Last night I was supposed to fuck this hot mid-20s skinny guy who rarely ever (if ever) barebacks - a fan who I keep running into at bars - first he saw me at the Gym like a week ao, then I saw him at the Eagle this past Sunday at Beer Blast… Thing was he doesn’t want to travel up here, and can’t host, so the blogger “Bingity Bang” (who took his blog down a while ago) had agreed to host us, but then the guy canceled ’cause he wasn’t sure he could make it… On top of it all, I managed to piss off Bingity Bang ’cause I just sent a message on Manhunt and didn’t call him. He had been checking Manhunt a lot earlier in the day… And personally I hate unnecessary calls and texts on my cell. Oops…

So then I was looking for someone else to fuck. This black 19 y.o. had an ad on Craigslist saying

black neg. d/d free bottom looking for a gl white raw neg. d/d free top. who can make my ass drip of his seed. send a pic or number in first email. im looking for now cant host must travel. older white a +++

So I contacted him and he was interested. Then right as we were making plans for him to come up he asked if I’d fuck him with a condom - he’d never barebacked before and was nervous. I told him ‘no’ and tried to reassure him that I was just a pretty regular guy… That seemed to work and he said he was coming up, but he never actually showed up. That was really too bad. I so wanted to be the first guy to seed his hole.

Even though I sorta half expected him to flake out, the problem was I had taken a couple pills. Now I had a hardon and no hole to fuck. I start chatting with this young, mid-20s, bareback top who lives near me - he was looking as well.

In the middle of that I was chatting with the bottom who I had hooked up with who likes golden showers. He said it turned him on that I thought he’d be back taking loads - that I was so certain about it. Encouraging him to do it without really pushing him to do it…

Anyway, even though I had a raging hardon, I had to break for dinner (with my bf and a neighbor). When I was done I looked some more and talked some more to the young top. One guy was online who was a possibility - I had fucked him once before, and then gone over to his place to fuck a bottom he was fucking… He’s one of the tops I had contacted the other night when the blindfolded bottom wanted more tops. Since he knew I was into blindfolded pump-and-dumps he asked if he could be blindfolded. I said sure and said I had another top who might want to come over. He was game, so I IM’d the top and he was game as well…

The top and I met in the subway station and headed over. We got there and the door was unlocked. We went up to his bedroom and he’s there on all fours in tighty whities that have a hole ripped in them showing his hole. I get down on my knees and rim his hole while the other top took off some of his clothes…

After getting nice and hard I started fucking the bottom (the young top wasn’t ready)… My dick was pretty big at this point - I had a cockring on and the pills were doing their job. The only problem was the bottom’s hole was a little high for my dick and he didn’t get the suggestion when I tried to pull his ass towards me (which since he was on all fours would have lowered his ass). So it was a little awkward, but OK…

I fucked him for a while, but given the imperfect position, when the young top got hard, I was fine with giving him use of the bottom’s hole. There was a little bit of odor when I pulled out, but I didn’t think too much of it. He wasn’t perfectly clean, but wasn’t all that dirty either…

While the young top was fucking the bottom, I figured I’d fuck his face. I didn’t really give too much thought to the fact that my dick wasn’t perfectly clean. Most bottoms I’ve fucked lately would just clean off my dick. But this guy was versatile, not a sub bottom, and in hindsight giving him a slightly dirty dick to suck was a bad idea.

The two of us filled him from both ends for a bit, but then as soon as we stopped to change positions, he got up, took off the blindfold and ran into the shower to clean out some more… So much for him not seeing the other top…

After that point the hookup was sorta weird. He tried to put everything back in order by almost jumping into place on the bed and throwing his legs in the air in a “let’s start again” sorta way… I rimmed him and then fucked him. But things just weren’t the same. It wasn’t an anonymous pump-and-dump anymore…

The young top had told me before we went that he was tired and not sure how well he was going to perform. Several times he’d get hard enough to fuck, and then lose it. That was sorta my story as well that night, though I was doing better than the young top… I probably fucked the bottom on and off a half dozen times, but none of them lasted very long, and I didn’t feel like I was even close to cumming any of those times.

