I’ll keep this short, ’cause there’s not much to tell… This skinny black guy on Adam4Adam wanted to hookup today. He was attractive and definitely my body type. Said he wanted to get pissed on, which was fine with me.

So he comes over and he’s really hesitant, so I take the lead and rim his ass, then he gives me a blowjob. But when I go to lube up my dick and fuck him, he scoots away from my dick and tells me he doesn’t get fucked raw.

Now my Adam4Adam profile is really clear that I’m looking to bareback. I tell him as much and he says “I thought I was clear in my message”. “No, you weren’t clear. Trust me, if you had said anything like that I wouldn’t have had you come over.” He asked if I wanted him to leave and I said yes…

So he left.

I had taken a part of a pill, so now I’m all hard with no one to fuck.

Well, I’m back to being horny and wanting to hookup. Started last night, but I had other things to do last night, so tonight I was looking, but for some reason there weren’t a lot of options (I even looked on Manhunt). Finally this Brazilian guy from Adam4Adam who lived just over the Bridge in New Jersey said he’d come over… He didn’t have a fave pic in his profile, but asked for my e-mail address and said he’d send one. Thing was, I didn’t get it even though he said he had sent it.

He called and then came over. When he arrived I knew there was going to be a problem. Let’d just say he was short and Latin, but I wasn’t into him. His profile said he ws 38. I’d add about 10 years to that and he wasn’t aging all that well… I had him come in, showed him into the bedroom. We took off our clothes then I realized he was a smoker (who wanted to kiss)…

After a while, he sucked my dick a bit, but I wasn’t responding. I hadn’t taken a pill or anything ’cause I didn’t think I needed to ’cause I was pretty horny. But this guy just wasn’t doing anything for me. I figured I’d try to eat his ass to see if that would help. I went down only to find it didn’t smell all that clean. I sorta played at rimming, not wanting to get too serious if his hole was dirty…

I put a fair amount of spit on his hole, stood up and tried to fuck him. He said to go slow, but I just wasn’t getting in… So we went back to other stuff like him sucking my dick. Then we tried again and again I just wasn’t getting in. I wasn’t totally hard, but I was hard enough. So I fingered his hole and found he was incredibly tight. I think he was clenching, but who knows… Then as I was fingering him I felt shit up there…

That was the end of it. I said I didn’t think it was going to work and went into the bathroom to clean the lube off my dick. The had no intention of getting fucked. He didn’t clean out and he was clenching. And on top of that he didn’t do anything for me…

Hopefully I’ll find some decent ass tomorrow to make up for it…  ;)   At least I wasn’t the one who had to pay the bridge toll…

Load 2008-56

Sometimes sex just doesn’t go the way you want… Yesterday I had to go downtown to do a follow up visit for that study I’m participating in… I figured I’d get a hair cut and fuck someone before the study appointment.

The haircut went well - it was with a guy I’ve been wanting to have cut my hair, though he hummed off key most of the time - even when the radio station they had playing in the barber shop had a commerical with no music. Nice guy though, and a good haircut.

I had arranged to hookup with this guy before I went down, so I swung by his place. I knew he wasn’t totally my type, but his pics looked interesting - had sort of a Brawny man look to him in his pics. Well, I show up and it’s the same guy, but he doesn’t look like that any more - it was like he was a shadow of who he used to be… It was sorta sad to see…

The apartment was small and a mess. The small part is no problem, but it was dirty, with shit strewed all over the place. It was a beautiful day out and he had the windows closed and the shades drawn. 2 of the 3 drawers on his dresser were open and looked like they didn’t get closed much. This wasn’t a case of “I’ve been working really hard and the cleaning person is coming in tomorrow” - it was just dirty…

He mentioned two other guys had just left, but it hadn’t gone well with them. I probably should have left, but I figured I’d give it a little time and see how it went. I knew he was pretty oral and as soon as I had my dick out he was down on his knees sucking it. While he wasn’t careful enough with his teeth, he had great deep throat abilities. I could get my dick nice and deep and keep it there - he had no gag reflex and he was able to breathe through his nose.

