So I was determined to make the most of tonight since I had some time to myself. This guy had made plans to come over like a week ago or so, but when I logged onto BarebackRT he had just logged off. So I looked around to see who else was available. This other Mexican guy who I’d been talking to for a while was available, so he said he’d come over, but he wanted to stop off and find some poppers.

Then the first guy got back to me and wanted to come over, so I was upfront and told him I double booked - could he come a little later. He was fine with it, so I had two set up for tonight… There were other guys who were interested, some pretty cute (including a 19 y.o. and a early 20s guy who wanted me to practically rape him), but I just logged off…

The Mexican guy called a few times ’cause he had a little trouble finding the hotel, but a little over an hour later he was at my door. He really was pretty hot. Sorta a young version of a man - very masculine and pretty reserved, though he stripped down pretty quickly.

As we started playing he wasn’t too keen on sucking my dick, but he liked getting his sucked (it wasn’t very big which is probably why he’s a bottom). He didn’t like to kiss, but he liked looking at me and “making a connection”. He was sorta a mass of contradictions

His hole was really nice - I rimmed it for a while and I could tell it has been fucked a fair amount and could take dick pretty easy. After getting it nice and wet I stood up, spit on my dick a bit and shoved in. He really could take it pretty well, and we fucked like that for a bit, but when I flipped him over he had a problem with taking it and wanted lube (that’s twice in a row that’s happened - weird).

So, long story short, we kept changing positions. It felt best when he was on his belly, but he didn’t seem to like that. He didn’t arch his back, so when he was on all fours or bent over the bed I couldn’t get in as well as I wanted to. And so I fucked him on his back (missionary position), and fucked him like that for a while, and I got close, but it just wasn’t rubbing my dick quite right, so I got tired before I was able to cum. When I slowed down he took it as I wasn’t going to cum, and he came himself (he’d been jacking his dick).

Once he had cum, I scooped up his cum and put it on my dick for lube, but he didn’t want to get fucked any more, so I stopped. We laid there for a few minutes and then he wanted to go. Apparently he only had an hour of parking…

All in all the chemistry was a little weird. Not exactly sure why. From how things went I think he thought it was my fault, and I’d probably say it was a bit his fault… He didn’t quite seem like he was totally into it and he didn’t seem hungry for my cum. But he was still a pretty good fuck…

So now the next guy will be here in about a half hour. Not sure if I’m going to post that right away or wait… I’ll need to pay for another day of Internet access to post it tonight, we’ll see… But at least I have another guy to fuck since I didn’t cum with this one…

I was sorta horny, sorta not today, but when this black guy with a hot body contacted me and he wasn’t that far away, I figured what the hell… His profile said “Neg, Safe Sex Only” and then repeated something about “safe fun” in his profile. That’s usually a warning sign to me that something’s going to go wrong, but he was hot, close by and easy to hookup with, so I asked if he was OK with bareback and when he responded with his address and phone number, I just went with it…

I took part of a pill, cleaned up and got ready, and walked over. It was a long walk, but it was perfect weather, so it was nice… When I got there he really was pretty hot. A perfect body, really dark skin that was a complete contrast to my pale skin, and he had very masculine qualities combined with pretty bottomy/sub/fem qualities and I sorta liked the weird mixture of it all…

We got naked and I was damp with perspiration - not sure if it was from walking over, the temperature of the apartment, or the pill making me flush and warm. He gave me this incredible blowjob and spent a lot of time on his knees servicing my dick and balls. He was definitely pretty submissive. But one thing I’ve noticed is that guys who don’t want to take loads in their ass try to make up for it with oral sex. I was starting to wonder…

We took a quick break and he ran into the living room and rummaged around and came back with some stuff. He apologized and said he didn’t have lube - would Vasiline be OK? Needless to say, it was fine with me - in fact things were sorta looking up at that point. He blew me some more and then lubed up his ass with Vaseline, but before he sat on my dick he pulled out a condom and opened it up. I think he saw the look in my face and said “you don’t like condoms?” I said “no” (of course) and he just tossed it aside and resumed sitting on my dick.

We fucked with him riding me, then with him on his back (half off the mattress he had on the floor), but he kept checking my balls when I was fucking him. I knew exactly what he was doing - he was checking to see when my balls pulled up so he could get me out of him before I blew my load. Thing was it was sorta the wrong position for me, so I wasn’t close to cumming.

When I pulled out there was a little smell and some shit on my dick (what is it with bottoms not getting clean these days?) So we took a break and I went into the bathroom to clean off my dick. Thing was he didn’t seem to have any soap and if you’ve ever tried to clean a dick with Vaseline with no soap you’ll know it’s not easy, but I got it as clean as I could.