After the bottom came, we sorta wrapped it up and went home. It’s too bad it didn’t go a little better.

I’m wondering whether eating dinner had some effect. The time I organized a gangbang I had a heavy meal, took some pills, and then couldn’t get very hard. This time I took pills, had a fairly moderate meal, and then had so-so results. And there are also other times when I have eaten and taken pills and had issues… So I’m thinking that’s a bad combination… Or maybe it’s just eating before hooking up - I’m not sure…

So I’m hoping I have time tonight to get to Matt & Dan’s gangbang… It should make up for last night, but I’ve got some other stuff that might conflict with me going…

Load 2008-26

This past week (or two) has felt pretty sparse sexually. Too often I just haven’t felt in the mood to fuck - mostly ’cause I’ve been busy with work. I even worked all weekend on a project I’ll tell you about in a couple days…

Saturday morning the guy who has the nice townhouse contacted me on BarebackRT and asked if I wanted to come over. I sorta felt like it, but Saturdays are weird for me. I tend to wake up with a hardon, but then lose my sex drive a few hours later. So I put him off… But Sunday evening (yesterday), I really just needed to at least try to cum. He was online, so I contacted him again. He said he had a bottom coming over and asked if I wanted to fuck the bottom with him. I said sure so he told me to head over. The weird part was I didn’t know who the bottom was when I actually left the apartment. I was just trusting that he’d have a decent bottom.

I was running a little late and then had trouble finding parking so I got there about 20 min late. As I walk up to the building I see a guy waiting outside. I figured he was the bottom. He said “hi” and I returned the hello, but I was generally busy texting the host to tell him I was there. The door swung open and the bottom went in and the host indicated I should wait outside. OK… Chances are he hadn’t told the bottom about me…

I wait for about 10 minutes and then figure things weren’t going to work out, so I try out Manhunt on my cell phone, but every time I try to send an e-mail to someone I get a timeout. I give up and wait a little longer. Finally at the 20 minute mark I’m a bit cold, but need to kill some time, so I give up, and walk into Central Park which is a couple blocks away. When I’m in the park for just a couple minutes I get a text asking if I left. Followed by another one that’s really apologetic for how long he had me waiting… I text back that I’m still close by and head back in that direction.

When I get back to the townhouse he’s left the door ajar and I walk in. When I get to the bedroom he’s got the bottom positioned on the bed ass just waiting to get fucked. He’s kissing the bottom and it’s clear the bottom isn’t going to be looking back to see who I am (even though he saw me outside, I’m not sure what he’s been told or whether he knew it was me at that point). I’m sorta hard, but kneel down to rim the bottom’s ass. I should mention the bottom was looking really good - great ass, lean, sorta lightly muscular body… His ass was a bit hairy, but he had a nice hole…

There wasn’t any lube lying around so when I was done rimming him I just spit on my dick and shoved in. He took it like a champ and within seconds I realized lube wasn’t necessary - he had the host’s load in him - and it must have been a fairly big load too. The hole felt all silky and wonderful - the way the Brazilian’s ass should have felt if he really had had 6 loads in him the other day. (Why can’t all bottoms have asses filled with cum?)

Even though his hole was all silky and wonderful I didn’t cum right away. The host had started off kissing the bottom - keeping him looking forward, not back at me, but then he switched and had the bottom suck his dick. After a while I was finally about to cum, and the host went back to kissing the bottom while I unloaded in the bottom’s ass.

I could tell from the scene that I was just there to breed the bottom and leave, so I just shoved my dick back in my pants (never did take off any clothes), and then I left… The bottom never did look back to see who I was.

After I got home I got messages from both the host and the bottom. The bottom was actually someone I had fucked before - a quickie pump-and-dump last fall. Since I had spent less than 8 minutes with him back then - most of it looking at his back while I fucked him, I guess I can be excused for not recognizing him when I saw him on the street. Given how emotionless and matter-of-fact the last hookup had been with him, this hookup was pretty much just par for the course - probably perfect in his eyes - though he did seem to have a connection with the host.

