Load 2009-21

[I'm really behind on writing things up. I'll try to catch up over the next couple days...]

There’s a guy who has bee hitting me up on Adam4Adam for over a year – probably closer to two years. It was mostly a scheduling thing, but I also just didn’t get a clear vibe off his pics and profile and while I thought he’d probably be a good hole, I wasn’t sure if he was someone who was worth going out of my way for…

Well, we finally hooked up Saturday afternoon and I should have gone out of my way a long time ago…   Initial impressions were that he was attractive, thin, and sorta preppy. We got undressed he had a great body – better than his pics. He got down and sucked my cock briefly, then I bent him over and rimmed his smooth hairless hole. He had the type of hole that looked like it was “experienced” but well maintained, if you know what I mean. He was perfectly clean and it was fun to eat out his hole…

Then he made it clear that he was up for more than just fucking. I forget exactly how he said it, but I remember him mentioning hoods and a few other things. That wasn’t what I was expecting, so I sorta had to scramble a bit. Went over to the chest by the side of the bed where I had my “toys” (the ones that aren’t in storage). He was laying on his belly on the bed and I just pulled things out and put them on him… collar, wrist restraints (locked together with a heavy lock), ankle restraints, a spreader bar between his legs, and a spandex hood over his face.

Even though he was all hooded and bound I wanted to start with just fucking him. I haven’t used my spreader bar in a long time. The thing I like about it is that I can have the bottom’s legs up in position that is easy to manage. I can either hold the bar with one hand or if I lean forward I can control it with my shoulders. Honestly I feel like I’ve become a one trick pony lately in that I always cum with the bottom on his belly. I was surprised how good it felt using the spreader bar. I mean the guy had a great hole, but it was rubbing my dick better than it usually does when the bottom has his legs in the air. I think part of it is that I can control the height of the guy’s hole by controlling his legs.

Anyway, felt good, but finally I flipped him over, legs still spread with the spreader bar, and fucked him. Given that he had a hood on it was pretty impersonal – like he was just a piece of meat. But I like it like that. One thing I have gotten into is fucking a guy from an angle. It feels different and on some guys it feels really great. It wasn’t all that long before I blew my load up his hole.

After I came he told me he wanted to clean off my dick, which is exactly what I had in mind… Then he wanted me to use my finger to get cum out of his ass and feed it to him, but I had been thinking before he got there that my finger nails needed trimming, so I didn’t really want to try that. I felched his hole a bit and then stuck my finger in but gave up quickly – afraid I was going to rip his ass with my fingernail.

So in terms of fucking I was sorta done, but I had a hot guy in restraints ass up on my bed so I couldn’t just stop there. I went over to the toy chest and pulled out a butt plug, spit on it and shoved it up his cummy ass. I then pulled out a small rubber paddle and a small wood paddle and tried them on him. But I could tell by the way he was reacting to them that it wasn’t pleasant for him. I don’t know what made me think he’d like flogging if he didn’t like paddling, but I figured I’d try. I think part of it was just me being insistent. So I got my softest flogger (made of deer skin) and started trying to flog him.

Flogging him was a little tricky given his position on the bed. I was having a hard time with my aim. Then when I figured out the aim part the flogger started sticking to the sweat on my back, so I had to grab my t-shirt and put it back on. Then I was able to get in a groove and did pretty well with landing the flogger where it was supposed to go.

At first he was pretty quiet and didn’t really react one way or the other. Flogging is partly about endurance. The experience changes as time goes on. I kept checking in with him and he seemed to be fine with it. Then there was a point at which I could tell he was more than “fine” with it – he was actually enjoying it. I was hitting him harder and harder with the flogger and if anything his reaction became more and more positive. Finally I was hitting him about as hard as I could with that flogger so I asked him if he wanted to step up to a different flogger that might hurt more. He seemed game for it, so I started light with that one.

As I hit harder and harder he just got more and more into it. At one point he said “I’m afraid to say this, but I’m actually really loving the pain”. That’s just what I wanted to hear. I love inflicting pain (if the bottom likes it as well), so I hit him harder.   That got me sorta hard, so I pulled out the butt plug to fuck him. As I did this squirt of cum flew out of his ass and landed on my fingers. Of course, I licked it off my fingers – couldn’t let it go to waste! But when I went to fuck him I wasn’t really ready to fuck, so I stopped pretty quickly and went back to flogging.