I had limited time and just wanted to blow my load and leave. I reached for his ass and he stood up and bent over in a way that I had access to his hole, but then he squatted down again. The second time I reached for his hole he did the same thing, but then I broke off the oral and made it clear I wanted to fuck.

We lubed him up a bit and he got on all fours on the bed. I pushed in and he had a bit of a hard time taking my dick - said the other two guys hadn’t fucked him. I finally got in, but he kept pulling away from me. I really didn’t have much time, so I pushed him forward onto his belly and fucked him that way so he couldn’t pull off my dick.

As I was fucking him I was thinking about how he was just a hole to me - nothing more. It didn’t take long for me to be able to cum, and given the time and the fact that he wasn’t my favorite guy to fuck, I came as soon as I could, pulled out pretty quickly and left.

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This bottom contacted me this weekend and really wanted to hookup with me. He had contacted me 18 months ago when I posted a Craigslist ad. Back then he really wanted to hookup as well, but didn’t want to take my load. So I filed him away in the “not ready” folder. Then he contacts me about 6 months later - still interested, but it doesn’t happen. Then he contacts me again this past January, and then this weekend. This guy knew what I was about and really wanted to hookup with me…

So tonight he asks if I can travel to Flatiron area, I check with my bf and head over. If you know Manhattan you know getting from Washington Heights to Flatiron takes a good 45 minutes, possibly more. I hurry as much as I can since he’s “staying late at work” to hookup with me.

That’s the other thing I forgot to mention - the guy has a boyfriend and the boyfriend thinks he’s hard at work (on the weekends, late at night, etc.)… When actually the guy has a private office and has people in to have sex…

Anyway, I get outside the building and my cell phone doesn’t have a signal for some reason and I have to call up to find out where he is in the building. Finally I get through and go up. He’s got this somewhat cute, but cramped corner office which is very private.

I unzip and put on one of those soft rubber cockrings. He seems to think it’s weird that I’m not taking off all my clothes, but getting my boots off is just too much trouble…

He’s described himself all sorts of different ways over the years, “Asian”, “Asian/Spanish”, but he looks like a Pacific Islander - nice beefy body - muscular with a bit of beef to him… Not a bad guy to hookup with…

So he gets on his knees and starts sucking me off. I’m nice and hard thanks to the cock ring and having taken a couple pills before leaving. He seemed to just want to suck, but I wanted to move it on to fucking, so I convinced him to let me rim him.

I bend him over a table and start eating out his ass. Nice ass - and he started really getting into it. He actually sorta leaned back into me, which makes it a little difficult for me since I need to come up for air to breathe. So I balance his weight with my hand so I’m able to pull my head away for air…

Things were looking good so far… Mind you he’s jacking his dick the entire time. I’m so hard I don’t even need to touch myself.

I get up, put some spit on his hole and some on my dick and shove in. He had told me it was a while since he’d been fucked and he seemed really tight. I can’t really get in the first or second try, but the third try I get in and just hold him there so he can get used to my dick.

But then the fucker cums and pulls off my dick. After the history with him not wanting to take my load I knew exactly what he had just done. It’s titillating for him to think about getting fucked raw and taking loads, but still, after 18 months, he’s not ready to do it. UGH…

I used his cum to lube up my dick, and tried really hard to convince him to let me fuck him. He asked if I’d fuck him with a condom. “No.” Then, after cleaning his cum off my dick with a paper towel, he got down on his knees and started blowing be again. He didn’t get that I wasn’t going to give him an oral load. I’ve come with blow jobs less than a handful of times in my life and one of those I was paid… I wasn’t going to do it with him after a bait-and-switch.

I’m pissed. I pull up my pants and leave. I should have said something pretty rough to him. If anything guys like that make me want to reveal their identities… But I’m a good guy and don’t (though there are plenty of clues in the description above)…

So then I start wondering who I could text to get a quick hookup. I try a cumhole I’ve been wanting to hookup with for a while, but he’s not available. I try another guy who I’m not sure who he is, but it’s a non-working number. Finally I settle on the guy I fucked the other day - the one who wanted to get an oral load… He had been hitting me up since then for another round. I knew he wanted an oral load, but would take it up the ass.