It had been a while since I’d done a real pump-and-dump. While I wish I hadn’t had to wait, it was still a really good hookup. Though it is a bit weird that the bottom was someone I’d fucked before…

Load 2008-22

My apologies it’s been 10 days since I last fucked someone… Life’s been pretty busy…

A guy was supposed to come over after work last night to do a 3-way with my bf and me, but he didn’t show up. It’s not the first time plans with him have fallen through, so it didn’t surprise me when he didn’t show up. The guy I’ve fucked a couple times before - the one who’s a bit nervous and neurotic - had been e-mailing me pretty consistently since the last time we hooked up. He’d even e-mailed that morning. So when the other plans fell through I e-mailed him and then when I didn’t hear anything, I texted him. Immediately I get a call and he said he’d be over in a half hour. He could tell my bf was around and asked how many guys he’d be servicing. I said it would just be me since my bf had already jacked off after the first guy didn’t show up. For getting a text out of the blue he was immediately ready. Sorta felt like I was ordering pizza or something (”be there in under 30 minutes or your pizza’s free”)…

True to his word he was over here really quickly. In the meantime my bf had seen his pics and was interested in fucking him. When he got here I asked him if he was up for playing with my bf as well, and his response was like a little kid (even though he’s in his upper 40s) “OK, sure…” He then followed it up by “Is he neg?”

He stripped off his clothes, asked if he should keep his jockstrap on (I said yes), and he got on his knees and started sucking my dick. You could tell he was hungry for dick, but it wasn’t the best blowjob. After a while I turned him over to my bf and he sucked my bf’s dick while I played with his hole. His hole was all puffy - so I’m guessing he was playing with dildos when I called…

We then switch places and he’s sucking my dick again and this time my bf gets on his knees behind him and starts fucking him. Even though my bf had cum earlier, he was rock hard (which is typical for him)… We do that for a while and when my bf pulls out we reposition and this time I fuck him… We get him on the bed legs up, I spit on my dick and shove in. As usual, he’s a good bottom - takes my dick easily…

I gotta back up a little bit and say he’s been doing poppers almost constantly since he started sucking our dicks. So he asks my bf to administer the poppers. The problem was it wasn’t an easy task since he didn’t have his head turned to the side. My bf tried, but at one point he managed to spill a little bit of poppers on him and it ran into his eye. You can imagine how that would have felt. Everything stopped. We ran to the bathroom I got a handful of water, rand back to the bed and basically poured the water into the guy’s eyes. Then my bf followed up with a wet towel. The good news was that pretty quickly the crisis was over and I had my dick back up his ass…

I then flipped him over onto his belly (he could control the poppers himself in that position), and continued to fuck him until I came. It had been a few days since I had cum (yes, I jacked off - I know I shouldn’t waste my cum, but…) so I gave him a nice big load. When I was done my bf went back to fucking him, the guy was literally begging for another load, but since my bf had jacked off earlier, he couldn’t cum.

The weird part about this guy is that he’s really nervous and scattered. I tried to be affectionate with him as he dressed, but he didn’t respond. He was still really sweet and eager to please, but there’s a chemistry that’s lacking with him… In a way it would be really convenient to have him over on a regular basis since he’s up for serving me and my bf, but I think my bf wants more of a “connection” with the guys he fucks - he wants kissing, and eye contact, cuddling, stuff like that… So we’ll see if we do a repeat…

Load 2008-5

On my way to the gym last night I did a stop over to fuck the latin guy I first fucked 10 years ago. The door was ajar so I let myself in. I figured he’d be in the bedroom ass up or something. When I got to the bedroom I found him legs up, getting nailed by this beefy white guy. I love sluts, so the fact that this guy wanted me to see him getting fucked by someone else was hot.

