OMG… I had a blast last night. I don’t think I’ve ever been that drunk in my life. It’s 10am and I still feel a bit drunk…

I had to go down to Callen-Lorde to get some blood drawn (a very hot, young, Middle Eastern bear did the blood draw). So since I was downtown I figured I’d go out drinking. I had brought a bunch of happy hour drink tokens with me that I had from before – 3 for Gym Bar and one for Boxers. Since Gym Bar was right around the corner from Callen Lorde, I started there.

While I was waiting for my boyfriend to arrive I was checking out this hot Asian guy. He was there with his boyfriend, so presumably not available, but he was fun to look at nonetheless.

When my bf got there we were trying to figure out what we were doing for the rest of the evening. My bf and I texted friends to see if they wanted to come out but no one was available. I sorta felt like just drinking a shitload of beer and getting drunk. I texted PortaUrinal to see what he was up for since I really didn’t feel like wasting my piss. He was stuck at work so unfortunately I finally had to just give in and take a whiz in the bathroom.

3 pints of Stella later we left and headed over to Boxers. I was twittering and saw SmithSeeks tweet that he’d be up for meeting and having a beer. I had no clue who he was – his Twitter avatar is just a jockstrap – but I figured, what the hell, so I told him to come over. Then when I was starting pint number 5 PortaUrinal said he was done with work and on his way over (thank god).

PortaUrinal got there first and I took him into the bathroom immediately ’cause I had to unload. I had given him a load of piss at IML a year ago but honestly didn’t remember what he looked like since he just came into a dark hotel room, got on his knees, drank my piss and left. Last time my piss was the worst he’d ever tasted (which is saying quite a bit given that he’s a dedicated piss pig), but this time I’d had enough beer that he said it tasted great. It’s weird though, when you’ve got your dick in someone’s mouth it’s hard to tell exactly how much your pissing…

Then SmithSeeks showed up. Considering I hadn’t seen a pic I really lucked out – he was this HOT, lean, tall black guy. And the best part was he got along really well with my bf – he seemed as much into him as he was into me (we’re such different types people are usually just into one or the other of us). Right after SmithSeeks got there I had to take another leak, so I found PortaUrinal and took care of business.

PortaUrinal started by sorta hanging back and just always being available. When SmithSeeks needed to take a piss he took care of him, etc. but as the night wore on it seemed like I was using going down into the basement with him over and over again, and eventually he just joined in our conversation and then would follow people to the bathroom whenever they needed to relieve themselves. He didn’t want it to end – he was getting load after load of tasty piss, so after a while he started buying beers for us to keep us at the bar and pissing down his throat.

SmithSeeks was a lot of fun too. We made out a bit and I kept feeling up his body while we sat in the smoking area and chatted. His body felt incredible (and not just because I was drunk). He liked me enough to tweet “Not a bottom, but would def think about it for @rawTOP”. I just hope if he ever gets in the mood to take dick that he gives me a shout…   Oh yeah – he’s got a nice dick too. Sucked on it a bit in the bathroom at one point.

When it was all said and done PortaUrinal got 14 loads of piss – it was a good night for him. I completely lost count of how much beer I had – I’m guessing around 8 pints. The only thing I had to eat was this little pizza that my bf and I split at Boxers, so I wound up completely wasted. But it was a fun evening..

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So a while back I fucked a submissive piss bottom – even videotaped my fucking him a couple times. Anyway, he’s neg and wants to stay neg, but at the same time he’s a submissive bottom who generally lets the tops call the shots. It’s a bit of a Catch-22 – if he’s a good sub bottom he’ll let the tops use him how they want and won’t even ask if they’re poz or neg – but he wants to stay neg. It’s like the two sides of him are in conflict. Anyway, he didn’t like some of the things I said in my write ups in the past and got a bit mad at me. So for the longest time he’d be friendly online, but wouldn’t actually hookup with me.

The other day we’re chatting and he’s telling me how he promised himself not to let me fuck him again. I could tell part of him wanted it, so I tried to reason with him. It took forever to get him to see my point, but finally I said – “sub bottoms are supposed to be more trusting. there were no permanent scars – that’s about all you should be worried about.” And it’s true – nothing bad happened. Finally he let down his guard and he was at my place a half hour later.

He asked if I wanted him to wear anything in particular, I didn’t really care. When he got here he literally reeked of dried piss. I mean there are homeless people who smell better. He headed into the bedroom and started taking off his clothes and I started thinking – there’s no fucking way he’s going to make my bed smell like that. So I had him go into the bathroom. I needed to piss anyway…

So he got naked and got into the tub and I pissed on him. It wasn’t easy – had a bit of a boner and my PA means I piss out of two holes so I don’t have much force when I piss. But he still got soaked half way decently. He was rubbing my piss all over him and the piss got him rock hard.

