Monday night I was feeling horny, but wasn’t sure whethe I could cum or not. It had been a really hard few days (work is kicking my ass the last few weeks). I wanted to release some sexual tension and preferred to do it by fucking. But since I wasn’t sure how things would go I figured I’d fuck the sub daddy bottom I fuck from time to time. So I sent him and e-mail and he said he’d come right over. I had had seen him advertising on Craigslist and told him if he had gotten any loads in him he should leave them there unless it would mean he wouldn’t be clean. He said he’d gotten three so far during the day from three different married guys and that he’d leave them up there.

When he got here I just sat back on the couch and let him service me orally. He wasn’t all that careful with his teeth so I told him to be careful. All in all he was trying a little too hard - going too fast. But whatever… It got me hard, so I put him on his belly on a towel on the floor and fucked him.

He felt fine, but I was wiped and it was catching up to me. I gave him a decent fuck, but just couldn’t cum. So we took a break and he sucked my dick some more. It felt better when I was squatting on the floor ’cause it changed the angle he was sucking me from, but being on the floor wasn’t comfortable.

We changed it up, I sat on the couch, then fucked him a little more, but it just wasn’t happening. So after a while I said I wasn’t going to be able to cum, and we wrapped things up and he left…

Believe it or not, it’s been over two weeks since I fucked anyone. Somehow my efforts to find someone the last few days haven’t gone very well. There was the young guy in Inwood who kept asking if I was neg and never giving his address. Then there was the guy this morning who had great stats, but didn’t have any pics. I told him I wanted him to come here, he said he’d be right over, but never showed up. Then there were guys who wanted to hookup later…

On top of everything else my bf and I had another fight about me hooking up this morning. I hate those fights - really getting tired of them. He’s under incredible stress, so in the end I understand its not about me, but still I really, really hate them…

Anyway, this evening the skinny tattooed guy who lives not far from me wanted to hookup. I went over to his place. I really like this guy’s body - he’s short, super skinny - literally not an ounce of fat on him, has these great tattoos… The chemistry with him was a little awkward tonight - not sure why… I sorta forget if it was awkard last time or not.

Anyway, long story short, I had been hard pretty easily yesterday and today so didn’t think I needed a pill, but I guess I should have taken one. I was hard, but not not consistently hard. When I had him legs up I just didn’t feel much of anything, so I fucked him on his belly a bunch and nearly came twice, but just never came…

We fucked for a while on and off. And it was fun. At one point I wasn’t all that hard and he told me he was sorta sore ’cause he had gone to a halloween party last night and had gotten fucked by three guys. That got me totally hard. Then he told me he’s been fantasizing about getting gangbanged and he planned on buying a sling in a month or so and seeing if he could set up a gangbang. The idea of him getting gangbanged got me totally hard. There’s something about gangbang bottoms that just gets me going…

The other thing was he had “partied” last night and had crystal dick - his dick and balls were completely shriveled up, but I like that… On top of his skinny body it just made him seem like more of a bottom. I wondered if his PNPing didn’t contribute to the weird chemistry - who knows…

Anyway, after several rounds of rimming and fucking we just cuddled, and then I left… I satisfied my need to fuck, but tomorrow I need to take a pill and actually cum in someone’s ass… 

I’ll keep this short, ’cause there’s not much to tell… This skinny black guy on Adam4Adam wanted to hookup today. He was attractive and definitely my body type. Said he wanted to get pissed on, which was fine with me.

So he comes over and he’s really hesitant, so I take the lead and rim his ass, then he gives me a blowjob. But when I go to lube up my dick and fuck him, he scoots away from my dick and tells me he doesn’t get fucked raw.

Now my Adam4Adam profile is really clear that I’m looking to bareback. I tell him as much and he says “I thought I was clear in my message”. “No, you weren’t clear. Trust me, if you had said anything like that I wouldn’t have had you come over.” He asked if I wanted him to leave and I said yes…

So he left.

I had taken a part of a pill, so now I’m all hard with no one to fuck.