I took off my clothes and joined them. Didn’t want to bother the other top so climbed on the bed and offered my dick to the bottom. He sucked it a little, but was being a good bottom and paying attention to the top who was fucking him. Incidentally the top was using a condom, which was too bad, but whatever…

Now I gotta tell you what the bottom looked like. I’ve known him for a long time and even though we haven’t fucked as often as we should have, I’ve seen him around the neighborhood a fair amount. Last night he was all tanned and dark with a nice tan line. He’s got a hot little body, a huge dick for a guy his size, and has always had a lot of tattoos, but he seemed to have more last night and I think it was because he had had full back wings put on… Given that we haven’t taken off our clothes and fucked in a bed for a long time (mostly parks and bathrooms), it has been a while since I’d seen him naked and I definitely liked what I saw…

The other top had to leave or something but hadn’t cum, which was too bad ’cause I was at least hoping to use the cum from the condom for lube… As he pulled out his dick I saw his dick was pretty small - the condom was like a loose bag on it… The bottom made a little small talk with him and then the guy left. The bottom then told me the other top was a “kid” from his building and this was the first time the kid had been there when someone else was around.

He then proceeded to sit on my dick, then we swapped positions with him on his stomach (my favorite position with little guys). You gotta realize - I’m a bit smitten with this guy - always have been - so fucking was really easy - he’s totally my type…

We switched again - this time with his legs in the air… His eyes were shut most of the time and he seemed to just want to concentrate on the sensation of getting fucked. The nice part for me was he was small enough that I was hitting bottom when I fucked him. I love this with little guys… With some I even get into the “2nd sphincter” - feels really good to me and incredibly intense for the bottom, but bottoms often don’t clean that far so it can be messy…

Then all of a sudden he says “you’re going to make me cum”… I look down and his big 8 1/2 inch uncut dick is spurting cum all over his belly… I stop for a second - pull out 1/2 way, scoop up his cum, wipe it on my dick and continue… Felt really good having cum for lube…

He was having a hard time taking it after he came, so while I had just been enjoying the fuck, I concentrated a little more on getting things done and cumming in his ass - which I did a minute or two later…

We chatted a little, I got dressed and then I was off to the gym…

[If only I could keep this pace up all year... 7 fucks, 5 loads in 17 days - spread over a year would be about 140 fucks and 100 loads... Something will get in the way and slow me down, but it would be nice. I know those numbers would seem high to some people, but they really aren't all that high. A guy I've fucked before is going to Mid-Atlantic Leather (MAL) today. Last year he says he got 110 loads in his ass over the weekend at MAL - those are high numbers though I don't really believe the guy (another friend says MAL is 99% bottoms and getting loads isn't all that easy) - I'm pretty tame by comparison... I am seriously considering going to IML this year (made hotel reservations just in case) - so that might kick the numbers up a bit and help make up for slow times... Hopefully this will be a really good year for me sexually...]

This morning I was looking at XTube - I knew I shouldn’t cum, but I felt it building and figured I’d just let it happen ’cause I wasn’t planning on hooking up today.

Fast forward to this afternoon. My bf and I got home, I had to run to the bank and then I came home and collapsed in bed and tried to take a nap. Then my bf came in and asked if a guy we’d both fucked before could come over - and do a 4 way with 3 tops - he had a Puerto Rican guy who wanted to join us - and he wanted to get 3 loads in his hole. When I hooked up with him he had wanted to get tagged by me and my bf, but my bf hadn’t been in the mood. Then another time my bf had hooked up with him when I wasn’t in the mood… Since then there have been a few times when he wanted to hookup, but only seemed to want to if he could get fucked by more than just me and my bf… This guy seems to love to be a gangbang bottom. Keep in mind that he seems like he’s in the closet and when I hooked up with him in May he said he’s never been fucked by more than one guy at a time…

But the really amazing thing was my bf - that he was trying to set up a scenario where the guy could get three loads in his ass… Needless to say, I was fine with it, though I was regretting that I had cum this morning…

So the bottom and the other top arrive. The top was attractive, looked late 20s (but was actually early 30s), looked more middle-eastern than latin… The bottom looked nerdy as ever