I’ve always seen him as a bit of a piece of meat – just something to piss on and load up with cum. So I had him get out of the tub and bend over the toilet and I just started fucking his hole. I usually cum with the bottom on his belly, but with all the craziness in my life lately it had been over a month since I’d fucked anyone. The bottom line was I was horny and had no problem getting hard or cumming (zero need for pills).

When I came it went on and on and on… It was like it just wouldn’t stop. He got a HUGE load of cum. When I pulled out he turned around and cleaned off my dick. He was feeling his hole a bit and could tell he got a big load.

At that point I was sorta done with him. He smelled too much to keep him around the apartment much longer, so I had him dress and leave. Total thing was maybe a little over 10 minutes – pretty much a pump-and-dump.

I immediately went and opened all the windows trying to get the smell of stale piss out of the apartment. Even so I smelled it for a few hours afterwards – and he hadn’t even really touched anything… Amazing.

I walked the dogs about 30-40 minutes later and saw him coming from the park near me. He had gone there hoping for more loads, but said he didn’t get any…  Let’s see – taking anonymous loads in parks and wanting to stay neg – yeah, the guy is conflicted, but that angst is part of what makes him interesting…

Another neg, “safe sex only” bottom is on his way over to get fucked raw… Gotta say they’re fun to breed…

A couple guys had given me their phone numbers and told me to call if I needed someone to drink piss. After going to bed at 9:30, I woke up at 2am and needed to piss, so I figured I’d call one of the guys. Unfortunately, I sorta forgot that the guy I called had said he liked watery beer piss. I had had 2 beers that night, but it was hours before. Actually it was 1 1/2 beers – I finished the second beer when I woke up.

Anyway, I texted the guy and he was over in about 5 minutes (you gotta love IML – urinals on call…) He arrived and asked if I wanted to use his portable urinal (a small plastic urinal with a hose that he had in his backpack), or have him drink it direct. I opted for having him drink straight from the tap.

He got on his knees, put my dick in his mouth and I started pissing. After the first mouthful he started gagging. I stopped and he told me that was possibly the worst piss he’d ever had. Mind you, he had had 12 loads of piss in the last 8 hours – he’s an expert piss drinker, so that’s quite a statement. Long story short, he did push through it and drank every drop of piss I had (and I had a lot to give), but it was really really hard for him.

In thinking about it afterwards, it was like the perfect storm of piss…

• Since I had just woken up after sleeping a few hours, it was a bit like first piss of the morning, which is always stronger. The beers I had had were hours before.
• I had taken “a pill” earlier that evening and that stuff tastes awful.
• I had come across my blood pressure meds earlier that evening and taken one of those. From experience I know when the coating gets off the pill the taste is almost unbearable.
• And ditto on finding and taking a multi-vitamin, which he said makes for bad tasting piss as well.

I feel SO sorry for the guy. He was such a good trooper to put up with my piss at that moment. He did it and he thanked me for it afterwards (with a text message). But honestly I’m once again reminded that being a piss top really isn’t as easy as you’d think…

So a couple of days ago PissGargler on BarebackRT hit me up saying he was in town and wanted to get a load of my piss. I really love playing with piss bottoms – to me it’s hot when a bottom is willing to drink my piss or get soaked in it and wear it around as it starts to go ripe and stink…

I had a meeting at 7:30, so I told him I’d meet him downtown and he could drink my piss at a bar. I figured I could fill up a glass and have him drink it, so I told him to meet me at Rawhide.

About an hour before I left to go downtown I got an e-mail from the Korean guy I’ve fucked a couple times saying he had the day off and wanted to hookup. He’s totally my type so I figured I could swing by his place for a quickie and then go to Rawhide since he’s not far from there.

Now, you gotta realize – I work at home and take frequent bathroom breaks. I’m really not used to holding it. When I feel like I want to take a piss, I normally just do. Intentionally holding it is something new for me – and it’s more difficult than you’d think.

I left a little early, went downtown, called the Korean guy when I got out of the subway, but it went to voicemail. I left a message, but didn’t hear back from him. Then a text comes in from Johnny Miles saying the little tattooed Latin guy I’ve fucked) says ‘hi’ (he used his name. I’m wondering how in the hell he knows the guy – I find out the next day they ran into each other on the street, went back to the guy’s place and fucked… I texted him that I want to film fucking the guy and he texted back that we could set that up… By this time I had gotten to Rawhide where I ordered a Stella since PissGargler wanted to drink beer piss. I kept feeling like I needed to piss, but just waited. At least now I was next to a bathroom if I finally just couldn’t wait any longer…

Since I was early I had downed two pints and was starting my 3rd by the time he showed up. He wasn’t particularly like his pictures, but still sorta cute in an older smooth cub sorta way… We talked and then when the bartender had his back turned I went into the bathroom and he followed.