He asked me how he could get me to cum and I said I didn’t know. He gave me another blowjob while I was standing up, then had me lay down and continued on. The blowjob went on for a while and his oral skills were really pretty good. Thing was I wasn’t completely hard ’cause I was realizing there was a good chance I wasn’t going to get my load in his ass. But he seemed completely content to suck on my dick and balls even if I wasn’t totally hard. And he was really cute down there

Then we laid down next to each other, and one thing led to another and soon I had him with his legs over his head and my raw dick back up his ass. At first he was jacking off furiously, then he relaxed and just let me fuck him.

I really wanted him on his belly, so I flipped him over and continued fucking him. This is when it felt the best and I really felt I could cum. But he kept acting like it was hurting him and wanted me to slow down. I could sorta tell he was just trying to avoid getting my cum in his ass. I tried my hardest to cum without going too fast, but the fact of the matter was I needed to just pound him for a little while to cum, but he wasn’t letting it get to that point.

Then he suggested we change positions and he rode my dick again (with his back toward me). He jacked off riding my dick until he came and then left my dick up his butt while he came down from his orgasm.

He seemed totally into me, and wants to hookup again. I’m up for it just ’cause he’s hot and I want to see if I can get my cum in that hot ass of his before he realizes I’m cumming and pulls off my dick. It feels like it’s a game - he’s playing me by seeing how much he can give me without actually getting my cum in his ass (and not actually telling me to not cum in him), and I’m playing him seeing if I can cum quickly and quietly before he realizes it…

Yesterday morning I was horny, my bf was out, and there was this Dominican guy, mid-20s, who wanted to come over and get fucked hard, so I had him over… I knew from his pics he was cute but a little “soft”, which was fine with me… His age, cuteness, submissiveness and the fact that he was Latino more than made up for the fact that he wasn’t skinny…

When he showed up he was pretty much just like his pics, I showed him into the bedroom, we stripped and got right down to business without anything meaningful being said. He started by giving me a blowjob, but I wasn’t really responding all that well to that - I had him turn around and started eating out his ass.

As usual that got me hard enough to fuck, so after I got his hole pretty wet with spit, I spit a little on the head of my dick, stood up and shoved in. He had told me that he hadn’t gotten fucked in like a month and he had a problem taking it with no real lube. I told him to just take it - that he had told me not to be gentle…

Eventually he got used to my dick, but by that time I was starting to lose it a little. I fucked him a little bit, but just couldn’t stay all that hard. I pulled out and he whipped around and cleaned off my dick with a blowjob. That part turned me on, but didn’t help me get hard again, so I went back to rimming. Suprisingly rimming wasn’t working for me either, so started fingering his ass…

Long story short (since there’s not much to tell). I got hard a few more times and fucked him as hard as I could. One time I got hard for a pretty long time, gave him a good fuck (finally), but just couldn’t cum. With that fuck he jacked off a little and came on the towel I had under him.

So he got what he wanted (though not quite as intense as he probably wanted), but I didn’t cum.

[BTW, he was the first guy in a long time to ask me if I was actually neg. Lots of guys say they're neg in their profiles, and just take what I say in my profile as truth (or don't care).]

The weird part was I was plenty hard before he came, and afterwards I nearly came watching a video of a twink get double fucked, and then just couldn’t hold back when I watched a video of this Latino twink orgy with cum literally pouring out of the bottom’s ass - so I came all over myself with that one. It was sorta disappointing - I wanted the load up his ass, not on my chest.

Now I’m just not really in the mood to fuck for some reason - and there’s another top in town visiting that I’d like to tag a bottom with - been blowing him off, ’cause I’m just not in the mood. Hopefully that will change today…

About a week ago this guy contacts me - young, mid-20s, cute in a boy-next-door sorta way. He says he saw me on XTube and then the blog and it’s his fantasy to suck and get fucked by a guy with a Price Albert, but he says he’s only been fucked once before and he’s probably pretty tight…

I was game, but pretty busy with work, so wasn’t until tonight that we could hookup. He seemed nervous and tentative. He was still online asking questions when he should have left - was wondering if it was OK with me if he had a little dick, and was wondering if he was loose enough - said he couldn’t get his butt plug all the way up his ass… But eventually I got him to come over…

He arrives and he’s cute - cuter than his pic… He wanted to use the bathroom - no problem… When he came out he didn’t seem to know what came next. We kissed a bit. I felt his chest and realized he had pierced nipples… Off came his shirt and I played with his nipple rings and we kissed some more.

