’s white people who can’t stand the idea that their President is black. We’re talking law and order, respect the commander and chief types who show nothing but contempt for their commander and chief. I’m not saying all teabaggers are racists, I’m saying that a good percentage of the most fervent teabaggers are indeed racists. The funny part is these people don’t like being called racists, yet there are almost no Blacks or Hispanics among them.

Take a look at this clip from Fox News – they go on and on about the race issue. They try to excuse it by saying “the majority of the US is white and middle and working class”, but the fact of the matter is the teabaggers are not representative of Americans…

So why is this relevant in the context of this blog? It’s because it’s all about bigotry and the same bigots who don’t like Obama ’cause he’s black (actually mixed race) don’t like you and me because we’re gay. George W. Bush won both elections because gay marriage was an issue in the campaign and the same haters who you see out at these protests are the same ones who got riled up back then. It’s not just about race, it’s about hatred and bigotry in general.

Those of you who are gay and support the teabaggers – please think twice. What comes around goes around and the hate you’re feeding on can come back and bite you or someone you care about in the form of gay bashing or employment discrimination.

The message here is all forms of hate and intolerance are wrong. (Intolerance of intolerance is a double negative and not the same as other forms of intolerance.) There is no room for intolerance in a civilized, multicultural society. If it doesn’t stop with us (a minority group), who is going to stop with? The sooner a live and let live attitude spreads the sooner people will stop being upset by us fucking in bars or sex clubs… The problem is the teabagger movement shows that’s a long way off. Many of those people aren’t going to change their minds, but their kids and grandkids might…

Honestly, when I see stuff like this I just wish New England and New York could split off from the rest of the country and form our own nation… We’ll even take Quebec!

But as they say, success is the best revenge. I’ll just keep my head down, work hard, live a comfortable life, fuck who I want how I want, and thank god I live in a generally sane place like NYC…

UPDATE…

Wow, I write the post above and then it comes out a few hours later that President Carter feels the same way. He’s saying it with the experience of someone who cut his teeth in Southern politics during huge race wars. There aren’t too many other people with his level of credibility and experience who can speak on this issue. Listen to this clip – his words are worth hearing…

I think an overwhelming portion of the intensely demonstrated animosity toward President Barack Obama is based on the fact that he is a black man, that he’s African American. I live in the South, and I’ve seen the South come a long way, and I’ve seen the rest of the country that shared the South’s attitude toward minority groups at that time, particularly African Americans. And that racism inclination still exists. . . . It’s an abominable circumstance, and it grieves me and concerns me very deeply.

It’s just sad our country is going backwards like this, but in thinking about it – we’ve had some rough times in our country – we’ll get past this…

Load 2009-14

Thursdays are weird for me sexually. I work on porn that day pretty much exclusively and by the end of the day I’m completely boned. Problem is, I work so hard I’m usually completely wiped by the end of the day. There’s a small window in there where I could keep my energy going long enough to fuck, but then I crash and I’m useless. That was pretty much how it was yesterday so when a bottom suggested hooking up in the morning I thought it was a great idea, but Fridays are when we have our cleaning guy in, so the hookup had to be done by 9am. That was fine with this guy, so we said he’d come by at 8. I told him I’d login early, but if I wasn’t online to call or text me. He called that evening just to make sure I was serious – so I sorta knew he was serious too…

Anyway, I wound up going to bed late (1:30) and was woken up to the sound of a phone going off at 7am. I missed the call, but then he texted, and I responded to the text saying I was up for it and the next text from him was that he was getting on the train and would call or text me when he got to my station. He was pretty dedicated since he didn’t even have my address.

I didn’t know where he was coming from so didn’t know if I had time to take a pill, so I skipped it thinking I would be plenty hard given how horny I was the day before (and I hadn’t jacked off since then). In cases like today I’m fine without a pill – just not quite as rock hard or as thick.

He called when he got out of the subway, I told him how to get to my building and a few minutes later he was here. He hadn’t unlocked his pics the last time we had spoken and honestly I didn’t know what he would look like – he was dressed for work, so pretty professionally – all in all he was more than fine for a hookup without face pics. He asked to use the bathroom and took a while so I laid on the bed and started jacking my dick. By the time he came out I was hard and he was naked. But that sorta cut short any foreplay or tenderness. He just went right to sucking my dick.

He was a good cocksucker – no teeth and felt good, but I’m not big on blowjobs so pretty quickly I grabbed the Gun Oil and had my dick up his ass. His ass felt great. Not sure if it was the lube (hadn’t used Gun Oil in a while) or his hole, but it was nice and silky… But doggy position (like we were doing) it wasn’t tight enough or rubbing the right spots well enough for me to cum, so after a little fucking I had him get on his belly which is how I’ve been coming lately…

He was pretty verbal, but not too verbal, which was fine – I tend to be pretty quiet when I’m fucking. I did fuck him for a little while – it wasn’t quite a pump and dump, but honestly I did cum pretty quickly – so it was almost a pump and dump. The funny part was he asked me if I had fucked Dawson almost immediately after I came in his ass – told him yes, but it was years ago now… We laid there for a moment after I gave him my load, but then later he was up and getting dressed in the bathroom…

When the guy had gone my boyfriend asked if something had gone wrong since the hookup was so quick. He had been here maybe 20 minutes, if that – so it was a pretty quick hookup.