I figured if he liked getting his ass flogged he’d like getting his back flogged. So I removed the spreader bar, took some art off the wall and had him stand up and lean against the wall. But he didn’t really like having his back flogged. Said he was very anally oriented and just wanted his ass flogged, so I put him back on the bed with his ass up on the edge of the bed. It was a pretty sight seeing his puckered fuck hole exposed like that. Later he told me he liked having the butt plug in ’cause every time the flogger it the butt plug would send the force deeper in his hole. But personally I liked seeing his hole winking at me.

I could tell he was really getting into it so I was hitting pretty much as hard as I could and making the sets longer and longer. The harder I hit him and the longer it went on the more he seemed to like it. After a while though I knew that if I kept going I’d stop enjoying it, so I wound it down and laid down beside him. We talked a bit and I could tell he was hungry for more, but I was sorta at my limit, so we talked.

At one point he was telling me how his ex used to fist him all weekend long – to the point that his hole would get sore and he couldn’t take anymore at which point his boyfriend was frustrated and wanted more, so they’d have guys over and sometimes his boyfriend would get fucked  – which is one of the messages I remember getting from him last year – wanting me to come over and fuck both of them… He asked me if I was into fisting and I said I’d never gotten into it ’cause I have really big hands. He didn’t seem to think that would be a problem and said his hole is really good about guiding a top’s fist… So maybe next time I’ll get to fist someone for the first time!

That discussion got me hard and so I lifted up his legs and just started fucking him again. It went on for a little while, but then that also wound down. We talked a little more and then I sorta wrapped things up. I could tell he could have gone on and on, but my bf was out in the living room and it had gone on pretty long (for me).

Oh, and next time I think he’ll be up for me videotaping it. Should be fun!

Load 2009-8

Yesterday afternoon was the perfect moment in my IML experience. While I have issues with how IML is run, it’s moments like this that will get me back here next year.

For starters the guys who were taking over my blackout party wanted to come by to talk to me (NotSoInnocent and BountyHunter from BarebackRT). Then while I was waiting for them a hot black bottom from LA contacts me and wants to come over. While I was chatting with him the straight married lawyer who I played around with last year called me and was in the hotel and wanted to stop by.

First the guys who were doing the party got here. One was in leather the other in street clothes. Nice guys. We chatted a bit and then there was a knock at the door – it was the straight lawyer. He came in and was curious that I had other guys in the room who were potential bottoms… After doing his forceful dominance thing with one of the guys – basically sitting on him like he was a horse or a dog or something, he saw that my gear was out on the desk from the session the day before and he picked through it and started putting a collar on one of the guys. Then he got one of the floggers and started using it on the guy’s ass…

The other guy decided he wanted to get into his leather and come back, so he left. It wasn’t long before the remaining guy was tied up and the lawyer and I were using him. I let the lawyer lead – he has this subtle but persistent energy to him where he forces you firmly but gently to do what he wants.

After a while he had the bottom on the bed pushing the bottom down with his legs as laid back on the bed. I was flogging the backside of the guy’s legs. (BTW, the “bottom” is usually a top.) After a bit I took some rope and some restraints and basically did a loose version of a hog tie with the guy on his belly and his ankles tied to his collar.

Then there was another knock on the door. I was expecting the other guy doing the party to come back, but it was the black guy. I had told him the straight guy was coming over so he asked if he was still there, and I brought him into the room… He’s not big on S/M and just wanted to get fucked. He stripped down and presented his ass to me. I ate out his ass for a while as the straight guy continued to play with the guy who was all tied up.

I started fucked the black guy with him in a doggy position, then I pushed him into the middle of the bed where he was right next to the guy tied up and the straight guy started forcing him down on the bed with his legs. That lasted for a bit but the black guy was a bit nervous and didn’t like being forced down so he pushed himself back up a bit.