For someone who said he wanted to suck a pierced dick he wasn’t exactly getting down on his knees very quickly… My pants were off, my dick was totally hard and throbbing. We got his pants off and I realized he had a pierced dick as well - only not a PA - a frenum instead. And he wasn’t kidding about his dick being little. My thumb was possibly bigger than his hard dick… But I like that - a lot, so no problem there…

Eventually I got him sucking my dick after warning him about how it would hurt if the ring hit his teeth. He gave it a shot, but as I found when I sucked a guy with a pierced dick - the reality isn’t the fantasy… I’ve only met a few guys who could really deal with sucking my dick when it had the ring in it and they’re usually top notch cocksuckers with tons of experience.

So I took out the ring and let him continue to suck my dick. Since he had said he had only been fucked once, and it was obvious he was never going to be a top, I figured he must be an oral bottom. But I started wondering about that too… It wasn’t a bad blowjob, it just wasn’t the blowjob you’d get from a serious oral bottom…

What I really wanted to do was fuck him. I had him sniffing poppers while he sucked my dick, and so I had him do some more poppers and then went to fuck him… Well, he wasn’t all that tight (thanks to the poppers and him stretching his ass before he came over), but he definitely wasn’t used to getting fucked either. He was really sensitive…

It took a while for him to get used to my dick. And even then I couldn’t tell how much I could do. I found that when I pushed in deep he had a real problem taking me. So I stayed pretty shallow, but that was hard to do ’cause I had him legs up with me over him and it was so easy to go in deep - and it felt so good. It was sorta fun to watch him squirm, but at the same time I didn’t want to do anything that would make him insist on stopping…

In the middle of fucking he sorta fessed up that this was the second time he’d ever had sex (not just anal - but any sex)… He’d been pretty conservative in the past and was breaking out of his shell. I came from a similar background and understood where he was coming from. When you’re repressed everything is a fantasy and those of us who start repressed tend to let it all go and be pretty uninhibited. It didn’t surprise me that he’d gone out and gotten his dick and nipples pierced. And it was almost funny that he comes out sexually by getting me, of all people, to fuck him… He wasn’t wading in the kiddie pool - he was jumping into the deep end… Getting a rough fuck by a top with a pierced dick and getting bred.

Since he seemed pretty loose I asked if he wanted me to fuck him with the PA and he said yes… So I put it back in and then shove the ring up his ass. We had been using a lot of lube and it went up pretty easy. Once it was in, I went to work and just used his hole and fucked him pretty rough. It actually wasn’t all that rough, but for him it was rough… And he seemed to be loving it - it was what he wanted. Then I moved around a bit and was fucking him not so deep so the ring would go in and out of his ass a bit.

At about this point he started hurting. I pulled out a bit and noticed some shit, but not much, so I shoved back in, but he really was hurting, and when I pulled out again he noticed the shit… I went into the bathroom, took out the ring and washed off my dick.

When I went back into the bedroom he was sorta embarrassed - he didn’t realize that this was sorta par for the course when you fuck with a PA - it goes in places a dick doesn’t usually go. I’ve had my PA come out covered in shit before - he just had a little bit…

So I went back to fucking him, but he was really distracted by the shit and kept saying “oh shit” (ironically enough)… His head just wasn’t into getting fucked and I think my semi-rough fucking roughed him up a bit and he was genuinely sore. He was grinning and bearing it, but it was painful for him and he couldn’t get past the pain.

Finally he said he had to stop. Bummer. I tried to keep it going, but it just wasn’t going to happen… We laid and talked for a bit. I played with his tiny dick, his pierced nipples, of course his hole…

His hole was actually pretty excellent. Since he had been stretching it, it was pretty loose - it was a genuine hole and so incredibly fuckable… Of course, I got hard again and wanted to fuck. I got on top of him and took his arms and held them above his head. He had this huge grin on his face and then it struck me what he wanted… He wanted to be force fucked - raped… I mean his whole face lit up when I was restraining him…

My dick was hard and right at his ass, so I got up, put a little lube on it and shoved back in and then went back to holding his hands up above his head. I could tell it hurt him (though I think it was mostly a mind thing), but he was enduring it and sorta enjoying it. Then I shoved in deeper and at that point he couldn’t take it.

