UPDATE: It’s now a month or so after the gangbang. The bottom got an HIV test and he’s negative. That means chances are he really is negative and what happened at the gangbang was of no consequence. Just reminder - this is all hearsay - it could be the guy who said he was poz wasn’t poz at all, but just playing some sort of weird game. Or it could be the bottom was lucky that night… Who knows.
Just a reminder: I have no clue which parts of this story are the closest to the truth. It’s three sides to a story and the truth is in there somewhere. Or it could just have been a matter of different people having different perceptions of the situation…
So the gangbang a couple weeks ago where I got the video of me fucking the guy with my PA… Well, it’s gotten even more interesting… Turns out the bottom took a poz load that night despite the fact that the organizing top had promised him to screen the tops and only have neg tops fucking him…
First I noticed the bottom had changed his HIV status on Manhunt from “Negative” to “Don’t Know”. I asked why and he said…
well a) since i figured thats a more accurate representation and b) since i found out that one of the guys who bred me at the gang bang is poz and lied about his status to get in
Needless to say that peeked my interest, so I inquired further, asking the organizing top what happened…
it was a guy that I had been talking to for over a week… about loading guys, etc. I originally asked his status and he said he was unsure. Told me that for weeks.
So we continued talking afterward and then it came out that he was actually poz. To our knowledge, he is not on meds (according to him) and he wouldn’t give us info on his viral load. So not sure. He claims that he told us he was poz, but he didn’t.
Then the bottom told me more…
his name is *** on here [Manhunt]. he was the second load i took.
honestly, although most of the time i was doing it in very controlled situations (but not always), i have been bbing for such a long time that it is of course possible that i’ve taken poz loads before and not known it. however, this guy’s attitude was so appalling. he lied to get in to the gangbang and he was completely unapologetic about his blatant decision to knowingly do that to me. he is an unhappy, bitter person. that affected and upsets me more than the fact that he was poz.
Notice how he doesn’t say the guy told him he didn’t know his status… Curious. Personally, I view “don’t know” as riskier than “poz” since at least with poz you can ask their viral load…
In another email the bottom said
of course i realize the risks of taking loads. still, thinking about that guy, about how he would just blatantly lie like that and not care at all about the consequences…and how he could be so young and so bitter… that type of thing just makes me sad.
It sounds like he’s pretty mad at the poz guy, right? Well, that’s where it gets a bit more complicated…
I knew the poz guy - he’d been hitting me up to fuck him and I just hadn’t found the time. So I shot an e-mail off to him asking about it and mention the bottom seems pissed. He says…
he and i have spoken extensively on the topic. he wants to hang out again but hes not sure when. he doesnt seem THAT angry to me.
Who knows if that’s true or not… It is suspect given that the whole thing started with him not being fully open about his HIV status…
Then the bottom tells me…
yeah, i’d like to try to stay neg. i’ve managed to take loads for years without turning poz…we’ll see what happens at my next test. i know that part of that is luck, but part of it is screening and seeing if i trust the person (which i can’t do if i’m letting someone else set up a gang bang). of course on rare occasions i’ve also done things like take random loads from guys at the park or in nasty vid stores, etc, which clearly has virtually no control or screening.
one of the ways i dealt with the stress of finding out about all of that was to sexualize it. i’ve never been into the “bug chaser” scene at all. but my friend *** [his "master"] helped spur me on to jo-ing about getting fucked by that guy. he was actually one of the hotter fucks of the night - he was fun and mean and had a good cock.
So his master has him jacking off to the idea of taking a poz load… He did the same thing with obese guys - had the bottom get fucked by a really obese guy and then told the bottom he was only allowed to jack off while thinking about getting fucked by that guy. That resulted in the bottom getting turned on by the idea of being used by fat guys, now he’s going to start getting turned on by the idea of taking poz loads.
Now also think about how rough the bottom was fucked that night… I fucked him with the PA and he was hurting from that. The top before me had a huge dick and fucked him really rough. It goes without saying that the poz load got worked in there really well. It’s two weeks later and the bottom feels fine (no “fuck flu”), but who knows…
Since he’s jacking off to the memory of taking a poz load, and he’s thinking of meeting up with the guy again (if you believe the poz guy) - I think the bottom is at a big turning point in his life.