I didn’t feel all that guilty about it since it’s not like we’re having sex… He got on his knees and I put my dick in his mouth and tried to piss. The thing is, after holding it for so long it was hard to piss… It sorta just dribbled out. What was cool was he’d get a little in his mouth and then pull my dick out and get soaked in my piss. Suddenly I realized why he was wearing the shirt he was wearing – it was a really dark blue shirt that doesn’t change color when it’s wet… So he tasted/drank about 10-20% of my piss and the rest just soaked his shirt… It was really hot.

We went back out and I had another pint. Why I had a 4th pint when I needed to go to a meeting afterwards, I don’t know, but the bartender was nice and it was on the house. I had to run to the meeting, so had to drink the beer pretty fast, but then I had to piss again. I wasn’t all that comfortable with the possibility of getting in trouble for having two people in the bathroom, so offered to fill up a glass for him, but he said that was boring… So I just went to have a regular piss.

I started pissing into the toilet and had a really strong stream going when all of a sudden he came in and dropped to his knees… So of course I turned and started pissing in his mouth and on him… It was a lot more piss than the first time and pretty hot.

When I was done I really had to run to the meeting, so I just left before he was out – didn’t really have a chance to say goodbye… The funny part is the meeting I was going to was in a church and here I was arriving drunk. Luckily, I had the date wrong – the meeting is next Wednesday, so I didn’t make an ass of myself.

But since I was downtown I figured I’d have some more fun. I called my bf and asked if he wanted to come down and join me, and then I took a crosstown bus to meet up with him at The Ritz in Hell’s Kitchen.

I really had to piss while I was on the bus, so when I got off I was hurrying as much as I could. I was a block away and passing the Paramount hotel and figured I’d stop there to take a piss in the lobby bathroom. I start taking a leak, one guy comes in and goes into the stall, another guy comes in and stands at the urinal next to me. Thing is, he’s not pissing – he’s just jacking his dick. He’s getting all hard and I’m completely soft ’cause I’m drunk but he tells me he likes my foreskin. I’m actually cut, but they left some so a few guys think I’m uncut. He asks if I have a room and then suggests we go to a video booth somewhere.

We go to the corner but the video booth he wanted to go to is closed, so we go down a block to another one. But long story short they’re monitoring really closely and don’t want the two of us in the same room and he doesn’t want to suck dick through a divider, so we leave. I tell him I have to go meet friends and we part ways.

I get to The Ritz and I’m pretty bored by it. I’m not sure why it’s so popular… They had a bunch of (straight) women there, and some political types pushing their candidates. The room in the rear is just dreadfully boring. The previous (and only other) time I had gone I wound up running into a guy I know who works in porn and we sat and chatted forever and I didn’t really notice how bad the space was. I went out to their back patio briefly but it was crowded with friends talking – not a good place for a person to stand by themselves.

Eventually my boyfriend got there, we shared a drink and then went to dinner. That means I had 5 1/2 pints of beer! Needless to say I was wasted and not feeling that great today…

Hopefully things can work out with filming and Johnny and I can fuck the tattooed Latin guy together…

If any of you are piss bottoms going to IML, definitely get in touch with me. I’ve only got so many cum loads in me, but piss I’ll have plenty of. I’d be a very happy man if all my piss went to good use while I’m there…

A week ago I hooked up with Marcelo Masko. You may know him from some of the Treasure Island videos he’s done – Fearless, Breeding Ian Jay, Loaded, Brad McGuire’s 20 Hole Weekend, and Sperm Bank. He’s also been in some Dick Wadd videos – Deep in the Hole and Soaked, Armed and Hammered (in both he’s a piss bottom). I think he told me he’s been in a total of 17 videos…

Anyway, I’ve fucked him on two occasions before. Once last May that went really well, and then at the end of August when my pills were working a bit too well. Thing was, I didn’t know he had done porn back then. Somehow I missed the videos he has been in, but then I saw one and asked him about it.

I’d been wanting to hookup with him again and we made plans for last Sunday. He was also game for getting it on videotape, so I brought my camera and tripod along. To me it was cool that I could finally videotape someone who didn’t mind their face showing. Not to mention that I think he’s a hot little pig… 

I get there and we set things up. It’s sorta weird, but to get light in from outside the blinds on the windows are open and people walking past on the street can see right in. But I put that out of my mind and just enjoyed myself… He had these plastic/rubber sheets he put on the bed, ’cause he likes his sex a bit messy. He had texted me right before I went over and told me to have lots of water ’cause he wanted to drink my piss. If you read this blog much you know I like piss bottoms…

The rest is pretty much shown in the video (it’s a pretty long video – 20 minutes and there’s another supplemental video coming, plus some other clips I may show later). It started off with him sucking my cock. At one point in there I’m fucking his mouth really slowly ’cause I’m actually pissing in his mouth.