Every one stripped down, I ate out the bottom’s ass - he had a nice hole to eat… There wasn’t any oral - just sorta jacking off going on… The latin guy tried to fuck him but it hurt too much, so my bf (who’s smaller) started him off by having him sit on his dick while he was sitting on the side of the bed. Then he stood him up, bent him over the bed and fucked him properly. The latin guy fucked him next - legs in the air. Then I took a shot at his ass. It felt nice, silky and warm… I sorta felt like I might be able to cum, but I didn’t push it since I wanted to fuck him when he had two loads in him (I’ve been craving bottoms with loads in them lately)…

Then we did another round - my bf came, the other guy came, but when it was my turn I put him on his belly, but since I’d come earlier I couldn’t really cum. I gave him a good fuck, and I think he might have thought I came - not that I faked it or anything, but it might have seemed like I came by the way I ended it. I probably should have cum in the first round or had him change positions so it would be easier to cum…

So everyone left happy, and I got my dick in a raw hole again… But I really gotta stop jacking off…

Load 2007-24

There’s this guy in our general neighborhood who’s been wanting to hookup up with me for a few years - I think since sometime in 2005. At first it was when my bf and I wanted to do a 3-way, but the guy was into some serious kink and my bf didn’t trust him when he said he was neg. But over the years his ads always say he’s neg and that he’s looking for neg tops, so I’ve come to believe him when he says he’s neg… My bf still doesn’t trust him - but I think it’s ’cause my bf likes guys who are more vanilla…

So yesterday he contacts me (always calls me SIR - something I really like about him), but he starts throwing a few “issues” in…

i got pissed on and cummed on last night and my master isnt letting me shower yet… is that a problem for u SIR?

my master also made me write faggot cock on my cock with a marker SIR. and he asked that i get a mark on my right butt cheek for each top that uses me today

Needless to say none of that was a problem!

Problem was he couldn’t host and I didn’t want to bring him around my bf (even though my bf said I could hook up with him if I wanted to). So he tries to find a another top to host. The first two fall through, but he finally finds one, but says he has to leave right then… Meanwhile I had made plans to hook up with this hot little 22 y.o. latin bb bottom I’d found on Craigslist, but he hadn’t responded to my e-mail when I sent directions and asked him to confirm. Since he didn’t respond I figured what the fuck and told the submissive guy I’d join him…

Since he was a bit stinky with dried piss and cum, I figured I didn’t need to shower (though I did wipe up “down there” so I wasn’t too rank…) So I just dressed went out, found a cab, picked him up on the way. He looked pretty much like his pics, but rougher - probably from not showering. He was just wearing a hoodie and jeans. You could tell he didn’t have anything else on (other than shoes, of course). Even though the cabbie could see him really easily, as soon as he got into the cab he started unbuttoning his jeans and he showed me his cock which had writing on it. You could tell he was really proud of it…

When we got to the building I realized I hadn’t asked anything about the top. He just says “he’s hot” - that didn’t tell me much of anything, but whatever… He also said his master had him hook up with the same guy the night before. The buzzer wasn’t working, so he calls the top and he comes down to let us in. He’s a 30-something latino ‘papi’ - decent enough looking…

We get to the apartment and the bottom strips down and you can now clearly see FAGGOT COCK written on his dick. The other top puts a cheap leather collar and leash on him and gives him a silly little black thong to wear. Whatever… It’s his place and I’m not calling the shots - just there to enjoy some nice raw hole…

The other top has him suck his dick, I start playing with his hole (the bottom is on all fours with the other top sitting on the bed). I rim him for a while. I could smell a muskiness and then remembered he had been covered in piss and cum the night before and hadn’t showered. The smell reminded me of the guy I had fucked after pissing in his hair… It was a wonderful musky smell… The way a good pig should smell…

Since I had one of those spongy rubber cock rings in my jeans, I pull it out put it on and then go to fuck him. I’m not totally hard, but that usually doesn’t stop me from getting in a guy’s ass…

The other top says “You need to put on a rubber to fuck him - he doesn’t play raw.” I just say, “Yes he does” and keep shoving my dick in his ass. The other top may be calling the shots for the bottom, but not for me… But the bottom has a really tight hole and I’m not getting in. The other top then pulls the bottom off his dick and asks him “You play raw boy?” “Yes sir” was the answer. The other top shrugs and I continue trying to get my dick in the bottom’s ass.