I get to his place and like before he drops to his knees in the hallway, just inside the door. The guy is an excellent cocksucker. At first I was worried I wasn’t going to get hard enough, but in no time he was choking on my dick. It was fun - I’d go from thrusting into the back of his throat, to holding him on me seeing how long he could take my dick down his throat…

The pig just loves to suck cock and he’s one of the best cocksuckers I’ve had in a while. It went on forever and at one point he said something about trying to get me to cum down his throat. What was so not going to happen - especially not after the first guy.

Eventually I start telling him I want to fuck him and feeling up his ass. It takes a while, but he gets the message. After sticking it in his ass in the hall briefly we move to the bed where he gets on all fours and I push him down on his stomach.

Besides being a good cocksucker the guy is super skinny - like emaciated. I sorta like guys like that, so it didn’t take me long to cum (especially not after the good blow job). The orgasm was sorta weird. I felt it coming, and felt like I was “leaking”, but it didn’t come, didn’t come, and finally sorta came. Then when I finally stopped it really came. Whatever - he got his ass flooded…

I then spent a few minutes slowly pumping in and out of his cummy hole. Felt really good… Then I turned him on his side and held him (in case he wanted to cum)…

It’s weird with him - in some ways he’s my type, in other ways he’s not. When he wanted to kiss (more than a peck on the lips), I tried to make it clear I didn’t want to. When he persisted, I said I had to go…

I washed off my dick, put on my pants and boots, and left…

At least the evening wasn’t a total wash out…

Load 2008-17

You know know how when you have a 3way sometimes one person feels left out, like the other two are more into each other than they are into the 3rd person? Well, I had one of those situations tonight and I was the odd man out. Thing is the bottom wasn’t into another guy, he was into his crappy video camera.

The bottom was someone who had first contacted me years ago. He moved back to the city a little while ago, but he was living in Queens so it wasn’t easy to hookup. I had been meaning to fuck him, so tonight I decided to drive out there ($3.50 toll each way).

I get there and he takes a while to answer the bell. Then when I get up to his apartment he tells me he fell asleep and he still needs to get ready for me. He seemed like a nice guy, he set me up with some porn on the TV, and went into his room for a bit and then into the bathroom to clean out.

In the middle of it he comes out, gives me a bit of a blow job, and asks if I mind if he shoots some video of it. Given the video I shot the other day, I was game. But his video camera wasn’t nearly as good as ours and had to be plugged in to both his laptop and power to work. Whatever… He goes away and finishes cleaning up.

Then he comes out and asks me if I mind if he does a booty bump. I have zero interest in drugs but for some reason I was like “whatever”. Then he had me actually give him the booty bump. That was a first for me (and a last).

So then he’s trying to set up the video camera and it’s not going well. I’ve been sitting there for like 30 minutes jacking off to porn and just want to fuck, but he’s obsessed about getting the video camera set up. It goes on and on… And video cameras do best when there’s plenty of light (and minimal shadows), but he wanted to turn most of the lights off. That meant the picture quality was really low.

After rimming a bit, we finally I start fucking him. Given that I’ve been jacking for so long I feel like I’m going to cum after like two strokes. I pull out and I actually cum a little on is hole, but it wasn’t a full load (I hadn’t cum in 4 days), so I’m hoping to myself that that won’t mess things up when I actually want to cum. The little bit I came did make for good lube.

We fuck a bit more - finding a position that works for both of us plus the video camera was pretty difficult. The whole time he’s completely obsessed with the video camera despite the fact that the video that’s being captured is clearly pretty aweful. I keep suggesting we just forget the video camera and just fuck, but he just keeps futzing with the camera…

Finally I put the camera down, get him on his belly and just fuck him. I really didn’t give a shit about the camera at this point and just wanted to unload. It didn’t take all that long before I felt it coming. I could tell I was shooting a nice big load up his butt.