Then we move to the bed and I rim him and fuck him. He had mentioned that he got fucked earlier in the day and took a load, but it turned out it was a massive load – my dick is just swimming in cum as I fuck him. It feels great. In fact he’s got so much in there it actually overflows while I’m fucking him and there’s a small puddle of it on the bed (which I lick up ).

[UPDATE: Marcelo has asked that I take down the video since he's in talks with a studio about going exclusive with them and doesn't want home made movies floating around out there...]

Here’s some supplemental footage of sucking and rimming that didn’t make it into the video above…

[Ditto]

All in all it was a good fuck. We fucked for a while and I fucked him pretty hard. [For those of you who keep asking for me to take my clothes off - you'll like the last bit of the video.] But the thing was I just couldn’t cum. There are a number of reasons but it boils down to me working too much. First, I’m jacking off these days just so I can concentrate and get work done. But jacking off frequently makes it more difficult to cum when I’m fucking. Plus there’s the stress and always feeling tired…

There’s more to this story, but I’m going to wait on telling that part… But I will say Marcelo and I ‘clicked’ (he’s a sweet guy) and I plan on hooking up with him in the near future.

And just as a shameless plug… If you want to hookup with Marcelo, you can hire him as an escort (see his ad on RentBoy.com). [UPDATE: He's not doing escort work any more either... Sorry.] As you may know from the videos – he’s a great top as well as a good raunchy bottom…

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I sorta felt like fucking someone today – been in a weird mood sexually the past few days. That research study I’m in asks about sexual desire in three different ways – 1) sexual interest, 2) sexual arousal, and 3) horniness. I never really thought about it in those terms, but they’re a good way to break it down. I mean there are times when I want to fuck someone (sexual interest), but I’m not all that horny and can’t necessarily get it up. Then there are times when I see things on line that get me hard, but don’t feel like going through the bother of hooking up…

Anyway, getting back to the story, today was one of those days when I had sexual interest, but intermittent sexual arousal and horiness. But I was still determined to fuck someone… There were a few possibilities on Adam4Adam and BarebackRT. One was too far away (Brooklyn), another was a bit flaky but I probably could have set something up, but there was this one black guy who had an incredible body who I really wanted to fuck, but he delayed things ’cause he was hooking up with two other guys who were going to give him loads. I figured a cummy hole and a great body were worth waiting for…

At one pointed he asked if I “partied” and I said ‘no’, but didn’t care if he did. I probably should have been more complete in my answer. I don’t really care if a bottom has been partying (provided they aren’t messy and distracted), but I don’t like it when they do it around me. It’s one thing if they do a quick snort of something, but completely different when it’s a whole complicated process.

So the guy shows up, he’s just as hot as his pics (which are incredibly hot). Muscular with zero body fat and a really thin waist. He gets naked and I start playing with his hole, but he wants to party a little first… OK, whatever – I figured he’d do something quick and we’d be on our way. But no, he pulls out a thing that looked like a little bong, the drugs, a lighter, and a little mini torch. It was all way too much. I put up with it just ’cause, I wanted to fuck and didn’t want to completely ruin the moment. I figured it would be over quickly, but it took forever…

When that was done we finally got down to business. He sucked my dick and then I fucked him on his back with his legs in the air. I could tell he wanted me in really deep. I had taken a pill and was really hard, so no problems there. But after fucking him for a while I couldn’t hold back and came in his ass. It didn’t seem like it had been that long so I didn’t let on that I had cum. I just rolled him over and kept fucking him and pounded him pretty hard.

The nice thing was there was a few times when I felt like I was really close to cumming a second time. In hindsight I probably should have faked an orgasm so he knew he got my load, but I didn’t… But he was definitely getting a good fuck.

Then he wanted to take a breather, but it turned out he wanted to smoke some more… UGH!!! At this point I started losing it. Despite having taken a pill, I wasn’t getting more than a chubby. When he was done I sucked on his nipples, and then we went into the shower and I pissed on him. But it completely lacked any chemistry and wasn’t all that hot at all.

He rinsed off and came back and I just wasn’t getting hard. I rimmed him a little, then had him suck my dick. That got me just hard enough to fuck him again which I did, and then he had me piss in his ass which was sorta hot (been a long time since I’d done that).

While he was cleaning up I got dressed. When he came out he saw me and said “Are you done” and I nodded. I was absolutely not going through another round of him smoking.

If he hadn’t been so hot it would have been a bad hookup, but he was hot (and a nice guy too) which meant it wasn’t all that bad, though I wouldn’t do it again (at least not that way).

The best part is his profile – “HIV negative” / “Safe Sex Only”. Yet he spent all night last night PNPing with two guys, and apparently had two more give hm loads before he came to me. He needs to learn to be uninhibited without the drugs…