Damn, I really just wanted to fuck him hard and breed him, but he just couldn’t take it…

Finally things sorta wrapped up… Hopefully he’ll come back for more - so I can finish off what I started…

Last night I was supposed to fuck this hot mid-20s skinny guy who rarely ever (if ever) barebacks - a fan who I keep running into at bars - first he saw me at the Gym like a week ao, then I saw him at the Eagle this past Sunday at Beer Blast… Thing was he doesn’t want to travel up here, and can’t host, so the blogger “Bingity Bang” (who took his blog down a while ago) had agreed to host us, but then the guy canceled ’cause he wasn’t sure he could make it… On top of it all, I managed to piss off Bingity Bang ’cause I just sent a message on Manhunt and didn’t call him. He had been checking Manhunt a lot earlier in the day… And personally I hate unnecessary calls and texts on my cell. Oops…

So then I was looking for someone else to fuck. This black 19 y.o. had an ad on Craigslist saying

black neg. d/d free bottom looking for a gl white raw neg. d/d free top. who can make my ass drip of his seed. send a pic or number in first email. im looking for now cant host must travel. older white a +++

So I contacted him and he was interested. Then right as we were making plans for him to come up he asked if I’d fuck him with a condom - he’d never barebacked before and was nervous. I told him ‘no’ and tried to reassure him that I was just a pretty regular guy… That seemed to work and he said he was coming up, but he never actually showed up. That was really too bad. I so wanted to be the first guy to seed his hole.

Even though I sorta half expected him to flake out, the problem was I had taken a couple pills. Now I had a hardon and no hole to fuck. I start chatting with this young, mid-20s, bareback top who lives near me - he was looking as well.

In the middle of that I was chatting with the bottom who I had hooked up with who likes golden showers. He said it turned him on that I thought he’d be back taking loads - that I was so certain about it. Encouraging him to do it without really pushing him to do it…

Anyway, even though I had a raging hardon, I had to break for dinner (with my bf and a neighbor). When I was done I looked some more and talked some more to the young top. One guy was online who was a possibility - I had fucked him once before, and then gone over to his place to fuck a bottom he was fucking… He’s one of the tops I had contacted the other night when the blindfolded bottom wanted more tops. Since he knew I was into blindfolded pump-and-dumps he asked if he could be blindfolded. I said sure and said I had another top who might want to come over. He was game, so I IM’d the top and he was game as well…

The top and I met in the subway station and headed over. We got there and the door was unlocked. We went up to his bedroom and he’s there on all fours in tighty whities that have a hole ripped in them showing his hole. I get down on my knees and rim his hole while the other top took off some of his clothes…

After getting nice and hard I started fucking the bottom (the young top wasn’t ready)… My dick was pretty big at this point - I had a cockring on and the pills were doing their job. The only problem was the bottom’s hole was a little high for my dick and he didn’t get the suggestion when I tried to pull his ass towards me (which since he was on all fours would have lowered his ass). So it was a little awkward, but OK…

I fucked him for a while, but given the imperfect position, when the young top got hard, I was fine with giving him use of the bottom’s hole. There was a little bit of odor when I pulled out, but I didn’t think too much of it. He wasn’t perfectly clean, but wasn’t all that dirty either…

While the young top was fucking the bottom, I figured I’d fuck his face. I didn’t really give too much thought to the fact that my dick wasn’t perfectly clean. Most bottoms I’ve fucked lately would just clean off my dick. But this guy was versatile, not a sub bottom, and in hindsight giving him a slightly dirty dick to suck was a bad idea.

The two of us filled him from both ends for a bit, but then as soon as we stopped to change positions, he got up, took off the blindfold and ran into the shower to clean out some more… So much for him not seeing the other top…

After that point the hookup was sorta weird. He tried to put everything back in order by almost jumping into place on the bed and throwing his legs in the air in a “let’s start again” sorta way… I rimmed him and then fucked him. But things just weren’t the same. It wasn’t an anonymous pump-and-dump anymore…

The young top had told me before we went that he was tired and not sure how well he was going to perform. Several times he’d get hard enough to fuck, and then lose it. That was sorta my story as well that night, though I was doing better than the young top… I probably fucked the bottom on and off a half dozen times, but none of them lasted very long, and I didn’t feel like I was even close to cumming any of those times.

After the bottom came, we sorta wrapped it up and went home. It’s too bad it didn’t go a little better.

I’m wondering whether eating dinner had some effect. The time I organized a gangbang I had a heavy meal, took some pills, and then couldn’t get very hard. This time I took pills, had a fairly moderate meal, and then had so-so results. And there are also other times when I have eaten and taken pills and had issues… So I’m thinking that’s a bad combination… Or maybe it’s just eating before hooking up - I’m not sure…

So I’m hoping I have time tonight to get to Matt & Dan’s gangbang… It should make up for last night, but I’ve got some other stuff that might conflict with me going…

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This bottom contacted me this weekend and really wanted to hookup with me. He had contacted me 18 months ago when I posted a Craigslist ad. Back then he really wanted to hookup as well, but didn’t want to take my load. So I filed him away in the “not ready” folder. Then he contacts me about 6 months later - still interested, but it doesn’t happen. Then he contacts me again this past January, and then this weekend. This guy knew what I was about and really wanted to hookup with me…

So tonight he asks if I can travel to Flatiron area, I check with my bf and head over. If you know Manhattan you know getting from Washington Heights to Flatiron takes a good 45 minutes, possibly more. I hurry as much as I can since he’s “staying late at work” to hookup with me.