The straight guy had already started feeling the scene was changing and I could tell he wasn’t 100% into what was going on. He’s about dominance and control. He seems more interested in the fact that he could fuck you if he wanted to than actually fucking. He’s simply not motivated to fuck at all – it’s all about dominance to him. When the black guy pushed himself back up that was sorta the end of his attention span. Plus the bottom who was tied up was getting to his limit as well.

The straight guy got up, we untied the bottom to the point he could get himself out of the rest of what he had on, and I went back to fucking the black guy. The straight guy then asked if he could take the whip he had left with me the year before – he wanted to go walk around the hotel. I figured that was the last I was going to see of him and the whip, and he left. Then the bottom got himself untied and he left too – wondering why his friend hadn’t come back…

At last the black guy and I were alone, which was a good thing. I can fuck when I’m around other people, but I’m better when I’m 1-on-1… Being watched makes me a bit nervous. He had a bubbly full ass (and a lean body). His ass felt good, but it was a bit of a challenge getting just the right part of my dick rubbed the right way. I was starting to think I wasn’t going to be able to cum when I had him change a bit and I fucked him on his belly with one leg bent – so I was sorta coming at his ass from an angle. That was better, but I still wondered if I could cum. Finally he was almost falling off the bed (supporting himself with his arms touching the floor) and I found the goove and knew I’d get my nut. A couple minutes later he got my 2 day load up his butt.

We talked for a bit and then he was on his way. One of the things he mentioned was that I needed new pics – that my pictures didn’t do me justice. So I pulled out the camera and had him take a few. The first couple didn’t come out very well (see pic to the right – lol) – I was backlit so the initial pics were completely useless. I tried to get the flash to work, but finally gave up and took a picture in a different location in the room.

I then laid down for a bit and thought that was a cool ending to the last afternoon at IML. But then there was a knock on the door – the guy who was hosting the party had come back in leather. I told him I had just come, but if he wanted to play with flogging or something I was up for that. He had never been flogged and was a versatile top, but was willing to give it a try.

I knew I had to be pretty gentle on him since it was his first time. He pulled out a video camera and a blindfold and so we recorded his flogging. Hopefully he’ll put it up on a tube site so I can embed it here.

It was a good session. Couldn’t go all that hard on him, but he took more than he thought he could and actually got off on the pain, which wasn’t something he was expecting. Eventually my wrist was getting tired and he was starting to reach his limit, so we stopped.

All in all, pretty much the perfect IML afternoon…

I’ve been bugging my boyfriend to buy a better video camera. Actually we’ve been wanting a better still camera (the 21 megapixel Cannon EOS 5D Mk2), but I convinced him it would make more sense to buy a better video camera since we can make money shooting porn with the video camera, where a new still camera can’t really make us more money. (Of course, it’ll be a while before we actually see a return off the porn and we’ll have to put money up to may models in the meantime, but…) Anyway, I had picked out one I thought would be good and while it was more expensive than the still camera it wasn’t completely crazy expensive. Finally he came around, and decided right before I left for IML that we should get a camera. I spent a day trying to figure out which camera was really best and chose a different one than I had initially though. When I had him review it he wanted the professional version of the camera which was even more expensive. Long story short, we got the video camera he wanted, so we’re on our way to being able to shoot HD porn…

We literally got the camera the night before I left for IML. I spent the plane flight reading the manual and I was hoping I could videotape a few people while I was at IML. But since I hadn’t made any plans, that was easier said than done. However, one guy did say he was up for it, so I had him over. He said he was up for more than fucking and when I told him I was into stuff like flogging, he seemed fine with it.

He arrives and while he wasn’t like his pics (he was bigger and beefier) he was still pretty hot – like a big piece of man meat. He had this big grin on his face which just wouldn’t go away. Since I was videotaping it, I figured I’d do a variety of things and start with stripping him down, restraining him a bit, and having him walk down the hall to get some ice. So there he is lumbering down the hall in a jockstrap and boots with his wrist bound together and it strikes me – OH SHIT – my wallet with the key card is in the room. I’ve just locked us out of the room! There was nothing I could do about it right at that moment, so I wait to tell him until we’re almost all the way back to the room. HotBttmTO had the room next door and we had exchanged key cards, so I knock on his door hoping he’s in, but he’s not. There was nothing I could do at that point except leave the bottom in the hallway and run down to the front desk. Luckily we were on a pretty private side hallway, so it wasn’t much of a spectacle.