We pull out and he futzes with the camera a little more. I see a big ‘ol dildo on the couch that he had brought out. Put a little elbow grease on it and start trying to shove it up his ass. He manages to take it (mentions it’s not his biggest one). While we’re playing with the dildo he mentioned that it cost him $150 - that going to The Leatherman while your high can be expensive, but it was his favorite dildo so it wasn’t a complete loss…

While we’re playing with the dildo he’s having a problem keeping my load in, so he wanted to videotape it pouring out. We set things up and he squats and starts pushing the load out. The video was crappy, but still hot because just when I thought it was over, he’d push more out - it went on and on… The cum was mixed in with a bit of lube, but still - it really was a huge load…

We play a little more, then I went to take a piss and afterwards say I need to leave (it had been an hour and a half since I had arrived, which is pretty long for me). I ask him to e-mail me a copy of the video of the cum coming out of his ass (he’s forgotten we actually captured it), he asks for my e-mail and I tell him. He recognizes the e-mail address and says - “You have that web site, right?” I say, “yeah, that’s me”… So there’s a good chance he’s going to read this. I doubt he’ll like what he reads, but all I can say is quit the drugs - you’ll be a much better fuck…

Last night I was down in Chelsea with some time to kill. So I got on the web (via my cell phone) and saw a listing on Craigslist by a guy who had literally begged me to fuck him previously…

Me: “Where are you located?” (since his ad just said “downtown”)

Him: “im in chelsea teens/7th ave you and your stats”

Me: “39, 6′, 230, 8″, white. we’ve corresponded before-check past emails for my pics. I’m close and can stop by in a little bit if you want…”"

Him: “hey dont see an old email from you but im HOT and HORNY you wanna CUM over or send me a DICK pic… do you know what I look like?”

Me: “What’s you address - I’ll be there in a few minutes… and yeah, I know what you look like you sent me a lot of emails trying to get me to fuck you… ;)”

Him (again): “hey im ready where r u CUM and Get it”

Me: “16 & 7 what’s your address?“

Him: “Kewl its 6pm now what time,I will send you my addy”

Me: “Not asking a third time… I WAS looking for NOW. the games are really tiring…”

I give up, sign out of mail and send a text message to a guy who gave me his cell number and told me to call him whenever I was looking to fuck, but he texts back that he’s off to a Project Runway party (which I didn’t really understand until I got home and my boyfriend was watching the first show of the new season - great crop of designers BTW).

So I check my e-mail one more time and he had finally sent me his address… I send a message back saying I’ll be there in a bit.

I arrive and it’s a ‘modest’ apartment (nothing particularly wrong with that- some cumholes live in real dives) . In the pic he had sent me he had really short hair, but now it was really long. We played around a bit, he sucked my cock. I wanted to rim him and he cleaned off the lube he had put on his hole. The whole time he’s trying to talk dirty and a lot of what he’s saying is focused on the fact that he’s black and I’m white. I can definitely get into the whole racial thing, but the way he was going about it wasn’t really doing it for me.

Then I went to fuck him… We’re both standing - he’s bent over a desk. Thing is his legs are longer than mine and my dick comes to a point about 2 inches below his hole. I can get in his hole, but not comfortably and I’m not in the mood to stand on my tip toes to fuck him (been there, done that - no fun…) I ask him to lower his ass, he doesn’t get it. I then push down (pretty hard) on his lower back and he stays right where he is. I move him around to the couch thinking that might be better. No luck. I have him lay on his stomach and he manages to lay in a way that’s awkward for me.

I’m so over the hookup and my dick is almost too soft to fuck. Then he says (still talking dirty) “You like your hard dick in a black hole, don’t you?” I’m thinking - Guy, can’t you notice I’m soft? What’s the talk about my hard dick? It’s not hard!

At that point I give up. I say “it’s not working for me”, pull up my pants, put on my jacket, grab my bag and leave…

For someone who I think (based on his Craigslist postings) gets fucked a lot - he’s a really bad bottom…