So I was determined to make the most of tonight since I had some time to myself. This guy had made plans to come over like a week ago or so, but when I logged onto BarebackRT he had just logged off. So I looked around to see who else was available. This other Mexican guy who I’d been talking to for a while was available, so he said he’d come over, but he wanted to stop off and find some poppers.

Then the first guy got back to me and wanted to come over, so I was upfront and told him I double booked - could he come a little later. He was fine with it, so I had two set up for tonight… There were other guys who were interested, some pretty cute (including a 19 y.o. and a early 20s guy who wanted me to practically rape him), but I just logged off…

The Mexican guy called a few times ’cause he had a little trouble finding the hotel, but a little over an hour later he was at my door. He really was pretty hot. Sorta a young version of a man - very masculine and pretty reserved, though he stripped down pretty quickly.

As we started playing he wasn’t too keen on sucking my dick, but he liked getting his sucked (it wasn’t very big which is probably why he’s a bottom). He didn’t like to kiss, but he liked looking at me and “making a connection”. He was sorta a mass of contradictions

His hole was really nice - I rimmed it for a while and I could tell it has been fucked a fair amount and could take dick pretty easy. After getting it nice and wet I stood up, spit on my dick a bit and shoved in. He really could take it pretty well, and we fucked like that for a bit, but when I flipped him over he had a problem with taking it and wanted lube (that’s twice in a row that’s happened - weird).

So, long story short, we kept changing positions. It felt best when he was on his belly, but he didn’t seem to like that. He didn’t arch his back, so when he was on all fours or bent over the bed I couldn’t get in as well as I wanted to. And so I fucked him on his back (missionary position), and fucked him like that for a while, and I got close, but it just wasn’t rubbing my dick quite right, so I got tired before I was able to cum. When I slowed down he took it as I wasn’t going to cum, and he came himself (he’d been jacking his dick).

Once he had cum, I scooped up his cum and put it on my dick for lube, but he didn’t want to get fucked any more, so I stopped. We laid there for a few minutes and then he wanted to go. Apparently he only had an hour of parking…

All in all the chemistry was a little weird. Not exactly sure why. From how things went I think he thought it was my fault, and I’d probably say it was a bit his fault… He didn’t quite seem like he was totally into it and he didn’t seem hungry for my cum. But he was still a pretty good fuck…

So now the next guy will be here in about a half hour. Not sure if I’m going to post that right away or wait… I’ll need to pay for another day of Internet access to post it tonight, we’ll see… But at least I have another guy to fuck since I didn’t cum with this one…

I was sorta horny, sorta not today, but when this black guy with a hot body contacted me and he wasn’t that far away, I figured what the hell… His profile said “Neg, Safe Sex Only” and then repeated something about “safe fun” in his profile. That’s usually a warning sign to me that something’s going to go wrong, but he was hot, close by and easy to hookup with, so I asked if he was OK with bareback and when he responded with his address and phone number, I just went with it…

I took part of a pill, cleaned up and got ready, and walked over. It was a long walk, but it was perfect weather, so it was nice… When I got there he really was pretty hot. A perfect body, really dark skin that was a complete contrast to my pale skin, and he had very masculine qualities combined with pretty bottomy/sub/fem qualities and I sorta liked the weird mixture of it all…

We got naked and I was damp with perspiration - not sure if it was from walking over, the temperature of the apartment, or the pill making me flush and warm. He gave me this incredible blowjob and spent a lot of time on his knees servicing my dick and balls. He was definitely pretty submissive. But one thing I’ve noticed is that guys who don’t want to take loads in their ass try to make up for it with oral sex. I was starting to wonder…

We took a quick break and he ran into the living room and rummaged around and came back with some stuff. He apologized and said he didn’t have lube - would Vasiline be OK? Needless to say, it was fine with me - in fact things were sorta looking up at that point. He blew me some more and then lubed up his ass with Vaseline, but before he sat on my dick he pulled out a condom and opened it up. I think he saw the look in my face and said “you don’t like condoms?” I said “no” (of course) and he just tossed it aside and resumed sitting on my dick.

We fucked with him riding me, then with him on his back (half off the mattress he had on the floor), but he kept checking my balls when I was fucking him. I knew exactly what he was doing - he was checking to see when my balls pulled up so he could get me out of him before I blew my load. Thing was it was sorta the wrong position for me, so I wasn’t close to cumming.