At the front desk they tell me they’ll send security up to unlock the door since I didn’t have photo ID on me. When I get up to the room HotBttmTO had just arrived and he let me in (thank god – didn’t really want to deal with security on that one). Luckily the bottom was still all smiles and while that was a hiccup, nothing bad happened.

We get into the room and I hood the bottom and put him against the wall to flog him. We had talked briefly about limits and he said his limit was “no extreme pain”. He had also mentioned that he was a regional title holder for Mr. Drummer some years back, so I figured he had the same definition that I did for “extreme pain”.

I start flogging him (had to use the two floggers I had bought the previous day). Started with the soft thuddy moose one, and then worked up to the cowhide one that’s sorta a low to moderate pain flogger (depending on how you use it). His back was getting nice and red, but he started having problems taking it. A few times he indicated that he was about at his pain limit. I hadn’t even broken out the wire flogger/whip I had used on the bottom last year. That’s painful, but even that’s not quite “extreme pain”. Clearly this guy had a different definition of “extreme pain” than I did.

Since he had pretty much had his limit, I wound that down and put him on the bed. Now I should mention he had a 000 gauge ring in his dick (a Prince Albert). That’s absolutely huge. A 00 gauge ring is the thickest gauge that will fit in my urethra – so he was bigger than that. In addition, he had a big thick copper cockring on – the type that goes down and pushes on your perineum. His dick was all shriveled, which I discovered is his reaction to any type of hitting (flogging, cock and ball whip, etc.)

I play with his body a bit and then his hole and I’m hard so I shove my pierced dick up his hole (I had the curved barbell in my PA). I’m not usually all that into big beefy types, but his hole felt good. He had lubed up and it was all wet and slick. After a little fucking I noticed he wasn’t totally clean, but it wasn’t so bad that I was going to stop. But as I fucked him more it became more of an issue, so I stopped.

I figured I’d videotape him douching. He was still hooded, so I led him into the bathroom, got him situated in the tub and used the shower shot on him. Thing was, I could tell I was putting more water up there than was coming out, so after a while it sorta seemed counter productive.

We went back to the bed and fucked a little more, but like I expected it was now an even sloppier mess up there. My dick goes soft when shit is an issue and all of that sorta put my dick out of commission and stopped the fucking. [And for thoe of you who are critics - no that doesn't make me a bad top.]

So since I had this big beefy guy tied up on the bed I figured I’d have some fun with him and started playing with his dick and balls. My goal was to edge him and see how much he could take. So I licked his balls and his dick. Didn’t suck his dick – just licked it. He definitely responded and got totally hard. I licked and licked and licked. Looking at the time code on the video I think it went on for about 20 minutes. He was in agony ’cause he wanted to cum, but couldn’t. I gave him permission to cum, but he really needed to be sucked not licked to cum, but what was cool to me about videotaping it was the size of his PA. I tried very briefly to put it in my mouth, but that just wasn’t going to work and I had zero interest in giving him a regular blowjob.

Finally I just gave up getting him to cum and we wound down the scene. When I took off the hood he was in a very different mood than when I had put the hood on. He wasn’t smiling, he was withdrawn and was difficult to read. I kept pushing him to talk and explain what was going on, but he was just shut down. The more I pushed the worse things got. He did mention something about being upset about not being able to cum.

He did show me photo ID and I took a photo of it, but he was reluctant to sign the model release. He took a copy with him “to look at it”. He also said he was a cop and people didn’t know he was into fetish. So frankly I don’t think he’ll ever get it back to me. Lesson learned – have them sign before you start. The weird part was he said it was OK when he started…

After he left I sent him a message. I realized I may have pushed him past his limits and there could have been a point at which the scene started going bad for him. If that was the case, I apologized. He wrote back saying I didn’t do anything wrong. I have two theories of what happened… First, he felt like he failed – between not being able to cum and having a dirty ass maybe he felt like he disappointed me. Second, it’s possible he was high and the drugs wore off. It was such a huge change in mood I sorta suspect that was the case. Or maybe I did do something wrong and he’s just being polite… Who knows? It’s too bad it ended that way though…