That’s the other thing I forgot to mention - the guy has a boyfriend and the boyfriend thinks he’s hard at work (on the weekends, late at night, etc.)… When actually the guy has a private office and has people in to have sex…

Anyway, I get outside the building and my cell phone doesn’t have a signal for some reason and I have to call up to find out where he is in the building. Finally I get through and go up. He’s got this somewhat cute, but cramped corner office which is very private.

I unzip and put on one of those soft rubber cockrings. He seems to think it’s weird that I’m not taking off all my clothes, but getting my boots off is just too much trouble…

He’s described himself all sorts of different ways over the years, “Asian”, “Asian/Spanish”, but he looks like a Pacific Islander - nice beefy body - muscular with a bit of beef to him… Not a bad guy to hookup with…

So he gets on his knees and starts sucking me off. I’m nice and hard thanks to the cock ring and having taken a couple pills before leaving. He seemed to just want to suck, but I wanted to move it on to fucking, so I convinced him to let me rim him.

I bend him over a table and start eating out his ass. Nice ass - and he started really getting into it. He actually sorta leaned back into me, which makes it a little difficult for me since I need to come up for air to breathe. So I balance his weight with my hand so I’m able to pull my head away for air…

Things were looking good so far… Mind you he’s jacking his dick the entire time. I’m so hard I don’t even need to touch myself.

I get up, put some spit on his hole and some on my dick and shove in. He had told me it was a while since he’d been fucked and he seemed really tight. I can’t really get in the first or second try, but the third try I get in and just hold him there so he can get used to my dick.

But then the fucker cums and pulls off my dick. After the history with him not wanting to take my load I knew exactly what he had just done. It’s titillating for him to think about getting fucked raw and taking loads, but still, after 18 months, he’s not ready to do it. UGH…

I used his cum to lube up my dick, and tried really hard to convince him to let me fuck him. He asked if I’d fuck him with a condom. “No.” Then, after cleaning his cum off my dick with a paper towel, he got down on his knees and started blowing be again. He didn’t get that I wasn’t going to give him an oral load. I’ve come with blow jobs less than a handful of times in my life and one of those I was paid… I wasn’t going to do it with him after a bait-and-switch.

I’m pissed. I pull up my pants and leave. I should have said something pretty rough to him. If anything guys like that make me want to reveal their identities… But I’m a good guy and don’t (though there are plenty of clues in the description above)…

So then I start wondering who I could text to get a quick hookup. I try a cumhole I’ve been wanting to hookup with for a while, but he’s not available. I try another guy who I’m not sure who he is, but it’s a non-working number. Finally I settle on the guy I fucked the other day - the one who wanted to get an oral load… He had been hitting me up since then for another round. I knew he wanted an oral load, but would take it up the ass.

I get to his place and like before he drops to his knees in the hallway, just inside the door. The guy is an excellent cocksucker. At first I was worried I wasn’t going to get hard enough, but in no time he was choking on my dick. It was fun - I’d go from thrusting into the back of his throat, to holding him on me seeing how long he could take my dick down his throat…

The pig just loves to suck cock and he’s one of the best cocksuckers I’ve had in a while. It went on forever and at one point he said something about trying to get me to cum down his throat. What was so not going to happen - especially not after the first guy.

Eventually I start telling him I want to fuck him and feeling up his ass. It takes a while, but he gets the message. After sticking it in his ass in the hall briefly we move to the bed where he gets on all fours and I push him down on his stomach.

Besides being a good cocksucker the guy is super skinny - like emaciated. I sorta like guys like that, so it didn’t take me long to cum (especially not after the good blow job). The orgasm was sorta weird. I felt it coming, and felt like I was “leaking”, but it didn’t come, didn’t come, and finally sorta came. Then when I finally stopped it really came. Whatever - he got his ass flooded…

I then spent a few minutes slowly pumping in and out of his cummy hole. Felt really good… Then I turned him on his side and held him (in case he wanted to cum)…

It’s weird with him - in some ways he’s my type, in other ways he’s not. When he wanted to kiss (more than a peck on the lips), I tried to make it clear I didn’t want to. When he persisted, I said I had to go…

I washed off my dick, put on my pants and boots, and left…

At least the evening wasn’t a total wash out…