Then I figure my cock ring is making my dick too thick (that seems to be the general effect), so I take it off. Rim his hole some more and get my dick up to half mast and try again. After a few attempts I’m just not getting it in.

We take a bit of a break and the other top has him get in the tub so we can piss on him. I start aiming for his mouth, but see the other top aiming for his chest, so I aim lower figuring he doesn’t like to drink piss. After we were done I notice the puddle of piss is dark yellow under where the other top was pissing - it was the really rank first piss of the morning.

The bottom is taken into the bedroom, a towel is put on the floor and he’s glistening with piss - really rank piss too… I play with his ass (don’t rim him - the piss is a bit rank). I figure I’m going to have to stretch him out so I put in my thumb, then two fingers… After a bit of that I try again and get it in this time… The bottom is still working on the other top’s dick…

I fuck for a while, but frankly it was a bit of a weird position and it took a while to figure out that it felt a lot better when his back was arched down, and not so great when he arched it up. Luckily he’s a good bottom who knows how to take a hint so all I had to do was push gently in the small of his back and when he was arched the right way say “yeah, that’s feels good” and he got the hint and pretty much stayed that way the rest of the time.

Then I smelled what I thought was a fart and pulled out a bit to find my dick had shit on it and there were a few drops of brown on the towel the other top had put down. I went into the bathroom to clean off my dick and went back into the bedroom.

Then the bottom went to clean up and I got to talk a bit with the other top. He mentioned that it was the bottom’s master who had set things up - I was surprised he had talked to the master since I never had. He was amazed the control the master had over him. From what he could tell the master whored him out every weekend - setting it up so he’d go around and get (ab)used by different tops. He thought the bottom was barebacking without his master’s permission ’cause the master had told him to use a condom if he fucked the bottom. I told him we had always talked about barebacking and I’d been talking to him for years now. He asked if I had found him through bear411.com and I say ‘no’ - that today we were chatting on Manhunt, but he had profiles on a bunch of other sites - he asked which ones - I said Adam4Adam, BarebackRT and he had posted something on Craigslist. The top was surprised about the bareback profile, but figured that sorta closed the issue of whether he played raw or not. I told him he’d always been really careful about only barebacking with neg guys and preferred total tops who got tested regularly.

The the top had to piss and since the bottom was in the bathroom already he went in and took a piss on the bottom. They came back and once again the bottom was covered in rank piss… I started playing with his hole again and then went back to fucking him. My knees were sore from being on the floor so much, but we got into a good groove (the bottom was still orally servicing the other top). After a while I could feel my orgasm building and then just came in his hole. Like usual these days it went on and on… It felt good. I told him “Good boy… Take my load…”

The room grew quiet and I caressed his back and kept repeating “Good boy, Good boy…” I’m not quite sure the other top expected me to give him a load. I just stayed in him while he kept sucking on the other top’s dick.

It was a few minutes before my dick got soft and I pulled out. Again, my dick had shit on it and there was “gunk” on the towel (more than last time). I went and cleaned up, came back and watched him serve the other top. Then the other top wanted to fuck him, he told the bottom to suck my dick, and went and got a rubber, took it out but didn’t put it on. He just rubbed his dick on the bottom’s ass and jacked off a bit. Then he went and got a dildo and started fucking the bottom with the dildo. I expected the dildo to come out covered in shit and cum, but it came out pretty clean.

After that they started kissing. It had been pretty clear the bottom was more into the other top than me the whole time - perhaps because they had made a connection the night before… I think they enjoyed having me there, but it was time for me to go. I put on my clothes and excused myself…

After I left I realized I hadn’t made a mark on his ass with a marker… I’d also meant for him to spend some time smelling my pits and hadn’t done that either (they had a really good, pungent smell that morning)…