When I pulled out there was a little smell and some shit on my dick (what is it with bottoms not getting clean these days?) So we took a break and I went into the bathroom to clean off my dick. Thing was he didn’t seem to have any soap and if you’ve ever tried to clean a dick with Vaseline with no soap you’ll know it’s not easy, but I got it as clean as I could.

He asked me how he could get me to cum and I said I didn’t know. He gave me another blowjob while I was standing up, then had me lay down and continued on. The blowjob went on for a while and his oral skills were really pretty good. Thing was I wasn’t completely hard ’cause I was realizing there was a good chance I wasn’t going to get my load in his ass. But he seemed completely content to suck on my dick and balls even if I wasn’t totally hard. And he was really cute down there

Then we laid down next to each other, and one thing led to another and soon I had him with his legs over his head and my raw dick back up his ass. At first he was jacking off furiously, then he relaxed and just let me fuck him.

I really wanted him on his belly, so I flipped him over and continued fucking him. This is when it felt the best and I really felt I could cum. But he kept acting like it was hurting him and wanted me to slow down. I could sorta tell he was just trying to avoid getting my cum in his ass. I tried my hardest to cum without going too fast, but the fact of the matter was I needed to just pound him for a little while to cum, but he wasn’t letting it get to that point.

Then he suggested we change positions and he rode my dick again (with his back toward me). He jacked off riding my dick until he came and then left my dick up his butt while he came down from his orgasm.

He seemed totally into me, and wants to hookup again. I’m up for it just ’cause he’s hot and I want to see if I can get my cum in that hot ass of his before he realizes I’m cumming and pulls off my dick. It feels like it’s a game - he’s playing me by seeing how much he can give me without actually getting my cum in his ass (and not actually telling me to not cum in him), and I’m playing him seeing if I can cum quickly and quietly before he realizes it…

Yesterday morning I was horny, my bf was out, and there was this Dominican guy, mid-20s, who wanted to come over and get fucked hard, so I had him over… I knew from his pics he was cute but a little “soft”, which was fine with me… His age, cuteness, submissiveness and the fact that he was Latino more than made up for the fact that he wasn’t skinny…

When he showed up he was pretty much just like his pics, I showed him into the bedroom, we stripped and got right down to business without anything meaningful being said. He started by giving me a blowjob, but I wasn’t really responding all that well to that - I had him turn around and started eating out his ass.

As usual that got me hard enough to fuck, so after I got his hole pretty wet with spit, I spit a little on the head of my dick, stood up and shoved in. He had told me that he hadn’t gotten fucked in like a month and he had a problem taking it with no real lube. I told him to just take it - that he had told me not to be gentle…

Eventually he got used to my dick, but by that time I was starting to lose it a little. I fucked him a little bit, but just couldn’t stay all that hard. I pulled out and he whipped around and cleaned off my dick with a blowjob. That part turned me on, but didn’t help me get hard again, so I went back to rimming. Suprisingly rimming wasn’t working for me either, so started fingering his ass…

Long story short (since there’s not much to tell). I got hard a few more times and fucked him as hard as I could. One time I got hard for a pretty long time, gave him a good fuck (finally), but just couldn’t cum. With that fuck he jacked off a little and came on the towel I had under him.

So he got what he wanted (though not quite as intense as he probably wanted), but I didn’t cum.

[BTW, he was the first guy in a long time to ask me if I was actually neg. Lots of guys say they're neg in their profiles, and just take what I say in my profile as truth (or don't care).]

The weird part was I was plenty hard before he came, and afterwards I nearly came watching a video of a twink get double fucked, and then just couldn’t hold back when I watched a video of this Latino twink orgy with cum literally pouring out of the bottom’s ass - so I came all over myself with that one. It was sorta disappointing - I wanted the load up his ass, not on my chest.

Now I’m just not really in the mood to fuck for some reason - and there’s another top in town visiting that I’d like to tag a bottom with - been blowing him off, ’cause I’m just not in the mood. Hopefully that will change today…